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 Its this Time Again... 9/9/15

Well..that's it...is this time again.  Everyone has done their part and done the best they could.  The rest is up to Him and we pray and pray for it.  

3 consecutive hours with them during the last Sat - non stop talking really ended up bisu after that.  Nevertheless, it is a very blessed and interesting journey with them. Thanks to all the children and parents for giving me this honor and pleasure to walk thru this path with u guys...a zillion thanks ya from the bottom of my heart.

ALL THE BEST YA CHILDREN!!! U CAN DO IT!

One down...two more to go....phew =p

There is a few quotes that I love to read again and again and it really touches my heart: 

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does He gives them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God gives him courage, or does He gives him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings or does He gives them opportunities to love each other?" - Morgan Freeman (as God) in the movie Evan Almighty

"Everyone knows they are going to die, but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently" - The late Dr. Richard Teo.

You should read about this man....Dr. Richard Teo a Singaporean ...a doctor..rich millionaire by the age of 40..the first ever to own a Ferrari in sg..but of cos..God has a better plan for him...go read his story....www.richardteo.com.

"Whether you have a Maruti or a BMW, the road remains the same.  Whether you travel economy class or business, your destination doesn't change.  Whether you have a Titan or a Rolex, the time is the same.  Whether you have Apple Samsung or Lava, people who call you remains the same.  There is nothing wrong in dreaming a luxurious life.  What needs to be taken care of is to not let the NEED become GREED. Because needs can always be met..but greed can never be fulfilled" - Rajinikanth (A Tamil famous actor)

Interesting ya? A lot of things going on...well..that's y ..the best is trust in the Lord..trust in the prayer.  

It has been very very bz indeed till I don't really have much time for anything. But I do realise that whenever this time is over..it always feeling empty and miss them a lot. Aiii....although life may be getting better now in a certain way..but if given a choice.. I will very much prefer a simple life whereby we live day by day just on a simple way nia and simple mind set.  Driving a simple small car....having a simple meal on a simple and small table whereby after meal, we have to clear and clean up the place immediately and convert it into our sleeping area.

It may be a small and crowded place but that gave us the sense of closeness and whereby we still have much time to play with our angels and with nothing much around all we have are just ourselves our stupid actions and stupid jokes.  But the least is we are closer and much happier.  At least - that's how I feel....Although our meals may be consisting of the same food day in and day out...same small portion and same area..a plate of kolo mee is already much a joy to us and a walk at the Main Bazaar is already entertaining and a joyful trip for us...but I guess..it is much happier and free then.  No obligation.....no much of struggle and not much of responsible.  Indeed what the movie spider man said is true "Great power comes with great responsibility".  It is not that we have any power or what..but indeed at a certain time, how we wish we can just stop..ponder for a while and spend more time with our loves one.  Seeing them growing up..do things together.  

I believe that..if we go around and asked those who had been working for ages....it will comes to a point that everyone will certainly agree to this - when you just started working (at the age of 20++).....ringgit and sen is everything.  But as you are in the mid of 30+++ ...family is your everything....when you are coming to 40+++ then your family and health is everything.  In every stages of life - the way we view things may change and our priority will be affected as well......after these few years.....I guess I need to readjust and reset my priority a bit.........keep my fingers cross and see how lah ya.  Pray that God will show me the way that He wants me to be..which I think...it should be lah....pray...=)

 Begin Liao... 11/7/15

Its another year of sleepless nites seasons liao....kin tio ah..the time whereby you have to battle it through with the children of 12, 15 and 17 years old.  Really kin tio.....Pray for strength and wisdom to pull thru..... Pray that the children will do well too.....that's most important thing......=)

Because of HIM... 24/6/15

Actually for the past 2 years and till now..life has been a real roller coaster for me.  And in fact, there were more downs side than the ups side. 

1)     Once a trust is broken, especially by someone that is the dearest and the one that you trust the most in your life, then it is like all hell break loose and nothing can compensate for it at all.  No matter how much $$$ u have..and how so called big and wide is ur love…that’s the end of everything.  If I am not mistaken there was a saying….It takes years to build up trust but only a second to destroy it. 

2)     Worst, people surrounding you seemed to be mocked and shunned at the incident and it was just like totally hopeless and helpless. 

3)      Devastating news of someone that you care for went home to see the Lord.  Yup, seeing the Lord is a good thing right?  But actually it is an agony for the person who is still around on the earth.  Worse………I only know the news when I turned on my FB on the 25^th  Dec 2014 as I am the type that I don’t like any of those social media at all.  As I rarely accessed to it, didn’t realise that one of my very close friend has passed away @ returned to the Lord on the 23^rd Dec 2014.  To make it worst – my last msg to this dear friend of mine was “Whey..are u still alive or dying soon?” That was the last msg I sent to him but still with no further reply or anything.  Whereby this fren of mine is the one that always like to be sarcastic.  Me – as a close friend ya???? I don’t even know that this friend of mine was battling with lymphoma cancer since March 2014. And now still keep in touch with the elder brother – actually it hurt us even more.  Half year had passed….but everyone still feel the deep scar……….especially all the friends in Kuching and Penang…..What kind of friend am I???

4)      Another very close friend’s dad – also returned home to the Lord this year.  During the time this friend of mine struggle with this situation, I don’t even know what to do and how to help as a friend.  Again – I felt so useless and so small.  I really really don’t know who to encounter this situations as I had seen tooo many people passed away for the last few months and then…..all with the same cause – cancer. And my dad passed away due to lung cancer when I was six.

Everyday..no matter what I do or where do I go..I went with a smile on my face whereby I sometimes do hope I can shed some tears to let all these thots and feeling out.  But unfortunately…in life – we have to be strong.  Things collapse easily if we start to show sign of weakness and meek.  Wonder woman ya?  I may look strong not becos I am strong..I am strong becos I have God in me.  HE is my strength and my wisdom…………..in HIM I find peace, love and a way to be out from everything.  Thank God for this life…………………….sad…………..but still…………….one must learn to be contented and count our blessing ya? Aiiiii…………..

Morning Greeting... 18/5/15

6.30 am in the morning - received a sms - something like this:

"I am not happy that my B haven't write karangan for so long..whereby you promised me that you will try to help B improve in - karangan......so how is it now?"

And the next thing I know - the phone ring..it was from that person that sent me the above text...let's call this person as Z.

Z certainly sounds not happy and started to voice out - concern.  So after listening to Z for a few minutes..then I started to explain:

This is the summary of my explanation:

1st : I see B only once a week whereby B sees the teacher in school everyday.  By rite - the teacher in school should has more chance to guide and polish B in karangan comparatively to me which only see B once a week and only last for 2 hours some more.  Plus there is other children in the class which is certainly not fair if I put my 100 percent concentration on B only...what about other children then?

2nd : There are so much to learn and so much to catch up.  Assuming there is five weeks in a month (we don't say 4 weeks lah ya).  1st week do A, 2nd week - do B, 3rd week do C, fourth week do D and by the fifth week (itupun if got five weeks in a month as not every month has five weeks) then baru rotate back to do A again and then that how it goes.  I cant just do A or B or C all the time as some children may be weak in A..some may be in B and so on.  If I just keep on catering to Children B's needs only what about other children later?  They need to improve on all parts and not just one sections.  What will other parents think later?

3rd : When one learn language - writing alone is not sufficient.  If one don't learn the correct structure and vocabs/words for it..what is the point? How to do a good write up if one cant even construct sentence and understand the correct grammar or vocab for it?  But on the same time  - if one don't learn how to write , what's the point of learning all the words and yet can't or don't know how to apply it?  That's y everything must be balance.

4th : Before Z said something - please look carefully at the latest exercise that I gave. The exercise that was done was not just merely understanding the meaning - but it teach them the skill.  The skill of being able to identify what grammar and vocab that is rite/wrong and then the skill of changing it to the correct one - plus understanding how to apply that vocab or grammar in the correct way.  If basic sentence betul - barulah can apply to karangan.  

Then...............she cant answer me.  At least - maybe asked me first before "cheng" me in the morning lah rite?  Found out the situation first before blasting at me.  Phew..but thank God...all ends well as actually everyone means well osolah. We are ok...no worry....hehehe =)

But honestly speaking - one thing that I don't understand is this - some children see their teacher everyday in school..and yet after half year almost gone, they havent even learn the basic skills - what more to say to master it.  Five days - do what in school ya?

Some just hafal mati and memorize the words but they are not taught on how to apply it.  Some even worst - before the exam - just merely tell them what will be out + with answer some more.....aiyah.  This is just in order to make the person who teach looks good , the children look goods and the parents feel happy but whereby actually this kind of style are = cheating.

Nowadays it seem to be more like the situation of "giving them fish" instead of "teaching them how to fish".  What we want is not spoon feed  but we want our children to be able to "fishing" by themselves with or without us around..make the future path easier for them as well as easier for those who take over from us later....

Sad...................

How Would It Affect?... 7/4/15

Price hiking...everything also goes up but gaji never go up - basically that's what everyone commenting and talked about for the past few days.

I, myself can certainly feel the pinch too.  Many of my children and parents came and asked me do I increased any of "it"?.  Noleh...no nid lah...everyone already cham enough.  Even if I do, it will be for next year and new student..not now.  Tua, muda, kaya and miskin all can feel the pinch of it.

But I guess..yang paling paling paling terasa and feel the pinch (it should be like a whip on their bodies for them) are those who are extremely extremely poor - kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang (I was in this situation before when I was very very young.  My family - mum and two elder sisters barely eat .....aii)

For those who do read this blog - if u do go to the food court 101, I am not sure it is just recently or it has been for some time (as I have not been there for quite a while) - there is a girl (not sure of the race) singing (like karaoke) with a man playing guitar (I think so).  And oh dear, she can sings for an hour plus without stopping and the most just stop for 15 to 20 mins and then starts singing again.  I told my eldest angel that day - I feel so sorry for that girl.  I am sure she is not singing for fun, eventhough the voice may not be the top Asian Got Talents but she can sings for hours and I wonder who really pay attention to her and worst - do anyone donate or give any money to them?  That must be the reason y that girl and the man are there right?  Or else takkan sing for fun?  As whenever I passed by this girl - I dont see any "kong" @ can in front of her or anything - so..if people want to donate.....how?  But do people donate?  I wonder how many people do appreciate what she has done for that whole night?  Really ko lien.....

Social problems especially crime rates also increasing and it is now even more alarming.  Perompak nowadays even dare to rompak either in the broad day light or even in public!  Last nite, one of our neighbour house almost kena rompak by 6 pencuri!! Read carefully..it is 6! SIX PEROMPAK! "Hebat" right?  But the economic situation now..orang baik pun jadi penjahat.  60 sen of tambahan pun people wan to kira-kira now.  All good become bad...aduh.  Back to the neighbour..thank God that our jiran-jiran all baik one.  All came out to help..so everyone and everything were safe and sound.  But this is baru few days harga naik oh...in few more months leh?  If people who works in office under the air cond  also start to wonder on how to save and how to work hard to earn more...can u imagine those ppl who just has the minimum wages every month?  After deducting EPF and SOCSO..this is really makan batu and makan pasir liao lah.  Trust me...eventhough I never reach the stage of makan batu and makan pasir, but I ever came across the situation - our whole families no money to eat anything..we dont even see any rice for 3 months, and we just survive by eating some anchovies fried with some sugar and drink tap water or plain water.  A fren of mine told me - when she was young..also poor family..whole family of 11, share one fried egg.  That's it. Now - no wonder we both eat like there is no tomoro.

I guess:

1) Like what my brother in law said - we are still consider in an "ok" situation.  So, dont be so calculative and be helpful.  As long we can help - we must help.

2) Be grateful - some people wan to eat pun bo lui to eat.  And yet we still complain of don't know what to eat or where to eat.  Hish hish.....

Ever heard of Nick Vujicic?  Ooh..I like this guy's spirit, love and faith in God. Watch his videos and read his books...... =)

This video was done by orang Kuching and acted by orang Kuching.  One of the venue is OneJaya.  The singer - Remnant @ LiWaiRen.  A group consist of 4 young man - ever saw them in Spring performing.

(Told u before that my Internet nowadays got problem right?  Hish - I bet my children must be more than happy..no matter how I tried to upload my file to the website that I told them - don't know y it just cant be done! Aiyoyo - either it is totally not exist or just half half come out or everything not in order!!!!!!.  Maybe really ditakdirkan cannot do test...AIYA!)

Let It Be...18/3/15

Last few weeks had a discussion with my children as we talked about happiness, studies, friends and works.  Heavy topics ya?  So, one of the question that they asked me was : How to be happy and not linger on things that happened especially things that people said towards you? 

The answer is simple:

As you grow older - you don't really bother much about those tiny weeny little issue anymore as you have more important things to handle and more interesting things to do in life.  No doubt words do hurts but why need to think so much about it and put ourselves under so much pressure whereby by the end of the day - we are still on our own and go through our lives as usual day by day?  Well - it may hurt us but it wont kill us.  If I am not mistaken, there is a proverb that says - things that don't or cant kill you, will just make you stronger/tougher.

So - that's it.  Y want to be sad whereby there are so much more things to do and so much more things to look for?  I guess as one grows older our perspective of life change and we are too tired to be upset just over a little issue.

Read in a news in early March that a person's (a teacher whom is consider as a very senior officer) drop dead just like that in the office just becos of her's blood veins in the brain either clot or burst.  She just collapsed like that and then, that's it.  According to the report - she was very very very hyper stress and upset to the extend the blood clot and caused this sudden death.  Scary - dont wan to be like that lah.  

After study off half of our life and another half of our life is spend on working- work and works our butts off, don't wan to drop dead just like that lah.  

So..be hapylah ya.  Eventhough I know it is easier said than done - but we try lah ya =)

Holiday Mood... 24/2/15

Now..I rarely update this blog becos of just a simple reason - I have problem with my Internet...server...pod...whatever u called it as that's what Telekom told me. Aduh..very kek sim but can't do much.  Asked them how long it may be..and they cant give me any definite answer.  Susah liao lah this time.  Aduh.

Anyway - to start off...I hope this year is a much better year than last year as honestly speaking..last year there were many downs side of it and actually some of it cant be solved till maybe in a few years to come??? Aiii......if I do have that few years of life - barulah I know whether I can face it bravely or not.  Now, dont misunderstand I am not saying that I may die soon but manalah tahu kan..ajal di tangan Tuhan.  But no matter what it is - I have to face it bravely and positively.  I rarely heed anyone advice (hahaha sorry about that...jenis yang degil lah..hahaha) except listens to my inner voice...my church leader and God..pray, pray, pray.  Thats what give me inner peace.  

I can foresee that this year oso mostly downs more than ups..but I chose the choice of being positive and being happy and trust in the Lord instead of listening to all "yakking..yakkking" surrounding me. In life, we cant please everyone.  So, boh pien -  must choose something and a side.....

But as for this year....and the last few years..I am blessed with all the parents and my childrenssssssss surrounding me.  Got some they flew back and even share a bit of their time with me...having lunch, breakfast and came to visit me.  Some graduated..working liao...some second year uni and so on...wow time flies.  See them grow up....oooh I am getting older..hahaha.  Thanks ya to my children.  It is really my honor to have u guys around...thanks a lot to the parents too.  Thank you for the trust and support (ceh...feel like giving a speech in Oscar Award ceremony pula...hahah)

Better stop here liao...as can sense that something wrong with the line again...aiyah...till the next update ya =)

Chinese New Year Mood...31/1/15

Wow..time flies..and really so bz to update anything.  Everyday - only sleep for few hours nia (around 4 to 5 hours).  Many things to settle and arrange.  Phew...anyway, bz is a good sign and it is a blessing =) Instead of just sitting around and do nothing, thats bad...hehehe.

Got many funny and odd things happened but really don't have time to update it much here.  Will do so soon - need to go now - shop for CNY again..hahah =)) 

Update...7/1/15

Some updates....for the past few months didn't really update much as due to Internet @ server problem....aiyaya. And next actually the past whole year 2014 is actually the worst year for me.  Many things happened - all the down sides no ups one...aiii.  

The worst was when it started to shake and shatter the whole meaning of "belonging"..."love" and "friendship" but if to view it positively - it opens up my eyes to see things more positively and to really understand the meaning of those words.

Hopefully this year is a more promising year ...Psst...shopped for CNY stuff liao..hahaha si bei kiasu!! =)  Will update more next time =)

Bz..Bz..Bz...28/10/14

Wow..it has been almost more than a month since my last update.  Because of a few reasons:

1) Bz..bz..bz as usual

2) Always had problem with the internet connection..dont know y.  Pay bill leh...bukan tak bayar bil pun...but just don't know what happened.  The PC?  Wayar problem?  Make sakit hati only...

Normally at this - it should be a bit more free but this year..don't know y...really really bz.  But well, bz is a good sign ya?  Better to be bz than to have nothing to do.  Really looking forward for next year as got a lot of things in mind and need to do it.

Just a short update - gonna run now as down with slight flu, cough and two days ago starts to lose my voice and today pulak..totally "mute" liao.  Aiyoyo..aii. Just after med, so need to zzzzz now.  =)

ALL THE BEST CHILDREN...8/9/14 

Finally the day has arrived.  Everyone has done the parts and try as hard as they can. The rest is up to HIM liao.  Feel relieve but well feel a bit different as not going to see them liao.  Gonna miss some of their funny jokes and actions.  All the best ya =)

Children from the other age of groups pula...aiii...everytime got any problems in anything sure text me one.  Well, not that I mind tho - but I am a bit surprise that even other subjects like the history and skill related subjects they also asked me about it. Ohh, I left that subjects sooooooo many years behind - cant remember liao.  But "amazingly" when one of my child asked me what is "sesendal"...I gave my answer but I did told this child that I was not so sure with it.  But as I returned home and checked - eh my answer betul boh.  Not bad not bad. Hahahaha..... 

Oh ya, today is also the Moon Cake or Mid-Autumn Festival.  Happy Moon Cake Fest to everyone! And for the first time after sooooooo many years - this is the first time I am free and can bring my two angels out to see the lanterns. Good, good....Enjoying your moon cake ya =)

Finally...3/9/14 

Phew..after a long wait - finally is the last week before "sending" the children to their "battle". Phew.  Feel relieve but at the same time going to miss them a lot.  One of the my child asked me "Is it that horrible to teach them?" Hahaha...eventhough I always said finally and can't wait for it to be over - at the same time, you feel sayang and kinda reluctant to let it end.  But well as the saying goes - all good things need to come to an end..sooner or later ya.  Of cos lah going to miss them, some have been with you since the age of 7 years old and till - what do u think leh?  Gonna miss their funny jokes and actions.  No matter what - it is always in my heart.....=) 

Let Me Just List It...18/8/14 

It has been a lot of ups and downs for the past few days...let me just list it down briefly:

1) As usual....a bz bz hectic weeks and months.  Day in and day out....Very tiring.

2) Actually got something amusing to share here but can't remember as if I am not mistaken it happened two weeks ago....really a sign of old age liao...

3) Just realised that  - out there some people views me like this:

a) some people thot that I am the super duper rich sau nai nai.  As nothing to do in life just send my kids to school...pick them from school.. and voila the rest fall down from the sky!  Ohhh..how I wish leh. If life is like that - then I don't have to work my butts off and crack my brain days and nites leh...Voice crack for sure..

b) some pula thot that I am the type that very shy and keep to myself.  So went they happened to drop by and see me when I was "working'..they baru realised that rupa-rupanya "I can talk" and "I do talk"..aiyoyo

c) some people thot I am a maid..hahahaha.  This is not my first time ok.  It has been like fourth or fifth times now?  And can't blame them lah...know what they meant. Don't feel any offended just curious.....what makes them came to that conclusion?  Hehehe...

4) Something happened to family's relative @ my relative.  Not a pleasant news but hopefully everything goes well.  But I guess, in this kind of situation - the best thing to do for them is just to give moral support to the family and pray for them.  Other than that - it is better not to comment much as we are not the doctors @ not the expert and we are not in their shoes - so cakap senang, but buat susah. If cakap so senang, later on they comment - y dont u handle it pula?  Ahh...kan susah nanti.  Then got someone pandai-pandai said..everything got risk but making such a decision should be low percentage of risk.  So I pun tanyalah - how do u know it is low risk?  The expert said so ah?  Then - the jawapan is: I don't know boh...dont know what the doc said as I was not there.  Then I jawap:  Then how do u know it is low risk then? I think it is risky to comment whether it is low risk or high risk as we don't even hear it from the doctors.  The question now is not about the risk on the operation's table.  The risk I mentioned here is more to the risk and complications after that.  Have to really juggle and  think about it as if after operation - then what?  What is the follow up procedures? Effect? Who can take care and so on?  Whenever u talk about risk - people just thot about the risk of either dead or alive on the operation's table, but do they think of the long term situation in term of the risk..after that?  If after operation - no one take care..everyone just walk out like that - how???? Follow up?  Effect?  Ada fikir or not?  I know that everything got risk..but in everything...we have to think....every issue and factors count - correlation with time, effect, age...and so on.  Jangan cakap..buka..bedah..potong saje. U cakap senang, the one that risk everything is not you.  Is them.......But still, my conclusion is simple - the immediate family knows best.  They are the one that over there days and nites - listen and consult the doctors and so on..so if that's what they think the best - so on our sides pula - the best we can do is pray pray and pray.  Please don't pandai-pandai go and said - No risk one....low percentage..U VERY SURE AH? And oh one thing - I hate it when u tell people about the operation - first question they asked - how long ah?  Instead of asking is it risky...save..and so on..tanya pula how long? Long or not not - tak penting lah...aiyoyo..yang penting...selamat...and we pray for minimum impact or risk...........

Annoying...7/8/14 

The so call smart phone that can "mengeratkan hubungan" is actually making life more disastrous and pain in the neck.  Aiii..that's the reason y I haven't get my own one eventhough I actually was thinking to get my own last month.

One thing that annoy me much is about the application known as Watssapp.  Well, I do understand that with this apps - it is a faster and "money free" application whereby u can send tons and tons of msges without any cost just a sore hands and time flies away nia.

Although I do admire this apps and it is muct better than my Nokia which is unbreakable but can break other stuff..hehehe..but I am much fed up and annoy with this apps too.

1) People tends to bug u non stop sometimes.  And the worst was - when u ignore it..the other party keep on messaging u non stop - expecting an answer.  Urgh.  Last time, without hand fon or any smart fon, cannot contact mean cannot contact.  Never such case as soooooo urgent to the extend that a life will fly away if you didnt hear or talk to that person even for a minute. Aiyah......if like that ya...the irony part is..y last time without a portable handfon the rate of death not that hight comparatively to now in the modern era leh?...Many other reasons rite??...

2) People starting to use the Watsapps = Facebook.  Aiyoyo..this part I really beh tahan.  Everyone started to click and snap photo here and there - young and old..and started to send photo now and then.  Fine, fine..I know sometimes we are excited about certain thing so we must share it out..but the prob was..some people snap photo non stop wor...every minutes..every seconds...every now and then....keep on sending it to their families..close kins and friends.  Aiyoyo..even if u are not boring sending - don u think the other party not boring keep on receiving your photo in every minute?  Same place but just a different post and gaya nia?  Aiyoyo.....

3)  The No.1 annoying part is....................u Watsapps ur friends or jiran even more kin tio and excitedly and always "up to date" even tho there is nothing much to comment.  If your friends Watsapp u on 10.30am...u will FOR SURE replies in 10.31am or even sooner if can.  Must reply one..cannot no reply. Must "talk", send photos and update each other no matter what..eventho it is just a "LOL" or "good morning".  BUT..when it is ur own family member msg @ Watsapps - it takes u ages to reply.  If the msg is sent on the 10.30am - it might or it will be very lucky indeed if u do get a reply on the 10.30pm....With fingers cross that - ur family member did reply u!!!.. And most of the time - no sound, no reply.  And when u called them up asking y no reply..they will either said "I thot I did?" (yeah rite - can see the Watsapps conversation wor - trace the record please..) or "Oh sorry, I forgot" or "U know my answer leh"...or "I get back to you soon (yeah..soon enuf which is 24 hours over liao - if not maybe 24 days over liao).  But if frens...wa lao..bukan main soooo cepat reply.  Y?  Is it becos people thinks that family members should be more understanding and is always the one that near to you..so can just put them last?  With the assumption that they will understand us?  So no need to reply them oso never mind?  Aiiii......

That is the reason y....I am not so keen in getting my own smart phone.  Later on, takut I might be like this.  My life is very peaceful now with my antique fon..hehehe.  Most people lives now is their phone.  Go out to eat with family oso look at phone...everyone on the table look at phone..twitter..FB..watsapps.....no "real life conversation" going on....Well... Nokia tetap menjadi pujaan dan idamanku.  Besides functioning as a fon, it can be a protection for me too (can Nokia seperti batu?) hahahahaha.....So that's me lah ya.  Simple....

Oh...to all those out there who had been looking for me or calling me now and then - pai seh ya..these few months are always my "peak season" - super boh eng.  Besides that, honestly speaking..besides due to being bz and no time for anything..except whenever u reach home u just want to eat happily and sleep....honestly speaking - I am also trying to avoid from getting into any "controversial" conversation (if those out there who understand what I meant) - as it spoils my mood and it is very tiring to discuss about it.  Let me handle it one step at a time.  Further more with all my children now marching into their own respective "Battle Zones" soon - I hardly have time for anything.  So, do spare me some space so that I can do thing one step at a time.  I am not a super woman or wonder woman - just a normal lao ah ma that need some space to breath and do my works and lead my life peacefully.  But nevertheless - I do appreciate everyone's kind thots and assistance - just that in certain thing, we need some space and time to really ponder and wonder about it.  Let me settle and prepare all my children to their "battle" first.......one step at a time.............=)

Scary...19/7/14 

Was shocked to hear another devastating and scary news...our MAS plane MH 17 was believed to have been shot down by a missile launched by which side or who - unknown yet as no clear cut proof and everyone started to play the pointing fingers game. 

It was indeed a very scary and sad news - just few months after MH370, and this incident happened pula.  And in the first few photos in the news - can see the mayat here and there.  Aiyo..so kolien.

Condolences to all - but one thing everyone is asking : Y fly over a war zone?  Well, I guess like some people said - asking y and pointing fingers pun no use liao lah.  The only thing we can do is...pray that the whole incident will be made clear soon...and may the families and all those involve secara langsung or tidak langsung....stay strong..pray......

Stress...15/7/14 

Stress...eat a lot nowadays..way of realising stress.  Watched the mid nite show - Transformers 4..aii...wasting my almost 3 hours nia.  Boring stories.  Totally different from the original cartoon and make me lost my extra 3 hours of sleeping.  Aiyah...

Watched Maleficent as well - Angelina Jolie is not that "villain" as I thot she will be - quite interesting story but it is more "Disney" type and suit kids more I guess.

Bz with many things in hand....gonna be a stressful months at least till October..phew. Want to have my beauty sleep now...

Thanks So Much...1/7/14

Few of my anak emas dropped by to have a chat...and some even asked to join them for dinner.  Aiii...very very paiseh and soli oh...dinner really cannot as every nite oso bz - u know what lah ya.  And after it is done - quite late liao pulak. Takkan wan to ask u guys to wait for me till 10pm baru dinner?  Aiyoyo...hungry till mati liao lah ya? Furthermore, once everyone went home and it is clear liao...need to sit down and do revision and works with my own angels pula...aiii... That's my life now..huhuhu.

So, to all my anak emas..very very paiseh lah ya..really really sorry.  Wait till I get my own "gadget"..then we can chat all nite long lah ya...hahahaha..so perasan pulak.

To JT, YL, JS, SW , MC and OL - thanks so much for dropping by.  Really really appreciate it.  To OL - thanks so much for the chocolate too.

To JS - sorry hor cant recognize u at that time..as really grown up liao.  Handsome young man liao...hair looks lain...appearance also lain and actually everything looks lain.  That's y tak kenal u.  Your hair very very brown some more.  Looks so ang moh lang...hahaha

To AL and LZB - really really sorry and paiseh lah ya.  Me - lao ah ma, life very routine and fix to a certain schedule liao.  Everynite oso like that and as u know lah..these are the seasons of exam.  The 12 years old children, the 15 years old and then the 17 years old.  So, si bei kintio and si bei boh eng.  My sincere apology and sincere thanks for your kind thots and invitation to dinner.  Thanks a lot.......=)

*Gosh..it is July already.  Happy 1st of July..hahaha.  Happy Ramadan - I love Ramadan month = Bazaar Ramadan and half year gone liao.  Hopefully the other half is more promising and more things to look forward.  It is the time to prepare all my anak for their respective battle zones again...phew.  All the best!!

Relief...28/6/14 

After soooo many moons of mix feelings - finally today, for the 1st time - I really really let it go and put it behind it.  Ah? Don't understand leh..never mind.  Just want to share my mind here.  

U know, there is a thin line between love and hate...thin line between right and wrong..thin line between stupid and patient..thin line between slow + steady and impulsive.  But finally after today - I dah agak, it will happened like this.  It will just be another grandmother stories, bunch of excuses, bunch of problems and delays and delays and delays...like the idiom says : Till the pig flies..sehingga kucing bertanduk...I will just be like "pungguk rindukan bulan".  And worst - I had been keeping it to myself for about a year..and none really know what's going on.  But finally after "seeing the pig and the kucing" things happened today and it's just like what I had predicted...I decided :

1) To give up..to totally ignore it and don't pin any hope anymore.  As the higher your expectation is...the more hopes there is..once u crashed down..it is even more painful.

2) I don't wan to waste my time waiting and waiting and waiting - whereby actually deep down in my heart ..I memang dah tahu the out come pun..it is always the same - useless + hopeless.  

3) When u pinned a hope and wait and wait and wait and hope for a teeny weeny bit of changes - and once it do not happened..u will still feel very frustrated..super frustrated actually.

So, instead of letting all these negative elements to affect my life...and since I can already predicted that it is useless and hopeless - what for leh waiting and hoping? Tunggu apa lagi?  Mana ada bulan yang pandai jatuh ke riba?  Itu hanya imaginasi dan cakap-cakap saje....

So, life must go on as usual.  And starting from today..I am going to lead my life just like what I did when I was still young @ teenagers..but of cos with a slight different as no more single and stands alone liao mah...got two pairs of little kaki tagging along...

Life is short - so must live happily..must still sleep and eat happily...must still watch Transformers..hehehehe....

How?...25/6/14 

How do people normally make decision?

1) Decide the best for themselve - 100 percent solely on themselves?

2) Considering 70 percent of themselves and then 30 percent for others?

3) Considering 30 percent of others and then left the 30 percent for themselves?

4) 50/50 - others and themselves?

5) Follow majority opinion or follow the usual norm even though it doesnt seem to be the best to follow?

6) Go against the norm and then later on everyone mock and left you behind for being different?

7) Follow the normal norm and yet u are unsure with that decision?

8) Make a decision that make other people and everyone happy?

9) Make a decision that make urself happy?

Dont make any decision?  That cannot ah..everything must have an ending and solution to it.  Can't just be hanging nia...Very very chuan and pek chek as need to make decision...a decision that not only will affect my whole life but those around me too...itulah yang susahnya...aiiii...

Disappointed...23/6/14 

As most of the time I have one slot after another..so sometime in between.. during the transition period..and before each class ends..it may take about 10 to 15 mins for everything or everyone to settle down.  So sometimes..some children may have to wait a little bit longer compare to the other group of children...

Last week a mum dropped by and eventhough she comment nicely - I am a bit terasalah. The 2nd slot started about 15 mins late as was waiting for the 1st group of students to finished their works.  So, as time passed by, maybe due to the heat/hot weather plus maybe she felt that she has been waiting too long, she dropped by and have a nice chat with me.  She mentioned that her child has been waiting for 15 mins and now her child lost that 15 mins to acquire more knowledge.  I apologized for the delay - but can't deny that I was a bit hurt by the comment.

Not that I am a sensitive person - most of the time I don't really bother about what others said about me..but whenever it come to the things that I did sincerely and passionately for - and someone just simply passed a comment - it is hurting.

You see, I spent most of my time with my children..and if to compare the time I spent with my children (before - during - after exam) compare to my own angels, the truth is I spent more time with my children.  I spent more time going thru each and every details with them, I spent more time answering their questions either thru face to face or thru handfon and I even spent more time with them doing revision.  I even gave them many many many extra classes - as many or as much as I can..but alas...just for that one time 15 mins....I heard such comment.

Aiii..boh pien..life is like that lah ya.  That's y there is some kind of idiom saying something like  - a year of good deed is just washed away by a simple black dot....Keep my fingers cross..pray and pray and pray for wisdom and strength...the next thing I am looking forward to - Kuching Fest + Bazaar Ramadan = Food!!!  Food makes me happy!

Tired...22/6/14 

Don't know what is wrong with my other site...no matter what information I insert in, what kind of doc I attached it with - it doesnt seem to show up properly.  It is either the answers all jumbled up..they couldn't see anything or there is no pictures to illustrate the words given...super frustrated and super tiring keep on checking and adjusting it..aiiiyahhhh..

Normally, whenever it is the month of June, July and till October..it is always a very tiring, headache and heartache months.  It is not about all the extra classes and the hard works that need to be done.  It is always - u think of how and what you should do to help and improve the children's achievement.  You keep on asking yourself has u done enuf..is there anything else u should do..what else u can do?  Any more days to slot in further extrasssss???

Aiii..pray and keep my fingers crossed that these few months will sail smoothly and faster....................

Maleficent...13/6/14 

I havent watch this movie yet...the star of this movie is Angelina Jolie.  I don't really like her tho but when she acts as a "villain"..she is really good.  Just see the trailer nia and I think it must be good - read thru the summary as well.  

Talk about maleficent - one thing that I know is, sometime we must see behind the picture on y a person react in such a way.  Especially for those that suddenly turned to be so cold, heartless and vicious.  Is it too much disappointment and hopes destroy that turn them into this?  Don't wan to be a spoiler here by telling u the story of Maleficent - but one thing for sure..I guess I might be the next Maleficent soon.  

The next story which is more or less the same kind of story..is the Cantonese movie known as Twin Effect 2.  Just look at the Queen - what happened to her actually.  Then another one is by Charlie Theron - Snow White and the Huntsman...y she react in such a way?

When too much is consider as too much?

When is enduring is known as stupid or being forgiving and loving?

I don't know....... 

Keeping It or Let It Go...2/6/14 

Wow..half year liao loh.  Time flies..now is the peak season again.  From June till October....bz bz bz..cham liao lah.  But that is not the part I am worry about.  Aii..for the past few days feel sien and down.  Try to make myself bz now and then..do whatever I can...cakap senangkan..berat mata memandang..berat lagi bahu yang memikul...Aii..

I guess...from now till end of July, it will determine my two main @ important decision.  1) To try and proceed......2) To continue or let it go....talk easy lah..cuba u in my shoes hor....aii.. Many factors involve.  Many issue and things to consider...aii

Wait and see how lah...as one gets older...one also tend to feel sien and lazy to share probs around.  As..u tell others pun..the most they can just said "kolien ya"..feel sorry for you ya..and by the end of the day - u are still back to square one.  U still have to solve and settle everything on your own.  So might as well use that time to strategize instead of crying and wailing at others....aiiii.  

After a 10ml cough syrup...feel sleepy pulak.  Wan to get a nap..update more if got chance....show u a video..I am sure everyone know this..sound track from the cartoon "Frozen" - Let It Go.  

Life is Fragile...29/5/14 

A fren tag me another link of the "accident video".  This one is a longer version with some true accidents being recorded thru CCTV and some are just "stage" type.  The videos plus the background music...scary and soooo kolien....  

Touching Stories and Touching News...28/5/14

Slept around 2 am yesterday - bz doing my angels' gifts for the Teachers' Day. Phew..total wrapped and done everything by hand..21 presents..phew.  

Last few days also..received a phone call from a mum around 11pm..talked for almost 2 hours..and throughout that 2 hours she was crying.  Disappointed with her children's performance in studies.  I have no choice but to be straight forward to her.  Tell her the truth about her child's behaviour in studies.  Like I mentioned before - beh hiao is one thing..beh hiao can be taught till eh hiao (belakang parang kalau diasah kan tajam..) but if lazy...that kind of sickness..no cure one...true..really.  One day, maybe Aids will have its cure but as for the disease of laziness...sorry to say this..no one can help u...even angel and God also cannot...aiii......Born with a silver spoon in the mouth - I guess that's y make them lazy.

Was watching Thomas Cup two nites ago...memang dah agak the result will be like this. One of my child was texting me about his kin tio ness and his stress watching the match whereby he actually has an exam the next day..aiyooo.  Back to the Thomas Cup..kinda disappointed with it as after no China and Indonesia...we still failed to get back the Cup..aiyah.  I remembered the last time when Malaysia won it.  I was still in my lower secondary..heheheh.  Remembered Foo Kok Keong did a split just to save the shuttlecock send by Alan Budi Kesuma.  That match was memang legendary ah!

Before I end..includes few videos here.  Watch the first two videos carefully.  Touching videos......The last video is the MTV from Evanescence - My Immortal...

Bz...23/5/14 

Actually wanted to update it long time ago but always either too bz and for the past few days..aiya...something wrong with this blog.  Upload and load and upload and load..nothing happened.  Can't see anything...can't do anything.  So - updating it now..hehehe.

Holiday is just around the corner...aii..don't have any plans yet just bz planning for things to do with my children and the upcoming kursus.  Aduh..duh.  The only time that I can call it as a break @ holiday is during the year end...aiii.  And now have a major decision to do pulak..should or shouldn't I?  What it is?  Let u know after I decidelah ya...hehehe =)

Before I sign out...include a video clip from a Hindustan movie that I like - Ghajini. The movie is acted by Aamir Khan as Sanjay and Asin as Kalpana (Tamil actress).  Never really like Aamir but this is one of the movie that I like..he looks quite nice looking in this one too.  

The story is very interesting.  It is more to the flashback of Aamir Khan's life in this story through a medical student's @ Sunita's perspective.  She read the diary of Aamir..his love story with this Asin.  Aamir is actually one of the super duper rich tycoon in Indian but the girl @ Asin didn't realise it.  So, as the story goes, the two fall in love but the girl never realise his identity.  So what happened is that, Aamir intends to propose to the girl and decided that if the girl accepted his proposal he will tell her the truth.  But unfortunately, the girl was killed right in front of him with an iron rod and he himself lost his memory....and..u watch yourself lah.  U can find the full version of this story in Youtube.  (Can't upload any full length video here as my blog is too "heavy" already)...

So..enjoy the video @ music lah ya =)

I DONT WANT 2LISTEN 2PROBLEM...

TELL ME THE SOLUTION... 24/4/14

Going through my normal daily routine as usual...but out of sudden, something happened around 7pm and it lasted till 7.45pm.  Aii...boh pien must solve it right at that moment...

1) Need to solve it at that moment as must make sure that there is no further misunderstanding or ill feelings...

2) Must make sure that the other party understand the whole issue...

Ok...what is it?  The "phrase on top @ the title"..that is what XYZ told me today....This was how it started and it last for about 45 mins.....aiii....

Me: XYZ ya...sorry to let u know that your ABC can't answer test questions today eventhough the questions was exactly the same like what they had done before.  I purposely repeated the same q just to see whether they do their revision or not...

XYZ:  Ok..ok...so how was ABC doing?

Me: Err..well obviously that ABC didn't reviselah as all of these was tested a month ago..given the answers and given the exact exercises few weeks back...told them from week to week that they need to do revision as I will be testing them the exact same thing again...

XYZ:  So, what is ABC suppose to learn? (Went through the bag and then the books..)

Me: (Show XYZ the pages and the exercises and point out the details..).. I told them and reminded them from week to week that I will test them again today...

XYZ:  U can't test them every week and all the time as u need to do revision.

Me: Huh?  The things had been given out and tested in March..and for the past 3 weeks I had been doing revision with them and even reminding them again and again.  So I believe ABC need to put in some effort too. Further more..all those that were asked today are hundred percent...exactly like the previous works and the first test they had done...and I keep reminding them to learn....

XYZ: U know...I wonder about ur teaching methods. How big is this class that you have now (XYZ..pointing to the next slot which is about to start).....about 30 or what?  

Me: I don't know oh..I don't go and count my children everyday as teaching is more important than just counting the numbers of children that I have...

XYZ: How big is the class? 30? 40?  

Me: Well..if u really want to know y don't u do the counting?

XYZ:  I wonder how u teach and concentrate on ABC whereby this group is soo big...

Me:  For your kind infor..I had gone through many bigger class then this...plus the class that ABC in only got 9 children.  Today got 10 becos one came for replacement. So what do u meant by I can't concentrate on ABC whereby ABC class only got 9 children?

XYZ: Ohhh..I c..ABC class only got 9...ok ok.....but I just wonder how u do revision with ABC whereby u got 9?

Me: (Puzzle??? Just now u said 30 is an issue..when I mentioned only got 9..u used this number pulak?)  Well, u see...in ABC class...most of them are very independent..only got 2 others are like ABC....y I can't concentrate on ABC?  What make u think I can't? But the question now is...ABC didn't do revision eventhough has been reminded for a month and the things had been repeated for 3 weeks....

XYZ: I don't want to listen to the problem. Just tell me the solution.

Me: How do u wan to solve the problem if u don't even understand the problem?

XYZ:  We know that ABC is weak..that's y we send ABC to many tuition like urs.  For your infor....besides urs..we sent ABC to other too..to do revision.  That's what u guys suppose to do...revision.
Me:  No offense...for your kind infor....sending to too many tuition and classes doesn't solve the problem.  How sure are u that the place do revision all the times?  Even if they do or we do....don't tell me u expect us to do the same thing everyday until ABC can understand?  What about other section? Other syllabus?  Don't we have to go thru? If like that - the whole year just learn one section???? Tuition is for enhancement...to learn more and understand more..not just merely revision on the same thing the whole time.  Plus..if u send ABC to sooo many classes..ABC doesnt even have time to absorb all the things that was taught and learn on that day.

XYZ:  ABC doesnt has many tuition.  We sent ABC to a few only..and that's y we expect all this places to do revision with ABC. 

Me:  I think u misunderstand the meaning of tuition wrongly.  Tuition is to help u to enhance u..not to bring over all the syllabus and go through with u again and again..till u can understand.  If like that...the child will miss out so many other chapters and syllabus and new things and lagging behind.  Then he or she will never cover the whole year syllabus.  School and tuition has the same syllabus which they have to follow and cover.

XYZ:  Don't tell me the problem..tell me the solution.  I don't care about the problem or ur problem...I know the problem.

Me: U only know the problem that ABC is weak in this subject..but do u understand what makes her weak?????

XYZ: I don't want to listen to problem..tell me your solution.

Me:  U c...understanding the problem is one of the way to get the right solution.  The problem now with ABC is that...ABC doesn't even have time to absorb all things that ABC learnt as the ABC time is too pack.

XYZ:  ABC doesnt has much tuition...arrive home..do homework....then normally watch tv for half an hour...then go to bed.....

Me:  U see..that's the problem.  U asked urself..u and me...we both are not "that place" student...we are just the parents over there and I was there for quite a period of time...don't u see what the children had gone through? Some even barely have time to eat a proper meal at home.  After school, just direct jump into the car...eat in the car...then eat fast fast then jump to another tuition.  After tuition, need to rush home and do home works...by then they are too exhausted.  Do u understand that?

XYZ:  That's not my problem...u just tell me what we can do and how u wan to do it?

Me: Don't u see....ABC maybe want to learn and keen to learn but ABC doesnt has enuf time to absorb all...by the time ABC wan to sit down and really learn..ABC is to exhausted.....

XYZ:  Don't tell me the problem..u are just telling me the problem....tell me the solution...

Me: Ok fine..if u wan me to enforce punishment on ABC...I can....force ABC to learn..I can..but are u sure u really want to do it?  Once I am harsh towards someone..I can be very mean and harsh...If i asked my children to copy till they understand..the copy is normally equal to punishment and that's mean..maybe one essay copy for 100 times and a meaning maybe ended up 500 times.  U really wan me to do that?  ABC baru 9 years old!  ABC is not F3!  ABC baru 9 years old!

XYZ:  That's not the problem....by all mean..if ABC can learn...

Me: What?  9 years old boh?  I don't want ABC to be scare and be traumatized for the rest of  ABC life later....

XYZ:  I don't want to listen to  problem.......that's not my problem.....

Me: That's your problem now becos your problem is u don't wan to listen...and u always said in front of ABC.....ABC cannot this and that..

XYZ:  Our expectation is very low...we just want ABC to pass....

Me:  Then we shouldnt traumatized ABC and make sure that we helped ABC to pass...

XYZ:  We don't mind paying you more for that....if u can do one to one...

Me:  I know u guys dont mind..but we don't talk about money first.  I don wan to discuss about that.  Let us talk on how to help ABC.  Please dont misunderstand..we all mean well........but we must solve the problem of ABC learning....

XYZ:  That we dont know..if we know than we wont send ABC to you...

Me:  That's the reason y u must see the problem and understand the whole picture...ABC can hear and understand what we said...don't owaz mentioned in front of ABC that ABC cannot and not good....ABC felt that....

XYZ: (Sigh...) Actually..we were thinking....since ABC "other subject" is better....we thought of moving and enroll ABC to "the other side".

Me:  Aiiii..so ABC had been enrolled there?

XYZ:  (Sigh..) Actually..we havent enroll ABC yet...we don't even dare trying to enroll ABC as we think ABC cant make it.

Me: Huh?  If everything u think ABC can't, what thing ABC can then?

XYZ:  We had tried a lot of positive motivation...but it just doesnt work.......

Me: We must be positive in front of ABC....

XYZ: We really really motivate ABC in many ways.......everything and anything...

Me: (Sigh....................)

Anyway, thank God that the "heated up conversation" ended up nicely lah.  Both are adults....so no hard feeling (I hope so for XYZ side) And further more, both actually meant well lah.  It is for the good of ABC..for the good of the children.

But one thing...from here....paying more..going to more classes here and there...do one to one....sometime it doesnt solve any problem at all.  

1) Children need some time to do self learning and absorb.  What is the point of having such a long period of class..whereby they only have an hour or two to absorb in everything?

2) Paying more to helpers...centre...tuition..one to one..personal tutor...kakak....and so on....most of the time...it doesn't solve the problem.. Y? becos children wan their own parents to spend time and sit down to guide them.  They either feel more comfortable or they either feel more fear as it is the parents with them.

3) Understanding and accepting the truth that a child is weak and slow is not sufficient. We must also understand what is the reason that caused that child to be slow and weak? Referring to the above conversation that I had with XYZ...we all know that ABC weak in that particular subject.  And due to that..ABC not so keen on that subject.  But the question here is...what make ABC weak?  And what make ABC not so keen?  Is it becos of too many tuitions for the same subjects or is it becos ABC always heard that the parents comment about the weakness in this?  Thus - ABC may feel that "what is the point of u motivating me and give me everything that I wan in order to make me study...but deep deep down in ABC heart...ABC knows that eventho the parents did so..they actually dont even have the trust and confident that ABC can???"  ABC may be only 9 years old...but by listening to all those negative remarks from day to day...ABC do understand and felt it...ABC may think...what is the point of striving..as after all - without striving I can get what I want...and next, even with striving..my parents already think that I cant? 

As per mentioned in my earlier post before, I really understand this as I have my feet in both boat.  And for your kind infor - I do have my own children in "that place" and I do face problem with my youngest angel in bottom 3 whereby my eldest angel in Top 3. The eldest angel marks are always 80 plus and 90 plus...whereby my youngest angel is just barely pass or fail.  

So, if u asked me...how do I feel?  Do I go to school and tell the teachers - tell me the solution on how to make my angel to be smart and pass???  

For me, I always reflect on myself and Mr. Abang first.  When our eldest angel was still very young...even at the age of 3...we already taught her to read newspaper and so on. Learning, understanding thing and absorbing stuff was never an issue for her.  But when it comes to my youngest angel...as a mum...no doubt sometime I tried not to compare...but of cos..some time who wont ya?  And I do realised that teachers tend to compare and comment too.  Bear in mind ya..when a mum is a teacher doesnt mean that the children must be super smart.  If that is the theory we hold on...then if the mum or dad is the pilot...are u telling me that the children are suppose to be able to fly without wings in the sky?

But no doubt..no matter what...I always put the blame and reflect on myself.  I admit and realize that my youngest angel "slowness" in learning was all due to myself and Mr. Abang.  Both of us are really really too bz with our works.......till we barely sit down to guide him properly.  The most is....2 or 3 days before the test or exams...we baru "chaoticly" going thru revision with him.  So now..can u imagine in my position....how do I feel?  I spent all my times doing revision with my children but not my own angels. When people asked me...y don't send him to this place lah that place lah....Yes I know...that place is good...the teacher is superb...but the prob is not on the teacher is superb or the place is good or not...the issue is....can he..himself be able to follow up and absorb it? Are we they to help him to absorb it?

We may usher them to here and there..but by the end of the day...do we sit down and learn and learn and learn together with them?  What about their own will to strive? That's y whenever it comes to this issue...it remind me soooo much of a young man named NL.  I know him when he was just 13 years old.  At those young age..NL already knows what he wants and what he wants to strive for.  He didnt wait for any teacher..any kakak...or centre or anyone to guide him or tell him on what to do..he knows very well what he wants in life.

But of cos..to compare a 8 and 9 years old kids to a 13 years old maybe a bit unfair lah...it is just like comparing an orange to an apple or comparing an elephant to a bird. Trying to get others to solve our problem..may not be the best solution sometime. (Plus in this case and most of the cases that I heard of..I wonder y....when some children are not good in this "particular subject'...the next thing the parents will do is to transfer that children to "the other place"... Y?  Is that really solving the problem? Or just transferring the prob?  Is the children really dislike that subject or is it the children didnt receive a proper guidance and that's y ended up like this?  What if the root is on the learning attitude or lacking of family's guidance?  Then...move to "other place" will definitely not solving any problem...)

That's y...I truly believe that I understand this as I have my feet on both sides...I have my own youngest angel like this oso...and even though once a while I tend to compare and feel down..but never once in my life that I mentioned the word "CANT" in front of my youngest angel.  Even though I did talk about him to others..or share about it...but definitely not in front of him.  Like the chinese idiom says - "Hang hang chuk chuang yian".....(In everything....there will be a successful person for it...)

Never doubt a child's ability to interpret and comprehend something.  What we said right out loud in front of them...maybe molding them up indirectly.  And I do understand also..just becos we all are 'in this place'...we tend to feel pressure as everyone starts to compare...and "this place" standard is super high.  But again...we asked ourselves.....are u and me also study in this "place" before?  How is our performance in lives now?  Good? Happy?  Isnt that we have many friends from "other places" too but now enjoying a very successful and fruitful life? So, when me and Mr. Abang started to compare and complaints among ourselves..we always tell ourselves this:

1) Yes...we dont wan to be in the state of denial like some others do.  We acknowledge that he is slow and among the last in class...but that doesnt reflect his entire life in future.  Looks at Bill Gates...Steve Jobs.....he may not be academically good..but hey..he may be good in other things..let him explore...

2) We cant compare him to his other classmates or schoolmates...we admit that he is far far behind and slow.......but hey...did we ever try to see outside this box?  Is he the last if we put him to "other place' beyond this box?  I dont think so.  At this age...they already learn multiplication of hundreds...but other places baru learn how to plus (add) few apples in this box to another few apples in the other box.  He is learning literature....he is learning long super vocab in English and BM....but other children in other place only learn ejaan and spelling like merah..hijau...red..green..whereby children in "this place' learnt words like "pergelangan...lingkaran...thorax...abdoment'. Children here learnt how to write a complete essay by the age of 8 with a few guided words whereby children at "other places" only learnt how to fill in the blanks for the essay given with choice of answers given some more.  So, by the end of the day...who are we to compare?  Chinese idiom - "There is always a mountain higher than other mountain".

3) We cant said is his fault...as baru 8 years old..wat do we expect?  So..by the end of the day....it comes back to myself.  Where got kids at the age of 6 - 9 know how to do their own revision without anyone guidance or force???? Maybe got...but only a few parents are blessed with that..............I was blessed with one - my eldest angel.....but nevertheless I also regard  my youngest as a blessing from God...y?  Without him...I wont see myself as being a fail mother or teacher...can teach others but cant teach my own - really really need to reflect....Without him - I wont understand those parents whom is facing the same problem like mine.........

So..in conclusion...by the end of the day...no matter what..no matter how heated is the conversation...no matter what point of views we have....everyone means well lah.  Try to walk this walk with me....it is not just merely about time and money...try to walk this walk with the children...try to walk this walk with us....see from our view..see from the children's view...............

Bz... 23/4/14 

Same old words ya...bz.  Everyone is also bz..not just me. Anak emas OL, came back from  Australia last week and dropped by for a visit.  As usual, she will always brought me some chocs.  Hehehe...thanks a lot ya.  But haven't got chance to taste it yet..still in my fridge.  It is nice to be able to see her and talk to her again...and still in one piece..hehehe. Her nose ok liao...bo su bo su.

For the past few daysssssss...just as usual.  Owaz in and out...bz with my usual routine.  
Angels + Children...need to juggle and rearrange for many new things.  Many ideas and planning in mine..but $$ and time constraint. See how to work it out in these few months pulak.

Barely have time to do other things now...last few weeks...eat a lot and ate quite frequent at Pandan Thai Delight.  Their food..not bad....but the rice is sooo little.  Guess what, the four of us need 9 bowl of rice to make us full.  My eldest angel took in 2 and my youngest took in 1 and a half. Li hai leh?  So can u imagine me pulak? Hahaha..must be partially due to stress osolah....

Now, can feel my stomach growling for food too..heheh.. So, gotta run now...need to search for food from the fridge (actually just ate a huge bowl of rice before I came here..hehehe) 

Not Yet Done...10/4/14 

It has been a week since "the move" out.  Well, the transition period was kinda smooth and everyone follows all the necessary ways of doing things.  My heartiest "THANK YOU" to all my children and the parents for making this transition period a success.  Without your kind understanding and trust, I am sure it can't be done.  Once again, thanks so much - from the bottom of my heart.

All though no doubt, I am not use to it..I guess neither do the children (as some told me that....) but boh pien lah ya...we "have to move'...

From the "moving out", it gives me the opportunities:

1) To expand what I am doing now (of cos..this truly need my families, friends, parents and children's kind assistance)

2) Have my "home" back..hehehehe

3) Feel like working again..as need to drive from my house to here..no more...hehehe

4) As pertaining to (3)...consume more time and more tiring actually.  As need to move here and there..be early..set up everything..ensure that everything is ok....boh pien..cannot have everything at one go lah ya like the proverb says - You can't have your cake and eat it....but still I enjoy the processlah..hehehe =)  And the good part of it was..due to this, now- for the past few dayss...I manage to upholding one of my resolution for this year: That is to sleep before 12 am..hahahaha.  Too tired...as not my place..everyday need to wash and mop and clean...

But..after a week liao...this "new place" is still not up to what I wan it to be (as it is not my place..aiii) and my house is still not a "home" yet.  Move down the sofa sets and so on..move the tables..clean certain part..but certain areas still messy like siao!! Aiyoyo..really need a week or two to clear off everything, problem is I don't have my week or two. Aiya...

Now..oso feel like dozzing off liao...wanna sign out soon.  Oh by d way, heard that my anak emas in Australia - OL (heard that a week liao) .."You broke your nose ah? Bz playing the soft ball or looking at the guys walked pass by?" Hahaha...so bad hor? Anyway, I wish you speedy recovery lah ya..seen the pic with all the bandage on ..hehehe..looks cute but of cos - without it on you looks cuter.  So hope to hear that you are back to yourself soon....do take care over there =)

Holidays...23/3/14 

Time flies...it is almost quarter of the year and as I looked back, what is my achievement for the first quarter of the year?  Ehhhh..nothing much.  The only thing I can comment is:

1) Learn to control my temper/feeling... better (getting older liao mah - or else later die off heart attack and blood vessel burst..hahaha)

2)  Going to have my "house @ home" back soon..very very happy! Finally...after all these years...now at last...my house can finally be my home. But a bit worry also lah..as going to a new place..new environment.hopefully everything goes well.  Pray, pray..

As for this coming hols...nothing much going on..just on my normal routine..and day and nite..follow up on the news of the missing plane..really ko lien...aii.  Watch all the cooking channels in Astro..hahaha..and yet don't know how to cook any of it....know what to eat enuf liao lah...

And oh...the biggest thing to wonder and ponder on...someone..out of no where...no idea where this person get my contact..give me a call and asked me to do her wedding event for end of this year.  Aik? Where do this person get my details and how does she knows that I do event and specifically even mentioned that I only do event for others during the end of the year @ Nov or Dec as the other months I am busy???  Wah..where did she knows this?  Haven't say yes or no..but let me survey the place first and discuss with the venue on the do's and don'ts before deciding to take this up or not... emm

Feel Sorry...13/3/14 

Everyone must had heard the news of MH 370.  Really ko lien..really hin and really kin tio to know further and its outcome - with the hope that it will have a positive outcome. But realistically - it is coming to 6th days liao wor...aiii.   

The one that everyone pity most is the families...for them they just want an answer..yalah rite..either good or bad pun..at least must be an answer mah...cannot just said this and that..A said lain, B said lain...then both side deny....aiii...

No matter..we keep our fingers crossed....and everyone pray for it lah ya...

Decisions....7/3/14 

Havent update for quite some time due to few reasons:

1) Internet/server problem....

2) Recover from my "falling down"...bruise here and there..hand painful too, now ok liao

3) Bz..bz...

4) Need time to re-arrange everything as involve making a few major decisions in life...

Finally after here and there..think and think.  I finally decided that:

1) When one make decision - I guess the most important thing is whether that decision make u happy or not.  Don't make any decision base on majority/other's people opinion. They are not in your shoes they wont understand...think and justify for yourself...aiii

2) Go or not to go?  Don't know yet...see how.  Go where? Let u know next time..hehe

3) Move or not?  Aii..finally decided to move out as my angels are growing up and they indeed do need some space for themselves.  Come to think of it...since I had been in this "line" for few years..their space..they are practically growing up in the room only..with no other place to move around...ko lien.  So to my children...we move lah ya..

Been following up  on the PBS issue too...my opinion....y lah so susah?  I really don't understand loh...it is sooo obvious....aii...wait and see what happened later.... aiii

Aiyoyo...28/2/14 

Fell down yesterday at Kenyalang Park.  It is more to slipped down - over two steps..almost 3 steps actually but luckily I managed to tahan with my right hand.  Thank God that, it doesn't hit my spinal bone and also my head...but sit on my butts!!  Aiyoyo..tia see loh!  Now..butts black and blue..bruise..oh ceng...as big as my youngest angel's palm!  Really really dark oh ceng.  Can feel the bump and the swollen!  Aiii..

Today - read a few comments (positive + negative ) comments from food critics/lovers about some restaurants in Kuching.  Some owner accept it positively..explain it and apologize nicely to their customers (but food + taste is a very subjective matter..everyone taste bud is different..so...) anyway..back to that topic.  I was browsing through Tripadvisor (I strongly believe in this site whenever I survey for accommodation or food) but a bit shock and disappointed when I saw/read that some restaurants/cafes in Kuching seem to be so negative and so sarcastic whenever someone comment/write negatively about their restaurants.  Worst - in certain feedback- u can see that although it may be a constructive remark (just the personal opinion from the customers) and yet the owner of the place explained it in a very rude and sarcastic manners!  The way it was explained obviously showed that these owners actually refused and cant accept any "negative/bad" feedbacks or even any "average" feedbacks.  I had seen some owners justify their situations too but none of them did it in the ways like some others owners did it!  

Ya, true...everyone taste bud is different and opinion is different.  That's y if I am not mistaken - there is a proverb that says - one man meat is another man's poison?  But still ya, it does not give the right to the owners to "blasted" back in such way as bear in mind - the whole world can read the reviews and the answers.  Altho food may be nice - but I guess - attitude does play an important role in it too.  I won't want to go to a eatery whereby the food is good and the price is ok, but the person/people there are arrogant and think so highly of themselves.  Bear in mind as well that. in our town (city??) there are soooo many eateries available and so..there is no reason on y people just want to stick to some few places nia ya?

For me, I pantanglah..when I see people that involve in food, service or hospitality industry don't know how to treat their customers.  The key for the business is the customers.  Of cos' it doesn't mean that customers are always right.  But still....there must be some justification and right way of doing it...go thru the proper way firstlah..if tak jadi baru blast like siao loh..hehehehehe!  If beh suka....don't goloh...or just walk away loh.  Hahahaha..that's me lah.  But as for the owners pulak....emmm..when I read thru' the feedbacks...aiyo do they know what are they portraying when they answered:

1) No EQ in handling customers at all.  Sorry to say this - but local people sure will said.."no brain" and "bo ka.." in handling people...

2) Reflecting your culture and inner self as a person...who ever read that reviews either from Malaysia or not..will surely think that "whoaaa..that's how we answer and operate our business ya when someone gave feedback"....there goes the image later...aii

3) Despite you may know the whole world high ranking, high class, elegant and superstars...that doesn't give u the right to answer like thatlah....the world is round..the ball is round..today is ur day...but tomoro might be others..u never know oh......

Well, that doesn't mean that we listen bulat-bulat to our customers and bow down to everythinglah..but said properly....use EQ and IQ..or else kena tanggung all the consequencesloh.....

Sore...13/2/14

Wah lao eh..it took me almost 6 hours to complete it, till my fingers especially my right hand thumb became sore and can feel that both of my hands are slightly painful and the nerve is like "tweeting around' (as I kept on changing from left to right..).

U know what I did?  Aii.. yesterday -.texting/sms to all my children starting around 1.30 pm till almost 7 pm.  Baru complete ah!  Now becos that I have tooo many children around - it was just becos that I am not using the canggih smartphones like other people and yet still linger to my "all ye faithful" handfon which is Nokia 3310.  Can u believe it?  As there is no grouping (either there is no such application or I cldn't find it) it took me ages to send the same text (luckily I saved the text as my template first) and then started to input the numbers of all my children.  But unfortunately.....I had to go down one by one and everytime it started with a new name..it has to starts from the beginning again.  For example..if I key in Aaron and the next one is Abel and then follow by Achan...so by the time I wan to key in Achan..I have to start from Aaron again. So can u imagine if the person name is Azam??? And all the way need to check from Aaron again....huhuhu...Then got B, got C..got D...till Z...Wah lao eh..so search and search, scroll up and down, insert the contact...my hand @ thumbs mahu patah liao lah.

Then a fren perli me some more "now u know y we all turned to smartphones ya?"  yalah tu..=(

Oh..to my anak emas - OL..sorry that I cldn't sit down to have lunch with u guys on that day.  It is nice to be able to at least talk to u, AS and KB for a while before u left.  Altho it was just a short gathering - will always miss u.  All the best ya =)

And to everyone - HAPPY VALENTINE AND HAPPY CHAP GOH MEI!  Do have a wonderful and pleasant day ahead! =)

Older and Wiser - I Guess??...8/2/14

Total resting for this CNY month as after this gonna be a long way to go without any particular break at all....oooh.

Well, as during this long break, I kinda realize something, initially the idea of getting a braces job done always linger in my mind but as now getting older (and wiser hahahaha)..this thot don't bother me much anymore.  Even now, I realise that I dare to take photos more and even dare to smile widely more showing all of my gifted "gift of gab" teeth..hahaha.  Used to dislike snapping photos and even if I did, I won't smile or anything and it looks awful and soooooo "unfriendly".  

And now..couldn't careless...wan to take photo chu take liao lah...wan to smile - then chu smile happily showing the "amazing castle" look alike teeth =))

Do something that make ourselves happy instead of doing something that just to make us look good and yet deep down in our heart - we may hated the ideas like what.  So now, just enjoy my holidays...

To my children - c ya all in a week time.... =)) 

Technology...2/2/14 

One of the most popular tech among the teenagers is the mobile phones now.  U named it..there are just soooo many types in the market.  Smartphone lah..this phone..that phone lah...aiyoyo..with all kind of names some more..Applelah, Samsung, Nokia and so on...I guess, when it was created - the purpose was just simple...so that we can maintain communication where ever we are - expecially during the time of emergency.  But alas, unfortunately most people are using handfon MORE THAN that normal function now...chattinglah, FBlah, surfinglah, play gameslah...and etc etc etc till by the end of the day - it overcomes it main purpose, that is to maintain communication and closeness between one another.  When u keep on using fon just to surf Internet (looking for what ever it may be) download bunch and bunch of apps and games, having fun trying out all those instead of using the fon to really communicate or contact someone - to talk..then aiii....

Or if there is someone in front of you and yet you are sooo bz playing with your phone - then what is the purpose of hanging out?  Worst, I had ever seen a family of five seating together having their dinner...even while eating, each and everyone of them is still bz hands, fingers and eyes gluing at the handfon, updating their own FB and looking thru friends FB.  After dinner, the Facebooking situations became worst...they are busily uploading the pictures of their surrounding and the food they have instead of talking about themselves or their families or better still SHOULD BE TALKING TO EACH OTHER!

Can't this type of activities be done after everyone settle down at home?  After everyone went home..when you are at  your own room..ur own privacy..at your own time, own place?  

I ever saw two men went out for a cup of coffee at Starbuck, they already starts playing with their handfon even before the coffee were served.  Can u imagined - the moment the coffee were served in front of them - they get even more busy with their fons!  One hand holding the cup and the holding hand bz with the buttons or screens of the fon. They barely looked at each other, what more to say talk to each other.  After about 20 mins, one said he has to leave first and the other one still sitting there playing with the fon.  Wow..is this how social gathering suppose to be now?  While u are meeting A - u will be busily texting B or C and D, and at the same time, busily updating your FB status and uploading all the pictures at your surrounding - telling the whole world that you are NOW ACTUALLY WITH A AT THIS SO AND SO PLACE..and yet ARE U REALLY THERE???

I was telling my angels - if ever there is one day, when we go out for any meals and IF they ended up bz with their fons all the time, what I will do is, I will make sure that everyone not only sit on different chair but also have their own separate table!  As after all, even when u are sitting with your own family members, u don't even talk or share anything, just share food nia!  So, might as well, no need lah.  No need to have family gathering or social gathering - don't waste anyone time.  

Saw this happened to a family which is kinda close to me, from the Dad and Mom till to they youngest child in the family - everyone never leaves their handfon alone.  I guess they spent more time with their handfon comparatively to their own family's member.

The so call - "telefon dapat mengeratkan hubungan ya?" (mobile phone can strengthen a family's ties/relationship ya?) =p

Shock...27/1/14 

Still in the midst of tidying and cleaning my house..aiyoyo..eventho started cleaning early this year but don't know y still got many things to do..really really don't understand..aduh.  Back pain now...

Aii...suppose to have my own family reunion dinner but at the very last minute - intends to change my plan to have reunion dinner with both of my sisters' families too...the whole 3 families together at my eldest's sister house.  Haven't confirm yet as don't know what I am suppose to do with all the stuff that I had already bought?  If I don't cook it for the reunion dinner - surely it ended kena throw away..aiyoyo.

Was discussing with my eldest sister today and was shock to find out that she "called" me as a "high end eater".  Aiyo..wonder where did she gets this idea??  I memang love to eat and for me - food is the most important compare to other stuff..but was really shock when I realised that she looks at me like that.  My food is just simple nia leh..even then my reunion dinner meals are just the normal home cook food..nothing special, no special delicacies or anything.  For me I don't follow the CNY custom, whereby everyone cooks brocoli, cauliflower...mushroom...I don't like this - neither is my family.  We are prefer the green veg + leaf veg - sawi lah..kai lan lah...That is not high end food leh......They order Fish with thai sauce..fish maw etc whilst my is just Deep Fried Bawal nia.  I had try cook all those "CNY meals" before and it ended up no one wants to eat it!  Make me angry nia...don't wan liao lah.  Just cook a normal simple meals but more type..enuf liao.

This morning pulak..heard another shocking news..about the issue of this English teacher in one Chinese school was reported as forcing his 2 students to eat grass and called them as "lembu".  But then as the story became clearer - it turned out that, actually the teacher was just giving them an analogy of lazy people = cow.  So, if no study = no work = no $ = cow = eat grass.  According to the report, he didn't force them to eat grass but did pluck some grass and showed it to them.  Aii....

Before I have a clearer pic of the story, no doubt if the teacher really did that (force them to eat grass), then memang this teacher is wronglah.  But as the story became clearer - the most shocking part is when the higher authority comments that "DON"T DO HOMEWORK" = NOT A DISCIPLINE PROBLEM.  Wah lao eh....if like that, how????  I thot it suppose to be: NO DO HOMEWORK = DISOBEY TEACHER = AGAINST THE AUTHORITY = DISCIPLINE PROBLEM?

Because there is one part of the story mentioning that these 2 students havent completed their homeworks for 2 weeks!!  Wah lao eh...I guess this teacher must had been accumulating his anger for 2 weeks and gave numerous warnings liao and then beh tahan - baru did something like that.

Well, I am not trying to side anyone lah - like I said before, if he did force them to eat grass..that memang cham liao lah this teacher.  But, if just giving them analogy and asked them to wear a small bell clipped on their pocket...??  I don't understand loh..

Indeed as a parents - sometime or maybe most of the times we don't like our children to kena punish like that as it is humiliating but if and ONLY IF lah ya..this teacher has really warned them numerous times and yet for 2 weeks they still failed to complete their works..then WHERE IS THE PARENTS ROLE?

If like that - I bet oh..this teacher..will never ever bother or care whether his new students at the new school do homework or not liao lah.  After all, by the end of the day - either they do their work, he will just think that they are not his children and he is just makan gaji nia.  Aii..like that very susah loh.  

Oso ever heard a case - someone told me before, back in the 90s - he saw his colleague almost kena sue by a couple as this male teacher oso tried to punish the boy for not doing his home work.  The next thing he knows - the boy jumped to the beam of the balcony..and threaten to jump down from 2nd floor to the ground.  The parents quickly rushed to the school and the next thing that happened:

Father:  Next time, either my son did his home work or not, that is not your problem. Dont' scold or anything.  U just let us know.  If this incident happened again, I will sue u and the whole school.

Second case - read it somewhere......a teacher always shouted, scold and rotan those who don't completes their work...then kena marah and almost kena sue by some parents. He was sent to counselling due to this (in assumption that he was too fierce and bad temper)..then after few months - he changed his approach.  He gave chocolates and sweets for those who are doing well in his class (positive motivation @ reverse psychology effect) and due to that, all the students become very hard working..but alas, after few months, some parents also not happy as the sweet stuff given caused their children to have tooth ache and stomach ache and caused them sick.  So now, this teacher really kena sue liao and waiting for his trial...

Wah lao...if like that...no need lah..just home school liao lah.  Kong pun bo yong liao lah.  Only those in this line they will understand.  Listen to this song "It's Not Easy (to Be Me) - Five for Fighting".  It is the OST for Superman @ Smallville.  There is no superman in this world...but there is 'PEOPLE LIKE US" in this world...and it is really not easy to be us.....

Huh???20/1/14 

Last whole week was full of ups and downs for me..and bz here and there.  Bz with my children...my own angels schooling....house works..phew.  And this week.."my happy week" as "officially" taking a long break for CNY.  Told my children that this will be the one and only break as after that no matter what holidays it may be..there is no more break in between...

Last Sun - a very weird + " funny incident" happened.  A neighbour of mine dropped by at my house, burst open the door and angrily pointed out that my children's car  blocked his gate and its annoying to him..this was what he said - "Your customers car ah..ALWAYS park and block me.." Oh dear...oophs!  I quickly apologize, asking him for the details and was just about to go to the main door to have a good view of which car has blocked  his gate ..but he mumbled some words angrily and just went away and slammed the door.   Luckily this group of children is the very very very grown up children so they just carried on with their works and ignored him.

After my children went home - I told Mr. Abang about it.  Few things which I don't understand is this:

1) Even though I am inside the house, from the position I stand - I do have a good view of any car that happened to be right in front of his area/gate/compound.  But based from what I can see that day - I saw a black car park at the roadside, the one right in front of his gate.  And if I can see the car, it means that the car is not even actually "RIGHT" in front of his gate @ road..it was just the "head" of the car..and the car is parked at the road side NOT his compound or gate and 90 percent of the car's was at my main gate's compound.....weird...

2) As far as I know, he was always not at home.  He and the family went out (mostly they stay with their in laws at Samarahan) around 6.30 am or 7 something in the morning...and then come home around 10.30 pm or 11 pm.  My children only starts to come around 7.30 am and all ends around 6.30 pm...so how??? Huh??? Even if my children do park their cars right in front of his gate.....but he was NOT AROUND at all boh? There is no such case of blocking him on his way in or out as - HE IS TOTALLY NOT IN!!

3) When I asked him for the details of the car (which car it may be), he just mumbled and went away.  If it is true - at least give me some details, so I know and can do something about it..

4)  But I found it very very ridiculous and absurd - don't tell me if we parked in front of someone's gate and we blocked him/her, when we see the owner about to come in or out..we don't even bother to move our car a bit?  No respect? No courtesy? RIDICULOUS!  AND I DON'T THINK SO.  I don't think there is such people in this world that will do this.  I believe that if he asked, CERTAINLY THE CHILDREN WILL MOVE THEIR CARS. I KNOW MY CHILDREN AND I KNOW THAT MY CHILDREN IS NOT LIKE THAT.  And as I mentioned just now...even lah just said - that black car blocked him...IT WAS NOT EVEN BLOCKED.  The car just parked at the road side (outside his gate) but its only 10 percent of the front car was in front of this gate and the rest was at my area!  And it don't even block him...aiyoyo

5) And I found it very CHILDISH for an adult man (older than me some more oh..) to burst open the door - raised his tone in front of the children.  It's not about "water face" or impression..it is about being polite or courtesy at least in front of them.  And worst, when asked for details..he can't explain furthers and just said he needs to go, slammed the door and walked away!  I totally understand how it feels - but at least what he can do, should be knocking the door, called me out to the compound and have a heart to heart talk with me.  Oklah, if don't wan to have a heart to heart talk as too angry liao, but the least is....marah-marah at the car porch lah but not right in front of the children.

When I told Mr Abang, I believe - he is memang "ada masalah sikitlah" as these are the answers that I got:

1) According to Mr. Abang - he memang dislikes anything that "passed by" his front gate. Huh??  How to explain ya?  Ok, just said for example lah...for the dead leaves to be blown to your house's compound - that is common right?  Then, we boh pien just have to sweep it off.  But as for him - he will while sweeping, not happy about it..and sweep and sweep and also use water to clean it off.  Wah..

2) He told us that he doesn't like fire works and fire crackers during CNY (huh?  U are Chinese boh? And it is once a year event - don't you feel happy and excited about it?) For him - those stuff just make the place dirty nia.  And he said he won't play any of it as doesn't wan to dirty his house or compound.  (But even then, he was not around..he was NEVER AROUND DURING ANY OCCASIONS)

3) When got some fire c's paper flied to his place..he tegur Mr.  Abang and said that it was ours.  Mr.  Abang asked him how did he knows it was ours as there is no names printed on it..and wind may blows from every different direction..it may not just be us. And his answer was- "becos you are next to me..." Huh?  What about the other side leh?? Aiyoyo

4)  When he saw any left overs fire works at his place - he just picked it and throw it to our compound!!!  As what he claimed - becos we are next to him.  We are on his left side and he is on our right side...

5)  Another neighbour told me this - when our neighbourhood intended to have this Rukun Tetangga @ Neighborhood Watch Group, he told that jiran that he doesn't wan to be involve as wan to avoid trouble and ma huan.  When the neighbor said that got kes kecurian, he said not his house!!!!!!  Aiyoyo..and then he even claimed that as he is seldom here....he doesn't wan to be part of anything and mai bz body.  Aiyoyo..it is not about bz body, it is about working together to maintain the safety of the area...aiii.

6) During CNY - even if he is around, the family will just locked the gate and door and totally quiet inside there....scary....

So, conclusion...........aii.. I don't understand lah.  If in the morning, before he went out and he saw me, he normally will approach me to have a conversation.  Have a nice good conversation..that's y a bit shocking when he react like that as I am not his enemy or anything but why need to have such a reaction.

Forget about himlah...its CNY mood now.  Now, can take this break to clear my house, relax and do some decorations stuff around.  Enjoy myself =)

Boh Eng...10/1/14 

Just boh eng...si bei boh eng...24 hours not enuf..talking about sleep latest by 12 am...aiyoyo..if can sleep before 2 am consider very good liao.  Now almost every nite sleep after 3 am or just cun 3 am.  Y? Do this for CNY, do that for my children.  Promise my children that as for this year, whatever works I get back from them..I try my very best (keep my fingers cross)..I gave it back to them the next following week...try try try!

And now..bz with CNY..at the same time school also just reopened..aiyoyo...need to get my angels to settle down too...aiiiiii...

So, in between this hectic schedules...to make myself happy..go to my happy place which is Green Gallery.  Many things to see there..unique and cute stuff.  And whenever I went there..the mood of CNY is getting stronger..so feel better and xcited..hahaha.  

Have to stop my entry now as need to get back to work..now is already 1.25 am...huhuhu =( 

Remorse.... 3/1/14

In life....I believe everyone has something that they do feel remorse (yee han)..mine..simple - feel remorse for not doing my braces earlier.  And now by this age - don't want liao lah as lao ah ma already.  Do braces for what? Later braces my teeth sui sui and once getting old, all the teeth started to fall down one by one...then left what?  Aiyah..and need to spend so much money and endure so much pain some more..mai liao lah.  Well, feel regret..been...aii.  Forget about it...

Today - also heard a very ko lien case.  A 17 years old boy died on the spot due to a car accident.  His future/potential gf cried like siao.  Y I said future/potential gf?  Well, this boy has been going after the girl for almost 2 years but they had not confirm anything yet.  The girl has never officially accepting the boy as her bf eventho it is obviously that the boy go head over heel for her and even his family treating the girl just like their daughter in law.  But now....aii...this case certainly will be a case of remorse (yee han) for life.

We tend to take things for granted.  We tend to always think that there is always tomoro for everything.  We tend to procrastinate thing.  We tend to tell ourselves always got time and opportunity.  We tend to tell ourselves, never mind delay a bit nia..tomoro also can.  We tend to tell ourselves - no money ah..cant do.  We tend to tell ourselves...save this and that lah..save for tomoro..save for future.

And yet - alas...we don't even know what may happen on the next minute?  Life is too short for us just to sit there, plan and plan and plan, think and think and think - and yet ended up doing nothing.

U see lah ya...

1) Delay and delay so long - house never clean...

2) Wait and wait so long - now the boy not around (my deepest condolence...)

3) Save and save so much - u sure u are alive to spend everything ah?

Sounds cruel ya?  But that's the fact of life - that's reality.  That's y starting two years ago....what ever I wanted to do..I will always plan and do immediately (oophs except for my house case lah..aiiiii...luan ah!)

To everyone out there - this is just the third day of 2014..have we done enough for last year?  Do we want to live in remorse?   

Stress =( ...2/1/14

Aiyoyo - baru school starts nia..I already used this word, not a good sign ya?  Don't know y, I am really si bei stress.  Really really stress oh.  More stress than when I am still working.  Don't know y... 

Maybe stress as due to:

1) Own angels going to school tomoro...not worry about the eldest but worry about the youngest..Another new year with new teachers and harder syllabus - can he copes?  Aiyoyo, keep my fingers cross....

2) Stress - as this year time table is more hectic than last year and more to prepare. Stress loh....

3) Stress as I felt that I didn't make full use of my holiday.  Aiyah - should have done and prepare more things.  And even more stress as this is the first time @ first year I failed to clean up my house for the new year!  Aiyoyo - how come?  Most of the rooms still luan luan - chaotic.  Only certain place @ corner clean nia..cham liao lah this time.  When it is near to CNY - memang susah liao lah.  Even more to clean up..aiyoyo

Stress, stress....aiyoyo - better don't talk about that.  Think of something more happy and positive...CNY coming soon lah...my children achievement last year...positive positive..positive.  Better doze off now liao as tomoro need to be early too.  Positive!!

Bye-bye 2013 and Welcome 2014...1/1/14 

Hi...time flies ya?  2014 now...my resolutions for this year:

1) Do better for my family and my children for this year...my group of 15 years old children did extremely well in their 2013 "Battle Zone"..so proud of them.. WELL DONE!  Talk more about this in my upcoming post lah ya.... =)

2) Try to sleep latest by 12 am (I failed this section last year....aiiii)

3) Be more positive in everything - after all life is too short, live to the fullest and do the best we can while we are still breathing...alive!

Enough liao lah ya?  Now is already 12.20 am..but still here typing in my blog...hehehe...where got sleep latest by 12 am?  Hahaha...

Anyway, before I chao...just to wish everyone a Happy New Year 2014 and may this year usher u in with a lot of blessing and stay in the pinkest of health for 365 days ahead!  (Pssst..I had bought all my CNY decorations liao loh..what about u?  Si bei kin tio hor....remember ya..this year 2014 CNY is on 31st January......hehehe) 

Holiday...12/12/13 

Yesterday was 11/12/13.  A date that happened like in 19 or 29 years??  I don't know - someone told me that.  Anyway, whatever date or time it is - life goes on and things need to be done.  Had been away for a short break with Mr.  Abang and now back to old - normal routine.  The cleaning house process at the end of the year.  Something that I am not looking forward.  It always take ages to clear and clean everything.  Tons of rubbish..aiyoyo.

Don't know when do I stop my entry last year - but I guess for this year 2013, I will stop here lah ya.  Going to be a long weeks to clear off everything and in another 19 more days - it will be another bz daysss with my children around again =).  Then just about a month it will be CNY 2014 again.  Bz, bz, bz.  If u go to Kenyalang Park shopping complex - now they had already displaying CNY decorations stuff eventho Xmas is not even over yet!  CNY songs is booming here and there!  Hahaha..so with this - my last entry for this year 2013, once again I thanks everyone - to my children and to the parents, thanks for the kind trust and support for all these times, wishing you a pleasant hols and a blessed Christmas as well as a wonder year 2014 ahead.

To my children - I heard that the result will be announced on the 19th Dec 2013, dont' know whether it is true or not.  Always remember this: You had done your best and that's the most important thing.  The rest - trust and submit to HIM.  

Merry Christmas 2013 and Happy New Year 2014 =)

Anger..25/11/13 

Getting angry with someone really take up a lot of effort and take away a lot of good and positive energy away from us.  It gives us more headache and heartache too...I guess - now is the best time for me to learn to control my myself on this issue...aii..it is gonna be hard..really really really hard tho. Cross my fingers, pray for it..aii

Boring...19/11/13

As it is time to settle down - suppose to be the time of enjoying my rest and free time, but alas..always ended up can't sleep and boreeeee.  Mr.  Abang said I must be too use of being bz and now as very very free, wondering what to do pulak.

Haven't feel excited or have that holiday mood yet -maybe becos' I am holiday all the times..hahaha.  With the angels around me the whole time, have something to bz about. Also started to do more of my DIY stuff - going to get it done on time, so that can give it to my neighbors as Christmas gifts =)

Ahhhh...is this season again...I always miss this time - not becos of present all anything but I always miss the fellowship in my church and miss my church leader MT.  The one who is always there for me....If not becos of him, I won't have known HIM...

Like the Christmas' songs from Don Moen and Boney M...

Today...14/11/13 

Received a few calls and sms since 10.20 am.  Well, everyone had done their best especially the children.  So, to my dearest anak-anak - if u do get wat u want, CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU and maintain it all the way thru ya.  To my dearest anak-anak pula - if you dont get what u want, do know that we are all behind you.  We understand how u feel but u had done your best already.  It is already past liao, so look to the front..look to the future..and do your best for it!

Today - I baru got time to sit down and read in details regarding the typhoon Haiyan @ Yolanda that hit Philippines.  Ko lien...really really ko lien and cham.  Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul. 

Thru a friend @ church - some donation of $$ and items were done..ko lien. Let us pray for this people there..if u browse thru the Internet and look for the pictures...really ko lien...keep them in prayers, but at the same time be grateful that we are under God's mercy and blessing that we - are still here today........ 

Come to the River of Life - Don Moen 

Chalte Chalte...11/11/13

That is the name of a Bollywood's movie acted by Shah Rukh Khan and Rani Murkheji. This was the 4th times I watched this movie...and it never fails to make me wonder and marvel over it.  It was an interesting love story and a realistic story about a marriage life.

Well, as we walked in this journey - there will be ample of ups and downs in this life just like the late P. Ramlee's song, one of they lyric - sedangkan lidah dan gigi lagi tergigit, inikan pula suami dan isteri (from the movie Tiga Abdul).  That's undeniable. 

But most of the time, the situation get worst becos of people who are surrounding you, trying to be part of it - instead of helping out, it actually make the situation worst.  And not just that, some even pretends to help but they are actually just wanna know the story and the drama behind it and then later make their own version of story and share the news to other people.  Aiyoyo..si beh cham.  That's y whenever we share about our family's life with our close friends or vice versa- my last advice to them will always be this:

No matter how good u think ur family or ur friends' advices are, but the actual fact is that, non of them is in ur shoes.  No one will really understand how u feel and what u had gone thru.  All of them just can be a listener and a shoulder to cry on.  But as u really try to let them put on ur shoes or u wan to be in their shoes..mostly will shake their heads and says "I am sorry, I can't help much..that's all I can do".  By the end of the day, it is only u and ur spouse - trying to solve it - all on your own - back to square one again.  

Aii...u watch this movie....and let me know your point of views..interesting... 

Misha Omar - Bunga-bunga Cinta.  One of the popular Malay's song in the early 90's. Listening to a lot of Malay songs back in the 90's.  And I remember I also got a debate topic "Budaya Muzik Rock Banyak Mendatangkan Kebaikan daripada Keburukan". Aiyoyo..with this kind of topic and being the pencadang side @ government side, meaning that we have to side this topic.  That was my first time being pencadang (always on the opposition side..don't know why always kena this vote) - really really tough then.  Remember that one of my member was one of my children's mum now..hehehe..small world.  And we just won by a very very thin margin...just by one mark difference nia.  Phew.....

Show u another video - I think it must be the promotion video for this Marvel's movies and also the Thor 2.  Never like this bad guy Loki (Tom Hiddleston), but in here - he looks so cool leh.

How To Cope With An Incompetent Boss...5/11/13

That is the title of the article I read from Yahoo News.  Funny and nice article. Honestly speaking  -  after under few bosses - only two that deserve my respect. Our MD Dr.HAS and also Mr. GL.  The rest....aiiii...

Eventho I am not working now, heard friends comment that the "latest one"...hehehe...even the teeny weeny bit of things also need to consult other people. Aii...how to be a leader if can't even make a simple decision.  How to be a leader if can't even take up responsibility for any action taken?  Well, better don't comment so much - takut later controversy again.

Anyway, as u read thru the article - interesting lah...but I think the first point in the article - it can't be done.  As most leaders in our eastern side are not sooo open like the one on the western side.  Ours are always pantang ditegur.  Can't even be tegur eventho if we talk nicely to them.  These leaders tend to think that they are right just becos they are leader and sit in the higher position than you.  But one has to remember this - respect is earn thru ur works and effort..not thru fear and authority.  If u get ur respect thru fear and authority (power becos of having a higher position) when u are out from that position - then u gonna lost everything.  Not only losing your respect from others but also lose out ur friends.   Well, just my 20 cents opinionlah...

Before I chao..just another 20 cents opinion to anyone who decided to be a leader and think that they can be a leader:

1) Leader must dare to make decision

2) Leader must dare to face up any consequence upon his/her decision

3) Leader must be willing to bear all the consequences either becos of his/her own actions or becos of his/her subordinates's action.  That's y people always said - when thing happened, its always the leader that kena first.  And when the ship sink - it should be the captain that stay with the ship till to the end.  Mana ada the captain saves himself/herself first?

Just one thing I don't understand, why some people still wan to be the "head" in everything eventho when it is obviously that he/she is incapable of doing so?  And I remember my former MD told me (told everyone in a meeting before) - he will prefer to have a simple man to lead the team than to have a man who thinks so highly of himself and yet he was just a nothing.  Wow......

That's the reason y I never like to be a leader - as I view myself as "not capable".  If really force to, I prefer to be the second man enough liao lah.  Not that becos I am scare of responsibility, as honestly - I think I am not capable.  Further more, when we do something..it is not about who gets the credit.  It is the sense of achievement that I want and see the things work out smoothly, u just feel so proud and happy about it.  

I remember when I helped my friends (only a few nia lah) to be their event wedding planner - no one even know who am I.  Some thought I was just a busy photographer walking around on that nite, some even thought tat I was just another "bz body" fren walking around.  During the time when I was with the event company - some don't even know that I was the leader for the team - no one congratulates me or say anything to me when things worked out smoothly, but once anything went wrong - my name will be the first to be called out...aiiii.  Boh pien...

But as I sit down and think of all of these - fun actually. Ohh..before I chao..include the link of that article here.  Enjoylah ya...

http://my.news.yahoo.com/cope-incompetent-boss-145710819.html?temp-new-window-replacement=true

Family Gathering...2/11/13 

Have a family gathering at Rajah Court today - about 40 plus of us - 6 families and 3 generations.  Initially was thinking of not attending as feeling a bit tired and without Mr. Abang around - not really in the mood to go.  But alas - worry that might be regard as a "kill joy", I decided to go.  I thot it will just be a normal gathering with people eat and walking around but I never thot that it will leave an impact on me.

I thot it will just another "hi and bye" gathering but well, at least I get the chance to hug my "long -time-didn't see" Aunty (for more than 10 years tho)..don't know y I cried pula.  I guess - hugging her at that moment gave me a few feelings.  It remind me of how long I had my life without my relatives around me, how long we havent get in touch - to really talk and concern about each other and it also remind me of my own mum.  I guess the last feeling is the most important thing - hugging my youngest aunty remind me soo much of my mum.  If my mum is still around - u will be able to see the 3 generations of mums, sons, daughters and grandchildren talking and playing around.

Today is also the day - I had a long talk with my eldest nephew which remind me so much of how close we were when he was very young.  When he was born until he was like 4 years old, I am the closest to him.  Bathed him, fed him, tuck him to bed...everything were done by me.  He was sooo much attached to me to the extend - even if I went to the washroom, he will be waiting for me outside the door.  Today - as I talked to him after all these years - finally I realised that..wow...he is really grown up man now.  A man with an ambition in life and has a 5 years planning in mind

With all my families member around....I guess by the end - no matter how rich or how successful we are - it is still down to one thing - families are still the top in life.  But I guess sometimes the reality of life tends to pull us far far away from this.

It is hard to juggle between these when we are right in the middle of the reality of life..and also the importance of family.  Wanna to be close - mean less time in working and less $$...when close to family and have more time with them - mean less time in work and also less in $$..then when less in $$..many things will tag along...aii...

Really susah......but no matter what..at the end of the day - I told my nephew - one thing...as a normal human - we tend to be either too unrealistic or too realistic and then one as we get older, we turned back, we may either regret or be happy with our decision.  Either happy or not...life goes on.  One cannot stay or linger in that situation - we have to pursue on as life is too short.  But above all - always be thankful to God...

Finally..But Not Sure..19/10/13 

Well, we finally made our decision..but don't know y I am not excited or happy about it at all.  We are not the type that just leave them behind..aiii.. So susah like this.  Aii...see how lah..maybe I'll change my mind by end of this month or beginning of Nov.

This is a major step..a huge step for us..a bit worry and scare oh...sakai-sakai like that..aiyah.  One step at a time......pray..pray...

Before I zzzzz...rest before tomoro another long day...include a few videos here...

1st video - The soundtrack from the movie, The Last Mohican - Promentory.  I never watch the movie, just that I like this music.  

Next...introduce u to my "SIFU" video...well, I have a few sifu around.  The experts in my line is RH and also CGY...those that I normally consult whenever I have problem with what I am doing now...

The SIFU video that I want to intro to you..is...only a few people know this interest of mine (now u know liao lah..)...that is in photography.  Can't show u the photos that I snapped as it's mostly people's @ friends' wedding (only a few nia lah)...so its their personal photos..and some other amateur looking photos..ahahaha.  Well...used to have a complete sets of Canon - by what I mean complete sets were...any kind of lense..watever type..u name..I have it. Not mine lah actually - is Mr.  Abang's one.  Used the word "were" becos..now no more liao.  Due to financial crisis (huhuhu)..we sold it off to a friend - very very cheap.  Aiii..we even sold a 12 pcs of drum (is that how they called it? - is like a complete set of drum...) with a very very cheap price too...huhuhu.

Ok..ok..back to that SIFU.  Actually, I never like this type of stuff - not even when Mr Abang tried to persuade me to take it up or fall in love with it as I find it too technical and too "catchy" for a person like me.  Although I like creative stuff but still, this one too technical.  But as I get to know this SIFU...wow...it is really an eye opener!  His masterpiece is super duper zuper KENG CHAO oh.  And he makes me fall in love with photography.  If I am not mistaken he is the WORLD NUMBER FIVE or it is TOP FIVE IN ASEAN...won a lot of awards for his master piece...and can u imagine..to get him to do a wedding photoshoot..u need to be at least booking him A YEAR OR TWO IN ADVANCE!  And his charges...wah lao eh...havent even include the flight and accommodation..just his professional charges nia...already counted from thousand and thousand liao. Not RM hor..it is USD hor...

Well...he is none other than the SIFU of Photographer... MR CM LEUNG from Hong Kong.  He was at KL few years ago (if I am not mistaken he opened up a studio in KL)...giving a seminar...and his charges for it...wah lao eh.  Almost attend with Mr.  Abang but tak jadi as no equipment and tooooooo amateur..hahaha.

2nd  and 3rd video - Mr CM Leung's master piece....wah........

Enjoy the videos.......=)

No offense to anyone..but so far, I havent see any photographer that can make me soooo "fall in love" and mesmerize by their works yet.  None...really..except for this sifu.  My view regarding this field totally change after I saw his work..and the first piece that I saw from his website and also his FB was this: 

And this particular photo was transformed into this: 

Well of cos lah..this photo oso gone thru photoshop lah..but I believe without a good technic, skill..knowing the rite timing, angle and lighting..it is hard to snap this kind of photo too.  And according to all this Sifu's comment..it's not about photoshop - he doesnt use much of this software...its more about playing with the lighting and fabric use in this photoshoot.  No wonder..when u see his photos..all the baju pengantin sure got terbang-terbang one..

I like photos that are not toooo colorful.  Not like so many people that tends to snap their pre-wedding photos...very very and extremely colorful.  I know its portray happiness...but if not sui....emmm...For me...I guess..my focus is more on the artistic side of it the work...I guess..that's y whenever we gave present to anyone..we always wrapped it in a very macam-macam way.  Ribbonslah...sticklah..flowerslah....and not just merely wrapped it up with present paper.  Must have that seni..artistic value...hehehe.  

And honestly, there are some things that I always wonder too:

1) Y graduation photo must be taken with the background of a rack full with books?  So outdated lah.....

2)  Y family photo must be taken with the background of either in a "home like studio" or a background of "living room"?  Wah lao..si bei kolot....

3) Sorry to say this...y ...ah...when people "went home to the Lord" (sorry ya no offense just my 20 cents thots)..must use a passport size photo and its normally black and white some more?  Look so sorrowful....

Told Mr.  Abang before..when it's my "time'...pleaselah...don't use that kind of photo.  It is already sad enuf.  Look at that kind of photo..even more sad oh.  I want mine to be happy go lucky..smiling...jumping...running or watever..photo in my best colorful suit. At least lah rite..when people looked at the photo..people might said:  Aiyo..so kolien..so sui..so cheerful already..............hahahahaha.  Just my opinionlah...

So, u wan to know more about this Sifu in photographer - look up in his FB under the name CM Leung or CM Leung Gallery..or just google up his name...see his works!

Thinking...14/10/13 

A friend asked me..isnt it ma huan to maintain a blog?  Yup..it is....a lot of things to update and now with so many broken links (the videos)..need to update it one by one..do it by end of this year (hope so....)  Blog - for me, as mentioned before, it is just a place to share my thoughts and vents my frustration (sometimes..) and the next idea on why I should have a blog is....when people grows old...die one day..normal cycle of life. So, one day as it reach to that stage..at least..when my angels read my blog...can give them a sense and feelings of me around and what I had in mind for all these times....a place for them to know that I am always with them.....=)

For the past 3 weeks and dayssssssss..had been bog down with one issue.  Aiyah..so susah oh wan to make decision.  Aii...really really not use not to have them around. Where ever I go and what ever I do, sure will bring them around and sure will have them tag along.   We are not the type that just leave them with others and go out and have our own day out..really really not use to it.  But amazingly..the elder one was saying its ok as this elder one intend to spend some time with the family at other place.  And even asked us to do our survey over there first before bringing them along.  Aiyoyo...really susah for me to decide...see how lah in a day or two..or more...??? Aiii

For the past few weeks..also had been thinking...how oh to help this few children of mine?  They had been out of my "field" for almost 2 years now and then suddenly here again...really really want to help them but only see them recently for the past 3 months and now left with less than a month...really really don't know where to start, how to start and what to do with them.  If it is from beginning...well certainly know how to handle..how to plan and what to do with them.  Even if not 90 percent guarantee..but at least 80 percent yakin...but now.....how?  2 years stuff in 3 months time?  Now is like 2 years stuff in 3 weeks plus time?  Sure die kiao kiao oh tis time...Feel so lost..so sorry for them....and yet they are so kuai and so willing...aiyo so pity oh........now..everyone must do and try their best liao lah....

Wan to get some sleep now...as usual..show u two some videos here...one is from the group Guys Next Door again with their song Magic Night and next is from the Irish group which calls themselves as Celtic Woman - You Raise Me Up which was originally sing by Josh Groban (have the video here). Wah lao..when u listen to this women sing...goose bump oh..nice voice and pretty....Especially the group leader (I guess) the one that sings the Field of Gold..wah..she is sooo sweet!  This group sings live oh..with this kind of voice...wah lao..I think even birds pun have to bow their heads and clapped their wings ah.  And I memang like song that have this kind of beat/tune..something like Enya song? Remember her?  Orinoco Flow? Put up two versions here..one from Enya and one from Celtic Woman. No wonder I like the Lord of The Rings soundtrack..emmm

Incidents...6/10/13

Few incidents:

1) "Despatch' my group of 15 years old children to their "Battle Zone" last Wed.  First day is always the most spooky day for them.  But as I see thru the both papers..honestly I am happy with it.  I am happy in the sense of most of the questions had been discussed before and the essay paper was as predicted.  Happy..happy..happy.  But well, anyway, no matter how cun and how good is our prediction regarding the questions..it still go down to one issue...question targeted cun is one issue..whether they can answer or not is another issue.  If cun target but can't answer...aiiiiii.  Well, must have confident with my children.  Surely they had done their best and the rest is up to HIM liao.

2) A bit terasa as all of them left now...not use to not seeing them around.  And the most terasa was, during the last session, don't really have the chance to talk properly to each and everyone of them, to bid them farewell and to wish them the best of luck. Not like the past few groups...aiii..sayang.  

3)  After the first day was over, a dad called me up and asked told me that her daughter cried so badly after the paper was over due to certain issue.  So I quickly called up a few of my friends from Sabah and West Malaysia..whom are very very much "related to the paper" to ask for their opinion regarding that particular issue.  Thank God that they told me....it won't be penalized or anything as it is not regarded as a mistake.  One even asked me this " U semak karangankah or u semak nombornya?"  He even told me that normally this kind of "news" were made known to the children just to make sure that they are more attentive to their papers as not every subject may allow such a "kecuaian"...but as for this paper..it is ok....they wont mind..So to my children..no worry...... =)

4)  Went to with Mr. Abang to Pizza Hut to have our lunch.  Intend to eat some there and order some tapao for our angels too.  As we were just about to order something to be tapao - one of the staff (girl) said this to us:

"Oh..yang ini tak boleh tapao..only can eat here".  

Me and Mr Abang looked at each other...Ok, fine...cannot tapao so..we order everything that we want (the one that we intend to dine in and the one that we actually intend to tapao) and asked them to serve it to us.  So..after 15 - 20 minutes...a LOTTTTTT of food were on our table.  So, we take our own sweet time, eating the food that we memang intend to dine in and at the same time...leave aside the one that we memang intend to tapao in the first place.  So after the meal, we asked the girl to tapao the food for us....and the funny thing was, she just glare at us and boh pien need to tapao the rest of the food on the table.  The so-called "some-food-cannot take-away" policy ya..I wonder who is "SOOOO SMART" to come out with such a "BRILLIANT" idea!! =))

I remember long way back when this certain KFC restaurant had this kind of policy whereby u can't choose the part of chicken that you like.  They will give u the combination of either one wing or drumstick with one thigh or rib but not two thighs or ribs part as those two parts are consider as the bigger portion part of the meat.  So if u intend to have two ribs @ two thighs @ one rib and one thigh..they will charge u extra per ringgit for per part.  (I wonder do the KFC head office or main company know about this or not huh?)..  Even after u had paid for it accordingly to the price stated on the menu..u are still not allow the freedom to choose.  

So, I remember there was this once time...me and Mr Abang we went to this particular KFC and asked for a snack plate (2 pieces of chicken + coleslaw + mash potato).  And when we asked for two ribs and two thighs..the girl refused it gently but said that we may have it so..provided we are willing to pay extra RM 4 ringgit for all the 4 pieces. Well, ok..first of all, its not that we are stingy or kedekut or wan to be so calculative just for this RM 4..but as far as we know..other KFC restaurants (beside this particular one nia) all allowed their customers to choose!  Secondly..I don't think this is the policy made by the main office or what..becos if it is from the main office, then every other KFC for sure will implement the same policy - but they dont boh.

I think, after few months doing so, I guess their biz must had been deteriorated as when we went back much later...there is no such policy anymore.  I guess, they must had been worry as customers started going to other KFC which offer them much more choice and further more that is not the only KFC in town tho!

5)  Now bz with my other group children...preparing them for their upcoming battle zones too.  phew..

6)  At the same time...bz with all the DIY projects especially for next year CNY.  Si bei kin tio ya??? Hehehehe...next year CNY is on the 31st January..so need to get ready soon oh..or else every year clear and clean like siao!!

7) Can't wait for this coming Dec as had many plans coming up.....want to rest too...

So, that's all for this time...wanna zzzzz at this moment.....Before I chao...upload one video here...it is from the 80's group - Guys Next Door with I Was Made for You.  I remembered that when I was young..I will glue to the tv from 8.30 until 9 pm just to watch their shows.

Many Things Ah...4/10/13

Many things happened during the last few days..and well..thank God..all of it are the good-good things.  Praise the Lord =)  Will share more next time as still need to rush some of my works here for the "bigger" and "older" group.  A bit blur now as not sure what to do with them...but well, will try my best.  Go now..chao =) 

All The Best...1/10/13 

Is this season again....at last..my final session with them...last from 6pm about 10.30pm.  This was consider the earliest liao...consider the last two years one.  They went home after 1am and the last year group went home around 3 something in the morning.  By the time I settled down it was like 4 am! Phew...

Well..gonna miss all of them.  Don't wan to comment much now as tired..with many things to do and settle today plus my youngest angel was not feeling well...coughing...fever on and off and vomit now and then...aii.  

So, to my children.........ALL THE BEST YA!  You can do it.  Must have confident in yourself..and the rest just submit to HIM.  My best thots and prayers are with you guys!!! Loooooot nia!! =) 

Unhappy...26/9/13 

Something happened to my youngest angel in school today.  Well, I am not expecting for a sorry or anything, but I am expecting a good answer and explanation for it. Tomoro, we will c how.

For the past few days...mood was not that good. Bzz + don't know y having body ache and head ache now and then.  Worst...can feel that the nerves on my neck (the left hand side)..swollen badly...and it has been swollen since the last Thurs  Normally, when this thing happened, its a sign that I am stress. Not good, not good. Maybe it was due to that this is the final week before all my 15 years old anak-anak match into their "Battle Zone"...aiyo yo... phew..kin tio!  Gonna miss them a lot...really.  Gonna miss TC, IN and JW good write ups.  Gonna miss OL funny expression...gonna miss KL phrase - "looooot nia"..hahaha....gonna miss the super duper cool dude from BL, AZ and JG. Miss sum of their ham sap jokes from LV and OJR..hahahaha.  Some has been with me since they were like 9 years old til now....wow.  The ever vibrant and hardworking IC...well..the list just go on and on...gonna miss them all.  

After this batch......no more such battle zone liao..aii.  Hopefully the quality can be maintained... Now, is already 2 am...doing my works and in order to make sure that I don't zzzzzz...listening to some music...intend to be awake the whole morning today..see whether I can tahan or not...not  young liao..a bit lack of sleep nia...body ache like siao now..cham...even a tong of black coffee oso bo yong liao.  Just now baru wallop 3 cups of kopi susu peng...but eyes lid still...aiyo.........gonna run now..gonna do my work before I really zzzzzzzzzzzz

Boh Eng...22/9/13 

Really bin very boh eng...with a lot of things here and there in hand...wait till at least Oct lah ya..then I can update more...c u guys in Oct then... =) 

Dilemma...12/9/13 

Some of my anak-anak keep on asking me for answers..aiyah...over liao...don't think liao.  Concentrate on your upcoming papers.  U had done ur best already.  The rest is..let HIM do HIS work liao.  And after today..u can enjoy..MERDEKA ..for a while..hehehe =))

Aiii..as for me, had been in dilemma for the past few days.  Don't know whether it is the right thing to do or not.  All this time, never has this chance..and finally..I guess - my prayer was answered.  But then...aii..me pulak susah hati. Wan or not ..wan or not...aiyah.  Mr.  Abang pula said, if don't maybe next time no such chance liao.  Friends pula said..should, must....sayang oh.  Sister pula said..if can..y not?  Good..worth it.  Aiyah..me susah hati here oh..at first so excited, so teruja..but now..aiyah...let me think think again...

All  The Best...10/9/13 

Last two days...was my last session with my group of 12 years old children. Aiii...today..they are going to march into their "battle zone".  So many news and speculation regarding what may be out...Well, no matter what, if they had tried and done their best for this day..I believe that no matter what comes across their path, they can overcome it successfully!!  

To my children, ALL THE BEST YA!  HAVE CONFIDENT IN YOURSELF AND TRUST IN THE LORD!

Aiii.....this day again....................

Not Good...4/9/13 

Back...but not in tip top condition...and not really a good experience...will share more next time as need to sleep after med...aiiii 

Ai Say Man...21/8/13 

SRK concert..if wan to sit the nearest to the stage..they called it as Diamond Platinum...early bird is RM 1599 and the normal rate is RM 1999.  Wow....not worth it at all.  If me and Mr Abang go....wah lao eh....havent plus in the other logistic stuff..aiyoyo.  I dah agak that it is going to be super expensive liao lah..as the last time at Indonesia..the ticket is around RM 1400.  Aiyoyo...and the friends he brings along..is Mahduri Dixit and a popular DJ guy from India...well..not interested in these two tho...so not going leh....not worth it....

Now..it is count down time...tik tok tik tok..waiting for the end of this month and next month...then at least ....can "breath a bit" liao..phew. Keep my fingers cross and pray pray pray...but another one is on the way...huhuhu...pray pray pray... 

Something from the 80's.  I don't really know the details of these two singers but I do know that I like these songs.  The first one is Swiss Boy - Lou Sern and the second one is Ken Laszlo - Tonight.  In my opinion, eventhough it may be the 80's and more to clean cut looks, but I think, this clean cut looks is much much better than the K-pop group whereby most of the men did and do use make up..it is not just merely foundation and some lip gloss liao..it is more than that.  Eye liner...eye shadow..yhew....And many young teens boys like to imitate this K-pop style.  Well, it may be the latest trend or fashion...but do bear in mind that latest trend or fashion doesnt mean that it suits everyone or anyone.  Some may look nice in it but some...aduh duh....=p

The Power of...16/8/13 

Today...was extremely tired..as don't really eat..and don't really have appetite.  Sleep very very late almost every nite and wake up very early every morning.  And then "working" whole day pula. 

Now must be the extreme stress moment as the younger group just left 3 weeks before marching into their "battle zone"..aii super worry and kin tio for them.  Today, I agak already liao I must be very emotional when I c them but alas no matter how I tahan...I burst into tears as "lecturing" them about their studies.  Aii...very disappointed with some...it is like left only 3 weeks nia and yet it is me and the parents more anxious than them.  I cried - becos of your don't care attitude....I cried - becos it shows that u don't appreciate all the things which had been done by everyone for you....I cried - as I don't understand, y....when u guys are born with silver spoon or "gold spoon" in mouth, study suppose to be the easiest thing to do..u don't have to worry about anything at all just ur own role to study now...and yet u guys failed to do so....I cried - becos u don't know that sometimes ur dad and mun called me up..talked to me about how they feel until they cried on the phone..u don't feel their pain and their sorrow..and their hope for u....

Children, you study for yourself..not for me..not for anyone....but for yourself.  U do well...not for anyone..but at least for yourself.  The power of determination....aiii...

Putting a very high expectation especially for those that had been with me since very young and long time..and so it is really disappointed to see their "test" result today.  Aii....so boh pien rotan some of them.  The pain in your hand is the pain in my heart.

So kinda down and tired for the past few days....very boh eng and memang just prison at home nia.  Aiii....I also must endure...after these 2 months nia...yeah I am free!  But like one of my child said...."U sure u happy ah after we left?"  Well...children - u guys are always very close and dear to my heart  Some..I c u as young as when u were just 9 years old..and now u are already 15.  That is 6 years in total my dear...the laughter...the joke ..the angry..the nagging part.....it will always be there.  Some - the whole family are there!  Some - I c u everyday!!! Aii.....need to listen to song to boost up my mood...

We Will Meet You There (Album Firm Foundation) - the worship leader is John Chisum.  This is one of my favourite album.  John Chisum is among my fav worship leader besides Don Moen and Bob Fitts.  Whenever I am tired or down, I always like to listen to this song...don't know y..it's just give me a nice and peaceful feeling....

SRK Is Coming...12/8/13 

Ohhh...Shah Rukh Khan (SRK) is going to KL!!  According to the news - he will brings along his few Bollywood's friends but so far no official announcement on who is coming along with him.  Was thinking of going, wonder whether Mr.  Abang wants to accompany me or not leh.  

Well, I miss out my idol @ Beyond once...feel a bit gong lah..if miss out this one.  If buy the normal ticket and just watch from far...then wat for leh.  That is just like watching from tv nia.  Emm..since there is no further news to this news...wait and c.

Well, he  may not be the most handsome guy compare to the other Bollywood actors..but once u watch his movie..u will agree that he is indeed the King of Bollywood and they even call him as the King Khan.  And one more good reason for me to admire him is that..I think Mr.  Abang looks like him loh.  Hahaha..si beh perasan 

Arjun Rampal - another fav Bollywood actor.  Not as popular as SRK tho but still I like him as due to again...I think Mr.  Abang looks like him loh...hahahahaha =p.  They both had acted in the movie Om Shanti Om and Ra.One but AR is a villain in both movies.  

Ah..this one Hitrik Roshan..both of my sisters's favourite.  They told me they had watched one of his love story movie (English movie) but I dont know which one. I had watched quite a few of his movies..and well I admit lah he is handsome tho and among the three, I guess most would say he is the the most handsome..plus he has this "genuine" green eyes which make him even more better looking.  But I don't like him as an actor as:

1) When he acts...compare to the other two...macam kayu balak.  The face expression..aiyoyo...especially in the movie Sanjana.

2)  For me, he looks a bit like Sylvester Stallone...ohohoh...and both of them has that cleft chin..ohoh

Oh...there is one actor from Hollywood - Ryan Reynolds, both of them kinda alike especially when Ryan Reynolds in this movie The Green Lantern, the part where he has his mask on.

Back to HR...among all his movies that I had watched..I only like Jodhaa Akbar.  It is an epic movie base on a true history and since I like epic movie (Lord of the Ring) and history, so I was glue to it.  Plus in this movie, this is the first time that I think he is really really nice looking.  In term of height, he is the second among the three..stands at 6 feet..AR - 6 ft 2 and SRK - 5 ft 10.

Phir Bhi Dil Hai Hindustani - SRK with Juhi Chawla. Old movie liao...the song title is also the movie title.  The song and the movie focus is more to about being an Indian and be proud of it.  

Dastaan- E. Song from the movie Om Shanti Om.  It was almost the end of the movie liao.  In this song, SRK was actually singing about (lip synch lah) what AR has done to them and especially the girl - Deepika Padukone.  

Stress Ah...9/8/13 

This month seems to be sooooo loooong.  Really long loh........... Many things to handle and juggle at the same time.  So many downs part and none is the ups side of it..aii.  Have to really learn to look at the brighter side and trust in the Lord.  Ah bo really going to be in total depression mode..aiii.

Few incidents happened during the last few days - funny oso got..annoying oso got.  

1) A 10 years old child told me that - no matter what kind of pic is given to him as long as got girls inside the pic..he wont use any girls' name at all to write his sentences.  Aiyoyo..like that how to get mark for the first section.  So, take a few minutes to explain to him that it is very crucial to understand the instruction as well as to obey it or else it means "zero" oh....

2) Gave out a time table regarding all the things needed to do.  Then someone called me up and this is the conversation:

A: Is this......................?

Me: Yup.

A: Is your .........on A day and B day on?

Me: Yup, on as usual. No holidays....

A: I c....but I can't attend on A and B day...do u have other time?

Me: Got..u may go to C and D day.

A: Err......can I go on E day then?

Me: Sorry, I don't have anything on E day. Only A and B day.

A: What about F day?  Can I go on F day?

Me: (HUH?) Sorry oh, don't have F day too. Only C and D day.

A: So, I can't go on E and F day lah?

Me: Sorry, no oh.

A: Why E and F day don't have leh?

Aiyoyo....at that time...memang annoy liao.  Already said liao mah..don't have bah.  Apa pula want to ask me y don't have leh?  Then although felt annoy liao but boh pien have to explain to A that becos I need time to rest and time for my family too.  Aiii...

Now, gotta run liao...as want to take a short nap before carry on with my works..

Include two songs from the album - the immediate album after the lead singer's Wong Ka Kui passed away.  This was their last album that I bought - as without the lead singer, kinda felt that the songs are not the same anymore and not my cup of tea already.  It sounds more "rock and harsh".  In this album, I only like one song..that is the 2nd one that I listed below.  The 1st song, ok-ok nia lah.  A good song to shout and scream when I need to release tension..hehehe =)

1st - 遙遠的Paradise (Far Away Paradise)

2nd - 仍然是要闖 (Try to get the translation but all seems to be not correct...)

Boh Eng + Stress =( ...2/8/13

Super boh eng..super stress...the younger group has only a month left before marching off to their "battle" field.  Y always like this oh?  They are the one who enter that zone..we are the one that stress and super kin tio.  Aiyoyo....

To my children, only a month left nia...this is the last month for you to pia and strive hard.  Whatever games and movies that u want to watch...just..just leave it alone for this one more month nia.  And after the "battle", u can play days and nites and watever u wan oso..no one will comment anything.  So, just for this month....strive hard, strive hard..try and do ur best! We sama-sama fight for it =) 

Tired...23/7/13 

My two days off day over liao...aii..Gonna start my normal routine from Wed till Sun (Last Sun - I really talked non stop from 5pm - 8pm...ai c loh, no wonder my voice getting more husky now). Well as usual, keep my fingers cross and hope that this tension weeks and months be over soon..but at the same time...deep down in my heart I know that once the time is up...aiii...gonna miss them a lot.  See them from young...some was as young as 9 plus till now age 12 and 15..wah...really a long time ya.

Last few days, was bz surveying for information and preparing stuff for my children. So, my days were spent in front of computer - typing stuff and listen to music at the same time.  Practically, a "prisoner" at home now =(.  Out - is just to eat and buy food...And one thing I realize, now...only can update my blog once a week.  Oklah..better than nothing. Before I sign off to go for my beauty sleep......include a few Beyond's songs again.  C ya =)

Beyond -  開場&爆裂都市 (Beyond Summer Holiday's MTV).  Like this song a lot.  I remember I used to full blast this song....my neighbour can tahan or not I don't know lah..but surely the whole neighborhood also know that I admire this group.. =p

The 1st video, is the MTV or short movie @ show that they did for summer holiday. I remember I bought that video before..either consists of 4 or 6 videos...cant remember where I put it (or is it I threw it away??)

Beyond -  送給不懂環保的人(包括我).  From the same video tho =)

Reality Check...16/7/13 

Watched a very interesting Philippines movie about a married couple with 2 kids and on the opposite about a couple that intends to get marry but in a very difficult situation due to both sides parents.

The married couple with 2 kids...fight, fight, fight and argue, argue, argue due to the reason of $$$.  A average family...both get married becos of love and by the end both want a divorce due to money.  Their lawyers conclusion is: People get married becos of love but people get divorce becos of $.  So if the divorce is not becos of the reason out of love..is it worth it to divorce becos of $ whereas in the first place the relationship is built on love and not money.. Y now after married for 17 years..baru want to divorce due to money?  

Then the couple that about to get marry pula..this one funny loh.  The girl wan to get marry at Bora Bora (the world most beautiful resort) and the total cost of the marriage is 1 MILLION!!! =)))  The girl's mum super happy and the boy's mum super angry. So, as it is way to expensive, they decided to have it at one of the local resort name La Banos or Lo Banos to which the girl describe as a "garbage dump" but unwillingly accept the propose place as the boy totally cant affort Bora Bora but it comes with a compromise.  To compensate up for the venue situation, the girl insisted that all their wedding attires must be design by a popular designer in town. The boy boh pien..=p....Then, when it comes to decide the color theme of the wedding, the girl's side want all purple, but the boy's mum beh kam guan.  She insisted tat she must be different from others..she is the MUM OF THE BRIDEGROOM, she must looks different!  She want her dress for that nite to be in INDIGO =)))) and not "purplish" like everyone!  So this couple boh pien again...asked the designer to re design and re do the boy's mum gown into indigo color.  

Then when the girl's mum comes to see her gown at the designer place pulak, she saw that the boy's mum gown..the color is different from others (Purple and Indigo??).  And she kept on pestering two of them...y she pulak must folo their theme while the boy's mum can chose INDIGO?.  So in order to please her...they asked the designer to specially designs her gown with some nice beads on it...hahahah. =))

When the boy's mum re visit the place and saw the baju with beads on it...wah...cham loh cham loh.  She was super upset!  She claimed that the girl's mum purposely wan to stole the lime light of the nite!  If her dress can be shining and gleaming..y not hers one pula!  And she requested her to be re design with some diamond and pearl on it to make her gown more shining and grand!  At this moment..instead of saving up, they are actually spending more money to please each other mums by altering the dress now and then and adding in more items.  The designer pulak felt that he wan to scream his heart out and he said to the couple... "Aku bukan saja akan letak intan dan mutiara..nanti aku letak bunga api dengan bom sekali!! Biar meletup-letup baju tu nanti!"  The designer beh tahan liao..hahahaha.

And come to the "person who brings the ring"...it suppose to be just one person bring in 2 rings rite?  But becos of arguing and both side wan their own people to do so...each one have their own "ring bringer".  The boy's mum wants her own cousin..so does the girl's side.

Then the funniest part is this...who should walk the girl down the aisle?  By rite is always the girl's dad rite?  But as the girl was baptize by someone whom is consider as a very special person and the mum address this person as the girl bapa angkat, she wants him to be in too.  The father on the rite and the "bapa pembaptisan" on the left.  But the boy's mum also insisted the same.  She said tat it is alrite for the girl's dad to be on her rite, but y must have someone on her left?  If need someone on her left..it must be from the boy's side. Must be the boy bapa angkat (yang telah banyak membantu dalam business) or the bapa pembaptisan too.  Hahahah..then argue punya argue..do u know how many people walk the bride down the aisle that day??  Hahahah...five persons on the rite...five on the left.  Total...10 persons!!!! Hahaha..when all the guests see this....all were shock!!!!! Speechlesssss!!  Hahaha....

By the end, when this couple sit down and calculate all the $$$ they had spent..they had actually used up more than what they had planned in the first place...more than compare to the initial plan at Bora Bora.  As to please everyone...they keep on change this and that...but by the end..when the wedding is over..everyone happy but the one that suffer are them.......how to pay back??

A very interesting story about reality and love in a relationship...on how love and $$ play its roles and take affect on a person life.  And it also come down to a fact that, do we live to please others or please ourselves or please our love ones?  Marriage is a package...when u get married..u are actually marrying his/her whole family too.  

Forget the title of this movie..actually wan to take a nap, but the first 5 minutes of this movie was very funny already.  So was glue to it for 2 hours then follow by a malay movie Untuk Tiga Hari.  This one also very interesting...share with u next time lah ya...wan to sleep liao. =)

Beyond -  喜歡妳 (Like You).  The first time I heard this song..immediately fall in love.  Even though I like this group as my super idol last time, doesnt mean that I like their song blindly lah.  This is one of my fav one.  

Beyond -  懷念您 (Miss You).  Like this MTV, didnt include the MTV here as all those in Youtube are not clear.

Beyond -  為了你 , 為了我 (Because of Us). This song was composed by the late Wong Ka Kui for other singer's album actually.  Quite a number of HK singers had their songs composed by Beyond before and one of them is Leslie Cheung and even the King of Hong Kong (till now) Alan Tam.  So, this song was never in their album but after his death, all his songs (either he composed, sings...etc) was compiled into an album in remembrance and acknowledgement of his works and contribution in HK music industry.

Works...works.... 11/7/13 

Tonite no need to sleep liao lah =(..have so many things in hand that need to be completed.  Ai c liao loh...=( Before I stuff myself with works..let me share something which I heard today...

A teacher whom was conducting a tuition was found out to be sharing the school mock paper with the whole class a day before the mock was conducted. (Y so gong??)  According to the news, tat teachers said that as out of all the students in the class, only maybe around 3 - 5 students are the students of tat teacher's own school.  Thus, that teacher doesnt feel the needs of changing the paper (at that time that teacher regards it as exercise) as it is only small number of students.  And not only that, that teacher thot (or was hoping) that this students wont leak it out to anyone.  Aiyoyo..how can be so suku and unethical?

Till now, I don't understand why do some teachers wan to leak the tests or exams questions to the students.  Do u know what kind of reasons I had ever heard:

1)  If they do well, it is also good for us mah.  Show that our students are smart, we are smart and no one complain.

2)  No one cares much about tests or exams now as the education format and system had change.  So, if the tests/exams are just conducted for the sake of being conducted, leak or no leak oso make no different liao lah.

3)  Scare and worry that the students are not ready.  So, not - leak questions just hints-hints and tips-tips them a bit.

My answer is:  CHIAK SAI LAH

1)  Leaking questions - students get good results - WHAT IS THERE TO BE HONOR AND PROUD OFF?  Even if they do get 100 marks..that is not their own effort.  IT IS UR "EFFORT" OF LEAKING IT TO THEM!  Y have to stoop so low just for the sake of avoiding complain and kena question by the school?  If it is the fact that the students are not doing well, and we do have a proper track or record for it, then there is no worry if anyone come to see us.

2)  Half true there..the system now is totally...aii..disappointing.  The system had change so much to the extend it become a system that do not polish and help our students to explore their full potential.  Students do nothing much at all except just abundant of project that burden them and their teachers.  Ask yourself, is our higher level of education is also focus on projects?  If not..isnt that we are indirectly "killing" of their potential to do well?  As we inculcate them from young..do nothing much just stick and paste, and write and write and write something like a scrape book or in manila card?  Limit them in everything and yet in the higher level everything is more than 200 words?  Everything is more than 3 pages!  Everything is written works!  Nothing about glue and paste!  But if the tests/exams is conducted for the sake of just do nia and everyone leak everything here and there...might as well dont do lah.  Save time, save ink, save paper..go green...

3)  Come on lah...hints-hints and tips-tips a bit??  Students or children nowadays are super duper smart oh.  Allow me to give u a scenario..just said that the teacher had taught 5 chapters of subject A.  Then the teacher enters the class and tell the students this:

Teacher:  Class...for the upcoming exam...no need to study Chapter 1 till Chapter 3 (obviously now it means.... it is only from Chapter 4 and 5 nia lah ya..aii)

Teacher:  Class...then as for Chapter 4 and 5 (even more obvious)...just read Section 1-3 (in that two chapters only got 5 sections.....so what does it mean then?? aiiiiiii)

So u see?  That's call "hints" kah?  That's call "tips" kah?  Might as well just show them the test/exam papers lah!!  Aiyo!!!!

Or the second scenario is.........

The teacher suddenly teach one sub topic at the very last minute before the test and keep on telling the students that they MUST REMEMBER IT for the upcoming test/exam?  Or..the teachers only change one key word in the question..and gave them as an exercise a week or maybe few days before tests/exams......Obviousleh???  

So..is that tips or hints?  That is equivalent to leak questions liao mah!!

Students doing well is important.  But the most important thing is.....STUDENTS DOING WELL BASE ON OWN EFFORT AND HONESTY IS EVEN MORE IMPORTANT!

If u had taught them well, guide them well...no matter what kind of q..they for sure can answer it.  Even if u dont trust their ability...at least u trust ur own effort in guiding them all these times!  For me..tests/exams symbolize this:  How confident u are in urself and in them....Even if leaking questions is for the sake of just to make them look good and urself look good.......forget about it lah.  It means that the teachers indirectly is admitting that he/she doesnt do his/her work properly..not enuf effort...same goes to the students.  If by the end, they really don't do well, that's the reason y we are there to help and to guide them...

BUT IF ONLY THRU LEAKING Q..THEN THEY CAN DO WELL?? Aiii..if like that..might as well, no need to teach...no need to guide..before the tests..before the exam..just show them the whole paper enuf liao lah.

If like that....then the job is super duper zuper easy liao loh...aiii =((...LAZY..LAZY =(( 

Main Kya Hoon - this is the song from the movie Love Aaj Kaal. Acted by Saif Ali Khan and Deepika Padukone.  A very interesting love story..about how do modern generation perceive love now.  Saif Ali Khan has this opinion that when a couple are together doesnt mean that they must always stick to each other or get married.  For him he believes that everyone has a freedom to try and explore on new thing and see whether along the path..if they do meet something or someone more interesting, it is ok to pursuit for it and let the other party know. For him, that is important for the growth or for one self development in life. As for Deepika, she trusts in the "old traditional love'...which means it is for marriage, for eternity and hold on the concept of "till death do us part".  So what happened by the end?

Weekends...8/7/13 

Almost everyone loves and looking forward for the weekends...but not me lah.  I don't dislike it but at the same time...I cant enjoy my weekends too.  My weekends are totally pack..pack..pack.  Aiiiiii..memang fully zully pack.  Ai c liao.. =(

Now with the extra coming in for the 12 years and 15 years old children...aiyoyo..even more kin tio and more pack.  Phew.....aiiiiiii...

Last Sat, during the transition period, one of the child spilt her Milo drink on the floor. Aduh, aduh..take me almost half an hour to clear and clean it.  Used two rolls of the big tissue (oil tissue) for it.  In the process of clearing it, the anak-anak bukan main..aiyo yo!  Talking and happily playing around.  Aiyoyo!!  One of the anak asked me y dont I just use a mop.  Cannotlah...is like a mini pool of milo..if immediately use a mop..the whole area might get even more worst and sticky + the mop surely extremely dirty later.  Then need time to clean the mop pula.  So soak with all the big big tissue first and then when it absorbed all the milo, I baru mop.  Quick-quick complete the process and back to work!!!

By the time the day is over around 9pm, can feel that my feet was extremely cold and look "pale".  Wear socks and even put some ointment and used two mattresses blankets but the coldness last for almost the whole morning.  Aiyoyo...

The next day, the same thing happened..was in air cond for the whole day..so by 6 something...my feet, is like walking on the ice liao.  

Maybe it was becos for that two days, I did not have a proper meals and just rely on some kuih and green tea.  So, after everything was over...quick quick have a bite at Howdy and drink a cup of hot Milk Tea.  Was hoping to have some hot Milo or any chocolate drink..but unfortunately, they dont have it.  Till to this moment, can feel that my feet are still cold...cham.  

Last Sat..I baru realized as well, for all these times, I had sms to a wrong mother!  Ai c loh!  As both of them had a son with the same name - B (the different is in the surname and the level they are in)....me - being so gong oso..didnt save the further details but just key in the name in my handphone.  Now I baru realisedlah..no wonder...whatever thing that I sms to tat mum (wan to msg the older one but keep on sms to the young actually)..she never reply me and never bother to answer any of it.  Of coslah can, I am sure she doesnt understand why I am messaging her so!  Aiyoyo...and I guess she must had been so confused with all the infor regarding the changes..etc....aiyo!!  Very very sorry ya...aiii.

Looking forward for Monday and Tuesday as these are the only two days I can have a bit of rest...............going to zzzz soon too..........chao ya =)

Beyond - 不再猶豫 (No Hesitation).  This is one of their hit..even those in my era whom is not Beyond's fan will certainly know this song too.  I learnt and fall in love with vest due to them.  Started wearing vest after seeing most of their MTV and photos, with them having their vests on.  

Oh..do u know that after the lead singer passed away...everyone in the Kenyalang's shopping complex were shock with an existence of a man who looks exactly like him?  He has the exact pakaian, hair style and even the necklace (with a wooden triangle pendant..just like the late Wong Ka Kui's one? - seee I even know what kind of necklace he had....).  And I remember that the taukenio of this cassette shop told me about it and I purposely went there and waited.  My luck..just about half an hour of waiting..he came in to that particular area.  And it is not just me who are in awe..practically everyone were stunned as he really really has that 80 percent of Wong Ka Kui's looks and gaya!  And I guess he realized that everyone is looking and talking about him as he was smiling sheepishly.  Saw him twice...then after that..never see liao but I know that  everyone in that area were talking about him for quite some time.

McFly - Shine A Light ft Taio Cruz.  Don't know anything about this group, just happened to stumble on this song..and found it quite nice. 

Beyond...4/7/13 

Bz..bz..bz...but mood stable down liao...hehehe.  Well, my sister called me up on last Sunday which is on the 30th June and told me that the NTV7 showed some Beyond's song in commemorate with the Beyond's lead singer 20th death anniversary.  So, who is Beyond ya?  

Jeng..jeng..jeng...BEYOND is none other than my FAVORITE IDOL during my teen age  then.  Just like any other teenagers, I do have my own pop and super idol that I like for yearsssssss...and the one that reign in my heart was (and still actually) is none other than the Hong Kong pop rock group - BEYOND.  This group had 4 members:

1)  Wong Ka Kui - the lead singer and lead/acoustic guitar (tragic death on the 30th June 1993..tell u more later)

2)  Wong Ka Keung - singer and bass guitar (younger brother of Wong Ka Kui)

3)  Wong Koon Chung - singer and lead/electric guitar

4)  Yip Sai Wing - singer and drum

From left to the right:

Yip Sai Wing, Wong Koon Chung, Wong Ka Kui, Wong Ka Keung

Going nuts over this group after I watched this movie known as Happy Ghost IV.  They are singing in Mandarin actually but the sound is in Cantonese..that's y the mouth and the lyric dont look so cun together. 

Watch this movie countless of times and still have the CD with me.  Last time is VCD lah..and asked for my friend to search for the CD.  Keeping it till now.. =) 

Beyond is actually known as the Beatles of the East.  If not becos of Wong Ka Kui's accident and his death, I believe that the group will still be popular until now.  Actually till to this day, their ardent and loyal fan (like me) still around...listening and adoring their songs.  

But well, eversince the lead singer's death, their song change a lot..and finally the band decided to disband either in the year 2003/04/05?? as everyone is pursuing their own solo career + family commitment + dispute between Wong Koon Chung and Wong Ka Keung.  The band has never been the same  without the elder brother - Wong Ka Kui.

U know what, actually if I was not mistaken 2 years ago, they were in town.  And guess what, I finally has the chance to see them (only Wong Koon Chung and Wong Ka Keung were here) at the Spring!! Yeah!!!!!  And u know what, urs truly here...was at the Spring waiting for them from 5 pm plus till their arrival around 7.30 pm.  Hahaha..I thot that I will scream like siao when I see them..but I guess...those times had passed liao and further more..worry that my anak-anak may catch a glimpse of me screaming like siao cha bor later..dont wan leh.  Was there with Mr. Abang (he quite likes them too), my brother in law, nieces and nephew.  And before they came out, the organizer was playing tons of their old songs and everyone was singing along.  Mostly are those "old-old" like me lah...ahhh..all the young fans had grown into lao ah ma and lao ah kong liao.

And when Wong Koon Chung @ Paul and Wong Ka Keung @ Steve came out...no one scream actually but u can see that everyone were very excited and cheers for them.  I was controlling hard not to be over excited!!!! Hahaha....

There were some games going on but I am tooo malulah to join.  Some games like guessing their songs' titles, imitating them...sing their songs..and so on.  Piece of cake for me..but still malulah!!

And guess what again.....my brother in law had this VVIP tickets for their concert in town - especially given to him by the organizer has my brother in law kinda helping out with the sound system.  

But alas......................I didnt go for their concert.....DIDNT GO!! Can u believe it...after going nuts over them for so many years...not just go nuts ah..I even cut my hair style like them...pakai baju like them..try to sing like them...and play musical instrument like them.  Tons and tons of their albums, posters, pin ups, buttons, magazines collections.  My whole room was stick with their posters all over and the door..there was one HUGE poster of them on it!! When I was in secondary school....practically the whole school know that I like Beyond and even friends called me as BEYOND..hehehe perasan......but when I got the chance to see them from near........I MISS IT!!  Even my eldest sister and my eldest brother in law were there..aiyo yo!!!

Not actually miss lah..my brother in law actually gave me that privilege but I declined at the very last minute as during their concert, it was near to CNY.  Me and Mr Abang had our own plan at that nite - cun cun the nite of their concert.  Intend to bring the family out for shopping. (Flash back about it...aiii..GONG GONG GONG...CNY is every year event..whereas they only came here ONCE nia.  During their concert, they announce that this will be their last to sing under the name Beyond ...and dont know when they are coming here..I guess no more liao lah + further more, Steve and Paul are actually not in good term..aiii)  Then, my elder brother in law went with his kids...I am the ARDENT FAN but I MISSED OUT!!

1)  Their poster for their concert in Kuching

2)  The back drop at the Spring..was there wait and wait and wait...........

3)  Finally, they were here!!!  Snap a few photos but all more or less the same lah....

Was really sooo excited to see them and was hoping that they will sing maybe one or two songs but sayangnya..they didnt.  Aiiii.....

They said that the third member - Yip Sai Wing couldnt join them for this tour in Kuching as prior to other commitment but khabar angin said that it was becos' Sai Wing don't wan to be in the middle of their dispute anymore.  He had tried to patch this two for years after Wong Ka Kui death but to no avail.  

Show u some of the songs that is consider the most well known from them (but for me all their songs are well known and popular lah..During the late 80's and 90's they are consider as the heart throb of every teenage girls..just like The Wanted, One Direction..Lawson.....lah...hehehe.  Now they are either 45 or Sai Wing maybe around 50???). 

Beyond -  大地  This is the song that turned them from an under ground band to a pop star in the music industry.  One thing which make me admire this band even more is that, they composed all their own music, lyric and put everything together.  Hebatleh?  Even when they sing live...they sound exactly like the one in their MTV (have tons of their concert VCD collection....their voice..memang sama...)

Beyond - 長城 (The Great Wall).  Well of cos, this one is not live lah..it is just lip synch.  But, having see them sing before (from video...) memang they can sing live lah. Further more back in the 80's and 90's not popular with computerizing stuff yet.  This is the song that marked their change of contract from Polygram Record to The Rock Record and further spread their wings to Japan's market.  That's where the disaster happened........=(

Beyond -  リゾ・ラバ～international～ (可否衝破 - 日文版 - 中文字幕).  Love this song a lot.  They have it in three languages  - Cantonese, Mandarin and Japanese.  But I like the Japanese version better.  And I like this MTV..black and blue.  Love the way how they played the guitars and how the drummer swing the stick.  

Beyond -  遙望.  When I found out that my favorite band lead singer's Wong Ka Kui death...and hear this song.....wa..huhuhu...wa kao si loh.  Cried like what leh..........really really cried loh.  Even my sister cried I think.  Aiii...What happened to Wong Ka Kui was this:

The four of them taking part in a Japanese game show..live show some more.  The stage was about 9 feet and it was covered with some wooden plank with some scenery background on the plank.  So during the filming of the show...and as they were playing the game on the stage + plus there was a small pool designed on top of it...so don't know what game lah..so everyone on stage were like pushing and squashed each other here and there.  So out of sudden, one of the plank terbuka and two persons fell down from the stage.  One of the person was the host of the game (Japanese guy) and the other was none other than Wong Ka Kui.  Worst, as he doesnt wear any helmet or has any safety attire on + no netting or any mattress underneath the stage (as the producer claimed that as this is not their first time doing this game and all these times it was safe...aiii, malang tidak berbau..) + Ka Kui fell ...with his head down first.

He was in coma for about 6 days....and on the 30th June 1993, he was pronounced death...baru age 31 nia.  The good die young?  Aiii...............

Do you read in the news recently?  There was this girl from Cirque du Soleil performer name Sarah Guyard age 31 plunges to her death from 50th feet high!!! ......Aiii...if about 9 feet with head down first pun mati..ini apa lagi...50th feet.  It was during a performance and some audience even thot that it was part of the show.  They only realized that it was not when the other performers shouted and screamed!!  Aiii..it was on the 30th June..this year.  A mother of 2 young kids...ko lien......really ko lien.  

Well, life is too short.  We may plan and plan and plan, but God knows best.  Without planning we worry about our future, but sometime no matter how we plan, we dont even know whether the plan is going to work out or not...so..one little step at a time....dont take thing for granted....live life to its fullest, thank God for everything.  

Enjoy the songs that I had uploaded here and next time will show u more of BEYOND's song! 

Why??...1/7/13 

A long and bad day yesterday....nagging anyone and everyone around me for wholeeeeeee day for the whole lots of reasons!  Upset with so many things...no, no..I am not PMS...I am not tat type of person...what is there to be PMS of as further more "that season" is already over.  There were sooo many things that get on my nerve yesterday.  I may be a strong person but that doesnt mean that people can just throw all their problems to me just becos they think I am a strong person and certainly I can pull thru and over come it.  Worst, some even aspect me to help them to overcome it.  

Come on lah, I may be the so called "Great Problem Solver" but I amn not Super woman....I do have feelings and my own burden ok.  It is enuf already.  The more burden it is on my shoulder..well altho...yes yes..no doubt it makes me stronger but..but..but..by the end of the day...it may turn a person into a heartless and "ain't no care person".

I had tried...........and at this moment...I am really tired...tired and fed up already.  When u give in, u feel that u are cheated...when u don't care...u feel that u are being so cruel and heartless.  So, what am I suppose to do?  

A Long Way...25/6/13 

Went to City One yesterday and met one of my child which is now in her 3rd year of Law study.  Wow...time flies really really fast ya.  It had been like 6 years ago since she was in Form 3 or 4?  Now in 3rd year of Law liao wor.  She told me she came back for holiday and now visiting the family's food court at this place.  Her family has a few food courts and shop houses around town.  Wah.........

Catching up with each other for almost an hour.  While we were busily chatting, my angels pula busily eating and Mr Abang pula busily talking to her aunty..whom..so coincidently is the mum of Mr Abang's children.  Small world eh?  Ooh... should I said like what my friend taught me...it is not a small world...just that we are too popular..hahahah..yeah rite!

She is going to be in town till this coming July.  While, she is still as usual - sweet and vibrant girl.  She never fails to contact me...or at least send regards and special wishes on any special occasion such as birthday, CNY, Christmas and etc.  Sweet, sweet young girl.  Can u imagine...it has been 6 years...that is counting from the year after she left in Form 3..wow...havent counted in the year when I get to know her in Form 1...so practically we had been keeping in touch like 8 or 9 years?  See them growing up...remind me of how old I am now...aiii.

Today pula..received a phone call...from someone whom I can't remember the face already (sorry ya...me lao liao mah..) but I still remember all their names lah.  An ex colleague from one of the first company whom I worked with the moment I graduated.  She called me up as someone told her about me and recommended me for something something as since now she sets up a "biz" and is looking for someone to help out.  We talk for like maybe 20 minutes...catching up the "good old days"...hehehe...but by the end have to convey my sincere apology to her.   Really cant help her now as no time...now is already in the process of juggling between my roles of a mum, wife and teacher.  If add in new role..me die kiao kiao liao!  Now half dead already....

Ok lah..want to go now...half hour to my bed time.  C ya when I c ya again =)

Gwen Stefani - Cool.  The lead singer of the group No Doubt.  Never like any of her or their song except for this one.  She is married to the Gavin Rossdale the guy who acted as the devil in the movie Constantine opposite Keanu Reeves.

Train - Hey, Soul Sister.  Never like this song before even though I had heard about it many times until I heard it again in the drama series CSI: NY.  He made a special appearance in this series and just before the end of the series..he sings this song.   

Scaryloh...23/6/13

Yesterday was a looooong day for me...as I didnt eat anything at all, just had 2 boiled sausages and a cup of coconut drink, by 3 pm...feel a bit dizzy and blur already. Aiyoyo, by 11 am can feel that my stomach was telling me its super hungry but I tahan and tahan till I "forget" to eat and then ended up not eating anything.  By 3 pm...blur blur liao.  Thank God the next slot was postponed as all the children cant make it or else..me die liao loh!!! Aduh aduh.  By 4.30 pm went to sleep till 8 pm and by the time I went to Howdy for dinner, lost my appetite liao.  Just had a mushroom soup and a cup of coffee.  Y coffee? As now is already 3.30 am..and I am still here...updating my blog while my brain "freezing" from writing an essay!! =(

Thinking of what's going to happen for these upcoming few months really make me scare loh.  Going to be a long and hectic months...but then as usual..after it is over..altho u feel relief..at the same time..u feel so sayang oso.  Pray..pray that  God will bless me and the children with His strength and wisdom..... =)

Hope for the Best, 

Prepare for the Worst...21/6/13 

Few incidents happened for the past few days:

1)  I hate social network stuff such as Twitter, Facebook and Frenster.  Honestly, altho I have my FB and Twitter account...I dont access to my Twitter at all as I dont even remember my log in password or anything about it.  As for FB, I am not interested in it.  I join for the sake of keeping in touch with some of my close friends whom are scatter  everywhere around the globe now. Even then, sometime to log in will take me ages as I have to guess up and down regarding my password!  And, I dont even comment or write anything on my FB.  Neither do I comment or write anything on my fren FB's wall.

So, that's y when my fren FB suddenly listed that I am his Top 3 admirer and view him 45 times per day!!!  Wah lao eh!  Beh tahan liao!  I immediately post something on his wall to clarify my name!  Honestly, I never like to comment on people's personal stuff, neither do I wan people to comment on mine.  And its kinda weird that some people can even write stuff such as "Hmmm.....ohhh..ahh" in their FB and then get 100 likes for that "hmmm..ohhh..ahh" nia...aiyo!!  Like for what?  And the person who post that "hmm ..ohh..ah.."  attention seeker ah?  

Then some people may ask..what about blog?  Isnt that blog is about personal stuff as well?  Like I mentioned before, blog is a place for me to vent my frustration and opinion.  Most people dont even know who is behind this blog.  But as for FB.....people tends to know who u are!!  Instead of posting stuff on the wall and aspect people to sympathize and give ideas..might as well just call up ur friends and share your problem lah!  Thats the reason y when some friends asked me to put up comment box in this blog....no way.  I dont wan it to be "Blog Book" later where by everyone write and comment in here.  My blog is my blog.  Is for me, myself and I to write only. I am a person that concern deeply about my privacy and personal stuff.  Sorry lah ya...to FAA..sorry if I sound a bit harsh that day..I dont wan to be known as a stalker later.

2)  Parent asked me can I guarantee that their child get A for the subject?  Well, I am not God, neither do I am the marker/examiner for that subject.  The best is:  Everyone is trying very hard, putting all effort..do their best they can.  By the end of the day, if after all the effort and hard work, the only thing we can do is to surrender to HIM and let HIM do HIS part ya... =)  

3)  Parent called and asked...how to handle a child which is kinda slow in study?  I truly truly understand how they feel as my youngest angel is like that too.  But I always tell parents this..if we as the parent dont have confident in our own kids...what more to say others?  Well, sometime we have to accept the fact that..in life..in this world..not every kid is gifted with the brain in academic.  But still, we cant deny that..with effort and confident..something can be done out of it.  And we also have to believe that, if they cant excel in academic, if we do give them some time and chance to explore other fields, they might be doing well in it later and ended very successful.  Who knows ya?  

All 4 One - I Swear.  A popular group back in the late 90's and early Y2K

ATB - Ecstasy.  Trance genre.  Popular in the early Y2K.  Me and my former colleague in the event company - we used this for one of our ICT conference montage.  Hahaha, huge controversy then as due to the song lyric!  Luckily our Managing Director (MD) was really supportive, altho he did indirectly "nag" at us...but generally he likes it too lah.  Hahaha.  He is the type that u can really sit down, mingle around..and even have a few drinks with him after all the works were done.  That nite after the event, he brought the 7 of us, the one that which he recruited personally and we all went to Waterfront..lepak till 3 am.  

So, enjoy ya =))

How?...17/6/13 

Last few days, I kept on thinking and asked Mr.  Abang..how to big a good mother, good wife and good teacher at the same time ya? It is very hard actually.  It is hard to spend the equivalent amount for each of it.  When one concentrate more on either one of the aspect, u tend to neglect the other two aspects.  And once u try to push all the way u can, u ended up being so tired, frustrated and some times it may turn out even worst!  Worry..as I can see that the tense and stress monthsss is on its way now.  It is this season again.  The season of tolling days and nite and work your butts off to get the children prepare for their battle in September and October.  Very very stress oh.  And in between, have other children and my own angels that have things goin on and need to do oso.  Aduh..aduh..at the same time...need to be a good "house keepers"..cleaners...etc...blah..blah at home too.  Aduh......how?  Even if without sleep, without eat and without any rest...time...is just not enuf..aiyah..no wonder people always said "masa itu emas" and "bertangguh itu pencuri masa"...aiii..today I have to wish myself best of luck leh......aiii...

Oh...Happy Belated Father's Day.  Went to Cavery yesterday and eat like siao.  Well, the food is ok but dont really enjoy it as my mind was still thinking of the work that need to be done...aii.  Well...still Happy Father's Day ya!! =)

Wet Wet Wet - Love Is All Around.  This is from the late 90's. Don't know anything about this group, just like this song nia. 

The Cranberries - Zombie.  Also don't know anything about this group.  Another late 90's group. 

Launch Liao...12/6/13 

The new blog (site) is finally done...yup...u can check at this bahasamelayu.yolasite.com  Just a simple blog (site) to inform my children and parents regarding certain important information.  So enjoy viewing and do give me your opinion ya.   

Joey McIntyre - Stay the Same.  This is the ex-member of New Kids on The Block.  I am interested with the lyric of this song.  Enjoy listening.. =) 

Bz + Tired...10/6/13

Wow...didnt update anything for the past 3 weeks plus tho.  1st week was bz with works, 2nd week - internet server problem..then the final week was bz with family.  Just gonna be here for a few minutes as need to rush something for my children again.  The bz and hectic months are coming liao as all the children are getting ready to march into their "battle zones"..........Will update more when got time ya....chao! =)

Don't Give Up...24/5/13

Received some phone calls regarding certain thing..my 20 cents opinion is:

1) It is very subjective when its come to that issue.  Different people will have a difference preference in certain thing, thus it cause a different way in viewing it.

2) There maybe a lot of other factors that involve..so its hard to justify the whole issue.

So, the most important thing is...NEVER EVER GIVE UP.  People always said that half of the battle is already won when u enter the battle zone with confident.  Not over confident till u blinded urself...but must be confident.  Believe in urself....do what u should and of cos...after u had done ur best...the rest is up to HIM up there liao...

You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban.  This song leave a very significant mark in my heart.  The song that we used in the company 10 anniversary before.   As the song came to an end, all the staff stood up, gave our respect to all of our guests as well as our honor, respect and farewell to our MD - Dr. HAS.  May not be a perfect MD but I think he came near to that.  Where ever u are now MD...all the best and thanks for everything.  

To my children - do know that, as u walk along this path, we are all behind u.....listen to the lyric... 

When You Believe - Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey.  The only song that I like from both of them. Meaningful lyric.  Soundtrack from the cartoon Prince of Egypt 

Happy Belated Teacher's Day... 19/5/13 

Was a bz weeks in and out with many things to settle...as some children baru want to enter their battle zone..need to help them in it.  And as for some who were done with it and got their results....aiiii...kinda upset..no.....that is incorrect...very upset actually.  The results...aiii....kong pun bo yong liao lah.  But....don't give up...must always strive hard strive hard and strive hard.  U will reap the sweet fruit one day....

Last few days..a few "interesting" incidents happened:

1)  I know that most of my youngest group of children didn't do well this time as the moment they sees me...they all dispersed!!!!!  Ai say man...macam lah I am the orang gila or lion that gonna walloped them.  Aii..the 10,11 and 12 years old...all ran away...gone..poof.  Only one or two stands there and smile sheepishly at me...faham-faham liao lah.  Aiii......

2)  Well, my own two angels...the eldest one did quite ok....some did extremely well especially all her Maths papers (I owed my heartiest gratitude to her Maths teacher in school Cikgu Edna and also her Maths tuition teacher Cikgu Wong..which really really help her a lot in this subject.  These two teachers are memang very good...truely truely teach with their heart, soul and mind for the children....)..but some of her subject did badly.  Rotan her cham cham up to the base line that I wan...aiii.  The youngest pula...well, reach my expectation...phew...not so good .....can be said kinda bad result...but the least is...he passed on his own..did his own exams papers on his own...which I am happy liao lah.  For his case...can pass ok liao lah...boh pien...aiii.  That's y my eldest angel always asked me...y I always set a target for her and yet for the youngest angel I just said pass is ok liao...aiii - boh pien...as the youngest one memang super slow leh.  

3)  Although my eldest angel did quite ok........but I still kinda upset...in term of comparatively, if she can did her BM well...I would and love to see....all of my other children whom are from the same age with her...to do well too.  So when they dont...oh gosh.......felt really bad. Mr.  Abang asked...y I don't seem to be that happy although she did quite well in her BM paper.  Of cos I am happy but I want my other children..same age with her...to be like her or better (some people asked do I mind if they do better than her...honestly, from the bottom of my heart...it is nope.  I am flexible with my own angels, my only expectation from them is that - they are able to reach my base line, which is 75.  That's enuf liao.  Errr...but as for the youngest angel...pass enuf liao lah...aiiiii)  Asked her..what makes her understand and be able to do - is it she always overheard what I ajar..or izit becos sometimes we do converse in that language now and then...pay full attention to teacher in school...tuition with my sifu (Ckg RH - the great master of all) or what?  She just said - I don't know.  Aiyah...........but I know that I trained her in a "brutal" way lah.  All her BM works...especially the vocab list...she has to copy it three times..essay she has to copy two or three times..until there is no mistake in it.  Can I apply the same method to my other children??  Gonna scare them like what loh................aiii....

4)  Met my eldest teacher angel just to ask him about one of her project as someone told me that one of the class - they all did wrong.  Wah lao, so as it was the lunch break already, approached that particular teacher as he is walking at the balcony.  When I asked him on how my eldest angel performance in the class and how is the project....he looks at me with that kind of blur-blur look and then asked me this:  Err...u know ah...u oso in this line mah rite....with so many students around in each class...u think..we-teacher can remember and recognize all the student ah?  I just smiled and I said never mind and then he walked away.  At that moment....actually I have the urge to answer him but don't wan to cause too much or further controversy later lah..aii.  Do u know what I want to say...............

Well, I do understand that teachers have many students and many things in mind as we are human too and have our own limitation in everything.  But guess what, it is almost 5 months ya..and no matter how many students and how many classes are there..a teacher - by now..should know the students by name and even know which class are they from.  The reason of not seeing them frequently or just see them 3 times a week is just a lame, lame, lame reason.  I have known many teachers and lecturers which some of them maybe just have about 40 mins to 1 hour of time a week with the students but they know each and everyone of them by name and by class.  It is the matter of do u wan to make the effort of knowing them.  If a teacher can barely know the name, the face and which class are their student from...how do they know which one is doing well, who is doing well....how is their progress...and what is their planning for them?  How to plan as u don't even know who is who ..who is the good one..the average one..the weak one.  Which class is the naughty one..the weak one...??  Aiii....

Normally....for me - I will try my very best to remember all of them by names...class...so on and forth within 2 weeks time.  Worst..at least 3 weeks.  Call them by name and get to know more of them.  Knowing the children well will allow u to know how to guide and handle them in certain situation...........From there..one can also see how much is that teacher concern for the student........aiii...

5) Become Santa Rina on the Teacher's Day as bz helping my angels giving out presents for their teachers.  Me and Mr Abang even personally wrapped, tight and DIY our own cards for each of the teachers including the Principal and the Directors.  The funny part was as two of them walked to the Director and gave him the presents (each one with their own presents to be presented to the Director), he was kinda shock as they were the first I think (as he baru came in with his briefcase) and maybe he was not use to the culture here yet (abundant of gift for the teachers during the Teacher's Day...hehehehe). or maybe being courtesy and modest, he asked my angels twice is it really for him?? Then when they said yes..he turned to look at me again and asked me the same question.  I smiled and nodded my head.  After a minute or two talking to my angels...we shook hand...he thanks me again and I thank him for taking care of my angels..and we went to see the Principal but unfortunately he was on holiday.  Wait till he came back then... 

Enuf of my lao ah ma stories from the past few days liao...show u some of the songs that I like before ending my entry for today... =)

Desert Rose - Sting.  This is the only song I like from this guy. Used to be the lead singer in the group, Police. 

Desert Moon - Dennis DeYoung.  A very popular song back in the 80's too.  Well, I dont really like this song tho but whenever I hear this song, it always remind me so much of the time when I was young and with my siblings around.  Well, we may have nothing then but we do have each other till now... =) 

Waiting for You - Guys Next Door.  Used to be one of my idol when I was in Form 2.  But then, just admired them of about half year and then the place was taken over from my super duper zuper idol from the East which reigned in my heart and mind for yearssssssss..hehehe.  This boy group consisted of 5 persons..and only popular for one album which known as Guys Next Door too.  They used to have a show with the same name and I remember I used to loyally waiting for the show..and kuai kuai sat in front of the tv for half hour.  Interesting musical show tho, but this group only popular for a very short period nia.

信自己 (Trust In Yourself) - Alex To and Sally Yeh.  A very popular song back in the early 90's.  Actually it was a song from Janet Jackson.  Sorry ya couldnt find a video with a good quality. 

一生癡戀 - Linda Wan...sorry don't really know how to translate this all I know it mean..forever..something like that.  A popular 90's song as well, use to sing this song while shower...hahahah..as can sing my heart out.  Now..cant liao lah..voice KNS =( 

Before I chao..share with u one funny thing that my children told me.  When I asked them, y they don't like the boys group One Direction, and the twins (boy) came out with this answer - It is just like 5 Justin Biebers in the group! Hahahaha...cant agree more =p

Hospitality Industry...13/5/13 

Phew...finally "battle weeks" are almost over.  Some done..some still in the process, some coming soon.  But at least, most of my children are over with it..my own angels are done with it...so keep my fingers cross that everyone did well.  Struggling week..

Was arranging my upcoming holidays with my family and came across some bumps in that process.  One thing which I can't understand is, for those people who are working in the hospitality industry (hotels, tourism...etc) and u are not keen on entertaining people..clients...better don't venture into this line at all.  As among all those works, liaising with people is the hardest as everyone came with a different attitudes and different styles.  And if u dont even have that slightest courtesy in life...then better dont even think of joining this kind of line.

Recently, I tried to make some hotel reservation to one place.  And as usual, my preference style of booking is directly thru the reservation as anything can be sort out easily and faster.  Sent email with a few questions but it was kept unanswered most of the time (altho the person did reply) and of cos due to that I can't confirm my reservation (tempahan) loh.  So, as the date is very near now..boh pien..gave the person a call.  And...this was how the conversation went (agak-agaklah):

Me:  Hello, may I speak to ......?

T:  Ya, speaking.

Me: Hi, I am .....and I am calling from ..............it's pertaining my reservation with your esteem hotel. I had send a number of emails asking for clarification but unfortunately it was left unanswered.  That's y I thot of making  this call so that we can talk directly and sorry to bother u ya. (I sound very friendly...when I talk ok.....manalah tahu....)

T:  Mam..u know what...ur email is not the only email that I need to answer.  I received a  lot of emails a day ya.

Me: (Wah lao eh....she has the nerve to answer like that?????...beh tahan liao..as from beginning till the end..in my emails or thru phone..I had put it as friendly as possible..  and I had email her since mid of April till now)

Me:  Mam...I don't care how many emails u have a day..and I don't think it is appropriate for you to talk to your customer like that!. (Actually at the back of my mind, I was thinking to answer like this:  I don't give a damn on how many emails u had a day.  As a customer, my concern is whether do u answer me according or not and fulfill my requirement or not!... But oh well..."intellectual" people like us...hehehe...answer with our brain not our heart..heheheh)

She was dumbfounded and yet no apology wor???? She just continued the conversation in a better tone and said that she will try to answer the rest of my questions as soon as possible (ASAP hor..not immediately on that spot oh...aiiii) and then I just "hmmm" and hung up the phone.  But after a few minutes...as beh kam guan...I called up the hotel again and spoke to the front office. I asked for details from the girl at the front office and found out that T gave me a few "misleading information" and didnt update much of her infor to me.  And beh tahan I asked the front office girl..who T was...and wah...I really really terkejut loh.  She is the Reservation Manager oh.  A manager boh...but work and attitude like that?  In a reservation department some more?  If in the cleaning service department I can understand lah...beh tahan do all the cleaning and look at the toilet bowls mah...heheheh.  From my conversation with this girl, I found out that T tends to talk rudely not just to customers but also to her own staff.  

Wah, if like that, how to be a good manager?  So, beh tahan, I brought this case to the Assistant GM/CEO of the hotel.  He listened to my grievance...(hahaha complaint...) and said that he will personally handled it.  So, ting tong ting tong...then voila...everything settle liao. Hehehe.....

If giving me wrong infor (T recommended that we took twin sharing @ 2 single beds whereby there are four of us?? and the bed is just a normal single bed...wah lao eh..how to sleep...4 persons?..when I kept on asking her the details - is it a normal single bed or super single bed - as super single bed maybe still can accommodate 2 persons per bed as it is slightly bigger......but alas T never reply me.  Then, never recommended any kind of room or bedding for me....when I asked about the activity around...T just kept quiet too...aiyo yo yo..many q left unanswered lah)...............................wrong infor...I mungkin still can tahan...

The one that I memang tak tahan and tak suka is.........when people work in hospitality line and don't know how to serve customer.  If don't like to smile, don't like to talk..don't like to do extra mile for a client...then don't work in this line lah.  Once u are in this line..one thing..either we hate it or not..we just have to swallow the "slogan - customer always right".  I hate this slogan actually, but boh pien...in this line..that is the motto that we need to uphold.  Aiii.........but in this case, as a customer, I don't think I went overboard or over demanding.  All I asked were just for her to answer my q as since she is the one that working there and doing my reservation.  If she doesn't wan to answer my q - then in the first place..shouldn't have take up my account.  

Anyway...looking forward for this upcoming holiday.  Have plan urs already?  After this break...huhuhu...going to be a "tension and pressure weeks and months" again...as the last and final battles are coming up for my 12 and 15 years old children.  We sama-sama pia lah ya!  

The movie is "Yes Boss". I first know got actor name Shah Rukh Khan (SRK) and Juhi Chawla thru this channel NTV7 when it was first introduce to East Malaysia.  The first time I saw these two..I was like wow...so cute and handsome.  And the movie not bad too.  SRK is actually a super duper poor guy working for a super duper rich man who want to woo JW.  In order to make sure that his plan berjaya, he asked for SRK's help.  Due to some misunderstanding, JW thot that SRK is memang super rich and fall head over heel for him.  By then when SRK realize that he falls for her too - he doesnt dare to either confess or pull out as knowing that he had cheated JW all the way and JW aim is to memang marry a rich man.  So..ending....funny and cute lah, that's all I can say =)

Duplicate - SRK, JW and Sonali Bendre.  More to funny + action movie.  There are two SRK in this movie.  One is the gong one and the other one is the mafia leader.  Due to some misunderstanding, got mix up and all the hell breaks loose loh.  JW is the gong SRK's girlfriend in this movie and Sonali Bendre is the mafia's one.  Oh ya. JW was Miss India before competing in Miss World (which year can't remember) and now very pui loh and more to producing movie.  SB retired liao...but still sexy and pretty. 

Kuch-Kuch Hota Hai - SRK and Kajol Mukherjee (KM), the so-call most cun and ngam and beloved on screen couples in Bollywood.  Before KM, SRK on screen "spouse" is always Juhi...but after this movie (actually even before this movie..there was one movie that involve SRK and KM.  Become a box office and they came out with this one).  Triangle love story, beginning of the story started with a third person's view.  Interesting love story as in the beginning SRK falls for another girl without realizing that his best friend KM (tomboy) falls for him too actually.  The story memang make u cry and tok huey at the same time.  Involve a few big name like Salman Khan and Rani Murkherjee (actual cousin of KM)

Khabi Khushi Khabie Gham - Wow, this movie was the most anticipated movie of that year...either 2000 or 2001.  With all the big names of Bollywood like SRK, KM, Amitabh Bachan and his wife Jaya Bachan, Hitrik Roshan, Kareena Kapoor and Rani Murkhejee as guest appearance  It's a love story @ family story.  Very ko lien and interesting movie.  AB has two son - the eldest is SRK and then follow by HR.  Raise from a well off family either in wealth and in their reputation, AB wants SRK to marry RM which is from a well off family too. For AB, this is very important as it is just like upholding the family's culture.  But alas, SRK falls for KM instead whom is an average kampung girl with a very "kasar" attitude.  Her first encounter with AB left a very bad impression about herself due to her "kasar type" and clumsiness.  So, when AB know that SRK falls for KM and intends to marry her, he gave them his ultimate choice - he will disown SRK and cast him out from the house, no more ties with any of them or break off his relationship with KM and marry RM instead.  SRK chose KM and left..breaking everyone's heart.  All these happened when HR is still very young.  So as the story goes ....everyone is leading their own life now (but ever since SRK left, the family has never been the same)...HR determine to look for his brother and reunite the whole family. Many obstacles and hindrances - the biggest was how to overcome AB and SRK's ego?  Interesting movie....

Om Shanti Om - SRK and Deepika Padukone.  Deepika is the new actress that took over most of the lead heroin next to SRK ever since KM went for Sabbatical leave and concentrating more on her family.  I think the last movie SRK and KM together were in this My Name is Khan..not a love story tho.  More to patriotic and about a "special man" determination to clear his name.  Ok ok, back to this Om Shanti Om.  One of those movie that I had watched for few times.  Is a movie about reincarnation of SRK.  Before, he was a well known person - work under Arjun Rampal (AR) and adore Deepika so much as she is the super star of that era.  Unfortunately he died due to some accident..ting tong...Deepika also die.....due to - u-watch-urself.  SRK was reincarnated into a super well known and rich family.....and as the story goes...he has the chance to work in a film with AR who is actually the villain in this movie.  Unrealistic story..but the director manage to pull everything together and it is interesting.  The song on top is call as "Deewangi" and it comprise a whole lot of Bollywood superstars.  Love the sari in this video.

Will show u the pics of all the Bollywood superstars that I mentioned here next time - so enjoy the clips lah ya...=)

Btw....  HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY!!!

News...7/5/13

If you follow up all the news on the social media...aii...its gonna make u even more upset and angry.  So, I better don't follow up as I know once I decided to take part, I will be the extremist type.  So better calm down myself and see what will happen in 5 years time.  By then, I should fully practice my right for it.  Like my sister said - one can make a whole lot of difference, true, true.  

The Corrs - Breathless 

Shania Twain - I'm Going Getcha Good!  She and Faith Hill are the queen of country song long way before there is Taylor Swift.  If I am not mistaken she and Faith Hill now are more into producing songs.  Like her "husky husky" type of voice. 

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now.  Another country group, don't know much about this group as only like this song.  Like the guy's voice. 

Kelly Clarkson - Break Away.  A very very old song from Kelly, one of the most outstanding winner in the Idol's competition..not like some, now u see, now u don't.  I guess..there were just too many of them till it is like not outstanding anymore. 

Hoobastank - The Reason.  This video reminds me of my friend, a professor from Iran used to stay in KL and then now in Italy.  Countless first degrees, three Master Degrees, two PhD and now working on his third one.  He is nuts over studies...and travels around the globe to study and study and study nia.  Know him when my former company organize a conference about ICT stuff.  Know him before he was really bald...now bald liao. Hahaha...stand at 6 ft 4 or 6 inch.  Tall leh?  When we talked, he normally will take a chair and sit down, even then, he still taller than me..lol.

Oklah, that's all for now.  Wanna go liao as half hour past my bed time already.  Listening to music and updating my blog - release my "kek simness" after reading all the news....aiyah.

Red & Blue...6/5/13 

My tv was on from 8 pm till about 3.30 am in the morning.  Wait and wait for the number to change but wah lao eh...so long ah...waiting for the number to roll on.  Doze off for few minutes...wake up...still the same.  Doze off again...wake up still the same...then doze off again...wake up...got a little bit of changes only....but well...aii..just as what I expected.  Then really cant tahan liao...off the tv...doze off wake up around 5.30 am, immediately on the tv and heard the final news.  Well, around 1 am...already can agak-agak the result, but want to know on how big or how small is the "cake" being divided this year.

Everyone knows whats going on and can guess lah...but..aiii.  One super hero in the group nia cant survive.  U see like the Batman movie....with all the Joker, The Riddles, Penguin as villains...he needs the help of Robin, Bat Girl and The Catwoman once a while.  I guess..this particular super hero in red do indeed need help and support more than anything liao....need the whole Avenger team loh...aiiiii.

Anyway...this year...the slice of cake seems to be biggerlah.....What ever it is...its done deal liao lah.....

David Archuleta - Crush. He is one of the American Idol winner.  Kinda look like JJ.  Well, after winning the competition and shot to stardom, in 2 years time (if I was not wronglah), he stopped from entertainment industry and dedicated his life into church's activities/missions. 

The Corrs - Summer Sunshines.  An Irish group - they are all siblings. Write their own music, play the instruments and sings their own songs.  A very popular group back in the 90's.  Now, not sure where are they liao... 

Happy Labour Day...1/5/13 

Wow...time really flies ya!!! It's already quarter of 2013...phew...really really fast...so within this 4 months...what is our achievement??  What is my achievement??? Nothing much but at least..it is a stable and interesting year.  

Ohh..maybe my most meaningful achievement...not mine lah actually..the credit should go to my youngest angel Maths teacher in class and his Maths tuition teacher.  Can see that he improves in it.  Thanks a lot ya =)

Within this 4 months....has a new resolution....if can...if can lah...wish to have a short break or holiday with my family in every month.  Certainly can't afford to go anywhere far...even if it is not to London..to Langkawi will do..hehehe.  Even if it is not to Denmark, but to Damai will do.  Heard of too many "die at young age" and "drop dead" cases just like that.  Freak me out...really really freak me out.  Not that I am worry about death....that's the cycle of life...but my most concern is...what if I don't have enuf time with my family?  I may not have anything, but the least is, I can leave behind that sweet memory with them.  

Labour Day ya today?  But nay...I am "working" as usual.  No rest day, no holiday except for CNY...sorry children..hahahah =p. 

Before I end my entry today, include a few music videos here.  It is actually "cover songs" done by some talented people.  But I think the "cover song" is better than the original version.  Enjoy lah ya and once again HAPPY LABOR DAY!!  Do have a great day ahead and enjoy the moment with your love ones =)

Heart Attack - Demi Lovato (covered by Sam Tsui and Chrissy Costanza).  I think their version is better than the original one.  And do u think Sam Tsui looks like one of my anak emas FW...wonder where is he now?  Is it true that he is married to LG?  If it is true....CONGRATS oh......Well, where ever u guys are.....my best prayers are with u guys ya =)

Firework - Katy Perry (covered by Paolo).  Not a fan of Katy and never took any interest in her songs but after hear this version sung by this guy name Paolo....not bad wor.  

How Do You Justify?...29/4/13 

As I was on my way to grab a bite... I saw all the banners and bunting on the road getting ready for all the election's campaign.  I love the election's atmosphere as I can see many things going on...listen to all kind of opinions and see some extremist going around supporting their groups. As we passed a banner I asked Mr Abang one question...

1) What is Mr XYZ contribution for the past few yearsss in politic?  What has he done so far for the citizen?

Mr Abang just said well....if Mr XYZ wins, surely there are many things that he can do.  But my question is...what has he done so far?  Is there any significant thing that has been done???  So dramatic that he deserve to win again?  Mr Abang comment...well...becos of no resources that's y cant be done...but my question is...what Mr XYZ has done so far???  If he win again.....can do anything?  

Well, I am not against  or siding who or which party.....but the q is..when one vote...u vote becos of what u had heard...and had been informed only or based on what u had seen with your own eyes and experience it??  I always believe that in order to know the truth and make a line between right or wrong..one has to be there..to really feel it and see it.  Then..only then the person has the right to comment, judge and criticize.  Or else all those that we heard may either be extremely negative or extremely positive.  Person that agree..surely comment and with all mean...hundred percent positive...and on the other hand...the person that disagree will be in full force with all the negative issues and thots.  So, by the end of the day...it is always hard to justify.  I guess, that's the reason y God give us brain to think rationally..at least we try to justify..from right to wrong and vice-versa.

But I always kinda enjoy this "season"...it's always interesting to see all the things going on and hear comments from different groups...hehehe...

Curious...21/4/13 

How can one comes with a different shoe and went home with another pair of shoes and was not even aware about it??? Aiii...funny hor?? Yesterday, a child of mine had to went home bare-footed due to someone wore her shoes home.  Aiyoyo, pity her.  But thank God it was finally sort out.  A misunderstanding indeed lah...the person that wore it home thot that she wore that kind of shoes here...so ended up wearing that particular one (which is actually own by another person) home and left her own shoes here...hehehehe...aiii. Macam ni pun boleh jadi...but everything sort out and went well lah..phew.

Not feeling so well today..felt a bit cold, stomach ache..neck painful and whole body seem to be aching.  Memang old liao lah.  Have my dinner at Howdy and quickly went home as my youngest angel need to learn the ejaan.  Aiii...this angel just recover from sakit again.  Taken in something that cause allergic..cause cough like siao and now baru recover.  Aiii..almost every week sakit....aiii.  Well, gotta be positive thinking lah..if we are not confident with our own kids...who else will?  Like the Chinese idiom says - "Hang hang chuk chuang yian", which means everyone can excel in certain thing.  So if A is not meant for u...maybe can try out B instead.  Not everyone can be a doctor or lawyer..but everyone can certainly be something.  It's up to that particular person to strive for it.  I believe that as long got effort...everyone can do it!

Gotta run now...as wan to clean and mop the floor.  Super dirty now...update more next time... =)

Chris Daughtry - the final four from American Idol, which year I can't remember.  Eventho he doesn't win the competition, but I think he turns out to be more popular than the winner and the first runner up.  I include three songs from him -  It's Not Over, Over You and No Surprise.  

Simple Me...15/4/13 

I am just a very simple person, simple lao ah ma with a simple life.  My routine are the same all the time...every day 24/7....365 days...yeah!!  Hahaha..I remember I watched a Cantonese movie before and this couple was complaining about their routine lives.  It becomes too routine and static..and one counselor advised them to look for something interesting and exciting in their lives.  Then this particular man asked for his fren's advice and the fren said this:

Simplicity and stability.  That's the life u are having now.  Stability is one thing that every one is looking for but not everyone knows and understand how to enjoy it.  When ones life is too stable...she/he will expect for something unexpected...but when it happens...one will complains life is too chaotic...and hard to struggle on.  So which one do u wan...a stable but simple life....or chaotic but challenging life which some people may found it interesting?

For me, its 50/50 lah rite???  A bit here and a bit there, it makes our lives more interesting.  Nevertheless (is this how u used this word?? hahahaha =p ).  I am contented with my life.  Always count my blessing...don't expect too much but always be ready for any unexpected thing..just in case mah.

I am not the type of lao ah ma that like to shop for clothes, accessories or stuff like that.  Even when I was young, those things had been never in my list of priority (no money oso lah..).  Food of cos...is always on the top ranking...hahaha.  I like to shop for stationary and books, kitchen stuff, food and the DIY stuff.  Weird hor? And I never like "girlish" stuff such as flowers or soft toys.  For me, those are wasting money nia.  U buy real flowers...it is sooo expensive and it withers in few days...buy fake flowers....no no no...not sincere pulak.  Soft toys..I am allergic to it and I dont know how or where to keep it.  So, when people gave me this, I will wrap it properly and keep it a nice huge "present box".

So yesterday I went "shopping" at Popular's book store for 3 hours just to look for some red pens, markers, papers...books and so on.  This....for me....is INTERESTING.  And when I went to Parkson in Spring........aiyo will stay hours and hours in the kitchen section.  That's y I love to go to Aino Living.  Tried IKEA once and sorry to say...I don't like the concept.  Too many people.........too chaotic........wonder how do anyone search for things in such an environment???  People everywhere....hardly see any tiny space that is not occupied.  Scary ah..........

Clothes??? Wonder when is the last time I bought one for myself???  Really not interested in things like these.  I remembered when I was in uni...my pakaian were sooo simple comparatively to other girls.  All my pakaian were the hand-me-down from my sisters.  The jeans..wore for years...from a tight and colorful jean..as frequent washing - it turned out to be loose and faded badly. Some shirts already torn at the sleeve..and so I have to sew it back.  But as my sewing skill is "sooo good".. the thread on the sleeves look more like a "scar on the pirate's face"....hahaha.  And I wore the same slippers (which cost me about RM 8) for few years...and even bought a few pairs of it as it is cheap and its hard to get my size + this slipper are thicker, make me stands a bit taller lah =)).  But of cos...at that time, my family was toooo poor so just have to make out with wat ever we have.  Well...studying...are the best time in life. Miss those carefree time.  The only thing u have to worry is just home works and tests. Y it is sooo hard for kids now hor??? Aiiii....

Eventho I am not interested in those stuff, I do have my own collection of accessories and bags lah.  But never use it oh...keep for fun.  Some had not even been out from the wrapper.. =p

Well, that's me....simple and stable....but happy and contented.  Life is short, live to the fullest, hope for the best and prepare for the worst.  

Before I sign off, include some songs from two female singers....enjoy ya =)

Vanessa William - Save the Best for Last.  She is the former Miss America that turned into a singer..and if I am not mistaken she acts in this drama series "Ugly Betty" as the boss.  Nice voice...sing this song in front of about 200 people before (dinner after a conference)...hehehe...that was yearssssssssssssss ago leh... 

Celine Dion - I think she gains popularity back in the 80's or earlier 90's, not so sure as I am not an ardent fan of her tho. Just like these 4 songs.  I guess, she was a bit behind Whitney Houston.  But one thing for sure, these two women has a very powerful voice. Oh ya, Celine ever gave a chance for Charice (popular with the song "Pyramid") to sing with her- can't remember which song during Celine's concert tour, that was loooong way before Charice gains popularity as she said she admires Celine Dion.  The song from the movie Titanic (Leonardo Dicaprio and Kate Winslet) - My Heart Will Go On, sings by Celine Dion too.  BUT.....I hate this movie, I found it lame...never watch it..as don't like movie that kinda "twisting" a fact/history and the worst line I had ever heard (from this movie - friend told me)................ "U jump, I jump"..........yhew!!!!

1)  New Day Has Come

2)  That's The Way It Is

3)  I'm Alive

4)  One Heart

Song 1 until song 3 were used before in one of the conference I handled with my friends.  Interesting conference....bring back so much sweet memories... =)

Not Sure Yet...13/4/13

Few people asked me the same q....my answer is..I am not sure yet as don't really have that time and not so confident too.  C how..c how..let me think, consider, analyze and read read first before I finalize my decision.  Waitlah ya...

The test week for me and for my children....just standing there, monitoring and observing them.  Can see some really serious, some don't care-dont care attitude.  Aiiii...some freak out..hehehe.  Don't worry, the purpose of the test is not to fail u guys.  Tests are given so that I know how far and what is ur progress.  To identity the weakness and see what can we do to improve ur study.  Just try ur best lah ya......

Got one adorable child that ended up sobbing badly..kolien her.  Have a heart to heart talk with her and just to let her know that..the test comes with a good intention - to help them to revise before a major exam.  After about 15 minutes, she baru calm down.  Kolien her....

Need to go now as wanna mark the test =(...so include a few music videos as usual.

Life House - You and Me.  This song always remind me of my friend's IS.  Only see each other once or twice in a year as he is always on travelling and resides in KL now.  A very close friend indeed....very close indeed until some people thot that we are couple.  But the thot can be easily dismiss off as I have Mr Abang and further more he is well...just say like this song lah..the sound track of the movie "Brokeback Mountain". If you know what is the main theme of this movie..and you will understand y...=)... But nevertheless...he is a very nice pal lah....=)

Rob Thomas the lead singer for the group Matchbox 20.   I like these two songs, Ever the Same - meaningful lyric and oso Lonely No More.

Stress...11/4/13 

Can feel that my stress level is building up.  U want your angels to do well, u oso wan ur children to do well.  Stress oh....and need to juggle between those two, susah, susah and pening pening pening.  

Eat a lot of junk food these few days...chocolate and chips.  Aiii...eating is a way to release stress..listening to music is oso my another way.......So..introduce to u another few songs from the boys group.  

Westlife - Something Right.  I never like this group actually and this is their only song that I like.  Initially they starts off with 5 persons in the group, but one leave.  They are the anak murid of Boyzone.  A very  popular group back in the 90's.  I think they disband already.

Next, the Plus One.  If I am not mistaken, this is a Christian boy group.  Never really know about this group just like 2 of their songs.  Last Flight Out and Forever. 

How ah??...8/4/13 

Today, received my youngest angel's English test paper.  Aii, had sit for BM, Maths and English.  Can see that he is better and prefer BM more than others...and understand faster too.  But when it comes to the other two subjects...aii.  Don't know y, he purposely leave some part of his paper blank....some don't know how to do...but some when I asked him to do it at home...he can oh....then y leave it blank leh???  

The most important rule in exam - NEVER EVER LEAVE IT BLANK.  Must write something or anything.  U never know that u might get it rite.  Don't judge your own answer, let the examiner look and determine whether it is acceptable or not.  Blank = zero.  Aiiii...... =(  Gotta run now, as wanna revise his Maths with him...

Enrique Iglesias - son of Julius Iglesias.  One of my fav song from Enrique is Do You Know (the Ping-pong song).  Next is the mp3 from the singer Bosson - One in A Million.   This song One in a Million always remind me one of the conference which was handle by me and frens...=)

Let Me Think...4/4/13 

Received a call from a friend..whom that I had known for 12 years, asking me whether I am interesting to join her in that field again.  Although I had leave that company yearsss ago, but it is always in my heart.  Honestly speaking, if not becos of my youngest angel, I would have immediately say yes to her.  And during those time when I need to bid farewell to all of them, it was becos of my eldest angel then...aiii.  It is not just a place where u get to learn many things, get to know many people but u are also surrounded by people who are always full with team spirit and would never leave u behind or let u running around doing everything on ur own.  Promise to meet up with her and a few of them (ex- colleagues and friends too of cos) for breakfast sum where and sum time next week.  It is always interesting to catch up with them =)

Oh ya, before I introduce to u some of the Chinese/Mandarin songs that I like...just to correct a fact lah ya.  My friend did not swing his wife like the guy in the videolah, what he did what he carry her up on the arms and swing her around and then hold her up in the sky for a few seconds.  That memang need kekuatanlah.  If swing like the one in the video..ai c loh!!

A Taiwanese singer, A-do with the songs See U Everyday ( 天天看到你).  The first time I heard this song..ai say...immediately fall in love with it.  I memang like singer with husky voice plus u pay attention to the lyric, it is meaningful.  The second song is - He Loves U So Much (他一定很愛你).  U know he was just a foreman (construction) and then take part in a singing competition, and the rest are history....

The next two songs are from the Taiwan drama series - It Started With A Kiss (ISWAK).  Actually, I never like Taiwan drama series (further more this story was origin from Japanese manga), I found it lame and the story lines are static.  It is always pretty heroin go after a handsome hero and the handsome hero super tarik harga..blah..blah..blah...and finally when something happened (the girl wan to leave lah..the girl give uplah...the girl sicklah...another guy go after the girllah..blah..blah) and then baru the hero realized tat actually he is super duper in love with the girl too.  So from the beginning till the end....all u see were the girl going after the guy!  Aiyo!!!

But don't know y I get stuck when I watched this one...I guess it was becos my eldest angel was watching it together with Mr Abang and they kept on laughing.  So was wondering how funny and lame it was and so..ya...joining them from the first episode till to the end.  (Bonus...I like the hero too lah...hahaha...memanglah mata sepet..not the big sparkling eyes group..but he is super cool...hahahaha).  Watched ISWAK 1 and ISWAK 2.  Laughed too as the girl memang super duper naive and gong leh.  Aii...

Next, is the Taiwan group that popular in the 80's - Tigers @ The Little Tiger group with their song Red Dragonfly.  These few songs bring back a lot of memories.  1) My mum used to on the small radio that she has in the early morning - just to be my wake up call.  It's a sign that it is already 5.45 am.  Have to wake up early as need to walk to school.  From my house to the school, take about half an hour??? So..get ready..ting tong ting tong walk to school around 6.30am..reached there by 7am and the bell rings around 7.10am.  Every day rajin rajin walked to school - sunny day...raining day..., students nowadays..mum and dad send with car till the main entrance..if can till to the door of the class...still don wan to study...aiii.  2)  During the school Talentime, it is always a popular songs for the students.  Sweet memories leh........trust me when u are done with your school and enter the real world of working......and when u sit down and flash back...u gonna miss those time sooo much.  Either it is sweet or bitter memories..it is always something for u to talk about and laugh at.  

About this group, few years later, the three member disband, each pursues a solo singing career but the most outstanding one is Nicky Wu (if I am not mistaken lah) - Wishing U All the Best (祝你一路順風)

Another Taiwanese singer - Jimmy Lin.  Ai say, this guy from the 80's till now he looks the same.  Memang look like that.  Tak tua langsung oh!  Well, when one is around the age of 17+ and in the mid of 20's, cute cute like that oklah.  But now...masih look like that baby face eventho already  38? 40?  emm..a bit weird lah.  If for girl, maybe oklah...but for guy...a bit too childish hor....I wonder whether Mr Abang's face is like that or not hor?  As many people comment that he has that kind of baby face but + few extra fat now lah...hahahaha..ooophs =)))

Talk about Jimmy Lin, he has one movie calls as The Flying Dagger, u know how many times I watched this movie at cinema?  11 times ah!!!  Hahaha..together with my friends.  Well, I am not really an ardent fan of his..but my friends go nuts over him like wat.  So always exchange posters/pin ups with button.  My idol...not from the Taiwan list of singers but my idol is from the East as well..next time lah ya =) I like some Mandarin songs maybe....but nay not too much into it.  Show u two of the videos for the same song Dream Catcher, OST for this movie.

Next, in the top list of my favourite Mandarin song...Jeff Chang - Don't Worry that I am Sad (別怕我傷心).  The lyric is meaningful.

DIY =) ... 1/4/13

Searching for a new stuff to do...and ended up wanna do some DIY project.  Guess its gonna be fun as havent do anything that need my creativity for quite some time.  Lao liao.....forgetful...absent minded liao.  So must train my brain a bit =)  So to anyone that has any unwanted toilet paper rolls (the brown thingy..the core of the toilet paper) do give to me if u dont mind ya.. =)

*Psst...saw two of my anak at Howdy last nite..ST and ZC....looks so pretty...mature liao..really grown up into a beautiful young lady.  Looks and brain...they have it all.  The parents must be super duper proud of them.  Have about 15 mins chat with ST and her mum too =).  To ST and ZC...well done on your super duper result which had been announced recently ya.  Well done to my own anak emas KB and AS too =)

Chris Brown - Forever

This is the only song I ever like from Chris Brown.  And when one of my friend get married...we remember that we designed montage for her wedding entrance at Hilton.  Cute and fun tho.  Below I oso include two videos that done by some couple by using this song.  

Next...song by Cascada - Everytime We Touch and Martin McBride - Valentine.  Emm..these two songs brought back a lot of sweet memory as in the year 2008, me and Mr Abang choreographed a dance for a friend's wedding again by using Cascada song.  Can u imagine that we asked the bridegroom to carry up the bride during the chorus part and swing her around???  Hahaha..luckily nothing happened and they are memang good in dancing too lah.  Psstt...to TS and LL still remember this?? Hahaha...now I don't think can liao lah.  We all put on weight like maybe few kilosssssss liao?? Hahaha =))  There are actually two versions of this song...a fast and the slow version.  Slow version is better.  Oh, and of cos we used the slow version one lah.  So which version is better?

Martin McBride song pula....this one even more fun.  We used it as the entrance song for my friend's wedding dinner. Aisay man...not only we made this song longer (we extend the beginning..the music part two times of the original version - its all Mr Abang's effort and expertise in arranging the music track and recordinglah..I am just the tukang pengarah nia..hahaha).  So the song from about 3 minutes plus it becomes about 7 minutes plus.  The entrance oso super "keng" loh...with this music...and then got smoke effect some more...lighting effect..we coordinated and choreograph everything and of cos...with the help of the super technician and their equipment from Les Paul.  

Sorry, I can't upload any of the videos we had took from these weddings as it is "violating" their personal rights later.  So...just enjoy the songs lah ya =)

Wait..No Time...27/3/13 

Bz recently..boh eng..need to settle many things before can really sit down and update my blog.  So wait lah ya....oh...my Star Craft here liao...installed liao but havent play it eventho had already installed since yesterday.  Boh eng lah....so..next time will update more about everything.. =) 

If Only It Is Like That...21/3/13 

These few days were indeed very unlucky with all those planned stuff didn't go well..aii.  The car still kaboom and now have major prob in transportation.  Can't ask Mr.  Abang for help much as our timing is always clashed..aiii.  And don't want to bother others as well...aii.  After my eldest angel almost recovered (can move her hand now...)...now my youngest angel fever....cough pula.  Normally...after this...other masalah will tag along...aiiii.

Not worry much about the eldest as I know that she can take care of herself more and she does thing faster and do catch up easily..but as for the youngest angel...worry as can see that this angel is weaker either physically or mentally.  I remember that once there was a parent that told me - I shouldn't have much to worry as "I am what I am" and certainly my angels are very good in study too.  Ai say man...if only it is like that...if only it is like that....how I wish............honestly, I can't deny that my youngest angel is slow...and friends always told me...still young...still early.  But I always believe that it all starts from young....the foundation is the most crucial part.  Like the peribahasa - melentur buluh biarlah dari rebung.  Can see that not becos he is not willing, not becos he is lazy..but just don't know y...he is slow and need a loooooong time to understand something......aii.  Then he is  bogged down by another issue.  His health's condition.  Not well easily...no matter how we take care....will tend to get cough...fever and so on and forth.

I remember I have the similar problem when I was in primary 1 - primary 4.  I was absent from school most of the time and worst...hospitalized most of the time.  I can even be in hospital up to a week.  Hospital equivalent to my home....my 2nd house.  To the extend, most of the doctors and nurses know me well.  The moment they saw me or heard my name...they will know the reason y I was there.  My health only get better as I entered my secondary school.  Although it was still on and off...but it was much much better then...and it only reach it best health condition when I entered university.  Imagine how long it was for me to juggle between my health and my study.  Thank God...really thank God...well, I was consider smart lah (ehem...) that's y can pull thru...but as for my youngest angel......aii.  I know its cruel to say so and too early to judge...but I certainly believe that it is very important to starts from young and to build a strong base from there.  

Well, ya...no doubt everything has its timing..and everyone is unique in its own way..education may not be everything, but still..at least, one must equipped themselves with the best they can and make the best out of it.  Keep my fingers cross lah...aii...

I believe that every parents want their best from their child - but I guess sometime we just have to believe that their best may not be in their education.  We see lah...that's what Mr Abang always told me.  He has more confident in our angels...but whereby..I guess I am just more to a "worrying freak" and "think too much" lah

That's from a parent's perspective - from the other side perspective, well I do understand that some teachers may view them as lazy and wonder what's going on.  Boh pien lah.  But that is common, and that is a good sign too actually.  At least it shows that, they still concern and wish to help.  Instead of being ignorant and don't care...that would be worst.

Well, talk about that, thats y sometime I can't understand y some parents would feel upset or annoy when the teachers tell them the truth about their child behavior or study in school.  I do understand that, no matter what, parents tend to look very positively about their children but sometime...we need to accept the fact that....no matter how, in certain situation, there is some truth in what had been comment.

Parents would always said - "we don't mind how u rotan or discipline our children....we know u meant well.....just punish him/her..we dont mind ..as long as they learn'...but when the teachers really implement it...can the parents really accept it?  Of cos, teachers wont simply punish or give a certain punishment or assignment which is beyond the student's ability.  Why I comment this....as I have my feet (foots...hahahah) in both side...and I do understand that sometimes..teachers cant comment much..so allow me to share our headache..heartache and pain this:

1.  When teachers comment that the children dont do work, parents will be the rescue helicopter, comes in with thousand of excuses - they are bz...have many tests and music class, swimming class, art class....got relatives from oversea came for visit...attend grandmother's birthday, competition....etc.  

Yes, no doubt...all those are indeed very very important.  Everything is important, but which one is the priority?  And no doubt...everyone has no time...everyone just has 24 hours..same amount of time in a day....that's y it is call time management.  If A can do it with the same equivalent bz schedule and time given..y not B?  Aii..if one time with this excuse..oklah...if 2, 3, 4 times?  Aiiii....  And when it comes to the tests and exams time, parents will expect teachers to give tons of  works or extra classes to polish their studies....but how can just 2 or 3 extra classes...or 2 or 3 extra hours...polish someone from D or C to A???  Some subjects need a prolong revision and practice..baru can see the result.  Just an extra few days and hours wont help anything at all actually.  

2.  When teacher enforce punishment - parents started to feel very sympathy and sorry (remember ah, I am in both sides..I know how it feels)...but then...we have to accept the fact that some kids need to be punish.  Like the Hokkien always said - some children need the "harsh punishment" baru they want to learn..but some need the "soft talk" type and baru they want to learn.  So, if after thousand and million of "motivational talks" and nothing happened to that kid....I guess something "harsh" has to be done liao lah..or else tak jalan oh............

3.  When one comment that, the child is naughty or misbehave/lazy...parent may regard it as a gossip...if two comment that the child is misbehaving/lazy.....parent may regard it as rumor...if three comment that the child is misbehaving/lazy.....I guess it is time for the parent to really look at the matter liao lah.  By the time if the whole group started to comment so, then the issue must be kinda serious liao.  But unfortunately in most case, parent tend to justify the whole issue by saying that the child explain to them "the best reason behind the issue of them being lazy or misbehave in school".  And the most reasons given are:

a)  It is not I was lazy..it is becos the homework is too hard 

- I certainly believe that...but if it is really that hard..y not the child consult the teacher in the first place?  Y wait till the due date???

b)  It is not that I was naughty, it is because people disturb me first..........

- if in one case...maybe lah...two cases...maybe lah...but third time??? If in one place...maybe lah...two different places...maybelah....but if it is every where oso kena complain naughty????  

c)  Teachers always purposely pint point on me......... (of cos in certain case, this may be true lah....hard to swallow, but indeed some teachers do lah...)

- y in the first place out of so many students in class, teachers want to pint point on you?  Is it obviously u always show the sign of not study, always not passing up ur work, fail to do ur work up to the standard that given........not paying attention in class or???

Well, tons of issue and reasons can be given lah.  But like I said, it takes everyone to make the system work.  It takes two hand to clap and two person to tango.  If it just to solely relying on the teachers to roll up their sleeves and do their part everytime...aiii...cannot lah.

From a parent's perspective pula........of coslah...who wants their child to be scolded all the time and to be punished all the time?  Even with a good solid reason, sometime it is hard to swallow and hard to accept the truth.  We give birth to them susah-susah, raise them up susah-susah, mana do we allow people to simply punish themlah?  Punish can lah, scold can lah....but must know the limit and see what kind of punishment is suitable lah.  

Well, share from my experience lah...once, my youngest angel was punish by the teacher to stay in class without break (morning recess) as he couldnt finish his work. And I was informed by someone, he was punished so due to he was day dreaming in class.   Ehem...as a parent..at that swift moment, I was thinking - Hey, I dont think my angel day dream, it must be he couldnt follow up (as I said he was very slow...even copy sentence or simple word already very very slow...aiii) and dont understand what the teacher want him to do actually...that y he was blur and due to that couldnt finish his work!!!  A bit angry liao and feel like wan to complain liao.  But then....like I said - I have my feet (foots...hahahah) in both side.........I ponder for while.  This is baru first time....and maybe the situation was not like what that person told me...maybe the whole issue was misinterpret and it ended up he doesnt have time to eat...so well...ok..never mindlah.  (Psst...I am not blaming on anyone ah...I am just trying to show to u the perspective from both sides........)

And at that moment...it remind me of my former boss, Mr. GL....when he talked to me about not punishing student to stay in class during recess time just to do their work.  As hunger may caused them not being able to concentrate and it will affect the whole learning process later.  Not just that, worst, it may really affect their health as some children went to school without breakfast.  True.  As teachers, we may see it as...its a fair thing to do...as if lazy, got time to day dream, time to talk...then no need to eat!  Do your work!  But as parents........we dont want oh.  What if the children fainted or gastric later oh?????

That's y I always comment ...every coin has two sides..it depend on which side we want to view it............... =)  

So to everyone....either young or old...which side u are in...please view everything in every perspective.  In every thing...there must be a reason behind it.  Try to have a good talk about it first...before taking in any action.  If already talk..cannot settle...do like me..write a blog or comment!!!!!!  Hahaha..no lah...no lah...just kidding.  My blog is just for me to vent my frustration...share my thots and views in certain issues lah...nothing more or less than that.  Dont misinterpret me oh.....

Ok, ok..seriously....about children thingy...I guess it is very complicated issuelah.  But one thing we cant deny...everyone mean well.   Everyone want the children to excel and do their best.  Everyone need to play their own role well.  So do I play both roles well? I pray and hope so...there is always room for improvement.....do teach me.... =)

Music Video:

1)  Down - Jay Sean

2)  What You Waiting For - Mizz Nina featuring Colby O' Donis

3)  Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting (a very popular song in the 80's)

4)  Richard Marx - Now and Forever (Mr.  Abang played guitar and sings this for me before...hehehehe)

5)  Richard Marx - Hazard

Sudah Jatuh Ditimpa Tangga...20/3/13 

Aiii..these few days....memang si bei sueh...that's y no time to update much:

1)  Eldest angel has a minor procedure/surgery on her right's shoulder..aiii 

2)  Youngest angel - not feeling well......

3)  My car rosak.......aduh...how????  Once it happened..everything oso affected...

4)  The things that I prepared for my anak this whole week...don't know what happened.....even when I had saved the file.....the whole thing can't be "open"...aiyo!!!!!!!! =(

So gotta run now...next time update more.... 

Again...18/3/13 

Same again...last year was third and now this year back to its normal original position again...aiii.....Purple, Red, Blue and Yellow...aii again... =(  Anyway..no matter what..congrats to all the winners...congrats to everyone who had done their best...if u don't achieve wat u want this year..well...there is always next year ya.. =)  

Was not there actually, but some of my anak-anak told me so..so..that's y know a bit here and there.  Sorry ya can't be there eventho had promised some anak to go and see them as the church ends around 11.30am.  By the time I reached home, it was about 12pm already.  Sorry......

Still down with coughing...but slightly better.....will update more next time and need to check on more of the videos as sooo many broken links..aiiyah...

Not Well...15/3/13 

Coughing for the last few days..not so bad but well...still coughing and on med tho.  Too much heaty food again..or should I said too much fried mushroom.  Had ordered Star Craft II from One TJ.  The worldwide release is on the 12th March but it is only reach Malaysia by the 15th..which is today.  Dont think have that time to really explore it...

Gonna run now as extremely sleepy after the med.  I think it can even make a baby elephant dozzzzzze off.  Before chao show u something funny and amazing... =)

Games...11/3/13 

Stop playing Diablo 3 for a while liao...the story line is always more or less the same and u can agak-agak who is the actual bad guy all the time..what will happen next and so on.  Altho the graphic is much better..but the game by itself...boring liao lah.  Instead of playing Diablo 3..prefer Diablo 1 and 2.  Diablo 1 - the game and the music is more spooking (if u play Diablo 1..then u must play the other 2 expansion packs as well)...as for Diablo 2....as I normally play Sorceress...hahaha.not she is memang "immortal" liao.  Just walk around nia..all the demons died liao.  In the "hell level" pula..just need to swing one or two times or just cast a magic..every demons bye bye...hehehe.  But as for Diablo 3...sien.....

Tomoro..for all the games maniac..another big and long anticipated game will be out...STAR CRAFT II: HEART OF THE SWARM.  If I am not mistaken, the story line is about Kerrigan (the Queen of Zerg) wants to revenge on those who abandoned her to the enemy in the first place and thus turned her into a Zerg as well.  The previous expansion only got Terran...wonder now got Zerg and Protoss to play or not.  Well, didn't pre-order this game (not like Diablo 3, Mr. Abang pre-order it few months before its official release.. =p )  Now, u can see y both of us have so many things in common and to talk about.  We both love to sit down and play games together when we do have time and comment on each other character.  Remember the first time when we played PC games together...it is known as Jazz Rabbit.  Cute and simple game.  Fun tho...that was looooooong looooong way back lah before I started with RPG game.

Gotta run now as throat a bit painful tho (too much of talking yesterday and keropok I guess..oh and recently....fall in love with the Hijau's fried mushroom....)...too much of fried and oily stuff I guess..wanna drink some green tea and zzzzzzz later...20 minutes before my bed time liao.  So, to Star Craft's fan..tomoro is the day ya =)

Sarah Chen + Jackie Chan - You Should Understand My Heart...remember this song in the era of 80's?  Nice duet song.  Also include the official song for 2008 Olympic - Welcome to Beijing/Beijing Welcomes You..nice song =)

Updating...10/3/13 

Today is another looong day for me, but happy to see my children.  The younger group seems to be getting better and more kuai..and for the senior groups..it is always fun to see them =).  Gonna miss them a lot when everything is done..aiii.  Another cycle...aii. 

Today - approached WT and told him that I am disappointed with his performance.  At this level now - I really really expect him to be like his elder sister and brother.  Of cos, it's not that I want to compare or to say who is smarter or better..but at least I was hoping that he can already master the basic skill but alas..I couldnt see it till now.  I believe that he has that potential and he can certainly do much much better than what he did now.  

Whenever I told my children about this..it always remind me of my own angels too.  Well, not to say to compare...but no doubt sometime it does happen.  After so many years in the same place - it is hard to believe that the young one couldnt absorb much of the thing which has been taught..and of cos - first thing I point the finger to myself first.  As the nearest person to my angel, that role should be on me and not to anyone else.  When angel fails to do so...then the responsibility should be on me and Mr. Abang.  Can see that my youngest angel wants to try and learn but alas...aii.  But I always todl myself....well..maybe along the process of learning and growing up, my youngest angel will manage to pick up (hope so)..and I always tell myself and other parents that every child is unique in their own way.  (But of cos - I hundred percent agree that foundation is very very important).  Hey, we never know ya..maybe one day...the next Mark Zuckerberg (FB founder) will be my youngest angel..hahaha =p.  Keep my fingers cross and pray lah ya...

Now want to update my blog, my sister told me that some of the video here not functioning - broken link.  Sometimes it will happen like that especially when it comes to copy right issue or sometime it may be the person who upload the video didnt wish to share his video to public anymore..thus cant be watch liao lah.  Aii, maintaining a blog quite susah oh.  Want to check the video here now..chao first =)

Memorable Day =)...5/3/13 

Yesterday, met my former secondary classmate at Stutong Market and ended up having breakfast together.  Catching up the good old days.  Were in the same class for 3 years and then in Form 4 we were separated.  She still looks the same eventho already had 4 cute angels ...so envy her "slim" size and energetic looks.....

Today.....aiii...funny pun ada...terkilan pun ada......u know what, as I send and brought my angels to their respective classes...aii....my youngest angel's classmate - his mum, thot that I am the maid!  Aiyoyo....oh well, this is not the first time tho.  The first time when someone thot I was a Filipino maid was when I was carrying my first nephew..aiyoyo.  That person asked my sister straight forward in front of me am I the maid and can u imagine his looks when my sister said I am her youngest sister!!!  Wah lao eh...even tho I am tan tan but that doesnt mean I am a maid lah.  I am not saying that the job as a maid is bad or what, what I am trying to point out here is that..dont judge me by what I am wearing lah.

Just because I wear cin cai cin cai all the time doesnt mean that I am a maid lah.  And honestly, I never wore nice-nice or put on extremely heavy make up + extremely high-high heels (stilettos) except during my own big day and oso my  bestest chi mui big day.  That's it.  Other than that....if got any occasions..just gowns..some make up..consider as very cin cai liao oso compares to other girls.  If normal day..the best is t-shirt and pant.  Comfortable and easy mah..........

Every time when I saw other girls or those my age...even just went to some grocery store..with heavy make up and the super elegant dress..I will be like...wah....if its me..wa c liao.  U know what...make up is not hard..but the ma huan part is..to clean it off.  It takes longer time than to put it on!! Phew...if u don't clean those make up properly - after few years...the chemicals will really harmful for your skin.  Example, lipstick - if u don't clean it properly...after some time, your lips make turned black/dark blue.

Ok, ok - back to the maid's thingy.  So, when she knows that I was not the maid - wah can see that she was super pai seh.  Hehehe..so to ease the awkwardness, I just tried to bring out other topics to chat with her..phew.

Then, after my angels settled down, I went to KFC for breakfast.  Fall in love with their morning breakfast burger - Riser Combo.  And at here...two things or two incidents:

1)  As I was sitting down, I realised that the girl who sit opposite my table was looking a bit sad and uneasy.  Well, memang betul hor.  She kept on looking at the tv and then her handphone and out of the blue...cry!! Ai c loh, she was staring at me when she cried oh!! I tried to look away but can sense that her eyes are still on me!!  Die loh!!!  Aiyo, she wants me to comfort her izit? Or what?? Then, y keep on looking at me??  Dont scare hor!!  Then as she sobbed louder and louder, turned to look at me then at the phone..those sitting behind her oso started to turn around and looked at her. (Ahh..this is the second incident..from this table.).  She left after sobbing for about 15 mins...

2)  There were 5 of them on this table...2 facing me..and 2 with their backs and the other one (a stylist and quite nice looking man) was sitting at the edge of the table.  (Can see his left side only)  Then when he turned to look at the "crying girl"..I think I saw something on his right face....like a "string or a black stain..or patches" on the right face...well...  When he went up to take some sauce...aiyah...I miss out ..want to see whether I had observe correctly or not....Then as the five of them stand up and he turned to his left (meaning to say I can see his right face now....) wow.......so what I saw just now was rite...below his right eyes....somewhere on the cheek...there is a strain ..not just a strain...the hair grows on the cheek.  Based on my estimation...it seems to be 4cm width and the length is about 8cm or more.  Wow..can tie it up as a short pony tail.  It is really hair.  Takut that he realized I observe it...but memang I tengok him pun...I was like...well...everyone has its "not so perfect" part ya? I oso got lah.....my "gift of gap"...hahahaha.... so Mr Abang always said....any food that I bite..surely got a nice pattern or design on it...very unique one...hahahahaha...yalah tu....... =p.  There was this time I purposely bite "circling" the ice cream cone...wow..wat an amazing design!! Hahaha......=p.  Next time would try it on burger or other kind of bun. =p

Light & Easy...2/3/13 

Tired and shoulder pain today..so just wan to share something light and easy.  Ohh before that...HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY ANAK EMAS OL AND NN (the lame girl @ "kapal perang") 

Remember the hero in the movie Agent Vinod that I told u before?  Show u some of his picture..well not my fav Hindustan actor..but just to show to u the difference when he has the clean cut looks and the "hairy beard look"

Prefer the one with the "beard" look. I think looks more "man"..hahaha =p.  Acted in quite a number of movies but like a few of it only.  

This is the wife of Saif Ali Khan - Kareena Kapoor..the one that acted as the heroin in the movie Agent Vinod.  Sui leh?  She has an elder sister's Karisma Kapoor...sui oso. - retired from movie industry after married to a doctor, resides in Italy for few years and now they are back to India  "I know" them so well hor?  Hehehe...an ardent fan of Bollywood's movie/industry....=p.  So who is prettier?  Kareena or Karisma?  Kareena only gains popularity after the sister's Karisma retired from the movie industry (Btw, if u look carefully at Karisma..I kinda feel that one of my anak - SA...or normally we called her Aid _ ...their features quite alike ya....)

Share one of the Hindustan song that I like.  It's from the movie known as Kal Ho Naa Ho and its the title song as well for this movie.  Acted by Shah Rukh Khan @ The King Khan - one of my favourite Bollywood actor.  A ko lien love story...a triangle love story - knowing that he (Shah Rukh Khan) is dying soon due to an illness, he introduced the girl that he loves (Preity Zinta) to Saif Ali Khan, hoping that when he die..there will be someone at the girl's side.....the ending...watch urself lah......

Shah Rukh Khan is quite tall...around 5 feet 9 or 5 feet 10...but in Bollywood..he is consider the shortest liao.  Got some actors stand at 6 feet 4. Ooohh.  Fren ever met this Shah Rukh Khan (SRK) in person.  And she said, he certainly looks charming and oso friendly...oooohhhh. =p.  Gonna run now...so enjoy the songs lah ya.. =)

When The Going Gets Tough, 

The Tough Get Going...25/2/13

It must be devastating when any of this happened:

1) Lost something that mean a lot to u...

2) Fail in a major exams.....

3) Broken relationship.....

4) Love ones went home to the Lord...

The problems and all the broken heart never ends ya?  But by the end of the day..always believe in this...like the Chinese idiom always said - No mountain is too high and no sea is too deep.  Even then the Bible also says that - If God makes sure that even the bird are fed daily (altho they didn't work at all) and if God even clothed the flowers in the field beautifully...what more to say us - the one that is created in His own image?

So, to my fren :

No problem is toooooo big...and sooooo big til it can't be settle....as things come........God will makes  a way.  U know the "footprint" story:

"Footprint in the Sand"

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints

Other times there were one set of footprints

This bothered me because I notices that during the low periods of my life

When I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat

I could see only one set of footprints

So I said to the Lord, "You promised me, Lord"

That if I followed you, you would walk with me all the ways

But I noticed that during the most troublesome periods of my life

There have only been one set of prints in the sand

Why, when I have needed you most, you have not been there for me?

The Lord replied:

My precious child

I love you and I would never leave you

During your times of trial and suffering

When you see only one set of footprints

It was then that I carried you.....

To my fren - we are always here for you.................

First Day... =) 20/2/13 

After "keep quiet" for almost 2 weeks...today finally "blast" my volume again...and after 2 hours...gee...the throat seems to be not use to it yet..and can feel it extremely dry...drink tons of green tea ( lao liao..dont dare to drink too much soft drink already)

Oh,share something..well some funny and some just to make u ponder..think..or amaze!

Wow..this is either a major typo error or its one heavy penalty man!! =)))) 

This is what happened when the husband took over the wife's role... =))))) 

Emmmmm...... =) =p 

Gross..gong but it works!!  This is call as Peter Petrie Egg Separator. Crack an egg into the hand crafted ceramic head and tilt it forward.  When the egg yok is blocked by the nose, the albumen (egg white)  will drips into your bowl.  Disgusting but cool ya =))

A fren sent me this:

Pesanan buat LELAKI:

Ada satu pesanan penting untuk dikatakan kepada kaum LELAKI:

Tolong jangan puji kecantikan seseorang wanita itu di hadapannya.  Jangan puji apa-apa pun berkaitan diri seseorang wanita itu di hadapannya:

Tambah-tambah, jangan puji jika kamu menyukainya...

Kecuali dengan satu syarat....Jika wanita itu ialah isteri kamu, maka pujilah tanpa henti..

Tetapi, jika tidak..JANGAN PUJI!

Mengapa???

Kerana wanita itu sangat lemah dengan pujian..

Saya mohon, jangan rapuhkan..patahkan..hancurkan hati seseorang wanita dengan pujian..

Pujian itu menghancurkan....

Membunuh kekentalan hati seseorang wanita...

Jika tak tahan sangat nak puji, pujilah di hadapan orang lain atau di dalam hati.  Jangan sampai si wanita tersebut tahu bahawa kamu memujinya...

Tolong ok....

Wanita itu halus hatinya..percikan pujian mampu membunga rasa..jiwa makin terjentik...

Kasihanilah wanita....

Wah sei...like this oso can ah?  But kinda logic oso lah.... =p

Include one of my favorite Hindustan song here.  It's the sound track from the movie of "Agent Vinod" by Saif Ali Khan (hero) and Kareena Kapoor (heroin) Actual couple..husband and wife now.  The song title is Raabta (Night in Motel).  There are 3 versions of this song.  I prefer this version by Hamsika and Arijit Singh.   (Sorry can't upload the original video version here as the uploader Ero sth sth...don't allow it - copy right..no matter what source...still cant. Has to be directly from Youtube.  Listening to the song directly from the video/movie..the feeling is differently..really - as it sound.."softer"...... As the video doesnt work here, just click on it @ the Youtube and it will directly bring u to that video...)

Hamsika's version is the "softer version"....ear soothing ... =) 

Arijit Singh - male version....faster version..but not bad....include the English translation for u here...at least u understand the meaning or else it just "ba taaa...ba taa...batu...kayu..."  hahaha - understand the lyric will make the song more meaningful =)

They say that for everyone in this world, 

God has made someone or the other, for each other,

You meets me is a sign of believing in me,

I am made for someone like you,

Some contact is there for you,

Some relation is there for you,

How should I know, what do I know,

You are my partner so why should I worry,

This is the reason to live and will die for this...

It obliged me while going,

A passing moment fulfilled my wishes,

I got a view of yours, got sparkling starts,

Destiny's boats got a shore....

A life for which I've craved for centuries,

In your company all the prayers are for that (life)

You meets me is a sign,

As if I am made for someone like you.....

Shreya Ghoshal - the female version.  My least favourite version tho...just include it here so that u can compare.  But one thing for sure..all these Hindustan singers...have to salute them lah...can sing the whole looooong verse in one breath... =)

Oh..the answer to the duck's riddle?  How do u differentiate a male and a female duckling?  According to the story (I read it from a story book lah..hahahah)....put the duckling into a pail of water.  The one that just swim on the surface is the female and the one tat immediately dive into the water is the male.  The logic:  As the female is swimming on top.....the male will dive into the water and looks up..... =)) =p.  True or not...I don't know ah... =))

I Rest My Case...18/2/13 

Every year..especially for the last 3 years...and its getting more obvious in the past one year.....it will always happened like this.  And it will always happened during this time till almost the end of the year.  It is a long struggle of feelings/emotion...draining ur brain...and squeezing out ur energy....brawn....everything just for this one particular situation.

When...u chose to keep quiet and just advised them to follow...follow...obey..obey...respect...respect and listen..listen. U kinda feel like lying to urself and lying to them.  As u know very well that by the end of the day..u are not there.  U can't do much....and all the focus will be on that particular person and issue.  That person has all the right..all the authority and command to say and do whatever he/she/shim??? or they like or want.  

And its very struggling in this situation...dont say - u feel serba salah....say. - u oso feel don't know whether comment too much is good or bad.  Is it going to be harmful or not.  After struggling especially since last year till now...I guess...my 20 cents thot are:

1) Follow - Obey - Respect - Listen........in order to survive

2) Since last year..I actually wan to say this....can see and can sense mah.....so...to ease the situation for everyone......... here it is ya:  As refering to the first advice.......in order to survive and to please and to stay good.........there is no obligation for anything =).  If I really wan to justify and to comment on what is actually going on and elaborate it further..it will inflict more pain and bring up the old wound.  Like I mentioned before...everyone intention is good - just that different people has different view and different way of doing things.  It is not about $$$$$ (although everyone do love money ya...who dont? =p ) but it is more to the feelings and the relation u have with them.  U want them to do well...and to see the fruit of success in them....but the most hurting part is....after cultivating the seed..the small plants.......nurturing if for maybe 4 years for some and 2-3 years for others.............the one that really reap the fruit is not u.  It is always the one at the further end.  Those who toil days and nites with them since young is not in the picture.  Ur thousand actions and words...ur hundred days and hours comparing to the "end reaper".....is nothing by the end of the day.   I guess....like I always mentioned to some..................saya mengundurkan diri - it is too tiring to argue...to tiring to keep on justify...too tiring to prove...and too tiring to comment more........saya mengundurkan diri........no obligation for anything - be open....

With this - I rest my case..................

What Do I Get???... 17/2/13 

What do I get from this CNY????

1)  Family, relatives...friends gathering - thats the best part =)

2) Just realise that I gained weight..over the last 6 months..I gained almost 5 kg...die liao lah...give me another half year..surely plus another 5 kg...cham..cham..be a pumpkin

3) Back ache...over cleaning, tidying .......been back ache for about 4 days liao loh..memang tua liao...

4)  Eat and eat a lot.....went for lunch at 4 Points...dinner at Howdy lah...junk food junk food (CNY..mah)...hi-tea at Riverside and Hilton...memang gemuk one liao lah.  Even friends that just came back from Singapore oso comment that I put on weight drastically...ai cham...die loh =(

Wan to do diet program after CNY? Forget about it lah..it wont work one...memang no heart and no intention to do it or think about it at all (then y worry lah hor??? aiii)..as a fren said to me before "For people like u......FOOD IS ABOVE ALL!!"...hahaha true..true.  Before I was here.....I just walloped a slice of White Chocolate Macadamia and Chocolate Indulgence....the final piece for both of it.  And then ate a bowl of rice with beef curry (tin one lah...)...u see lah..memang pui ah.......... =(

Half hour passed my bed time liao...before I zzzz..showed u a video.  Don't know whether it is true or not lah...however..there is an article saying that there is such frog.  (Update 2/3/13- the original video that uploaded here before was deleted by the owner..so I upload this version lah ya..)

http://www.newser.com/story/128781/12-new-frog-species-found.html?temp-new-window-replacement=true 

Happy Chinese New Year...13/2/13

Wow...today is already the 4th day of CNY...hows ur CNY?  enjoy urself?  have a good time with family and friends.  Thank God that I manage to pull thru my last 6 days before the CNY.  Phew.  But it really toil days and nites lah.  We cleaned, washed and set up everything....almost every nite slept around 4.30 or 5 am.  Wa lao eh.  But somehow..it is an interesting year lah....to everyone...GONG XI FATT CAI...will update more later ya.. chao first. 

Oh Liao...Cham Liao...4/2/13 

Ai c loh...didn't realize that I only have about 6 days before CNY.  I still tot that it is next week..still thot that I have about 13 days plus.  Cham...this time kinda not prepare for it at all.  Havent order my cake, havent buy plants (can't use any of the last year plants...all mati mati liao...)..havent buy CNY food..snacks..drink or anything at all (but ironically...we had bought and even gave our neighbors the CNY gifts - have time for that but no time for ourselves..aii).  And the worse..havent really clean the house.  The wall is super duper dirty...cham.  Tis time sure cham liao lah.  And out of idea on how to decor my house and its compound for this year. 

Before I signed off - show u one CNY MTV that I like..... =)

Words...1/2/13 

Got few things to comment but tomorolah as soooo slpy now and memang way passed by bed time liao.  Just that bei kam guan..still wan to on my PC and touch here and touch there.  Oh ya...already 1 Feb liao loh.  Ai c ah..left 9 more days then CNY loh!!  Ready yet?  My little hut...aiyo havent do anything.  Next week lah...next week.. =) 

That's Normal...31/1/13 

Something happened today - eventho I kept on telling myself it is normal to be like this..but of cos deep down in the heart u kinda feel a prick in it.  It is a prick of u feel lost......wonder y and oso hurt.  Aii.  Boh pien...like I mentioned, eventho that is normal.  But of cos, still feel it deeply lah.  I anticipated that  it will happened more frequently later.  Boh pien lah....

Keep my fingers cross, pray for it...and pray that I do make the right decision.... =) 

Oh ya, yesterday I was asked by my youngest angel...how to do this:

Group A -  Grasshopper..bird....(something like that lah) - Living things

Group B - Roasted duck, steamed fish...... - ??????

Group C - Phone, paper....... - Non living things

So by the end....as I couldnt figure out what is the Group B answer..I said: Is the answer - "Used to be living things..........."  Hahahaha....what is the answer ya?  =p

Becareful...28/1/13 

Some people asked me regarding my last post...nolah...not the place u mentioned.  I heard this story from a friend of mine.  It's her cousin.  So now, the cousin headache loh....as the suing case in still pending..and well..hopefully everything goes well lah for everyone.

A tiring day today - as was bz helping a neighbor - the house kena break in.  Aiii...the house was in a mess.  Aiii......

So, to everyone who read this post..be very very observant and careful especially during this festive season.  Read the last few days newspaper?  Even when the person locked the car from inside - the pencuri still manage to open it and drove away...with a 8 years old girl inside! Aiyoyo...but thank God that the girl was ok.  She was found left at the road side - few kilometres away from the incident.  Aiyo..so scary ah.  I remember...few years back...I was at this Padungan, waiting for Mr Abang to buy some chinese herbs there.  Suddenly a man walked passed by me.  Saw him take out his key...open the blue Mercedes and drove away.  The next thing I know...two young adults (around 20+) were screaming and shouting frantically saying that someone has drove away with their blue Mercedes.  Ai c loh....that man is a pencuri?  He looks so normal...so calm........got key???????

I guess now..people are becoming more daring.  No days no nite liao...mencuri can be done in anytime of the day.  No mask or any kind of weapon needed too.  

So, no wonder...people become more and more paranoid about their safety..but I guess that cant be blame as we see and heard what happened now...aiyo...do becareful........

It Is Not Easy...23/1/13 

Heard a ridiculous story today - a parents sued a teacher for leaving her group of children just becos she wants to tapao some food for her lunch after have not eaten anything since early morning till 12.30 pm.  And worst, she just leave them for less than 10 minutes nia.  Unfortunately for her - her less than 10 minutes incident ended up with one of her anak patah kaki due to jumping down from a table.  Aiii...the parents barged into the Principal's office and immediately coming out with suing and making a huge case out of it.

The Principal did not defend his staff, neither did the Principal support the parents but all the Principal's main concern is the school's image.

In my opinion:

Principal - school's image is indeed important.  But what about the staff's welfare?  Did the school or the parents think of the teacher's welfare having day in and out and standing there for long hours without any drink or food?  The Principal expect tat the teacher to be around all the time...cant even leave for less than 10 minutes...no food..no drink..no toilet break @ cannot pang sai..as sometime pang sai make takes more than 10 minutes oh?  So how??....A happy staff will contributes more to the success of a company or any kind of institution....Worst - eventho the Principal did not comment much, this Principal just said that the teacher should only go if someone replace her. Come on lah...the Principal and the rest of the teachers know that in this club, only this particular teacher in charge.  Not enough man power in this school.  So how leh?  Since the Principal has no club rite....y don't the Principal help the teacher lah hor?  It is easy for the person who sit on the chair and do the management and admin part to comment this and that.  But it is always the person that on the ground..do all the hard work...and face the reality.

Parents, Teachers, Children - I put these two together as...I am (was) in all these boats.  As a parents...of cos, our top priority is our angels.  We are willing to die for them ya?  But in this case, base on what I heard, the child is indeed very mischievous.  Yup, no doubt every kid has a naughty part of it..but as we grow up..we know how to control and to hold our limit.  But in this case..y I said...memang mischievous...because this child is already 14 years old.  Oh pleaselah...even when I was 10 years old...I do understand very well that stacking up 2 or 3 tables (even just a table lah ya) and then stumping yourself hard from the table to the cement floor will certainly hurt yourself.  And this is 14 liao oh?  The parents now blaming the school for not being able to do anything or compensate thru insurance and yet they havent pay their insurance money or worst havent even submit the insurance form to the school!!  Next, they are expecting the school to hire more people (like security guard, RELA) to monitor the children in the school.  Oh dear....

1) They are just paying the most RM 150 ++ for the whole year fee....

2) Might as well hire a personal body guard for their child then

What are they thinking?????????? 

I remember when I just joined this "line"..I thot that it's gonna be easy.  Oh boy, how wrong I was.  Of cos, if u wan it to be easy...memang can.  Just laze around...do nothing, close one eye and ears to everything and then just terima gaji every month nia.  But the fact is...it is not like that.  Mentally, physicaly everything is involved.  U crack ur brain thinking of preparing stuff for them..hoping that they do well.....u are physically exhausted too as u want to be there for them in every "battles" and every activities that they are in......that's y either the parents or the teachers' side...it is not easy lah....it takes a lot of understanding...and cooperation for this.  But by the end of the day, of cos everyone means well.

As for the children - aiii.....14 years old liao...kong pai tia (Hokkien)...sudah besar panjang liao loh..yang sudah besar pun sudah besar..yang sudah panjang pun sudah panjang liao lah...simple things like that....can be understand liao lah....

Aii....don't wan to comment liao.  Better go and have my beauty sleep as tomoro gonna be a looooooooooog day for me.  

Super Tired...19/1/13 

Today..memang super tired..don't know y..normally it is not a problem but today maybe it is becos I was the one that doing all the talking from 8am - 4pm...aduh.  By 12 pm, can feel the throat a bit painful as didnt eat or drink anything from the moment I wake up till that time then.  Two Mums asked me - "Wah..u can really tahan oh..memang li hai.." It is not li hai...it is cari makan oso.  Or else - makan rumput, makan batu and makan pasir later oh.  Normally it is ok..but today kinda extremely tired due to didnt eat..talk and talk and talk....and only sip in some green tea in between.  By 4.10 pm....a bit hin hin and cold - maybe due to empty stomach.  Mr Abang and the two angels pula not at home as Mr Abang bz becoming "driver" for the two angels - tuitions and activities here and there.  

By 5 something - when everyone settled down, immediately went to Howdy for brunch + dinner = "BRUNNER" =p.  Wallop 2 bowl of Alfredo Pasta, smash potato, ribs and down with a hot milk tea.  Ai say - baru feel better... =)  Then arrived home around 7 pm...immediately went to bed and zzzzzzz till 11 pm..hahahaha..memang lazy hor? =p

So, thats y...here am I now - couldnt sleep.......... Now is 4 am liao lor =p.  Was thinking to play Diablo 2 or 3 actually..but a bit sien.  Better sit down here and update my blog.

Before I sign off - include some of my favourite songs from the late 80's to the 90's.  Enjoy lah ya =)

Circle In The Sand - Belinda Carlisle  

( I like Belinda's song becos of her voice - "husky, husky, serak-serak basah type)

Hahaha..this song, remind me of when I was in my Form 6.  When I was in Upper 6, we had a sit in teacher for 2 periods.  The sit in teacher is a very young Chinese man (around 24 or 25) whom recently joins my school as a substitute teacher for 3 months (one of the female teacher take long maternity leaves). When u are already in this level - normally everyone is already mature enuf..so everyone just do their work as usual.  Then out of the blue 3 of my friends - H, K and T came to me and said "Let's us practice our song for this upcoming Talentime performance".  So ok loh..after getting the teacher's approval to sing in class (provided it is not tat loud), the four of us started to sing.  

Our performance consisted of two songs...and one of it is this Circle in The Sand.  T played guitar while H and K is my back up singers lah...hahahah =)).  Then we nyanyi loh.  Chit-chat for a while in between..sing again and talk a bit and sing again.....We do noticed that this particular teacher did dropped by at our table for a while and look at us. Thinking that maybe becos we sing too loud, so we lower our volume.  The moment the bell rings...this male teacher came to my table and said - You have a nice voice....I senyum and said thank you nia loh.

Ah...the next few incidents are the shocking one.  Two days later, as I was walking out side the staff room with H...he walked pass both of us and out of the blue...he patted my head.  Aik?????? I turned to look at him (terkejut) and he just smiled....Huh??  H was laughing.

Then...in the same week - after the school ends...as I was about to walk out from the gate, he stopped me with his bike and started a conversation.   Being polite to your teacher (ehem..) so I just jawab lah as usual. 

Then...he kinda sit in for teacher..at least once or twice a week...so memang see him now and then lah.  So everytime, he sit in....he will comes to me and started to chit chat.  And gradually u can see that his topic of discussion is more to like "personal issues-get-to-know-you-better topic"  At this time..memang H, K and T were like keep on teasing and laughing at me.  Adui...However thru the conversation - I realize that his background is kinda similar to mine.  He has gone thru a lot of hardship and still battling in the process of making his life better (at that time lah....)

When his three months almost up (I think left 3 days), he waited for me outside the gate and asked whether we can go out for makan or movie together, after he left the school.  Huh?  He gave me his number and hope that I will call him.  But I never did..as I found it awkward..I totally dont feel anything.  Teacher (eventho he is not really my teacher but still...???) + student = ????????????  Huh??????????  Plus - he sounds slightly arrogant...maybe for him that is called as confident lah..

And u know what, we bumped into each other again (yearssssss later) when I was managing an event and he was one of the speaker @ participant.  His achievement:  He has two consultancy firms now...a well known speaker that always fly here and there...published 2 - 3 books already and...a well known person in one club.  We have a short chit-chat and from the way he talked...my guess was rite - so far he just has one gf....and broke off long way back..due to his tight schedule...the relationship die off.  No intention of getting a new one (or maybe havent found one)...for him that is just a nuisance issue that wasted his time and journey to hunt for more success.  I just smiled..and we went our separate way.  For me:  When u are at the top of the world, when u look down, do u see your people there or anyone waiting for you...or u just see an empty cliff?  But can't deny that he is now memang on the top of his world lah =)

 La Luna - Belinda Carlisle 

  Heaven Is A Place on Earth - Belinda Carlisle 

Next is the group named Roxette - the 90's. Their songs not bad lah..include some here:

1) It Must Had Been Love (OST for the movie Pretty Woman by Richard Gere and Julia Robert.  A movie that parachute this two to the A list actor/actress)

2) Listen To Your Heart

3) The Look 

Smart =) ...17/1/13 

Want to update my blog yesterday but server down.  So...let's start from yesterday news =p....  One of my anak emas (OL) gave me a cute hand made Darth Vader patung.  Hahaha..so cute =))  The best part is - the hat of the Darth Vader can be taken off!! Voila.  Initially, I was expecting it to be a picture of my face (hahaha perasan..=p ) but then, it was Anarkin face inside lah.  Hahah cute-cutelah.  The patung wriggle here and there..with the hat on and off ..memang adorable lah.  Then I msg OL by saying - the patung is as cute as the owner of it now and OL replies me by saying - the sea weed (as I passed to OL two packs of fried sea weed) is as awesome as the consumer.  Hahaha..memang bijak..super bijak.  Sah..memang my anak sasian.  =p

And today - received a msg - shock to read it but at the same time..happy =)).  A child of mine msg me and said dia really really wan to get A for the BATTLE in October and asked for help. Wow...actually when dia was here for the past 2 weeks..can sense that dia changed already.  When I asked some people, some said it is just the new year symptom..after a few months, this child will be back to "normal self" - which is a bit sloppy and kinda lazy (sory ya)  But based from my observation - dia indeed changed a lot starting from the first day of this year when I saw this child.  Thru my conversation with the mum - even then the mum comment..anak ini berubah a lot.  GOOD!  SMART..BRILLIANT...a good sign of success.  Change into a hardworking and pay full attention in everything.  Of cos - I will be more than glad to assist and its an honor to do so.  I certainly believe that if anak ini put in all effort + hard work.....serious....dia memang boleh.  To.....this ANAK....we do it together!

Today - ah, this is the down part for today.  I was explaining certain stuff to a group of anak...got super senior anak, senior anak and junior anak in the group.  When everyone settled down to do their works - I went to the junior anak group and explained few more things to them.  And then out of the blue - one of the junior anak said this: 

..

"I beg to be differ...my opinion is different..." Ai say man....si beh kiang bor...Now, now dont misunderstand, I am not saying that people cannot have their own opinion..but ini baru saja tak sampai 3 minggu jagung (even belum setahun jagung lagi oh) sudah pandai-pandai wan to comment and said that pendapatnya lain.  Ai say man.  But of cos as usual I listen to his opinion and I never doubt that he is one of those that u memang tahu very smart and kiang.  But like I always said, kiang chu ho..mai kei kiang (pandai sudah ok..jangan memandai-mandai).  So, after I listened to his view, I explained to him again - I didnt say its wrong..I am just saying it is not suitable.  As when they are in the lower level before - the style of marking, the expectation is different from now.  At this level he is in now...everything is about being precise and not just boleh diterima.  Eventho it is ok..and tidak salah....but it is not the paling baik and paling tepat.  So, at this level - the emphasis is on paling baik and paling tepat ...and oso on kematangan (how mature is the idea given...)  So, if nak markah baik...good grade it is about paling tepat + matang....  But as we just know each other for less than 2 months...so I was like...oh well....let him cuba dulu........but now with all this watever watever project base thingy going on..I dont think they will understand how much their senior had learnt before..and how much their senior had pushed themselves before to achieve the highest level and the excellency.  With the change of the system...putting all things based on wat ever wat ever project...the learning process is getting too easy, they dont learn much...no challenge...no sense of objective or goal for them...and thus it leads to mostly just learn for the sake of learning...dont care much and oso some will never understand the hardship and how high is the standard of their seniors and super seniors before.  In other words...I doubt the quality now.  

In a long run....it is totally meaningless...I wonder hor...this "system wat ever wat ever project based" thingy... what will happened to this group of children (dont look too far lah ya...just said in a few years time) when they reach the age of  16?  With all these shallow base learning given to them (due to the system lah)...can they adjust to the standard and quality wanted.....later on in the stage of 16 and 17 years old...or older???.....Pemuda harapan bangsa?? Pemudi tiang negara???  Emmm......

"Ssssssnaking around......."...15/1/13 

Finally got the time to sit down with Mr Abang to discuss on our CNY decor for this year.  Every year we will try to make sure that the decor looks different as well as the design of the potty plants outside our house.  Gonna be a bz bz weeks again...   Almost past by bed time liao....zzzzz first.  =)

The World is Round...11/1/13 

Today...actually... maybe I did heard of that news before but I don't really remember it.  Yesterday and today, a friend of mine told me about it.  And the first thing that came across my mind was:

1) Indeed the world is round....

2) Mind our own business...

Of cos, although I do feel sorry and bad to hear this kind of thing, but at the same time it may me ponder and wonder.  We never know what may happened to us in the next minute, what more to say in future.  That's the reason y normally (or actually all the time) I don't wan to involve much in other's people matter or "keh poh-keh poh" about it as my principle is:  Do your own responsibility well...and don't be bzbody in other people stuff.  But unfortunately some people view it as snobbish and not friendly.  Whereby my theory of life is - just do what u should do, dont poke ur nose in other people's biz unless they asked u for help.   

And most of the time - for those that keh poh-keh poh involve or poke into other people's biz...by the end, they are the one that terima the balasan.  Sorrylah ya, if anyone read this post and u do feel offended...then u must had done something or else u won't terasa. (Siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas......)

But of cos, like I mentioned before - the world is round..we wont know what happened in the next minute, so always watch our steps properly lah ya.  And so, I just want to stop my comment here...as I, myself oso won't never know what is God's planning for me...so mai keh poh keh poh comment too lah ya.

Include a funny video here - if this woman is doing a performance in Hong Kong, Taiwan or China, I guess the audience would have accept her genre of song as it was more to the genre of "Shanghai/Chinese" song.  But unfortunately as she performed in orang putih country - they couldnt understand the language thus couldnt link the performance to her song. She is kinda naive but brave of cos..but I guess the judges say "YES" to her as they see her as humble, daring and "pure in heart".  If I am not mistaken, she made it to the final ya...ooooooh =))  =)))  =))))

Zzzzzzz...10/1/13 

Can't sleep well for the past 2 or maybe 3 nites as the whole family are sick.  Mr Abang sick and my two angels oso sick.  Cough + high fever + vomit and one of them sick till the eye swollen.  Aiii........so eventho went to bed aroun 12 am...actually din sleep much as worry and take care of all of them.  

Gradually, by today can see that Mr Abang and the youngest angel getting better...but the cough...aii.  Memang pening....but seeing them improving...Thank God. Before I signed off...allow me to share one of the movie that I like with u..the one that I kept on mentioning before...the hindustan movie Humko Tumshe Pyaar Hai...enjoy viewing! =)

Durga (Amisha Patel) is a blind girl and she falls in love with this man name Rohit (Arjun Rampal).  Well, Rohit did everything he could to recover her eye sight and unfortunately when she has it..she was informed that Rohit involved in an accident (the car fell into a cliff) and presumed died.  So, in order to cure her broken heart she went to London with her bapa angkatlah..and there she met Raj (Bobby Deol) who at the same time was grieving of losing his best friend in an accident.  So ting tong, ting tong..Raj go after Durga..both fall in love and on the day of  their engagement, Raj was informed that his best friend was actually still alive and just wake up from comma.  Raj brought his best friend back...When the best friend went to the house and saw Durga....he just realized she was the girl whom he has fall in love and at the verge of getting married... before the accident occured..........

The rest..watch yourself lah...=))  

Juggling...7/1/13 

Now is 11.36 pm...still got like half hour before I passed my bed time??? Hehehe..my 2013 resolution...sleep before 12 am.   For the last few days been a bz bz days..juggled between family and work.  Well, eventho very bz and kinda exhausted..but thank God for this.  If I am not bz..then I will be "chiak chao" and super duper bore liao lah.

Youngest angel and Mr Abang down with high fever...even more thing to do and juggled.  Part and parcel of life ya?  But still, in the midst of all these things....still very happy (not happy about them being sick...I mean happy in the sense that I can do my role well for them....thanx God)

Received a few calls regarding a few issues.  From a child, a Mummy, a friend and another friend......well, long story.  Share it in my next entry (now 11.45 pm liao - no time liao)

Now very much looking forward for this year CNY.  Heard this year Astro song...aiyah..disappointing.  Their main song title is "Ular Ulala"..if I am not mistaken lah.  Si bei pai tia. Can find this song in Youtube...u cuba dengar and let me know..

Before I zzzzzzzz (if I can zzzzz then)...want to listen to Rick Astley's Never Gonna Give You Up..and watch my "Mr Abang" @ Arjun Rampal certain slots in Humko Tumse Pyaar Hai @ I Love You....

*Psst...can figure out the duckling riddle??? Hehehe...=p

Bzzzzzzzzz...5/1/13 

Super duper boh eng...so many things to settle and to handle...my children + angels + workloads...aduh..will update soon ya

Before I "chao" again...leave u with one riddle/question:

How do u differentiate a male and a female duckling? Hehehehee =p 

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!!!...1/1/13 

Wow..time flies ya.  I had been writing here since 2011 till now. Wow...if start a biz...already jalan so well loh..hehehe.

So, first entry for 2013 - nothing much to comment yet..one step at a time and see how. May the year 2013 usher u with its full blessing, pinkest of health and stay prosperous! =) =)

CONGRATS!!!...20/12/12  

Very happy and proud of all my anak-anak today....well done.  Good job!!!  Hold ur head up high!!  Wat ever it is - it is over liao..done deal liao ya.  Focus on your next step, plan ahead.  All the best in your future endeavors! =)

Now, I would like to sign off and stop my entry till here (for this moment).  Before that  - share a few 80's songs with you.  Enjoy it..till then...c ya when I c ya..c ya - will continue writing, writing and writing next year........

HAVE A PLEASANT 2012 AHEAD....

MERRY CHRISTMAS YA!! =) 

Kylie Minogue - gain popularity back in the early 80's (till now)

Jason Donovan - ex-bf of Kylie (was down with drugs prob so..popularity doommmm)

Sonia - never heard of her now.....only popular with maybe 2 -3 songs

Kylie, Jason, Sonia and Rick Astley were from the same recording company, producer and songs composer.  That's y their songs tempo sound kinda alike.

Tommy Page - the Western version of Aaron Kwok, many girls went nuts over him..but for me...nay.  For me - his songs ok ok nia

Debbie Gibson - oooh I love this singer.  The first song that I heard from her was Electric Youth.  Oooh..her songs here are from the 80's till the early 90's.  If I am not mistaken, she was featured in one of Katy Perry's MTV.  And I think our OL looks abit like her ya? =)

So, that's it. Some of the 80's song to accompany ur journey till the end of 2012.  C ya in 2013! =)

Life...18/12/12 =)

My friends and children always asked me - normally, what do I do now?  Boring or not?

Well, first of all, I am the type that like to be bz and always on the run.  If too free..u ended up being so sien and feel so useless, if too bz pula, u oso feel so sien and so stress.   

So far, at this moment, of cos..still a bit not used to it lah..I meant...having a 8 to 5 job all these times/years since graduating and suddenly..out of the blue...ended up becoming a 3/4 time housewife (not a full time yet) and the other 1/4 bz with my own "job (s)" with my children.  And normally, people who are full time or maybe 3/4 time house wives are those who are super duper zuper rich or already retired (in the age of 55 and above) but I am neither of it.  That's y sometime feel a bit weird..but at the same time...not stress..no pressure  (except for certain peak seasons from June - October...my children will understand y....)

On the days, when my children is not around pula - I will be bz with my angels and the little hut that we are in.  Like I mentioned before - house chores, never cant finish - cho bei liao (just washed and cleaned up my wash rooms just now...and look carefully it is not WASHROOM...it is WASHROOMS.......aiii)  Then...start a bit with gardening (my  plants withered oh..no matter how I jaga...aiyah.....)..explore a bit of my cookery and baking skill/art which I have left behind for so long (especially in baking) but still cant do much as my mini oven @ microwave just kaput =(

Done watching two Cantonese drama series (not movie but series so have to catch up with it every nites) - The Confidante (costume drama) and the Silver Spoon, Sterling Shackles (more to the Shanghai type).  Last time hardly had time to sit down in front of tv - even if got it is already like 2 or 3 am in the morning.  Now..ahhh...potato couch especially starting from 9 am till....early in the morning??? Hahahah =p  Watch a lot of Asian Food Channel (AFC) and Food Network Channel.  Get to learn a lot of tips, recipe and know all the stars name loh.  So can imagine how frequent I watched it now ya?  The best is..watch the competitions or the challenge one...Cupcake Wars, Pumpkin Carving Wars, Food Network Challenge (sugar piece challenge, ice carving, ginger bread, cakes..etc) - u will really feel so amaze with their works.  And never think of people can do ice carving for about 8 feet and even do chocolate and sugar sculpture (these one definitely awe u..) that breaks the Guinness Book of World Record - around 16 feet I think.  Amazing ya?  And it is amazing to see how those skills and arts can turned them into a millionaire and turned all those skills into a millionaire biz!

And then - went to try food here and there.  Eat a lot...munch a lot.  Dont really sleep a lot.  As I am the "owl" type, so once if I take a nap in the afternoon - I will ended up cant sleep till about 3 or 4am in the morning.  So normally, what I will do is....do some works, play games..ended up in here..eat.....ah...then it is like one day over liao.

Time flies very fast oh.  So that's y..dont procrastinate as time wait for no one.  After this - wanna go mop the floors...ugh!

Oh ya - to my children, TOMORROW IS THE DAY ya =) Put up a big smile, be happy and be proud of yourself as you had done your best.  What ever that is done..it is over and done deal already.  So...be strong, be brave....be confident and put ur head up high!  My best thots and prayers are with u guys!! =)

Finally...17/12/12 

Done with all the throwing out..arranging..picking...choosing..only left the part of  vacuum and mopping!! YES!! Relief................. Going to update more when everything is done ya =)

SKF...14/12/12

After few days of trying to settle down and have a certain inner peace with bunch of things to do and in mind..finally at least - today...squeeze in a bit of time to go to this Salvation (a Christian's bookstore) at this Wisma Saberkas.  Eventho, it is just a small book store - but don't know why, whenever I am here...I really feel a certain peacefulness in my mind and heart.  And it always soothing to listen to the Christian's songs - no matter who is the singers, it is always entertaining and happy to hear it.  

Today - I believe the songs played was sung by Don Moen.  I overheard the person at the counter talked to a customer saying that it's the latest Christmas' album.  Well, ballad type.   The sense of comfort is there.

Was there for like an hour plus..reading some books there.  Whenever I saw the bible's shelf - it always remind me so much of my church leader - MT.  He is the only man that really really get my highest respect.  And he is the person that introduce me to the Lord and he is the one that stands by me whenever I need him the most.  I remembered when I was either Form 2 or Form 3, I ever said to God - how I wish he was my father...(doesnt mean that I don't appreciate my father - but as since my father had passed away when I was still very young, dont know much about my dad......so he is the one that really really having that father figure). He is the one that helped me to choose my first acoustic guitar (and I think the money that I gave to him is not enuf to buy it and he chipped in a bit)..he is the one that gave me my first bible (then I think after using it for 4 years..I lost it when we were helping out at one church - who ever found it or using it now..I pray and hope that it is beneficial for that person..just as much it has been for me..) and in other words..he is the so called "earthly" father that I have..the one that went thru with me all my down moments...till now.  

I remembered that when I msg him about an incident that happened to me this year, he told me this:

"Don't feel...but let the truth sets u free."  I know what he means as since I was like 13 or 14 years old..he is the one that always fetch and send me to church..and share a lot of things with me.  Honestly - if without MT..I don't think I can carry on my journey with the Lord and be stronger than wat I used to be.  With his courage and his own testimony in life..he shows to me many things to which sometime we just thot only God can do that.  But he did.  I am not talking about doing things like moving mountains or split up the Red Sea..I am talking about a testimony as  a man who serves God since young and his love for his sheeps in church..his love for his family and the first and foremost..his love for the Lord.  

To MT and SKF - there is no words that can describe how grateful and happy I was to be given this chance by the Lord to get to know all of u and get to know this wonderful place - to be part of the family.  It is always this moment that reminds me so much of all of u..reminds me so much of what we all had done before....and this is the place that really make me truly understand the meaning of Christmas.  Praise the Lord.........................

What Do U Think?...12/12/12 

Wow..today is 12/12/12 =) If u read the Yahoo News - there is one boy that going to be 12 this year (born in the year of 2000) and his birthday is on 12 Dec 2012..born on the time of 12.12...ai say man.  Hebat oh =p

Ok now, refer to my previous post - cleaning...aiii...duh...still in process....piles of papers here and there..rubbish here and there.  Every time - when it is end of the year..the amount of papers I had collected...aduh - even the "Old Newspaper Guy" will be rolling his eyes and find it "amazing" with the amount of rubbish and "used papers" ( or maybe unused papers) that we had.  Aiii....

My last post - I oso include a link regarding a research about what type of men that a women like.  Funny oh..people will do such kind of research...and yet y not do more research for medication (read in newspaper recently that the scientist had found a vaccine for HIV/Aids now) and food industry..so that the next time, when we wan to cook a whole pot of rice - just put in one biji nia..and voila it will kembang into a whole pot of rice that feed the whole family =))

Well - the research if I am not mistaken as I just do speed reading on it - it is about women (at certain age) and how the women choose their partner/spouse.  People at different age group will perceive things differently lah.  I think normally women/girls:

Teens till Young Adults - mostly will hunts for LOOKS..and they will start to label who is cool lah..who is cute lah..who is handsome lah..who is smartlah..who  is hot lah...and not much further than that

Young Adults till maybe the age of 30 - part and parcel about looks still play a role in there..but a bit of reality may come into the picture...the person's career..future prospect (if till this age none of this ever come across that person mind...that is kinda..bo yong liao lah) + the 5C's = cash, credit card, cars, condominium, careers (no more just 3C's nia liao...)

Age 30 and above - careers...family man/woman...stability....

But of cos..as time goes by...all those may change.  Last time..our ah kong ah ma time..people kahwin at the age of 16.  My era..people kahwin at the age ..around 21 - 30???..and this era...35 and above..havent kahwin..it is a very normal thing.  So different time..different group of people will have a different views.

And talk about that...remember a few friends who told me about their preference in looking for a partner/spouse:

1) Have a friend that looks at the girl's neck first.  He told me he likes girl with a neck that looks like Nicole Kidman.  Huh?  Nicole Kidman's neck different from us ah?  I asked izzit becos she has a smooth long neck?  And he told me..nope...look at the back of the neck..there is a curve...for him he is attracted to it.  Huh???? Still couldnt figure it out till now

2)  Another one - likes long hair.  CF told me..how pretty oso he doesnt like unless the girl keeps long hair.  Must have long hair.  Reason: nice to sayang..hahaha 

3)  Nice long leg - so when she wears skirts..she looks nice.  Well, it means that people like me...if wear skirt..after wear skirt..u dont really see much of the leg or the body liaolah..short mah...

4) Not too skinny...a bit fleshy is nice...hahaha..the first time I heard this - I was shock. As I thot, most guys will go for the one that is slim.  And yet..most told me..not really..a bit curvy will be nice.  Y?  They said - if skinny..when u hug her..is like hugging a twig nia.  Hahaha...not I say one ah..they said one ah.

5)  And there were some that just make me laugh and was like..wah lao eh..like that..mati hidup pun..susah mau cari lah.  Worst than the legend of Puteri Gunung Ledang.  This one..he is looking for:

• The fingers..must be straight and pointy
• Must have a nice handwriting
• Must have the kind of hair..like when u see it...just like looking at the Sun silk advertisement
• Teeth must be straight and pearly white all the time
• And the list go on till like maybe another 5 or 6 more requirements???

He knows it is IMPOSSIBLE...but if ever one day..he can ignore all these criteria just for a girl...then he knows that SHE IS THAT GIRL...she is the one.

True oso...logic..well I guess..everyone has a minimum requirementlah.  No matter big or small..how simple is it..everyone has a minimum requirement in their liveslah.  As for me..hahaha...mine....never think much but except..a few lah:

1) I admire guys that know how to play music (xpecially guitars and drum)

2) Big eyes...oooh electric signal...

3) Dont mind much about height (as I am just a pumpkin either) but at least taller than me

4) Ah...last one...hahaha sorrylah no offence to anyone...but u knowlah...guys dont have much choice of attire like girls.  Balik balik they have and must wear pant..either it is long pant..short pant..jean....slack...still it must a pant..must be a seluar. (unless there are girls that don't mind their bf/husband that wear skirt..hehehe =p ) so...for me...the person must look nice lah when he pakai seluar. In other words...when the guy pakai seluar...it doesnt look flat lah.  If look from the front, from the back, from the side view....all the look the same...emmmm...aiii.  Just like how guys look at girl some times lah...if look from the front..from the back..from the side view....all the looks the same...nay u asked urself...see?  Well..it is not a major issue of cos....and that wont hinder anyone from liking anyone..but as per mentioned before..everyone has a minimum requirement lah.  Just my 20 cents thotlah ya..no offence.

(*and of cos..Mr Abang fulfilled all those requirements lah..hahah..oophs =p )

But of cos...those are just a teeny weeny "guide line" lah.  It is not the crucial one in life. However...realistically..we cant deny that eveyone do have a minimum requirement in life. I had seen and know a person who has all those nice qualities (external and internal) but..

Ok, let me describe him to u.  He is my senior in uni.  Studying biologist...every semester...dean's list students (Dean's list - something like pelajar terbaik in the class or the best student in tat level lah)..big eyes...cute smile....when wear pants oso nice looking..(hahaha)...smart..kind hearted..active in sport (plays badminton and swim alot..represent the uni)...gentleman....whenever he was mentioned...everyone will just come out with all the good qualities.  But y - 4 years in uni.....girls rejected him? He is not a gay..he is humorous...funny...kind.....handsome..cute...everythinglah...but y.  All girls resort to one ...just one thing nia..one little thing that make him fall short...............and that is........................................................................................................................He is SHORT.  Really really short.  Even when I was standing one stair case lower than him..I am still taller than him.  For those who had seen me..u know that I am a pumpkin...and he is just till my shoulder.  He is proportionate..not a dwarf (most people confuse between the word dwarf and midget.  Dwarf = short and the body is not proportionate..whereby midget = short..or maybe extremely short but body size..and everything is proportionate..base on what we can see lah....)

And he knows that..girls..mind about this (So guys...no hard feeling lah ya..like I said before...girls may ignore all other things...but when come to height..I think its kinda hard for a girl to accept a man that is shorter than them)

If just slightly shorter ..I guess that is ok...but if the difference is like..he just the chest line of the girl that he likes....pity him.  He really has everything...and he was going after this particular girl since the first year in uni till the final year.  I remember seeing him crying (we were having a gathering with a few Mr Abang's friend..he is kinda close to Mr Abang) and I guess..that's the moment he can't hold back his feeling and ended up crying in front of us.  The saddest part is - he told us, he realize that girl do have feeling for him..do like him...but keep on holding it back due to his height.  And I think the girl did share this with her/his friends too lah.  Everyone in his family is "normal"...except for him.  He had seen doctor - doctor said there is nothing wrong with him..exercise..do everything he can since young till now but still...nothing different.

Even before graduate - due to his thesis (final year project) and his research..he was offered a job in Canada and Thailand.  Don't know y he chose the one in Thailand.  And the last thing I know and heard from him was:  He is now a Senior Lecturer @ Senior Research Scientist in one of the university in Thailand..always got invitation to go here and there to give a talk/seminar..............and he is now a gay (I am not against gay ok....just sharing story with u guys.....I have all "type" of friends..so dont misunderstood oh).  He told Mr Abang - girls despise him JUST BECOS OF HIS HEIGHT...regardlesss of all his other good qualities..girls chose to look at that...and now being a "gf for a man"...at least he felt love and appreciated.

Another fren from Penang - just name any good qualities - he has it..just name any branded watch - he has a collection of it...travels around the globe..is nothing for him..u name anywhere..he has been there...but y..must be a BIG WHY....he is still alone?  Looks? - well..he is a combination of ..let me think....ehhhh......between ..couldnt figure out...but just said....normal average looks lah ya (who am I to judge on the person's looks ya?..just a lao ah ma too..).  But the only quality that he doesnt has and really really turn girls off is.......HUMOR.  He has no humour at all.  No sense of humor...and I rarely hear him joke...(he did??????)..aiiii..

One of the person that is closest to me, which she looks like Maggie Cheung (MC)

(*Maggie Cheung is a popular Hong Kong actress back in the 80's and 90's.  Now I am not sure whether she is still acting or not lah..as havent watch Cantonese movie for so long....)

She has uncountable guys that go after her...show u a few of those I remember ya =P 

(* as usual...in order to protect the person identity..hehehe...use those celebrity pics and names to represent them lah ya....=p )

By the end of the day...after searching thru "high mountains" and "deep seas"..."MC" chose........................................................................................................................................ 

JACKIE CHAN!!!..hehehe =p... a guy which may not have the look of "RA", "JA" or "TW"...but I do believe that he must has something which they don't have.  And he is the one that can make "MC" laughed her head off..the sunshine of her life.

I remembered there is a line in this movie says:

"Love is beautiful - but at the same time, love is scary.  It makes people stupid..and make us do stupid things"

Kinda true ya?  When u are in love - just staring at the fireflies and received a box of honey dew - u already happy =p =))

When u are in love - people are willing to spend hours and hours in front of mirror (but not me..I am not that type lah).....hours and hours to choose the dress or cloth u want to wear..hours and hours just to choose a present for him/her.  Hours and hours on the phone...talked about even the tiniest little thing in your life.....Aii...

So by the end - what is the quality that we want?  Is height that important?  Looks?  $$$$??? Stability?..............Hard to comment ya? Everyone's opinion is different.  So, happy searching..happy hunting...happy looking....happy praying.. Be true to yourself........and do enjoy the moment =)

(*Since I had put up Rick Astley's pic..just so share with u, he is a famous singers back in the early 90's.  I leave u with some of his songs then....enjoy! =) )

Still Cleaning =(...8/12/12

Clean here and there...still...havent really done yet...aduh =(

Wake up:

1) After shower..eat and do whatever that is necessary - check mail and etc...

2) Then starts cleaning....ai c...whole afternoon..many days...still not enuf...aii.  

When I clean something...it's not just about dusting, sweeping and mop..I will specifically clean each of the items on it..pick it one by one....clean everything...that's y take so loooooong ah...................aiii.

Now..need to head of to cleaning process again...or else can't celebrate this coming Christmas peacefully...hehehe.. update more next time...

Poser...30/11/12 

Phew...finally done with my cleaning of my kitchen + the fridge..cant believe the tons of rubbish ah!!! Gosh....but that's just the beginning..still have many more cleaning to do and really really want to settle it before this coming Christmas as wan to "live" in a clean atmosphere..*cough..cough*.....

Now..stop that for a moment and back to the topic that I would like to share today...Guess what, I just found out from Groupon that we have a shop name as My Sub-day (at The Hills shopping mall).  Truly a "poser" for this Subway fast food chain lah.  Well, just like Subway - it offers sandwiches in a super long bread with your selection of bread...salad...blah..blah...exactly like Subway style lah.  Tried Subway before and honestly speaking not my cup of tea lah...so if this My Sub-day oso the same - I guess nothing much liao lah.  Eventho I like fast food, I love sandwiches and stuff like that but don't know y not so keen on Subway lah.  

Just wan to be keh poh - one thing tat definitely caught my interest is the name.  People got Subway..we oso pandai pandai choose something that is quite similar..... not just in term of the food offer and the name..even the logo and menu design (kinda alike - u go have a look then compare ..quite alike eh??)Aiii....thats y..we people in this town....either it is like not creative...or just merely a poser.  But well, by the end of the day..poser or not..for the customer - we don't care much lah ya as long as the food is nice.  As for the person who own this shop - poser or not oso never mind lah - as long got biz and $$ lah ya =)

Ohh..today oso read one interesting article...paste the link here...enjoying viewing - will share my opinions on that some other time.  Now after whole day of cleaning - want to sit down, drink some Milo and eat my home made sandwich - Bread + bacon + ham + egg + lettuce + bread....=P

http://health.yahoo.net/experts/dayinhealth/study-slim-men-are-sexiest

Cleaning...28/11/12 

Last few days was bz with cleaning up my small hut.  Phew..only the pantry @ kitchen nia take up about 3 days - and not even done yet!!!  Ai c ah.  Never believe that we kept soo many rubbish for so many months.  Wa lao eh...normally it will always be like - keeplah keeplah later on maybe might use it mah...or keep lah keeplah as maybe might be useful one day..sayang throw away...save money.  But after keeping all of it for almost a year or more...still never use!!  Obviously it wont be used at all then..aiyah..then turned to be sooo many "antique" at home.  Keep for ages!!  So when really roll up your sleeves to do the cleaning part...aduh!!  So many things to clean and throw out!  Bunch of rubbish!!!  

Then - yesterday, went to the place (don't know the name) somewhere around Batu 6 and Batu 7 area - buying soil and fertilizer.  My plants at the verge of dying liao.  Every year for CNY, I will buy at least 4 to 6 pots of plants (I like plants..leaves...palms...things like that..but not much on flower plants) and decor it for CNY.  But unfortunately, after CNY..it all mati.  But at least for this year...I manage to save 4 out of 6.  But now, I can see that gradually the plants oso dying liao.  Y leh?  I siram every day leh.  Then baru yesterday, the owner of that place told me..besides siram u need to baja (never do that..hahaahah) and oso need to change the soil if can...2 - 3 times in a year.  Ah?? Need ah?  She told me if u never change the soil no matter how u siram or baja also useless as the soil is already harden up.  So must change it.  Then baru the roots can absorb the water and the nutrient.  Ah?  Then yesterday, bought a bag of composite soil + fertilizer....me and Mr Abang kuai kuai change the pot..change the soil...put in fertilizer and water it.  But today..the plants still look yellow yellow..the leaves drop....and my palms..one pot left 3 leaves and the other one...one leaf nia..hahahah....don't think it can survive till CNY.  Even if it does...don't think can display it lah.  No leaves liao how to display. =p

Will updates more if got time...now need to continue my cleaning process..all the things scatter all over the floor..aiii hin ah.  =p

Courtyard Recipe Restaurant...24/11/12 

Was at Courtyard Recipe Restaurant (at Jalan Petanak) for my dinner 2 nites ago.  Well, went there as I had purchased this voucher thru Groupon for their Whole Deep Fried Boneless Chicken.  Well, purchased this as I like meat and I like fried food.  So, besides this of cos we did order other dishes as well.

Had midin fried with belacan (7/10), salted veg soup with sea food (7/10), ma ni chai with egg (5/10 - I am not a ma ni chai lover..ordered it as my youngest angel likes it..and it came after we had finished everything.....aii) deep fried prawn (4/10 - not so deep fried actually, u can still taste the mushy side of the prawn plus its this "fishy, fishy"/hanyir/chao cho smell that really turned me off from this dish..).  As for the Whole Deep Fried Boneless Chicken........

1) In the website - it features a whole big plate that can even feed up to 10 persons (that's what they claimed thru the website lah).  Well, indeed ..it was a huge plate.  It came with a big plate - only the plate nia.  As for the portion, well, we kinda wonder - as they see that they were only 4 of us, do they cut down the portion? or memang that is their normal kind of serving for 10 persons???  It is just enuf for me and Mr.  Abang nia.   My angels only ate a few small pieces as they comments it is toooo "deep fried" till become hard.  Well, for me I can cope with that but of cos..not good for young children and older people lah.  Too hard lah....

2) Whole Deep Fried Boneless Chicken - are u telling me it is the whole chicken?  It looks like half of the chicken nia oh.....

3)  Whole Deep Fried Boneless Chicken - it is DEFINITELY NOT BONELESS!! this part is a bit misleading lah.  The others, maybe can said I misinterpret but as for boneless...definitely not lah.  They really really DEEP FRIED it till the bone oso become hard.  If even the bone is already hard, can u imagine the rest of the chicken?  The flesh and the skin part??  Well, only the breast meat - of cos no bone.  The rest, it is just as usual.

Anyway, generally it was not bad lah.  I would said it is just a normal "chu cha" restaurant.  Oklah..the food boleh tahan lah...and will come back to try other dishes in its menu =)

Bump into KT with his family - came here for dinner too.  He must be shock to see my hair. Hahaha...now my hair colors - Upper layer is blonde (light yellowish brown) and the internal plus lower layer is red.  It is a normal crazy routine that I did every once a year (end of the year) with my hair.  Just for the sake of changing the colors - hair style still the same.  Well, it is not really nice looking tho..as normally every year after I had done it, never really think that it is nice.  Just that to get out from normal daily routine and same old hair color from day to day.  So, end of the year - must change the color.  So now, yellowish brown + red...hahaha.  Next year, was thinking to try pink and brown....see how =p

Red Earth Restaurant...21/11/12 

Red Earth Restaurant is located nearby Jubilee Ground and Chung Hua. No.3.  Went there last nite with my family.  And - if not becos I had purchased my voucher for 4 pax thru Groupon...I WILL NEVER EVER STEP MY FOOT THERE AGAIN!

Well, the service - just normal lah.  But in term of the food and its varieties...aiyah...lao ya loh...so lao ya.  Ok, ok, to be fair - I don't know about its "chu-cha (stir fried) type of food for lunch one lah - I am talking about the steam boat.

The menu or the so called "varieties" (if you can called that as varieties...) aiii...memang super duper lao ya loh.  Look cantik from outside..but looks can be deceiving and don't judge a book by its cover.  So little selection...really really little lah if compare to other steam boat restaurant that I had went to.  Comparatively to the Hornbill, the few steam boats restaurant at Jalan BDC and compare to U-Garden..aiyo...memang heaven and earth lah.  No wonder it is called as "Red Earth"....ahhh..."the earth"....

We were there like around 6.40 pm and we leave around 8.00 pm?  Early hor?  So even my angel comment that less choice and knowing that normally if we stayed at one eatery place for long - it means that we like the place and the food is good.  This was like - for the sake of using the voucher..eat fast...then left - not that full, not satisfy and full with the smell of grilling all over you...aiii.  My upper lip (right side) is a bit swollen now due to the crab.  Well, memanglah I am kinda allergic to sea food, but I think the crab is not fresh and even got some smell as the moment I bite into it (I am sure it is already cook as grill till chao ta liao, internally and externally) there was something like a rotten juice spilled out!! Yhew!!!  And the next thing I know..the lip gradually getting swollen....slowly.   But luckily not that zheng lah...ahhh..

So, my opinion is - honestly don't go to this restaurant lah.  If any of u read this and happen to be related or connected in any way to the owner of the restaurant - I guess to improve it - need to improve the menu first lah ya.  Well - just my 20 cents opinion ya.

Survive Ah?...20/11/12 

Can all the malls and the so called water theme parks survive in Kuching or Sarawak?  U look at the Legoland in Johor - baru opened nia, already people complained of no fun and no thrill.  People comment that it is tooo childish and maybe for those 12 years old and below..oklah.  What about I-City in Shah Alam?  Well, in advertisement and brochures, looks nice lah, sui lah.  But then..u see from the TripAdvisor, people comments like sai and rank it in position 7 out of 8 theme parks @ leisure place in Shah Alam.  Second last oh?  Even Sunway Lagoon (either the resort @ hotel/theme park) some people comment like what liao.  Aduh....

In West Malaysia - the facilities - in term of the public transport is much much or should I say, thousand and hundred times better than us here.  So if Shah Alam people don't like, if Subang people don't like....people or the townians from the other towns/cities will flock the area.  Thus, the demand and the "human @ customer" supply (don't know what word to use here..heheh) will always be there.  

But then ah,  in Sarawak...hows our public transport?  One hour to two hours just to wait for a bus in town area??? Aiyoooo...then the nearest town to Kuching is Serian...and itu pun will take them about maybe one or one and a half hour to reach Kuching?  Just to "shop" at our Spring, Boulevard, the upcoming Summer Lagoon and City One which may not have much?  All the way - for one hour..just to see that?  U just walk walk in Spring lah..how many shops open and close, open and close.  I predicted that more shops will close soon.  Then even if got people lah...there are just 2 reasons:

1) No other place to go

2) Just to window shop nia.

So, how lah the shops there want to survive?  Even the stalls at the food court areas - buka tutup, buka tutup loh.  International brand pun boleh tutup.  That's y lah, if Kuching people dont buy...then if u expect people to come all the way from Miri, Sibu, Bintulu - flying half to maybe 1 hours just to walk in that mini mini square of mall and ended up have nothing to buy or see??  With no other attraction around anymore??? Aiyah..who wan lah.

No wonder last time got rumours - that Burger King refused to open up a branch in Sarawak due to lack of demand (in term of our spending power...value)..takut tutup later.  U see, last time Kenny Roger (there is one Kenny Roger just in front of the Sarawak Plaza - the KFC area now...oso tutup mah before it opened its branch again in Spring/Boulevard).  International brand boh..food industry some more boh..pun boleh tutup.  And if I am not mistaken when I was very very young - there was oso one international brand in Kuching, White Castle.  It opened at this Hopoh in town area (hopoh...aiii) and oso the Ever rise in BDC.  Then wat happened?  Aii....the rest is history liao lah.  Then this A & W.  There was an A & W restaurant at this Water Front.  Was there when I was still in secondary school.  Then what happened leh?  Tutup loh..a bu then?  Aiii...

So, what's the problem here?  Some people said its not about Kuching people not willing to spend but to spend in here - it is not worth it for the kind of things/food or the service that u get.  True oso..u see the Kenny Rogers, Manhattan Fish Market and the Hartz Chicken (just look at KL nia lah)..so crowded...so laku....but here.  Aii..u can even count the customers with your five fingers here.  Some people comment, if wanna spend that much here - might as well fly to West Malaysia or fly oversea.  Value for money as the food and service is good.  Kinda true oso....as u see ah...most of the international brand that came in to our country - either to Sarawak lah, Sabah lah, Selangor lah and so on...by the end...the service failed them.  The food may be the same - but the service is a turn off.  Some even worst - the food taste oso deteriorate.   And even then if u observe carefully, still not so many international brands dare to venture into the market here.  Balik-balik is the same old shops that been set up in the malls.  In other words, the same shop just opens branch in other place nia mah.  Or worst, same shop maybe tutup kedai at one place and open up in another place.

I predicted that by the time City One opened - The Spring chu cham liao.  Our peoples in town..not so many yet ...it will just shifted from The Spring to City One nia.  And by the end...both will be at the losing end.  Plaza Merdeka oso ready soon..Boulevard still in progress...the Summer Shopping Mall pula.  Well, we are craving for things like that and life like that..but is our people ready?  For me, the most important thing is to build our public transport first.  To make sure that everything is connected easily, baru people want to travel from here to there and people will think its worth it.  If need hours and hours to travel and see things like that nia...aiii..ko lien.  Show you a few pictures of our so call "lagoon/theme parks" that been proposed or still in progress in Sarawak.

The artist illustration of Miri Water Theme Park - don't know what is the name yet.  Expected to be completed in 5 years time and they believe that its gonna be the biggest theme park in East Malaysia and they wan to turn Miri into the "Venice of the East"..emmm??? =P

http://www.theborneopost.com/2012/11/18/miri-to-have-largest-water-theme-park-in-east-malaysia/

Here some link for your further reading if u wish to know:

http://www.miricommunity.net/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=46585

http://www.thesummermall.com/retail-lots

Oh ya, to all my children - CONGRATS!!  

If you don't get what u want..like I said before - you had done your best..be proud of yourself.

Be Proud of Yourself...19/11/12 

Yesterday, a child sms me and asked - 

"What will happened if I don't get what I want or expected?"

My answers :

First - be confident with yourself and if you had done your best all these times, I am sure God will answers your prayer =).  

Secondly - if it is not as what you expected...then do know this.  You had done your best - no matter what, that is your best tried and effort already.  Everyone will be proud of you.  And you should be proud of yourself too.  Always hold your head up high..and do know that the journey that you are on now...is still a long way to go.  There are still many "wars" or "obstacles" that you have to go thru.  So, be happy and be grateful.  It has already over, done deal.  And do know that we.....everyone is proud of you.  And of cos it is easier said than done...but hey....if you really feel bad - then think about this, in your next "war" be prepared early, do your best from the beginning till to the end =)

CHILDREN - BE PROUD AND BE HAPPY YA =)

Less Intelligent... 13/11/12 

Normally, when I on my computer, first thing I would like to read - is to follow thru Yahoo News.  Sometime they may highlight up to 75 news so gonna read thru one by one despite what ever news it may be.  From the Obama's campaigns/election..to the news of the best villain in the James Bond (altho I hate 007 movies) to the news of health, family, entertainment and so on.  Many interesting things to read...then can share with friends, my children and my angels.

One news that capture my attention today - there was this article saying that human are becoming less intelligent as time goes by.  

http://news.yahoo.com/humans-becoming-less-intelligent-173400651.html

Well which I believe there are two sides of it....so I am kinda sitting on the fence regarding this statement.  I guess - the first question we should ask ourselves is - how do we justify and measure intelligent?  

Are all those base on the IQ - above 100 then that is super duper smart?  Getting into university before the age of 15 (many cases like this now) are smart?  Getting double degree are smart (whereby by the end some may not even using that degree in their whole life - smart ya?).  Being able to plan out robbery and avoid catching by any authority - is that smart?  (I guess some people may think so for example like the movie of The Swordfish, The Italian Job, Don and many more Hollywood & Bollywood movies on which they portray how "smart" are those people planning a heist that even the whatever police group it may be...failed to capture them...aii) So what is our bench mark?  How do we compare the "intelligent" in human being?  Is a person getting 100 marks in exam consider as way smarter than those who just get 60 marks?  Is intelligent is measure on base on "paper base" @ marks, evaluation by another so call smart human, measurement and standard set up by another human that consider himself/herself as smart?  What if u are bench mark by someone who normally get 80 marks?  Then it's mean if u can get 85 marks...wow...u are super intelligent then????  Is Albert Einstein smart?  As far as I know, he is only good in Physics and Maths nia wor..but he gets Nobel Prize for his E = MC2  ya?  How about Donald Trump, Bill Gates and the late Steve Jobs?  Are they smart @ intelligent?  Steve Jobs' idea on tablet his brilliant but there is one article saying that he disagree to transfer this idea into a smaller form of tablets @ IPad or other type of smart phone.  Then that's how other telecommunication company copy the idea I guess and turn the whole thing into something smaller.  Ever see someone who take up the WHOLE TABLET and put near his ear while he answered phone call from someone?  And the funny part was - u can see the caller face - so it looks like as if this person was taking up a photo frame and put near his ear!!

How do we categorize this people?  The group of people that don't even have a degree qualification (if I am not mistaken lah) and yet - look at what they have now?  How much they earn now?  Who has the last laugh now?  What about Mark Zuckerberg, the founder of Facebook?  As far as I know, he doesnt even complete his degree.  After he found and established FB, he didnt resume his study (unless he did that now lah..).  Who is the one that categorize smart to "book smart" and "street smart"?  What kind of bench mark?  Base on paper qualification and another person survival skill?  Isn't that person who created this is "very smart"?  So why do we say human is getting less intelligent now?  We think that now human is getting less smart is due to the fact that now we are not easily amaze or awe by the things that people created or people have now?  Last time..during the stone age - the first person that created fire....of cos he/she will be regarded as the "smartest" person then, as during those time - no fire mah.  But now, even if u "poof" out a fire with your mouth or just a bare hand - people will just "Nay..that's a magic trick nia mah".  So, how to justify??

Is it we regards human as less intelligent now is becos - normal man wan to become girl (Pete Burns), normal human want to become Living Barbie Doll and Anime (huh?? y?? no confident with their own appearance or chiak pak bo su cho?) Y a normal man want to do that?  Y a normal pretty teenagers want to do that?  Ever read a news before saying that a Korean model inject her face with cooking oil as her surgeon (plastic surgery) said that she has too much Botox already so they stopped her from doing so?  So this Korean model thot that injecting cooking oil will give her the same effect..so...well...aii.  So, she failed in her mission to achieve ever lasting beauty.  In this case - people label her as a failure and......G-O.....(you know the rest of the alphabets..) but what if she is successful???  Then she will be the MOST INTELLIGENT GIRL in this era!  So..how do we justify the whole intelligent thingy?

Very hard to comment oh?  It's depend on which angle we are looking at.  For me, I believe in both lah...be intelligent @ smart ...if can...in both...paper qualification and street smart.  If cannot achieve 100 percent of both, at least do have a bit here and a bit there..as at least, there is something we can do in our lives.  In this realistic world now, academic or paper qualification is indeed the most crucial things in the world. U wan to become a doctor, engineer, lawyer, nurse, pharmacist, u got to have that piece of qualification or paper to show ur true understanding of the field u are in.  

U wan to be like Gordon Ramsay (the Hell's Kitchen and the Masterchef - CHEF), Jimmy Choo (no need for me to introduce who is this Datuk Jimmy), CM Leung (if I am not mistaken he is one of the world best photographer - position number 5 if I am not wrong), Louis Pang (photographer - Malaysia Number 1 @ among those world class standard as well), Tyra Bank (super model), Datuk Lee Chong Wei and so on...ahhh..then u must have some skill...not just some ah..need a lot of skill...this is what we called as the "street smart" skill @ the survival skill.  Skill that need to be polish and practice days and nite.  Same goes to the skill of being a book smart.  Need to study days and nites too.

That's y when I heard people comment (especially those at the age of 18 and above) saying that - "I still don't know what to do in my life.  I just take up any course and see how later..." Aiyo..cannot be like that lah.  U gonna spend maybe around 4 - 7 years in uni..then u said u just take the course first and baru see how it goes?  All the time, the money spend..the burnt the midnite oil (if they do tho..) and sweats and bloods on it...then baru see ah?  It is better to think early and plan early then to be sorry later.  A lot of people at young age always comment that they don't know what they wan to do with their lives.  And by then 4 - 5 precious years just gone like that.  Those age...around 20 plus to 45 plus, are the era of whereby u study, work and strive hard for your life.  By the age of maybe 50 and above...wan to work and toil days and nites...u already started to worry and should take care more of your health liao.  That's the time when your body and family should be the first priority.  Whenever I share this with some younger group of friends - they just giggles, laughed and told me..ban ban lai.  Time wait for no one.  I had heard of people in the age of 21 - just drop died like that due to some infection.  Heard of people at the age of 18 - car accident.  Age of 35...never save much..always feel that his job is secure and can earn much..but due to some minor mistake..everything collapsed in one nite.  And now at the age of 60 plus, still need to works days and nites to survive.  

(*that's the reason y I really salute this child - NL.  I don't know him well, but I do know that as young as 16 or maybe 17 years old, he already knows what he wants to do in his life and what he wants to achieve. Well done!! =) )

Choose the path of "smart @ intelligent" properly.  Either one - as long u are willing to put in effort, sure can enjoy the fruit of success one day.  By the end....effort above all ya? =p I believe so..as maybe I am not smart enuf  =p but I do believe in putting effort in everything and trust in the Lord in everything.  

(*Include some links for further reading.......enjoy lah ya)

http://scottberkun.com/2010/book-smarts-vs-street-smarts/

http://askville.amazon.com/book-smart-street/AnswerViewer.do?requestId=5214174

http://www.investopedia.com/financial-edge/0612/is-it-better-to-be-book-smart-or-street-smart.aspx

http://www.japantoday.com/category/opinions/view/book-smart-or-street-smart

http://undergroundsquare.com/topic.php?id=527

http://www.sodahead.com/fun/book-smart-or-street-smart/question-1936187/

Happy Deepavali, Happy Holidays and Pleasant Days Ahead =)...10/11/12 

Long year end holiday especially for those that are still in school, college or universities (I think...)..must be super duper zuper happy ya? =)  Must have a lot of plans ahead.  Going anywhere?  Many children told me that they are going for a long vacation..and the most interesting part was...wah...the places that they are going.  Italy lah..Rome lah...Hawaii lah...Sweden lah....wah sei.  Really admire all my children alot.  Must appreciate it and do know that all those luxury come from your Mummies and Daddies hard work..sweats and blood.  My children...do enjoy your holidays ya =))

Well...now even more eng eng bo su cho....and of cos - do have a lot of things being plan and will carry it out with my own angels =)  And normally by year end, instead of hunting or bz for Christmas, we will be more bz planning for the upcoming CNY.  So kin tio hor??? Hahahah..fun mah..and even sometime when you walked walked around in certain places @ shopping complex..just a few days after Xmas, they will already playing CNY songs =)

Oh ya..talk about song.  Initially, would like to introduce this song to u when I put up all the Y2K songs that I like.  But I guess - I just love this song too much and can't wait to share with u liao =).  Well..it is not from my bintang pujaan song but it is one of those that I really really like and it is one of those that I will full blast the volume with my head phone on.

Ah..this song is U Make Me Wanna by the group known as Blue.  They were formed in the early 2000 and was very popular in those Y2K era till they decided to disband in 2005 to pursue solo career.

Their members are (according to the order of when they sings this song) - Lee Ryan, Antony Costa, Duncan James and the one and only "black" guy with the cap; Simon Webbe.  Among four of them, I like Duncan James and Simon Webbe's voice.  Told u before mah I like singers that have that kind of a bit of husky husky voice one.  Well, not everyone that have a husky voice can sing well.  Some may ended up sound like trying to "kek sai" out in the toilet..ooophs...hahaha =p.  But normally, those that have that kind of husky voice will ended up be either the heavy metal group, rock band or pop rock.  Will show u more of this "husky" type of singers next time. 

Actually among all their songs..this is the only song I like lah.  Not really an ardent fan of them...except for this song nia.  I like music that has more "bass" sound as I like bass guitar and personally I think a person that plays bass guitar looks cool...(hmmm...yeah rite??) especially a girl.  Took up bass guitar lesson from my church member before but unfortunately as I was furthering my study then, it stopped half way.  Cut of all my fingers nail - short (hard to play guitar especially bass guitar with long fingers nail as the strings are more "rough and thick").  Aii..eventho still have the bass guitar at home..but now it is just for display purpose only.  Mr Abang pula prefer acoustic, electric guitar and piano/key board.  So, no one touch that bass guitar anymore...aiiii...Aiyah..so susah..play recorder better lah. hahahah

Oh ya, there is one very talented boy from Philippines I think - Paolo covered this song and I think he is not bad.  (U listens to it and judge yourself lah..compare to the Blue's version..I think Paolo one consider as cukup bagus liao lah).  He did another cover for this song Firework by Katy Perry.  I don't really like Katy Perry's songs but after listening to Paolo's version..the song sound quite nice pula....=)  He has a few songs in Youtube...So enjoy viewing ya =)

Monopoly =)...7/11/12 

Sorry didn't update much as last few days was bz.  Hehehe..bz playing board game with my family.  I am sure most of u know and ever heard of the game - Monopoly.  Been like ages..(centuries???) since my last monopoly game.  I think I played it when I was like...maybe in primary school (Pri 4???).  

Now, the game is much better.  More colorful, harder board being use..etc.  And yet...still so addictive.  I think this kind of game is better than electronic game @ computer game.  Whole family sit down together....taught the young ones how to count and manage their money....and take turn to laugh and make each other "bankrupt".. =)  Fun oh?

For the past few nites..after dinner..we starts the game around 8 pm and it can last till 12 or 1 am and yet still no winner or no sign of anyone going to be "bankrupt"...aiii.  But still....it is interesting lah.  Next...wan to get this game known as Cluedo.  I think it is a kind of board game whereby the task is to solve the mystery or catch the culprit.  Wait till I get hold of this game and then see how ya =)

All the Best!! =)...5/11/12

Today is the day whereby some of my children enter their final stage or the final WWIII in the long await battle and journey.  Time flies ya?  Well..all the best to all of u....keep our fingers cross...pray and I am sure you had done your best =)

To... C..of cos I still and always remember u?  It has been three years ago ya?  So fast hor?  Don't worry, I am sure u can.  All the best =)  

Timber...31/10/12 

Aiyah..sudah tua tua like this liao...suddenly yesterday fell down pula!! Was carrying a galah @ long stick to hang out clothes at the back yard.  Aiyah...initially had kept the first batch of clothes that I washed in the early morning and dried up already.  Then alang-alang got another two t-shirts (color t-shirts, washed it separately as worry that the color might "came off" @ luntur) and was thinking to hang it outside.  But kinda unsure then as due to the uncertainty of the weather.  On and off sunny as it was like cloudy too.   So, I was like holding on the stick for quite long and kept on looking at the sky and finally I decided to just hang it out lah.  Even if it does rain later, after all I am at home, can just rush out to keep it.

Manalah tahu, baru sahaja I stepped my foot out, the next minute I know, I was on the floor - and both of my hand tahan on the floor, trying to tahan my face and further body impact to the ground.  One foot was in the longkang liao...aduh.  Can see some scratch marks and blood coming out but not so bad..thank God.  But now a bit concern on my foot in the longkang as its kinda hurt.  Sprained ah?  Aiii...sit down very slowly and carefully as don't know how bad is the injury to my foot.  Pull it out slowly and then look at it.  Not much of any scratch marks or anything but certainly had sprained it a bit.  So sit down a while to tahan the pain...and then try to get up...if can get up then I can slowly move around and move into the house.  Oh..memang can...it was not that bad....thank  God.  Even kept everything back properly, before I locked everything..so oklah.

By the time, Mr Abang and my angels came home - I was upstair liao..putting on some ointment and massage my leg.  Worry that if it might get swollen ...but by the late afternoon..memang swollen a bit liao lah.  The right foot can only be positioned in certain angles..if wrong angles - painful loh.  So now limping abit especially when going up and down the stair case.....terhincut-hincut liao.  Aiyah........but thank God, it wasnt that bad..hopefully by tomoro, be ok and can drive again... =)

*Pssttt..till now I can't figure out what made me fell down? 

1) I trip on the stick and fell? Couldnt remember or feel I tripped on anything leh...

2) The floor slippery and I slipped, one foot slipped into longkang and then I fell?  If it slipped, then I won't be falling like tersembam (the face and chest to the front "style"..)

3) I walked out and didnt realize that one of my foot stepping the wrong path, instead of the path way I was stepping into the longkang????  Couldnt be too leh..I walked in and out at the back yard everyday oh..

Perspective...30/10/12

Last few days - still thinkin on what color should I use to re-paint my wall before the CNY and what kind of concept or theme color I should have for next year...emmm finally got liao..hehehe =).  Well, for our small hut - since there is nothing and we don't have much thing as well - just have to make the fullest out from what ever scrap we have and use color scheme to create the mood and ambience to it.  Keep my fingers cross =)

Today is oso the day I finally found out the reason - y such a beautiful relationship was called off and now it turned into a massive war zone in their FB.  Aiii....well, don't wan to give any comment as there are two sides for each coin and there is always a reason for everything and everyone will have a different story and perspective in things like this.  Like I said before - initially it is the clash of opinion, but gradually it will turns into a clash of ego as everyone will says they are rite.  So, can just lend my ears.... 

When I was in uni - I remember that whenever we talked about this topic....my friends  -  each one will have a different opinion and gradually u can see the peaceful discussion turned into an argument that...... habis liao.

The Penang guy will comment - 

If the person knows that the relationship won't last till married @ till death do us part, might as well dont start anything!  Troublesome nia and hurting for each other nia....

The KL guy said - 

If we don't even try how do we know?  At least - we try to make the best out of it...and eventho we can't be together forever but at least we had a good moment together before - that is more important and worth it compare to trying to push your way thru "till death to us part".

The Pahang guy's opinion - 

Y so susah? Y commit urself to one relationship and tight up ur life forever?  Y can everyone be special in ur life?  Y must be one nia?  We can still be special and good together rite?  Y must (girls) always demand us to be loyal????

The Perak girl's view -

If that's the case might as well we have a looong list of persons that we like.  If can't get A, then we go to B, if can't get B go to C and so on................

The Sabah girl's perspective -

Wah..if like that then very easy lah.  No one will be heart broken?  Who want to be in that list?  Very cruel lah...........

The KL girl's comment - 

It's better that others get hurt then we get hurt rite?????

The Kuching guy said - 

Kenapa gatal?  Kenapa cari masalah?  Buat apa susah-susah?  Y like that lah?  Don't involve then nothing happened loh...

The Perak girl said -

Aiyo........u never fall in love that's y easy for u to comment....

Well...the discussion can just be on and on.  Of cos - everyone said something based on their opinion and experiences.  So different people will have different idea about the issue.  As for me - when it is about BGR...it's memang always hard to justify one lah.  That's y people came out with phrases like "love makes the world go round", "love is blind......." u know things like that.  But for me, I agree on the view of - 

When we decided to start a relationship, of cos we try our best to pull thru till to the end.  But if it is really really destine to be ended half way..then well..what to do.  Boh pien loh..of cos lah...sad, memang sad lah.  But like I said in my previous entry before - cry memang cry lah...but u cry ur heart out and cry till u shed blood pun...nothing can be done liao lah.  Upset for a while oklah..but upset till for months and years.....that's a bit aiyah...for me - suku lah.  Frens comment if u really love someone and the relationship was called off - of cos u will linger and hold on to it and cry cry cry very long..months and maybe years for it.  So, my question now is - if a person cry till shed tears of blood coming out, the love is truly madly deeply deep ah compares to a person that just cry normally?  So we are justifying or weighing a person's love based on how long she/he linger on the issue and how much she/he cried over it ah?  Then my "condolence" to those who never shed tears of blood for your love one lah ya..ur LOVE IS NOT BIG OR TRUE ENUF =p.........Anyway, everyone has a different perspective over the issue lah ya..either this or that..when we talk about feelings..that's the hardest thing to justify.

The Penang guy (Mr Turtle) - 

Still single, a regional HR Director for one international training company (Oh Kui...my gift leh???).  Psst..anyone interested..let me know.  He told me, he trusted his philosophy and that's y until now still single....aiya..bo lang ai chu bo lang ai lah...hahaha

The KL guy (Mr Pastor) -

Married and resides in German now.  His wife is also our uni friends.  Recently just gave birth to a beautiful little angel........CONGRATS!!!  Done with your PhD and research yet? =)

The Pahang guy (Godfather) -

In a relationship, the girl friend super sui as she is a model...oooooh.

The Perak girl (Lenglui) - 

Married three years already to a pharmacist.  Now she enjoys her life as a full time house wife...............=)

The Sabah girl (we never give her any nickname) - 

Pretty pretty Sabahan girl as her parents are Sabahan + Irish blood...oooh. Recently just email me her wedding pics...fuyoooo super sui ah.  Sorry didnt attend ur wedding as timing tak cun oh.  Hey...most probably this or next year will drop by there..yes!!

The KL girl (Lenglui) - 

Single wonder woman, Senior HR Manager in a consultant firm, still looks very young and cute ohhh...

The Kuching guy (Doraemon) -

A very humorous fren.  Married to the niece of a VERY WELL KNOWN PERSON in Sarawak.  He asked me and Mr Abang to coordinate the whole wedding event from A to Z (hey... the wedding was on the CNY eve and u still owe me hadiah hor......=p )..and wa lao...si bei kin tio when u see the list of guests and all the VVIP and the VIP that he has.  Blessed with 2 beautiful angels......=)

So, in conclusion - if loving someone is so painful y we still fall in love?  Someone told me - becos we enjoy that feelings...........to feel the rush of the adrenaline....to be on the cloud nine (eventho it is just for a moment) and to have some experience that we  can at least share with our frens or to our next generation........What's your opinion? =)

Hehehe =)) ...26/10/12 

For no particular reason, today extra ordinary super duper zuper happy =)) no reason but just happy oh.  Maybe its due to after all those months of hard work..(ehem..hehehe), now finally can rest a bit.  So must really make full use of these 2 months before 2013.....accelerate and gear up again..hahaha =).

Hearing CNY songs from my neighbour..ai say..make me even more happy loh.  Can't wait for next year CNY.  It's on the 10th of February 2013.  Yahoo!!!!!!!!  Not that I get any ang pow (give ang pow got lah..hahaha) but eager to do the decorating and shopping part.  I enjoyed it a lot..as I really love and appreciate Mr Abang for being such a supportive person in everything.  He will always be the one that come up with a lot of ideas in term of the decor, eagerly and excitingly helping me with it.  Not just about giving idea, but as well as to shop, set up and in short - do everything together.  And then...it is only during this season that my small hut...at least do look like a home (for those who are with me...from January till now..u know what I mean..normally how do my small hut looks like compare to the CNY time...).  And the part that I enjoy most as well - cooking and preparing for the family reunion dinner as well as frying keropok few nites before the eve of CNY.  Aiyo...really can't describe ah...super hua hee now ah thinking about that............=)))

That's y I am very very very much..aiyo really so kin tio and eager for it!!!  The ambience...the support and the joy that u can feel with your family!!!  Ai say....sungguh tidak ternilai oh!!!  And one thing that I am very very very much looking forward - the gathering with my siblings + nieces + nephews on the eve of the CNY.  So hua hee...bagi ang pow pun hua hee ah!!!  

And from now till end of the year...emm..maybe till the month of Feb - so many things and planning to do with my family.  Wow...really very very much looking forward!!  

To everyone - especially to Mummies and Daddies : 

From the bottom of my heart, my deepest gratitude and thanks for all your support and trust thru out the whole year!  

And especially to my children - do enjoy ur holiday ya!!!! Pat urself at the back for all the effort and hard work you had done in the year of 2012!!  What ever that is done...it is done deal and over liao...cannot keep on thinking and linger on it..but to move forward, happily and positively in your life.  U deserve that!  So...happy holiday.....mei ni (nex year)..we pei pei (sama-sama) pia again!!!! =))

Super Workaholics VS Super Mum...24/10/12

I think it is much much more easier to be a super duper zuper workaholics person than to be a super mum (wat more to say to be the super duper zuper mum).  Phew..if people always comment cant seem to finish office work...I think...house chores even thousand times worst than that.  

Well, it has its own fun and entertaining part of it - but the down side of it was, it seems to be endless tho....aiii.  The moment you are done with one task (and it doesnt seem to get done oso - as the most u just do half way or delaying it) then jumps to the other tasks.  The moment you are done with one room, by the time u finished with the second room - u are all the way back to where u begins - the first room!!  Aiyah...it is not about having a maid or not....even with a few maids around, I believe most parents or super mums outside will think and feel the same.  Phew........so...can we imagine last time - our mums or our grandma or great ancestor with bunch of children (maybe around 10 or 12??) Aiyoyo..that's not just super duper zuper mum liao loh..that is like a MUM WITH A JUSTICE LEAGUE IN HER!!  Imagine the bunch of cleaning and washing need to be done...and last time where got washing machine...amah lah...maid lah...aduh duh.  So cant imagine oh???  Really have to salute and take our hat off!!!

Today - thinking of how to decorate my dining table already made me headache.  How to made it look nice - and be able to change, switch and fit it according to the situations?  Aiii...already took me the whole morning trying to figure it out and yet didnt come out with any good idea yet.  Ban..ban lah...slow..slow lah. Got time..haha =)

Oh ya, tat day talked about the 80's music - I saw that my blog rating increased a lot wor...alot of people listens to the 80's song ah? hehehe.  Well I purposely leave out 2 persons from that group.  As this two singers do have more than one song that I like. 

1) Chicago @ Peter Cetera

• You're The Inspiration
• Hard to Say I'm Sorry

2) Madonna (she is already a very popular singer back in the early of 80's and at that time she still looks more "human" lah)  And the moment she is out - Cyndi Lauper has to say bye-bye liao. I dont like her tho but some of her songs, not badlah

• Material Girl (due to the violation of wat-so-ever..wat-so-ever, the video has been banned from Youtube and so boh pien, I upload another one as the substitude lah ya.  Hish..now I baru know that it is so hard to take care and maintain a blog..need to check and updates all the links - 2 Nov 2012)
• Like A Virgin
• La Is La Bonita
• True Blue
• Papa Don't Preach
• Take A Bow (well this one is more to the 90's liao lah..just put it in, alang-alang)
• I'll Remember (more to the 90's)
• You'll See (90's)

3) David Foster & Marilyn Martin - And When She Danced (1988)

• David Foster is a popular singer back in the 80's and then now he is more to producing music for popular singers such as Charice, Josh Groban, Michael Buble, Celine Dion and many more.

So, thats the music of 80's =).  A bit of 90's..as soon going to intro u to the songs of 90's and go nuts over my super duper zuper idol (s) in those era too. Enjoy the musics lah ya.  =) 

Saman...23/10/12 =(

Aiii..today is my first time (and hopefully my last as well) kena saman.  The reason : Parking at inappropriate place and caused traffic.  Aiii...parked just behind the KPJ, roadside..yellow line.  Ah..was rushing my youngest angel to KPJ and saw that many cars were parking like that as well - so I follow suit loh.  Should had trust my instinct - as I went into the main entrance of KPJ, suddenly saw many policemen came out and standing at the KPJ main entrance (wonder y).  As the queue at the clinic was super long, actually did came out, have breakfast with my angel at the nearby coffee shop and was then thinking of moving my car else where.  

But as I went back and saw that still got sooo many cars park like mine - well...never did that before and couldnt be so unlucky ya?? Aiii..should had really trust my instinct.  Ended up kena saman pulak...hish...=(

The Music That You Remember...19/10/12 

My children always thot that I like Beatles and listening to the Beatles or Elvis Presley due to my age.  Aiya...not that old leh..memang consider old lah but not that old yet.  Oh, talk about old...I get to know one of my child's GRAND UNCLE.  When he first bring his angel here, I thot he is just the uncle.   And after a few minutes of conversation, I was shock to find out that, he is not the uncle........he is the GRAND UNCLE - which it means he is the uncle to the child's father!!  Aiyoyo..looks so energetic and soooo young (comparatively to his age lah)...Ai say man, when I reach that age and I can still be so energetic and looks so healthy...wah sei wah sei...that is memang super duper good liao lah.  Not asking for much, but just stay happy and healthy enuflah.

Ok, ok back to the music topic.  Yup, I love music/songs.  Listening to all kind of music from the 80's to the Y2K songs...from ballad, sentimental, pop to rock.  Even listen to foreign songs such as Hindustan, Spanish, Romanian and so on.  Last week, was glue at the TV for almost 2 hours watching an Hindustan version of American Idol, listening to the Hindustan song.  After watching it - just realised that among all the "group" or genre or any kind of song...I think Hindustan is the hardest...my opinion lah.  

So, now - let me introduce u to some other popular songs back in the 80's.  For those who are in the era of 70's and 80's enjoy this ya =)

Don't  Go - Yazoo.  The Axel F (Crazy Frog) song is origin from this one.  I remember when I first watch this music video, it was like so "scary" then...hahahah =p 

Take On Me - A-Ha.  If you talk about the 80's, then must include this group.  Ai say man..everyone go nuts over the lead singer Morten Harket.  Till now the lead singer still maintain "fit" and keep his six packs well.  At the age of 53 now, he really look nice and maintain well lah. 

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper.  This one.....is the Lady Gaga of the 80's.  Most people comment that she is weird as she has this kind of weird hairdo and always wearing gypsy style of cloth.  So during those time - is kinda cant be accepted lah.  So, can u imagine if back then she wears the meat cloth like Lady Gaga now?  Sure kena outcast by everyone!  And if I am not mistaken in one of the Lady Gaga's interview for a magazine, she said that Cyndi Lauper is her idol and she would lovesss to be like her.  Now u can see where she "inherit" the talent from lah... =p...oh..Cyndi Lauper is also popular for her song "Girls Just Want to Have Fun".

Eternal Flame - The Bangles.  If I am not mistaken they are all siblings.  This year, I think the lead singer is around 48??.  Still pretty..............

Big in Japan - Alphaville.  Well, the lead singer may not be in the nice looking type but they were soooooo popular back then.  They have another hit song - Forever Young. 

I Like Chopin - Gazebo.   This guy is oso popular with the song "Lunatic".  Can't tell you much of him as most of the 80's singers I like and know their songs but aint sure about the group or singers. 

Love in The First Degree - Bananarama.  This is the Kin Chio group.  This 3 pisang till now masih beautiful.  Another song which is consider a hit from them is "Venus". 

Boys, Boys, Boys - Sabrina Salerno.  This girl...memang I take my hat off leh...back in those time...she is supeeeeeeeeeeer sexy....as in all her music video...she either tak berbaju..baju nipis (extremely nipis equivalent to not wearing anything liao) and she is the Goddess of Sexiness.  Well, memang got this song original music video from Youtube lah.  But I can't and I decided not to upload it here and it is super 18 SX and it looks like more to the malfunction of her wardrobe...hahaha =p  But she is memang pretty and sexy lah.  Now at the age of 46, she is still very pretty and sexy =)

Careless Whisper - Wham.  Know who is the lead singer?  George Michael.  Well, last time he is consider as the super hot and handsome guy lah..but now...aii.  During those time, it was not mention that he is a gay (as I guess it was a super taboo topic then)...but now in the Y2K time....declaring it openly and I think he got a spouse.  This group has another song - Last Christmas.

Africa - Toto.  When this group was formed, I was only 2 years old nia.  Don't know when do I started listening to song but I know my genre and preference in music is very much influenced by my siblings.  Remember that by the age of maybe 6 or 7 already watch this so call music video show known as The Jade Solid Gold (it is the US version ya..not the Hong Kong version).  And I remember in this show, they will always focus on the disco light @ ball.  It is not shown in tv ya..last time where got such channel like now.  Last time baru got 2 channels nia - RTM 1 and RTM 2.  So, we get to watch it from a video tape by using video cassette recorder (*to the generation of Y2K do u know what is video tape and video cassette kah? hehehe)

Don't Dream It's Over - Crowded House.  Know nothing about this group and so far this is their only song that I know and like =p 

Down Under - Men At Work.  Also know nothing about this group.  But besides this there is another song from them that I quite like - Who Can It Be Now.

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now - Starship.  It is the OST for the movie Mannequin.  I remembered that I ever watched this love story but as was too young..dont really remember the story line.  If I am not mistaken, the hero falls in love with a girl that is actually transformed from a mannequin??? Tak ingat liao...anyway, enjoy the song =) 

All Out of Love - Air Supply.  They have many popular/hit songs but this is the only one that I like.  The lead singer is the shorter guy but I think the one that play guitar sings better.  You really need to salute this guy - as far as I know, this is one of those group that when they sings live...when u close your eyes, is equivalent to when you listen to the recording version.  Back in those 80's era..where got such technology as auto-tune and computerize..it is all true real singing and natural good voice. 

Can't Fight This Feeling - Reo Speedwagon.  I couldn't get hold of the music video..gotlah in Youtube but the quality is not good, so I upload this one instead. 

Telefone (Long Distance Love Affair) - Sheena Easton.  Consider as one of the prettiest in those era.  Another song from her that is popular - For Your Eyes Only 

Still got one more popular songs back then..it is Come On Eileen - Dexys Midnight Runners. Hehehe..don't put up the music video as not really like this onelah.  Only the chorus part is interestinglah.   Then oso have this Self Control - Laura Branigan, Maniac (OST Flash Dance) - Michael Sembello, Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Tears for Fears, Eye of the Tiger (OST for Rocky's movies) - Survivor, True - Spandau Ballet,  Depeche Mode and many more.  Here I only put up the one that I like or quite like.  So happy viewing and listening =)

Songs in the Y2K - Hin Ah...18/10/12

Some songs in the era of Y2K..memang hin ah...some of the latest songs..doesnt even make sense either in term of the MTV, the songs by itself..the lyrics...aiyah.buat sakit hati saje when u listen to it.  Like that also can be popular.  So, people like it as some maybe think that the music is "catchy"...or its funny thus it becomes entertaining.  The latest viral sensation or the songs that become the "world" phenomenon now is this PSY - Gangnam Style thingy.  Aiyoh....really...really dislike this song lah.  Till now never really listen to the whole song...watch the beginning of the song...less than one minute nia...see oso tok huey liao.  Ears and eyes sore nia.............................Dont know y..after certain year..there bound to be some song like this one...aii.  Show to you some of those "phenomenon" songs few years back: 

Ketchup Song - LAS Ketchup (2002), its a Spanish pop group.  I think obviously one of the reason y people like this MTV is becos of the three "sexy ladies"...aii.  Never like this song..unfortunately one of my best pal (a guy) IS, lovesssss this song to the extend during my former company's family day, he and other 2 guys (DC and NL) performed on stage...using this song and danced like these "sexy ladies" some more..eeeeeee.  The famous part is the part whereby the girls crossed their hands and said "Ai say leher...lehar...leher....... (hahahah..don't even know the actual lyric - but something like that lah.  So, if tak suka leher..change to other parts loh..hahahaha ) =p

Dragonstea Din Tei - O-zone (2003), a Romanian group.  Well, I never know what is the lyric all about but among all those "phenomenon" song, I like this one lah.  The first time I heard this song thru Internet (don't know which source then) was back in the February 2003.  But as far as I know, this song was only popular in Malaysia by the mid of 2004 and till beginning of 2005.  The three guys - look kinda gay ya? If I am not mistaken, two of them already married...and the other one - status/preference = unsure???  And I don't think they can sing as all their songs/concerts - they always lip sync.  And the popular part of this song is - people always sing "Mai ya hee..mai ya ha...mai ya.............."

Axel F - Crazy Frog (2005)...ah this one..kinda cute and funny leh.  No particular lyric..even a 3 years old kid can sing along.  From beginning till the end, the song "lyric" is just - ting ting ting ting ting and bram bram bra..bra..ting ting ting.  That's it.  And the frog - tak pakai seluar!! Hahahaha..=)) =p

And now, in the year 2012..is this Gangnam Style - PSY.  Don't want to put up the video..as everyone had seen it and the most important thing is...I DISLIKE IT.  Not that I dont have any sense of humor or wat...but just shake shake like that nia...cute ah??? Aii...so from the Ketchup (tomato song) - [except maybe to this O-zone's song] till to this Gangnam song......doesn't make sense ya?  

The World is Upside Down...16/10/12 

Phew..finally can sit down and update my blog now.  Yeah..happy..happy becos of kinda "eng" now and happy becos most of my children get 32 and above out of 40.  Well done ya!!! Happy for you guys!!! =).  For those who get below that, don't feel bad or disappointed..that's not the ultimate/final result yet.  We keep our fingers cross..pray pray..wait and see.

Ok..back to the topic that I wan to discuss today.  Y I used this title for my today entry? Receive a sms from a fren of mine in KL saying that her bf (for 3 years) broke off with her...and then half an hour later..post up the status of "In Relationship to Single" in his Facebook's account.   I don't have any FB account so couldnt see about that, but all frens in our gang - said that indeed he did that.  Well, of cos there is nothing wrong regarding that but just a bit curious and feel weird...y a guy wanna post up his "personal thingy" like that on the FB account?  Whereby, all his frens are her frens too...without posting up such a status - sooner or later people will oso know by rite?  Y hor?  So according to another fren of mine - everyone in their list of friends, started to kehpoh and asked many q thru FB too.  And you see all those of q and answers...aiyoh...

1) To that guy - if broke off, broke off liao lah.  No need to tell it to the whole world and declaring yourself as single - people will find out sooner or later lah.  No need to hang up a banner and tell everyone in this world that now you are available.  Give urself and herself sometime to heal and recover lah....

2) To other friends in the list of his and her FB - if wanna know..ask or call them directly lah...y ask thru the wall of FB and comment many stuff thru there?  You are not them - you will never really understand.  So, dont comment or pass judgement too soon.  Who ever is rite or wrong..only they - themselves know better.  If wanna ask, wanna be kehpoh too - call them or sms them lah instead of now turning the FB to be the weapon for this Battle of Sexes among two of them...Aiyah...

Next........for those who are in the era of 70's and 80's especially....u remember the singer name Pete Burns in the very popular group - Dead or Alive? Their ever popular song "You Spin Me Round (Like A Record)?  He is still very much alive (I thot he already mati liao..oophs)  and "healthy"...hehehe...show you his video and pictures back then.................

I don't really know or like this particular group but I do remember that back in the 80's aiyoyo - my sisters and their friends went gaga over this group.   

Some people comment that the lead singer of Tokio Hotel - Bill Kaulitz looks a bit like Pete Burns.  It's more to the hair I guess..hahahah =p

So, that's Pete Burns - consider as one of the "Most Handsome" man back in the era of 80's.  Now looks at ...errrr........him...... her (???) or......Shim (she + him = Shim) 

So, how do Shim looks like now?  Opinion??? I was sooooo shock as I do see this face now and then in certain music videos but never aware that it was him.  I thot it was some other girls that went for plastic surgery and it turned out to be like this.  Never thot that it was Pete Burns then.  Sorry about Shim's latest music video, its a bit of 18SX but that's his latest video and can't edit it.  Just to show to u how Shim looks like now. So..if u think Lady Gaga is freaky what is this then???

Next - show u two girls...that is consider as a Living Barbie Doll and Living Anime.  Well, can't deny that they are pretty...but it is just not normal lah.  And if I am not mistaken, they are in the age of (18 - 21??) their waist line is only 16 or 18 inches?  They are in this size as they want to have the figure like the anime girls and oso the Barbie doll - the ever consider "perfect figure".  But honestly speaking - eventho they are memang pretty but its all behind the make up plus I guess this is kinda like a psychology/mind "sickness" + a bit of anorexic I guess. I only put up some of their video and pics here, if u wan to know more about them..u can google it yourself.  The one looks like anime the name is Anastasiya Shpagina and the one that looks like Barbie doll is Valeria Lukyanova.  

The Living Barbie Doll - Valeria Lukyanova 

The Living Anime - Anastasiya Shpagina 

The Living Anime with the Living Barbie....Man wants to be Woman and Human wants to be Doll or Anime......the world is upside down ya?  

Update...14/10/12 

Bz...bz..weeks for now...many things to settle - helping and preparing the children for their "war zones".......................Gonna update more news and musics soon......aiii..so for the mean time...sorry lah ya...pai seh pai seh................=)

This is the Day...9/10/12 

Time flies really fast..just with a blink of an eye nia...now they are already in their "Battle Zone" liao.  Just like baru yesterday, get to know them..introduce each other...scold, shout, joke and laugh together with them...aiii.  See them grow up...batch after batch.

Today was sending my angels to school and saw my children busily reading and doing final preparation, sitting down, standing up...discussing with their friends.  Don't dare to go near them as don't wan them to be panic.  Some saw me, I just waved my hands at them, smiled, show my "GOOD" @ Thumb to them and walked off.  Nervous..really kin tio for them.  

Around 11 am, two Mums called me up and told me not to worry or nervous as the children comment that - unexpectedly the paper is way easy than what we normally see and predicted.  Phew...thank God.  Good news ya!!!  And then around 12 pm..received msges and calls from my children...hearing them talking happily about it.....feel so relieved.  Very happy and proud of u guys.  U had done your best...now we just can keep our fingers cross and pray pray pray.......do the best for the rest of the days too!!!

Gonna miss them.............

Anak Emas.....MRC - gonna miss his "weird + funny" joke and his prostiTUITION concept..hahahaha.  A very sweet and adorable child....

DJ and BT - get to know them since they were 12 years old.  Really see them grow up.  DJ - as usual, the quiet type, BT - growing taller and more muscular each day...

PCS - hahaha..always like to bully this one..very funny, but sayang don't really have time to "drill" him for this battle..or else - sure can do better than this....

KL - sayang dont have the chance to know him longer - a nice and teachable child, very kuai and hard working

MT and IL - wow..pretty girls....sweet, soft spoken and this IL - eyes big big one.  Any guy who has them as gf - memang lucky lah.  Not only smart but pretty and nice girl.

JB - hahaha..hey...my "royal treatment" not bad lah hor?  Seem to be quiet but can be quite chatty some time...

EL - wow...pretty girl and teachable child.....really really hope she can score up to the ultimate level.  From totally cannot do....now she can produce 2 pages for it with less mistakes some more....keep it up.

BT - a very very kuai and polite boy.....his Mandarin super "chim-chim"...

LJK - this one..hahaha..very funny too.  He told me - its not that I cant tahan....its my SH*T that can tahan - need toilet liao....hahahaha.  And always address himself as Handsome JK.  Very adorable.......

SA and PS - gonna miss this two quiet, soft spoken girls...........very kuai....

JL - wow..this one..super smart...can memorize everything eventho baru belajar today...aisay man....memang hebat............

CC - brother of TC...very quiet....sayang dont have much chance or time to talk to him...he reminds me of my anak emas JC (hey JC..where are u now?  doing well ah? next year WORLD WAR 3 liao hor)

RL - after knowing him for 3 years..baru this final year he started to talk more to me...dare to joke and chat.  Really see him improves too.......happy for u.

EC - hahaha this one...sorry lah ya really sorry about copying the 400 times thingy just becos of one word "cili"..hahahaha...but this young man never give up and very persistent.....thanks for being a "supportive" child in copying....very kuai..hahaha =p

MS - reminds me of my anak emas LZB (hey AB..sorry ya..we always said wanna meet - u, Potato SC, me and FS for yam cha but always ended up..bo si kan or not the rite timing..aiii...very sorry anak emas AB...aiii surely he had went back to England by now..sorry ya...miss him)

BH - wow...I kinda think he looks like Wu Chun (popular singer/actor from Taiwan).  Remember there was once he and ES played tic-tac-toe when I was sharing something with everyone in the room.  Called him and ES to the front and almost ended up drawing "tic-tac-toe" and "turtle" with different colors of marker and highlighter.  Hahaha...but ended up let them go lah...aii...

All the anak-anak................RS, AL, CL, TB...each and every of them ...........Really going to miss them - I guess every year is the same lah.  U spend time with them..don't know how many hours in a week ah...see them day in and day out...some of them was like.......for 4 or 3 years liao...aiii.......feel a bit weird pula - when see the room without them.

Luckily on the day (nite??..morning???) they left...anak emas KB dropped by - initially he just came to pick his sister JB home but he ended up came in and sat down.  Was rushing here and there - giving stuff to my children and explaining certain things to them as most of them about to leave liao........feel very tired (havent eat or sleep - like really 24 hours liao..huhu), pressure and sayang to see them bye-bye at the same time...suddenly saw anak emas KB sitting down at one of the chair.  Really make my day.  Really, really, really happy to see him.  Chat with the two of them - KB and JB till the next day (around 3am - ai c...).  Talked about my another anak emas AS abit (hey u are not anak perak ok...u are oso anak emas..)..so funny.  This batch pula - was like...3 years ago..wow.....LZB....was like 4 or 5 years ago..wow...........don wan to say old oso cannot liao...really old liao.

That was two days ago ya 7 October.............then on that morning - after locked the door, gate and everything - eat my maggie mee (it was about 5.30 am liao - dinner? or breakfast hor?) baru went to bed.......................aii.  But can't sleep lah...kin tio and nervous oso........ended up watching some video and MTV from Youtube - search for my "favourite singer (s) or my idol" before.  Tell u who is my penyanyi pujaan next time.  Now need to go liao..as preparing my other group of children for their another battle pula.........................

ALL THE BEST...8/10/12 

Phew...almost like a week havent update ya..super bz..ahhh.  Rush for this and that, preparing my anak-anak to be ready for their "Battle Zone".  Last nite...after all my anak left - it was like 12 plus plus in the morning (but havent break last year record it was till 3 am...miss those batch of children....aiiii).  But got some stay back till almost 2am and 3am and by the time I settled down..had my dinner???breakfast??? it was like 5am and went to bed around 5.30am.  Phew...............gonna miss them.  Now want to get my sleep.........eventho not tired...being a lao ah ma..must rest liao....will update more on what happened next round...To my children:

YOU CAN DO IT!  ALL THE BEST!!! MY BEST THOTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU GUYS!

This Moment Again...1/10/12 

Everytime....around this moment..its like u are hoping for it to ends fast...but when its really end...its kinda sayang and empty...aiii...what a feeling.

Last nite - ends around 10.30pm.  Not the last yet.  Next week is the last one - gonna be more kin tio.  Sure gonna miss them...........

Oh ya..nowadays..I fall in love with one Mandarin songs....its call 愛你 (Love You) by Kimberly Chen.

Here I include three videos of this song.

1) Original singer - Kimberly Chen

2) Cover by Grace Ong and Shawne Koh

3) Cover by Jamiz Tsai and Eileen Wei

As for the cover versions, I think both girls sing not bad (consider very good liao lah hor as this song...the "note" kinda high oh....)  But I think Eileen Wei "note" is lower than Grace Ong one.  And the guy Jamiz Tsai..he just suddenly "chipped" in the song like that...it's a bit "hak tiok"...not a good "entry"..hehehe.  But still...generally...its a nice song and nice voice lah.  If I can still sing..hahaha surely I will put in my own "cover" here..hahahahaha..

*I baru perasan one thing...if u know who is Kimberly Chen...ehh...our SW @ Mah Tung..looks a bit like her oh.......=p And I think Mah Tung looks a bit like Rainie Yang too =)

Sick + Recover...26/9/12 

My prediction was rite...after cough abit and down wif flu + itchy nose...aiii..fall sick.  Even on last Friday, one of my 11 years old child asked me - y I don't look so cheerful like the previous week?  Told him that I can feel my nose and throat super itchy - and normally that's not a good sign.  Then wallop gallons and gallons of herba and green tea - guess it was toooo late then.  Too much chips + curry + hazy weather some more.  Aii..then bertahan..and bertahan and pull thru till this week.  Then Sun's nite..memang tua tua fever.  Still...tahan by taking in panadol...do own treatment.  I am the type that I will never take in panadol unless..it is like super duper high fever liao.  I won't take in panadol or any of those for my headache or migrain oso unless.......I can feel the nerve on my neck swollen.  Normally, when I have a severe headache...migrain - can feel at least two of the veins on my neck..swollen.  Really really swollen..zeng...even just a simple touch can really make u - OUCH!!!  Baru then, I take in panadol or any pain killer.  But as for last Sun...worry that it might get worse and drag my whole week planning..take in one panadol lah. But still...fever subside on and off.  Then on Tues...dont know y....cough became worst and cough non stop..die!!  Then on Tues morning...fever gone....cough gone ....good news ya?? But NO...something came.  Aduh...losing my voice and..........can't breathe!!!!  Feel hard to breath.  Even walking up the stair is like hundred kilometers for me!!!  Die!!  So, quick quick take some med and use some medication (I have the med and know what to do)...and tried to get some sleep.  Calm down myself............then alas......bad news lah...dont know y..around 7 pm...no matter what I did..what Mr.  Abang did....take med....stay near the machine......use it like 3 - 4 times..oso cant do much.  Refuse to go to hospital..so the whole nite...slept with gaya "sitting down".  Once lay down...just cant breathe.  Kek sim!! Tok huey!! No flu, no cough.  By next day...aiiii..........neck painful as the sleeping position..kinda strained my neck....breathing still not so normal...voice not back to normal yet...hardly talk as cannot really breathe properly yet.  Pity Mr.  Abang, he has to handle our angels all on his own.  Send them, pick them..get their food and so on and yet he has his own children to handles too.  Cant get any leave as due to he has two big groups of children gonna enter the two different massive war zone soon.  Aii...can understand how he felt.  

Then, in the afternoon, after Mr Abang came back and settle our youngest angel....bring me to see doc.  The doc comment that..its quite bad..my fever (I thot I have no fever...huh??) and oso my breathing...can hear the "mucus gathering" in my lungs (I wonder how the doc hear that?  Mucus got sound one ah??)  So, kena detent in the clinic for half an hour.  Then injection (I asked for it..so can recover faster)...then take ubat...aiii...kena take 6 pills at once - the strongest ubat for my case.  Aiii......I remember the last time when I took it - was few years back.  Not good, not good. 

Then, at home - kuai- kuai take ubat........but the moment I "recovered abit" - here am I, typing this while doing some of my works.  Boh pien..cannot delay liao.  Has bin not doing much since the last few days not well, if still not doing it..sure die.  But now just keep my fingers cross...hopefully, can survive and pull thru this few weeks especially these 2 weeks.................

Stressloh...22/9/12 

Aiii....I guess my schedules are pack..at least till October.  Bz as preparing the different groups of children to "enter their war zone"...aiyooo very very stress.  I guess all those in the same boat like mine will certainly feel the same. 

Release stress a bit....ok ok let us talk about foooooooooooood.  Last week or maybe last two weeks went to Sausage Gourmet - just because of the float (not becos it is that special...just becos of the JUMBO size...but this time, the size kinda shrink a bit..hmmm), then to Flinders.

Oh ya..talk about Flinders.  It was known as Pizza Junction before(the one that situated at Jalan Song - near the Upwell before) and now it has moved to the area nearby the Titanium building.  Well - name nia change..but I guess the menu still alike as they are still using their old menu books + a small new "Flinders" book.  About the food....if not becos I had purchased the coupon for Flinders thru Groupon website (will tell u more about this site later), I will definitely not going to step my foot in here.

Aiii - the pizza - nothing special, try the pepperoni and bbq pizza...nothing to shout about.  The carbonara.....aii, if to rate it...yup indeed it is next after the Howdy's Alfredo Pasta (will talk about this later too) but if to compare the mark...the Alfredo Pasta is just like 99% (there is always room for improvement in everything) and Flinders' carbonara - 45%...so cui cui one..watery.  The spaghetti - all spaghetti taste alike lah..so nothing special.  After our meal here, we ended up going to 101 for extra some more.  Aiyah............

Now - talk about Groupon - I think its a good site, started joining this site in earlier April this year.  This is the site that gave u the opportunity to purchase either food, shopping or even traveling coupons (recently they have this Legoland coupon) with a massive discount.  Initially worry that it might be a scam.  My first groupon's voucher was for the Pork Ribs at Howdy.  Give the tauke a call to find out and to make sure and then voila...Eversince then always look for food voucher thru here.  Value for money and tummy =p =)).  Well, not about being a cheap skate lah..is about if can save..y not ya.  After all, its not a scam..and the food portion, the service is all the same..then y not?  Last time, when I purchased this Howdy Pork Rib groupon - I only have to pay RM 54 for a meal for 2 person whereby the original price is around RM 104 (half price lah).  Buffet dinner at Riverside Majestic which is about RM100 ++ (per pax) only cost me and Mr Abang around RM 67.  See?  Not bad lah hor?

Ok..Alfredo Pasta.  Initially I thot its the same like carbonara.  But then I found out its different.  Initially when I cant get the Alfredo Pasta, I will eat the carbonara at Pizza Hut or Pete's Western...and both.....huge disappointment.  And when I asked the tauke at Howdy...he told me eventhough both sauce may look alike..but Alfredo Pasta seems to be creamier and carbonara - normally will be added with some pepper.  Plus carbonara do have some egg mix with the pasta..but as for Alfredo is more on the grated Parmesan cheese.  Try this Alfredo Pasta at Howdy..then do let me know which one is better.  Carbonara  VS Alfredo!!!

Today - dont know y...suddenly around 9 pm - not feeling so well......throat and nose itchy..and shivering abit.  Not a good sign!!!! Must be too much of keropok for the last few days + too much curry too.  Heaty....cham liao lah.  Before I chao..let me introduce to u some of the love songs - duet songs (the 80's, 90's, early Y2K and now).....  that I like =)

Richard Marx and Donna Lewis - At the Beginning.  It is the OST for the Disney cartoon Anastasia. Never watch this cartoon but I like this song a lot.  Richard Marx is a popular singer back in the 90's.  The song that makes him popular then was Right Here Waiting.  Will show more of his songs to u next time. 

Brad Kane and Lea Salonga - We Could Be In Love.  Both are the singers for Disney cartoon The Aladdin.  Lea Salonga is one of the famous singer from Philippines.   

Jason Donovan and Kylie Minogue - Especially For You.  Jason Donovan was a very popular singer back in the 80's and was..WAS the boyfriend of Kylie for a while.  But due to some drug prob and career prob..ended up only popular for a while.  As for Kylie - I am sure even most generation now do know her as she still sings and kinda popular.  She was featured in the Taio Cruz's song - Higher.  Remember her now?  =p 

Paolo (Yani Gellman) and Isabella (Hillary Duff) - What Dreams Are Made Of.   From the movie of Lizzie McGuire.  Actually it's not suppose to be a ballad type but more of pop.  There is one part whereby these two sings while they were having a practice (something like that)...so ya... nice song tho.  Sorry memang the song is like this nia.

Enrique Iglesias and Ciara - Taking Back My Love.  Nice song.  Well the lyric may not be the "exact love song" that u want to sing to ur spouse tho..endless u wan to ends up like them..hehehe =p.  But well, still the song, not bad lah.  I quite like Enrique.  There is another version of this song actually.  Sing by Enrique with Sarah Connor.  This version, not nice at all as due to the girl's voice.  The rest of the mtv are all the same except for the part when there is Ciara - they changed it to Sarah (and she just stand or sit there..do nothing much)

Jeff Chang and Carina Lau -  有一点动心 (A Little Touch [Direct Translation]).  I don't type this chinese character, I just copied and paste nia...hahah =).  Well, I like Jeff Chang's song especially this one.  

Jackie Chan and Kim Hee Seon - Endless Love (OST for the movie The Myth).  This may not be one of the Jackie Chan best movie but still, the song is nice lah.  Oh..tell u one funny thing..believe it or not lah.  When this song baru popular..hehehe..me and my friend and then follow by me and Mr Abang...hmmm...hahaha..ever sing it and recorded it into PC.  Still have it in one of our save file...but not sure where it is now.  Eh...during those time...really can sing like Kim Hee Seon.  Mr.  Abang put our voice into a recording track (some kind of system...don't really know how to describe the system to u) and from that tract, we looked at the "pitching" and the "frequency" of my voice and Kim.  Wow..looks 97 percent alike ah.  Not bad leh?? Hehehe...memang can sing quite well then.....ehem..ehem =p Even birds may flies down and flap/clap its wing..hahaha.  But now..voice like sai ah.  Really ka na sai.  Frog pun boleh pengsan....Havent practice for so loooong..practice scream and shout nia for almost 8 years??? Aiii...all out of tune already.  Even the "key" dropped/lower to two levels.  Aiii....

Richie Ren and Miriam Yeung - Elixir of Love.  Actually that's not really the title of the song, is more to the movie.  The movie quite interesting lah, its about a super duper smelly Princess with a doctor/physician which is good in creating "perfume".  There are two versions of the song in this video.  The Cantonese and the Mandarin version.  I prefer the Cantonese version more.

Zhou Yu  and Amed Chen - 我悄悄矇上你的眼睛 (Quietly Cast My Eyes [Direct translation]).  Wah..this song..super duper old liao lah.  I think I listen to this song when I was like in Form 1 or Form 2 then.  I don't even know who is the singers..either now or then.  But well, I like the music and its lyric.  Enjoy it =)

Gao Mingjun and Amed Chen - 誰說我不在乎 (Who Said I Dont' Cares [Direct Translation]).  Also one of those super duper old song.

Do I miss out any of the duet love songs?  I cant really recall tho.  So, enjoy it lah ya =)

Update Soon... 20/9/12

Very boh eng for the past few days..preparing another older group of children to enter their war zone soon....very very soon...phew.  Sorrylah ya..will update soon - with more of the eateries that I went to and musics..... =)

Today...15/9/12 

Today -  felt a bit different as this is the first time the session looks kinda empty and no more of those children that normally came here.  After three days in the "battle zone" indeed, they do deserve a good break and have do have some fun to relax their mind now =)  Whatever that has been done, it is already done deal and over now.  Even though if this or that person said this and that .....there is nothing we can do at all now as its already done deal liao.  So, I guess, the best is - just to keep our fingers cross and pray for it.  

Today - is also the official opening ceremony or the launching of Malaysia's Legoland. Aiii..initially was planning to go but due to the hectic schedule and oso I guess it must be super crowded for these few days...well..let it be then lah.  But next year, surely going there =)

Last two days pula, one of my anak emas passed something to me.  When I saw the thing he passed to me - felt so sorry and sad for him.  I know he has put a lot of effort in it...but sayangnya, it is just gone like that.  So to this anak emas - even though it is just a few pieces of papers...but I know that the content is actually priceless. No one can replace all the effort that u put in and oso the effort of all those who takes part.  I had seen in once - but dont have the chance to really see thru it, but now I got the chance to see thru it one by one...and from the bottom of my heart - I really really appreciate it.  Sorry ya that u guys have to go thru all of these.  But like I always said - I am around, and u know where to look for me ya =)

You Again!!...12/9/12 

You Again is an interesting movie by Jamie Lee Curtis and Sigourney Weaver.  It is a comedy movie but thru here we get to see how our every own action may affect our future generation as well as what we need to face in the future 

It started off with Jamie Lee Curtis and Sigourney Weaver whom are the very best friend in high school but due to jealousy they ended up being a sworn enemy and after ending their high school fighting over everything....now each has their on achievement in life.  Amazingly the ever popular, active and ever wanted Jamie, ended up being a full time housewife whereby for a high school loser Sigourney Weaver ended up to be one of those in the top ten Forbes list (the one and only woman in that list some more) and own whatever-u-name-it-she-has-it woman.  So, can imagine when these two women met again as their children...........ahhh...u watch it urself lah...as if I tell u everything, then gonna spoil the story.

Normally, I hate comedy..but becos it is by Jamie Lee Curtis, I watched it.  Most of her comedies are funny - Freaky Friday with Lindsay Lohan..and the next "comedian" that I like is Rob Schneider.  Other than this two, I won't go for any comedy drama or movie.  

One thing that really attract my attention in this movie is when Jamie and Sigourney has a heart to heart talk about what had happened to them in the past and what really ruined their friendship.  Jamie told Sigourney that what happened to her in the past - her popularity and everything is now a history.  She ended up being nothing special but her family is her BEST ACHIEVEMENT now..whereby as for Sigourney as due to upset and jealousy - established  herself and she may HAS EVERYTHING AND ALL THE ACHIEVEMENTS AND ACKNOWLEDGEMENT but she has no one with her.  

So, how irony hor?  Everyone's view achievement in a different way.  Some people may view it in the sense of how much $$$ u have, how many properties u have..how high is ur position in certain company or better still have ur own big company...so on and on.  But by the end of the day..I believe that everyone who has been working for a period of time will agree to one thing...........initially when we just started working - ringgit and sen, pound, dollar and euro..or u name it - thats everything for us.  But after for a period of time...family and health comes above everything.

Oh, by the way, to my children - it's over and done deal liao.  So, don't think about it anymore.  The most important thing now is concentrate for the upcoming papers and do ur best in it too.  My prayers are always with u guys =)

ALL THE BEST, CHILDREN =)...10/9/12 

For the past few days, I was super duper stress...cant imagine how my sifu - RH feels then.  He must be super duper zuper stress too!!   Aiyo...for the past two nites I just can't sleep.  Think of all the preparations that need to be done....Two nites ago, I slept around 4 am and last nite - purposely drink two tin of Nescafe Latte and didn't sleep till 3 am - preparing stuff for the "younger group" of children that going to enter their "battle zone" next Tues and for the "older group" that going to march in their war zone in October.  Aiyoyoyo..................really kin tio!!!! 

Now today - after spending about 2 hours with the older group and about 4 hours with the younger group......phew.  Today - is the last day..the younger group came here.  Aiii..it is always like this - the moment they stepped out from this room....always feel.......aiiii..........so empty.  Before it is over...u always feel like - faster end liao..faster end liao.  But when its end.......feel like...........aiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.  Feel the prick of sadness in the heart.    

To my children  - must be confident with urself.  Try and do ur best ya.  My best thots and prayers are with u guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BGR - Part Five...9/9/12

Mr Abang (MA) pula.......hohoho..this one...once I got my eyes on him - I was very determine - HE IS MINE!!!!  But once I know that he has so many admirers even including my own best pal then - I chicken off, I pulled out.  Partially scare of my fren and partially scare that I might get hurt again.  So, I was very careful then. I pretend nothing happened, I pretend that I dont feel anything....but when I see all those girls that like him...aiyo so sad ah.  

Girl One - his own course mate, a very pretty girl

Girl Two - my best pal list............

Girl Three - my course mate again  (from penang)........aduh.......................

Girl Four - my senior (same batch with MA but she is from different course, from KL) - very much attached and close to MA at that time)

Girl Five - consider as "junior" lah as join in the uni few weeks later - a very cheerful and daring girl..very outspoken and adorable person...aiiiiii...

So, where do I stand lah????  All I know is that - whenever I go, I seem to "bump" into him.  Cafeteria lah, canteen lah, library lah, bank lah, the grocery shop, the book shop lah.....the park...the restaurant (these are all in the uni) aiyo...yo..the more I tried to avoid him..the more I saw him!!!!  And worst, he is our leader in our uni youth.  So every Friday, sure see him one.  He knows how to play quite a number of musical instrument..guitar lah...drum lah..key board lah...piano lah.....aduh..and I memang admire guy that know how to play musical instruments.  Aiii..susah loh......  Then once he came all the way from his hostel (the uni make a rule that those who are already second year in uni @ senior has to stay out of the campus area..so they need to have their own transportation to came to the main campus or use the uni bus....the last bus is around 10.30 pm..if u miss out that one....soli loh...)....just to accompany me during the Moon Cake Festival.  He gave me a lantern and we walked here and there in our uni.  Well nothing goin on..just talk and talk for the whole nite nia.  Stand at the side of the pond and looked at the moon and the stars and the fireflies.  (I didnt know that he actually missed his bus - he knew that he is going to miss his bus and ended up sleeping in his friend's room........on the floor - he only told me after we are together...aduh.........)

Things were so complicated then as everyone in my faculty @ course knew about my best pal that likes him.  And she has initiates so many times trying to go out with him and even asked our group of frens to "create" a chance for them to be together..and we did!!  Huhuhu...sad..so sad.  Outside look happy..but inside kao si loh!!  And she even showed us all the things that she bought for him and INTENDED TO GIVE IT TO HIM.  So, at that moment I was like...forget about him liao lah.  But being a determine person - I felt that I should be responsible for myself..for my own feelings.................................

So, I made an appointment with him for a dinner at the uni restaurant.  We promised to meet around 6 pm (dinner time).  By the time it is 6 pm..aduh...super duper nervous loh.  During the dinner (I am sure he can sense that I am kinda nervous and seem to be not myself then...gulp...):

Me:  Wah..u have so many admirers oh.....can see that u are very close to that KL and Penang girl ya...(try to get infor...phew)

MA: Oh, I know that KL girl (name) for quite some time already - we entered this uni together...so since we are from the same batch and did some course together - that's y kinda close.  And that Penang girl (name) - ya we are kinda close. She is kinda adorable...(and smile)

Me:  Then my friend leh? (pulak..aiyah...)

MA: She?  We are all close friends rite?  U and me oso close friends.  What do u meant by that? 

Me: (Oh?  He said it..he just said that he views me as his close friend nia.........)..Errr..nolah, just curious mah as u have so many admirers..so kinda wonder lah..dont u feel that its not fair to all the girls?  Well, just my opinion lah...

MA:  Huh?  What do u meant by not fair?  As I never did or said anything to them...

Me:  Well..yalah true but ur eyes loh...can send electric signal (he has a BIG EYES) so u know many girls can be confused later...and u are always helpful...so u know...becareful lah...

MA:  (He smiles..) sorry to say this - but I think girls tend to misinterpret things wrongly and tends to make assumption on their own.  

Me: Aik?  But just now u baru said....u found that girl kinda adorable oh.......

MA:  Then?  

Me:  Since u know that she kinda admires u..by saying so isnt that u are like giving hint or signal?

MA: Ah????  Well, I think I treat everyone the same..including u...as my junior and my close sisters in the Lord........that's all.

Me: (Ohhh......no need to say anything liao.  He just said that he treats me as his normal junior in uni and sister........but I guess - still that Penang girl should stand more marks in his sight since out of so many..he said that she is adorable..huhuhu)

After the dinner, outside the restaurant:

Me: I have something to ask or tell u........(si bei nervous.......)

MA: Ya? (aduh..his eyes memang can send electric signal one..)

Me: I am a very daring and straight forward person..I am sure u know that

MA: Ya, I can see that u are a very aggressive person....

Me: (Ah?  He said I am aggressive.....boh chance liao lah)....errr...well I just wan to ask u about something.  I know that u have bunch of girls admiring u.....

(He smiles again...aiyo!!!)

Me: Ok, ok fine..I dont know how to arrange my words or say it..but just to let u know that I adore and likes u more than just a friend.  Ok fine...I know I don't stand a chance but at least I felt better after I tell u this.  And I do hope that we can still be friends.  

And I just walked away......controlling my tears.........whereby he also didn't do anything. Shock + scare ..........I think.

So, within that few days - I avoid him like siao.  Give me a break lah...no matter how strong I am..how si beh tebal my face - oso can feel the shame and do give me some time to get over it lah.  So, what I did within the next 3 days was:

1) Ta pao and eat in my room

2) Avoid any possbility of bump into him

3) Walk in and out from ny room/hostel/class as fast as I can

4) Must not shed tears at all...........

Alas.....aiii.........during one nite after a discussion with my friends over a project - as I walked to a nearby stall to buy burger - he was there....nearby the stall.  Aiyah...so what to do?  Have to tebal muka loh.............pretend like nothing happened and smile loh...

MA:  Hi......(smile)

Me: Hi...(smile...si bei siao li and si bei nervous ah.aiyoh)

MA:  Didnt see u for the past few days...almost 3 to 4 days? 

Me: Hehehe...bz mah...

MA:  U ok?

Me: Yup...still in one piece (a bu then??? Wat can I do..crying and howling ah?  Apalah soalan like this....aiyah)

MA:  I was looking for u during the past few days..............u didnt let me explain or say anything on that day......

Me: (Ai si loh...wat is there to say lah? Wa si bei nervous and si bei siao li..as got other people near the stall wor..eventho if dont have other students..still got the 3 men that sells burger there mah..oh please lah.......) well...I guess..we all understand how u felt lah...so no need to explain - I am ok (mana ada ok...at that time hard to hold back my tears liao...surely he can see it..and voice oso change liao..aduh!!)

MA:  No..listen..listen to me...(and he looked at me straight in the eyes)

Me: (Aduh...that eyes...at that time..memang HUJAN loh.........as I felt so dumb lah)

MA:  U are a very strong person...and very determine person....

Me: So, I guess..it makes me ok and all are ok lah ya? (tried to smile...aiii)

MA:  No..no..listen..listen to me.

(*At that time...memanglah everyone looks at us!!! - psst...like a drama hor?)

Me: I know lah..so no need to explain...its ok (hujan liao.....)

MA: No..no listen.  U know y that day I kept on turning and twisting and sort of like avoiding ur question?

Me: (didnt answer).....................

MA: Number 1 - I know that u are testing me, Number 2 - all the things that u and ur other faculty friends that created and try to match me up with ur best pal- y u do that?  whereby u have feelings for me? is that make u feel better?  and u guys regard me as a "gift" izit?  U can give me to her?  None of u ever ask me.....Number 3 - I guess this is the most important - I had seen AR messages to u at the Student Council (everyone can see it as it were pasted on a notice board - publicly..no privacy at all), he begs and plead for u......and I had seen AR came into university looking for you frantically for 2 days...Number 4 - remember during the first time we introduce ourselves to each other?  Remember what did u said to me?

Me: (mind blank...no idea.........)

MA:  U said that I looked like someone...............from the moment u said that, I knew that it must be someone very special to u.........and u even said that I sound like him..it confirm what I had in mind then.......And during those 2 days when I saw AR - I knew...I am 100 percent sure that u were talking about him then.  So.....I was thinking.........are u regarding me as him?  Am I just a replacement for him?

Me: (Ah??????? he thinks like that???...I didnt answer as was crying liao..dont know what to say)

MA:  Look......I do like u more than just a friend too......BUT I dont want to be someone's shadow.  Tat's y I was giving u alot of stories just to see ur reaction.  U never really expressed what u had in mind or react anything to it (except for that day at at the restaurant of cos) just that whenever I said so - u will push ur best pal to me.  And I .....I just dont want to be someone's shadow (for the first time - I saw a guy shed tears for me!!!!) Could we please give each other..give ourselves some time...maybe a week - to pray about it?  Keep a distance for a week, pray for it...and see what's the Lord answer for us.  (And he holds my left hand [still remember..ya its my left hand])

Me:  (Cry loh...memang cry si loh)

He was still standing there as I left the place - forget about the burger liao.  Feel so sad and so malu as memang everyone was looking at us.  News spread...basically it was like the whole uni know about it.  And the consequence - my best pal get horribly terribly upset and angry with me (will talk about that later...aiii)

So, we gave each other a week.  We pray about it..but of cos..to seek for God's affirmative answer....aii.........not easy.  Then how do we know - we are made for each other?

We still bumped into each other now and then - just smiled, nodded and sometime talk as usual.  But I felt very sad lah..as I knew that he doubts me.  But if I were to be in his shoes, I will react the same way as well.  Mana tak..my situation with AR baru over for 3 months nia (but I told u already rite..after my first incident I will never allow myself to be sad and "hung" on to a guy that don't wan me anymore...the most 3 days crying - enuf liao..dont wanna waste my time..).  But well, I do realize that MA will always make himself available to join me for a dinner and then walked around with me before he took the bus back to his hostel/campus)  Then one nite around 9.30pm, I went to a public phone and give him a call (to his campus's office - so need to wait for the staff to call him ..........that time no handfon leh). 

MA:  Are u ok?  Is there anything................?

Me: Nothing.......just to hear ur voice..

MA: (quiet....)

Me:  Don't misunderstand...I am very sure whom I am talking to...I am not thinking of anything or anyone now except u (wah lao memang si bei daring..si bei beh cai siao li ah)

MA:  Oh..thanks.........

Me:  That's it?  I call u at this time..and said all those and u just said "oh thanks"? 

MA:  (quiet..)

Me: Forget it.... (and I hung up the fon)

The next day.................I started to avoid him.  Angry + malu lah....what else can I do?  And suddenly during one of my class - the last 5 mins - I suddenly saw him walking in and then sit next to me.

MA:  Class almost over ya?

Me: Emmm (still angry and malu ah.......)

MA:  Emmm...can we................??

Then suddenly, got his friends @ my friends too lah - approach him.  While he was busily talking to them - I walked out from the hall - went to my room and sleep!!!!!  The moment I woke up - it was already around 7.30 pm and out of the blue my room mate told me that MA has been waiting for me - outside the block since 6 pm (as guys are strictly prohibited from entering or goin near the girl's hostel) .  As I was sleeping, he asked my room mate not to wake me up and he will just wait (ooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)

I take my own sweet time to bath some more.  Well, kinda excited and nervous but still malu and angry lah.....by the time I went out - it was around 8 something already. He was waiting on his bike (not his bike actually lah).  He invited me for a dinner and then follow by a ride - just round and round the Uni nia lah (that's the common dating or pak toh thing that all the university's students did.  We called it as "aktiviti ukur jalan")

Then he stopped at nearby the Uni's bus station (inside the Uni)

MA:  Are u angry with me?

Me: (quiet.....but the heart was like DUP-DUP-DUP....)

MA: I am sorry if I say anything wrong...........

Me:  Actually - u didnt say anything at all wor...that's the point..............

MA:  I am sorry that - on that day when u called me, I didn't say anything at all,as I am a bit shock.  I didnt meant to sound meant or what..just that I am shock and just out from my shower and then someone told me a girl is looking for me...that's y....

Me: (lame.........duh..)

MA: And u know that, I am not good in my words, not good in arranging my sentence - so I guess it cause alot of misunderstanding and hurt u.  I am very and truly sorry about that.......

Me: (not good in words?? duh............)

MA:.........errrr..............may I hold ur hand?

Me: (huh??????????????? - didnt move and scare to move....)

He suddenly turns around and hold both of my hands with his hands.  (Ohhhh..of cos leh the heart melts loh...........hehehehe =) )

MA:  R u still angry?

Me: (smile sheepishly...)

MA:  Care to have a walk with me?

So, there it goes.  We walked around the uni here and there...looks at the moon, the stars and fireflies (that's all u can see tho...hahahaah..."good way" of dating ya? =p )

This is the song that Mr. Abang sings for me during the first time he gave me a gift.  It was just a box or actually a container of honey dew.  He cut it into a small square pieces and arranged each of it properly in the container.  Then he told me this:

"I am sorry that I don't have money to buy u anything except for this one honey dew.  All these small pieces represent every bits of me and now I am handling it over to u..."

Then as he stood rite in front of the hostel's block - where everyone was walking in and out...he sings this song for me + strumming his guitar.  The song is - I Will Be Here by Steve Curtis Chapman

Aduh........totally melt...............................................................................................................

(till now I always tease him about the honey dew thingy...hehehe)

*Oh ya remember the part where I told u - in the beginning where ever I go, I always bumped into Mr.  Abang then?  Hahahaha..actually he got my lectures time table.  So whenever he has a time in between his own class..he will went to all those places - hoping to bump or see me....kononnya so cun lah...cheh.................)

(*here I am showing u three versions of this song.  The first and second is a live-recorded version and the third song is a studio - recorded)

Ahhhh..so apa macam?  To my anak-anak, does it answer all ur questions?  Before I post up all these blogs - The BGR parts - of cos, need to get a consent from Mr.  Abang firstlah.  As it involves both of us, so must respect his opinions.  Thanx God.  Mr.  Abang is kind, open minded and supporting person...so, there u go........not much of an experiences but at least got something to share with my own angels in future.  Something to smile and laugh at =).  Life is short ya...live to the fullest, live today like there is no tomoro...and everyday is a meaningful day............... =) 

Savage Garden (popular in the late 90's or early Y2K???)

1)  Truly Madly Deeply

2) I Knew I Loved You

BGR - Part Four...8/9/12  

Ah..this one..........I knew him before I know Mr Abang.  So, when Mr Abang know about him..oooh the story becomes even more complicated.  Everything intertwine.  Y?  As they both are kinda alike - their looks, voice and interest.   

Actually I know "AR" maybe two years before I know Mr Abang.  We get to know each other thru a mission trip to one of the rural area.  It was one of the biggest congregation as it comprises all from Asia countries.  So, get to know many people lah. But don't know y out of soooo many people, we get to know each other.  He took my photo while I was standing and singing on the stage (I was the back up singer for my church then).  How do I know he purposely snapped my picture?  As at first he hold his camera horizontally and snap everyone on the stage and then suddenly he went nearer to me (I was at the edge of the stage) and he turned his camera vertically - nearer to me and then SNAPPED!!  I was shocked and looked at him - astonished with what he had done and yet he just smiles, nodding his head and walked away.  

And then as far as I know, he tries many times - trying to talk to me and I avoided it as at that moment as I just want to concentrate on the actual purpose I join this mission trip - to serve the Lord.  I remember he was waiting for me outside my room - when I opened it and saw him, I pretend I dont see anything or anyone and walk away.  And then while we queue up to get our food, don't know y so cun oso, I was standing rite behind him and when he turned around....aiyah..."accidentally" bumped into me ( or maybe really accident too lah as I never ask) and everything spill.  Aduh....so, thats the time we started talk to each other. And once, I knew that he was waiting for me while we walked to our "class" (he was actually about 10 steps ahead of me) but I purposely delay here and there till he has no choice but to move on. He didnt' stay till the end of the 5 days seminars..he left during the last day afternoon (to catch a flight as he works somewhere else) and a friend told me that - he approached her and said this - "I really want to know this friend of urs but unfortunately she doesnt seem to be keen on it.  Please told her that I am sorry if I do offend her in any way and I am very glad even just to be able to talk to her for a while". 

And when I came back from the mission trip - that nite oso.......suddenly someone called me.....I was shock as I picked up the phone - I knew that it was him as I can recognize his voice.  Aik..where did he get my house number?  According to what I know from him and from my friend much later then - my friend (she) passed him my number after she heard what he said.  She told me she pity "AR" and can see that he means well, so she gave it to him.  So, first call - we chat for about 10 minutes only.  Then gradually it become longer..and have more topics to talk about. He came to my church for a visit..sit next to me..and of cos the whole congregation kinda suspect something liao...(nothing happened yet) till that year Chinese New Year.  He came all the way just to visit me during CNY and popped the question - I meant..not kahwin but U-know-what-question-lah.  So, then we "starts" but I kinda felt that he is not the one...as I dont like and I dont believe in a long distance relationship.  And thing get worst when he told me - he got offer to study + working in UK.  Hohoho..the moment I hear that - I give him my- his ultimate choice.  Either Me or UK.  And he chose UK.  Aiii..I am worthless lah (Now girls..a lesson......from here..u know where do u stand in that guy's life liao lah........not worth it.  So dont waste ur time or life crying over it)  So as he left, it was my first year in uni too.  And three days in uni..I "spotted" my Mr Abang (at that time..of coslah not Mr Abang yet).  Ever since all those experiences - I had told myself:

1) I will never ever wasting my time crying and waiting over a guy - there are so many fish in the sea and so many meaningful stuff to do in life...

2) I dont like the situation of "he loves me" , "he loves me not" - might as well I ask and settle the issue once and for all!!!!

So, can be considered as quite cruel lah ya..but that's the way to protect urself from getting hurt and stupidly waiting all the time.  Initially, as I saw Mr Abang I was like...aiyo quite alike...both always like to laugh and smile - very friendly.  Just that MA is slightly shorter a bit than AR.  But still - I was attracted to MA's friendliness, willingness to help and leadership in our youth activities here.  A week in uni - I buried myself in study, church activities and hanging out with frens and never even shed a tears for AR but out of the blue during that first week oso - friend told me there were soooo many messages and calls for me paste on the notice board outside the Student's Council Room (This is the place whereby students can go to check whether got any message or calls for them while they are attending class - as during those times - not popular with handfon yet mah.  So the staff that works here will help to jot down notes, take the calls, pass the messages etc..etc).  Wah..when I reached there...adoi......memang many calls and mesages for me...all from AR from UK.  (MA told me that he did saw those messages too actually during the times when he went there to check for his messages from family...ooophs).  AR told me that he is coming back to see me and want to meet me at my uni.  Wah......wa chao chu bei hu ah.  I avoided like siao ah!  I don wan to have anythin to do with him anymore and we had talked about thru fon before - actually I am the one that do all the talking and called it off........  So no point..................

On the day he arrives (base on what my friend @ course mate and room mate told me) - he was frantically looking for me.  Well, the uni aint that big but aint small either.  To look for someone in this place is oso kinda like looking for a needle in the hay.  I was hiding myself in the most isolated toilet in the uni.  For me, there is no point for him to come back and try to resume back (that's what he said in his message - he wants to resume back and he told me that he wants me to go to UK with him...he can afford meh? or janji kosong nia?..think about it realistically lah..he himself is under a scholarship too and work part time some more..he can meh? Girls........in this kind of situation, we must put our feet down and think about it in a most realistic way......dont be excited or get so gear up just becos a man want to bring us oversea..in that journey and in long run..do u think both can survive well? Both can pull thru well? Maybe some people may say that's love - go thru thick and thin together.  But well if thats the case - then he wont said UK immediately at the moment I asked him to choose.........plus at that time, my family's condition..doesnt allow me to do so lah..........just cannot).  According to what my friend told me, he was in the uni looking for me from around 10 am till about 6 pm (yup, during all those times I was hiding either in the toilet or the uni bus station), he came the next day - I went out from the uni, going down town.  Third day - he went back to UK.  But still always call and left messages - and gradually after almost half year - it stopped (After my first incident of waiting and crying so long - FORGET ABOUT IT.  I wont let it happen again!)

Now - After graduating from UK, "AR" came back and work as one of the high ranking officer in our country.  Put on weight - still friendly as usual and once a while - we kept in touch thru emails.  All the best "AR"!! =)

To be continued........................................................................................................................

BGR - Part Three...7/9/12 

Ah...this one...very complicated oso.................the whole youth in church "dislikes" him as they regards him as "cold", snobbish, arrogant, sarcastic..blah..blah..u name it...to the extend even my second sister said the same too.  Aii..don't know y pula..we just get close to each other.  Everyone can't stand him especially his temper!!  But then as we are in the same youth, see each other at least 4 - 5 times in a week, same activities and team - day in and out, I guess gradually, spark flies loh.  Oh before that, allow me to "introduce" you to him.  How does he looks like? =p

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Hahahaha..that's the nearest I guess...hahaha =))  "Will Smith" (WS)........We are very very close.  He taught me many things.  We can called each other starts from 10pm and talks till 4am in the morning.  Eventho he is studying/working the next day and I always try to end our conversation around 1am - he will drags on the conversation...and chat with me till 4am. Wow!! The phone melt loh.  

There was once - rumours about this so called "funny-funny and weird stuff" happened in our town, I was kinda freak out one nite (for no particular reason) and cried thru fon (as that time only left me and my mum at home + my mum not feeling well some more).  It was about 11 pm plus then, he came all the way from his house, parked his car outside the gate..slept inside the car till the next morning - to accompany me.  He didn't came inside as we both feel inappropriate about it lah.  Then he left around 6 am, went home to get ready to work..and I walked to school around 7am (Altho he intends to send me to school, I told him my friends are coming..so its ok).  Morning liao - so felt better.  

Then there was once that he was transfer to somewhere to work for almost a year and we just kept in touch thru fon.  I remembered that the whole church/congregation was looking at me when he stands at the pulpit@rostrum - bidding his farewell to everyone.  Gulp!! And after half year - twice - thru fon - he was asking me about boyfriend stuff and he told me that he really really loves someone known as (he mentioned the first alphabet in my name).  Due to ego - I kept on saying others' names, till he got very upset (as besides that he gave me many clues) and then just said goodbye and hung up the phone.  For me - y must give hints? Y cant just said it right out loud if he felt it?  Ego?? If he got ego, I oso got mah...so ting tong ting tong..due to ego - we both never utter a word about it at all.  

It was left hanging like that for few years - till one day, I received an invitation card to his wedding with one of our church's member.  Oooh..the one that complaints about him the most suddenly ended up marrying to him pula.....Ohh...everyone thot that I am going to be very very upset but actually, I am happy for both of them.  Happy in the sense of ..they are both my greatest brother and sister in the Lord..and I do believe that God knows best for us.  Well from here...I guess, we both learnt a valuable lesson too lah.  That is about EGO......ego can kill u.  But as for this case - we know that God knows best.  On the day, they got married - so cun pula....I was called for a scholarship interview. So couldnt attend it - hey - to my friends that read this blog - it is true lah I have a scholarship interview as till to this day - u guys thot that I am lying and trying to escape.  I am not lah..........

Now - "WS" and his beloved Mrs..both work in the same bank holding a high position in it.  And was bless with three handsome angels too.....Hapy for u guys....God bless u ya!!! 

Next............................................................................................to be continued...................

BGR - Part Two...6/9/12 

This one..or maybe I should said..this two..ai say man.. not really twolah..one only lah....came....after LK......

As the story goes (went) - initially me and the so called "Wilson Lam" (WL) are close as we joined quite a number of clubs @ school's activities together.  And it will always be either I am the President and he is the Vice or the Secretary or the other way round. As for me and the so called "Him Law" (HL) - we are "enemy" especially in debate (He told me that - initially he dislikes me a lot before he knows me well as he thought that I am snobbish, sarcastic and show off due to my study and activities in school + antisocial - hey!! not fair lah to judge me before u know me...aiyah.  Well, soli osoloh that my PR not so good or seems to be like antisocial as I get used to be all on my own since very very young till I grow up.  So, normally I dont know how and oso don approach others unless someone strike the conversation loh - he has this opinion on me for two years plus..aduh).  Nothing actually happened till HL gradually became close to me during the time we represent our school in inter-zone and inter-states debate.  We met each other everyday (in a team of 4 person actually) either morning or afternoon in school to discuss about our debates competitions and so on.  Then we are even selected to lead the school new club and thus see each other many many many times in a week and day.  But - still it is me and WL that called and talked to each other thru fon all the time (as a friend nia..don't think wrongly ah...) Nothing happened till WL told me that HL has feelings for me.  Wah lao...WL told me that HL tot that WL is going after me and that's y he told WL about how he feels toward me as he feels "bersalah" towards WL.  Oh??  And that's the time oso that..WL has no choice but to reveal that he is actually a.......................(u got it??) Huh??? So, WL told me the whole thing..and I was like.....ah???  I looked at HL as friend nia and further more, me and the "Louis Koo" case just over oh...WL and HL know about it and that's y HL told WL he is worry on what to do next.  Aiyaya...so this HL did many things lah actually. Always walked to school together with me, buy many stuff for me..but I never accept any of it (I am the type that if I don't have any feeling for that guy - I wont accept any of his gift as I don't wan to give him a false hope later).  To the extend once his mum met me as we went to his house to take his book - the mum asked about our "relationship".....Ah????

I know that...my second sister "like and approved" of HL so much.  Said that he looks sooo decent, so bersopan, this lah, that lah.....aiyah Cheh.....u don't know nia. Yes..he is good..but "no feel" wor..cannotlah...

Before he left to further his study - he was actually crying and asked me to wait.  I really don't know what to do then...serba salah and pity him.  But then WL advised me - that he is the type that very loyal and keep to his word.  So the only way to make him feel that there is no chance and no hope at all liao between me and him is to totally cut out and cut off "all the ties" between us.  So..boh pien lah, before and after he left - I never take his phone calls and reply any of his mails (surat biasa - that time where got Internet)..and after a year plus, I cant tahan receiving the all his letters, I opened up his latest letter and read thru.  Aiii...sound so pitiful.  So, what WL said is indeed true.  After so long, he still like this and putting up that hope on "us" together.  

So, no choice, I wrote a letter to him - a very sarcastic and "hurtful" letter - totally blast him off........it is about 3 pages......all 3 pages of insult and means words..........I know..I know...it is very cruel....very cruel....very very heartless.......- now think about it....aiyah  y need to be so mean lah....aduh (According to his friend @  his room mate @ my friend too), whenever after he wrote or after he called - he will cries in the room...aiyo kolien.  And then he even told me when HL received my letter - the one and only letter, he was so happy but alas as he read thru it...he cries badly and was quiet for few days.........

Aiiiiii.......I guess the same theory applies here lah..if a girl really loves u, she will tries her best to make sure that u don't shed any tears of saddness for her too....only tears of joy and happiness....aii..my fault..my fault.  Even after I am with Mr Abang - he came back from Singapore and looked for me....I guess that's the moment he gave up as when he knew that I have Mr Abang and one little angel.  Nice guy but I guess - it is not fair for either one to force themselves to be together. Never ever be with someone just becos of sympathy or sorry or indebted or anything.......it is torturous for both....

Now - "HL" married liao - now resides at Dubai with his wife + a very beautiful little angel.  He works as architect over there and he is one of those that design Dubai tallest building in the world as well as some part of the Burj Dubai Hotel (the only 7 stars hotel in the world). "WL" always fly between here and England (his parents are here) and he is working as engineer in England.   Happy for both of u brothers!!! =)  And we all still keep in touch as friends lah..thru mail..but rarely heard any news from "WL" now..emmmm...."kahwin" liao ah? =p

Next.............................................................................to be continued................................

BGR - Part One...5/9/12 

My children always asked me this question....about my BGR (boys-girls relationship)..hahaha..interesting topic ya?  There is nothing for me to hide as now - as been mentioned before..I am a happy lao ah ma with my lao ah kong resides in my small hut =) He and my two angels are my everything now..and it is all a wonderful blessing from the Lord.  So, u want to know about my BGR life ya??  Hahaha..=)).  Mine not as interesting as my sisters one leh.  Theirs are countless.....the guys that went after them are countless and the queue can be about maybe...half (or more) of our Jubilee Ground?? Hahaha..mine..less than my 5 fingers lah.  Got lah people admire..but it was just admiration..admire me for my study, admire me for my "talent" (ehem..ehem) in debate, skills and things like that..and that's it.  The one that I mentioned "within or less than my 5 fingers"...well, my sisters tend to make fun and laughed at me about that.  Their conclusion is simple:  They must be attracted to you due to ur "gift of GAP"......emm...read carefully, its not the GIFT OF GAB..it is the GIFT OF GAP...never mind if u don't know what I meant.  But for those who know me..u know what it is ya =))

Let's see...let start with this one:  

The one that known as Louis Koo (Hong Kong actor - super tanned - hitam manis..haha)  

I meant people said that he looks like Louis Koo lah.  And he was the one that made me cried the most (Girls - remember this ya, the guys that really loves u will try his best not to u make shed tears of saddness but is always full of happiness in your lives when u are with him).  Aiyah, during those times - really complicated oh.  We were extremely close since Form 1 and till he dropped out after Form 3 (remember the SRP system that I told u before?).  We still keep in touch then and always in and out together.  Before he can drive - he always walked to my house (quite a distance osolah) and after he got his license - he will always bring me out for supper and sometime pick me from school.  And when I was working part time - he will make sure I have my dinner, send me home and so forth.  So as the story goes - a friend of mine get to know him (was introduce by me) and "attached herself" to him.  Out of the blue, they became so close and he totally ignore me.  By then his whole family were shock regarding what's going on as her mum is very close to me.  So, due to ego, we ignored each other for about a year plus.  During those times...aduh duh duh...cried like siao ah..cried till the whole school know about it and even at school my Maths teacher said my eyes swollen like gold fish and asked whether I am ok or not.. eeeeee!!!!  He has two younger siblings in the same school with me.  Even his brothers oso serba salah.  And according to what I heard from the brother's close friend - they oso don't know what's going on or what happened to their brother @ "LK".  The brother just looks upset and ignoring their questions.  Then after a year plus - one day he suddenly looked for me and explained what had happened.  After I heard his explanation, I remembered the only thing I said was:

"U trusted a girl whom u just know for 6 months, trusted everything that she said about me whereby we had known each other for almost 7 years..and yet u trusted her over me?"  - and I stood up and walked away - walked out from his life forever.  Or better still - walked out from someone that is not worth of my tears and time.

Now - "LK" is a successful businessman in landscaping..and of cos we still keep in touch as friend lah....=)

Jojo - Too Little Too Late.  Of cos...I am far, far from Jojo's looks lah.  But well, that's how it ends then...........Next..........................................................to be continued..............

Mum...4/9/12 

I read an interesting article yesterday.  It was about a family that consists of 7 persons.  Daddy, Mummy, A, B, C, D and E.  Whenever the Dad comes back from work... the first question he will asks is:

Dad:  Where is A?

Mum: A went to tuition.

Dad:  Where is B?

Mum:  B went to school for badminton

Dad:  Where is C?

Mum:  C went to friend's house for a while.

Dad:  Where is D?

Mum:  D went to fishing with friends.

Dad:  Where is E?

Mum:  E is cycling at the park with our neighbors.  Should be home soon

Everyday, Dad will never fails to ask those question whenever he came back from work and Mum will never fails to answer it.  Mum is always very sure..full with confident on her children where about.

20 years had passed...............A, B, C, D and E..grown up...rich and successful young men and women.....came home for festive season.........

Dad arrives home after sending a gift to a nearby friend....Seeing that Mum is not at home, so Dad asks his children:

Dad:  A, where is Mum?

A:  Don't know (eyes still glue to the laptop - game)

Dad:  B, where is Mum?

B: Ah????? (don't even bother to turn around and look at Dad)

Dad:  C, where is Mum?

C:  Not sure....(eyes busily looking at Twitter)

Dad:  D, where is Mum?

D:  Emmm?? (was uploading something in Facebook)

Dad: E, where is Mum?

E: Mum not in meh???? (was busily receiving and sending messages)

Dad shook his head disappointed...........................

How irony it can be ya?  This story really touches my heart.  It portray to us..how a Mum @ parents care so much for their children..always know their where about..always make sure that they are safe and sound.  No matter how many children are there, parents will always make sure that they do know each and what is everyone is up to.  And yet, children either it is just a child...two children...three children...four children...and so on, cant even bother to concern for just one person that known as MUM in their lives.

And you know what happened to that Mum?  Well, she went out - walking to a nearby shop (although all her children got big big and expensive cars but none is willing to give her a ride as everyone "BZZZZ" with their own things........) to buy her children favorite kuih.  Unfortunately..when she returned home..none of the children care to even take a look at the kuih.  Only Daddy accompany her at the kitchen - eating the kuih.

Then five years later - the Mum passed away.  Daddy is the only one that do and settle everything as all the children were busy..given tons and thousand of excuses.  So in the end..the Dad says this:

Dad:  Now, I don't have to ask anything or anyone about Mum anymore, as now and forever, I know where is she.  A Mum can easily takes care of ten children but a group of ten grown up children don't guarantee can take good care of a Mum yet (Seorang ibu dapat menjaga sepuluh orang anak dengan senang, tetapi sepuluh orang anak tidak semestinya dapat menjaga seorang ibu)

Porkie...3/9/12 

Went to Porkie last nite to have my dinner.  Well, the rib - so so nia (still prefer Howdy's pork rib), the chicken and lamb chop - not bad, the beef burger...yhew...the meat is horrible. The side dish - coleslaw..less mayonnaise, the fries - tasteless.  The corn - not bad.  So generally, I rate it as 5/10.  Sorry forget to snap any photo as by the time I settle down to have my dinner, it was quite late already..so super duper hungry!!

But one thing for sure - I quite like the ambience.  We were sitting outside, so can watch the football match on the big screen ( I think it is Arsenal against Liverpool then) and listen to the 80's music - Modern Talking.  Was laughing when I heard this songs..and I was like..wow..now most of the eatery start to play 80's songs at their cafes  now.  I guess, the owner must be around "my era" oso lah.  Anyway, I only like some of the Modern Talking songs.  And for your kind infor, during those times..many many many people think that these two guys (especially the lead singer) is super duper handsome!!  Hahahaha....=p

1) You're My Heart, You're My Soul

2) Cheri,Cheri Lady

3) Brother Louie

4) You Can Win If You Want

It's Called - Spark Up Ur Life =)...2/9/12 

A fren read my post here and comment that - eeeh so childish =)).  Well for me, I don't think its childish..it is called as spark up ur life.  Now think about it, why when our age is catching up - of cos become more mature and wiser but..ask urself - y we must leave behind the things that is fun and we enjoy?  Does it mean that an adult's life is suppose to be no fun, static and serious all the time? Wa lao..if like that..very boring loh =(

Till to this age..I still play games..Diablo 3 (but stop liao..as killed the Prime Evil already), Dota, SA (tak percaya leh..hehehe)..The Sims...what else?  Star craft..War craft....but now..kinda boring.  Prefer to play the simple games..the online Yahoo Games =)

Listening to songs...yup...the latest song..so at least not so sakai later when talk to the my anak-anak.....but of cos still love and listen to the 80's and 90's.  Show u more of the songs that I like =) 

*(Don't know what happen to the Youtube.  Either it is their video..or wat..so if u are reading this and want to watch the video..please press the "Flash button" in the middle of the screen")

The first video - Nick Kershaw : I Won't Let The Sun Go Down on Me and the second video is Chesney Hawkes - I am the One and Only.  Don't u think their music (the beats and the tempo) is quite alike?  The first time when I heard this song in the 80's, I already know that they must be related in some way.  Well, Chesney Hawke is the student of Nick Kershaw.  That's y their music are kinda alike.  Just like Boyzone and Westlife lah.  

Well Nick Kershaw still very much alive (and healthy) and as for Chesney - wah...much much nice looking now compare to when he did this MTV.  He looks a bit like Keanu Reeves (but wonder y he doesnt remove the mole on his face?)

Both are the sound track/theme song for movies.  The first one is Electric Dream and the second is Never Ending Story.  I am sure that if u ask those who are in the 80's - guarantee they know this songs.  For me, these 2 songs kinda alike too.  Enjoy lah ya =)

"Kao Chok Ah" =) ...29/8/12 

"Chok" is actually a cantonese word which mean bergaya and nice looking.  "Kao" leh is really...so the word "kao chok" actually mean really so bergaya and nice looking..hehe.

Recently just finished another cantonese drama series - My Sister of Eternal Flower by Raymond Lam (chok ah...) and Charmaine Sheh.

Went for a drama series marathon 36 hours non-stop watching this.  While u were sleeping, I was "pia kang" to finish this drama -while doing my other works at the same time...when tired, I watched for a while.  Watched it in my computer, actually just drag and fast forward most of it except for the parts that I want to watch - that is about the two of them, Raymond (Hugo @ Yik Yik) and Charmaine (Chu Chu).  It is a comedy-romantic genre but after watching it..well nice movie but unrealistic lah.

The movie is interesting as it was about this Raymond (Hugo) who is super duper rich but unfortunately super duper spoil brat and good for nothing.  Then as the story goes by, the grandpa was in coma (due to Hugo oso) and then the family business @ the whole company was taken over by someone else - his best fren wor....  In the situation of  has nothing (no company, no house, jobless..no friends....and even his gf that try to stand by him oso by the end cant tahan and left him)... Charmaine (Chu Chu) helps him in everything.    So loves spark there......but...but unfortunately Chu Chu is a girl with a developmental disability (she has only the IQ of a 10 years old).  So the story actually cycle in the context of how Hugo tries to turn over a new leaf..his situation with Chu Chu and the society opinion about the whole thing.

(*But I think the way they portray Chu Chu doesnt look like a 10 years old kid - more like a 6 or 7 years old loh.....)

Y do I said that its not realistic?  I am not trying to be pessimistic but in this realistic society @ world - do u think any normal (nice gorgeous guy) will want to be ended up with a girl like that?  Or vice versa? I am not saying its wrong or discriminate but..u ask urself lah..u ask urself...tepuk dada tanya selera....do u think so?....We had seen poor + rich, slim + fat, short + tall, handsome + not so pretty, pretty + not so handsome....blah..blah...but for this?????  Not only that, in this drama - actually there is another girl (a super model) that falls for Hugo and willing to do anything and give up anything for him too.  So.....emmmmm

Well, I did a bit of research about this....but honestly....couldnt find any infor of any such couple (normal + "special") exist loh.  Now.. I AM NOT LOOKING DOWN OR DISCRIMINATE YA...I am just saying......in this drama........when u watch it...aiyo..so pitiful..both of them...how suffer and hurt..how much they have to pull thru?

So, u can agak-agak the ending lah ya?  Happy to watch it...wah..so chok ah.. =))

Raymond Lam (Hugo @ Yik Yik) - the best part is when he stood at the corner of the house - crying, after packing and leaving Chu Chu's house...aduh.....Have u ever see a man cried like that for a girl?  Ya, ya I know its just a drama..but still - tell me, see any man cry like that for a girl before? So, since never see, u watch this leh.. =) 

(*cant get the video clip - none in YouTube..from the pic, not so clear.  After he packed, he stands at the corner of the house crying and hold the "chu @ pig soft toys" that Chu Chu gave to him.  Chu Chu was crying inside while Hugo stands there crying holding the pig tightly...aduh.......kao lam loh.  He shed tears quite a number of time for this girl.....aduh duh)

Charmaine Sheh @ Fa Lai Chu/Chu Chu 

Yoyo Chen as Agnes D/Tong.  In this movie she is a super model tat get dumped by Raymond becos of Charmaine.  So, what do u think leh?  This is a "realistic" drama or not leh?  Ah.... 

42 Nia...28/8/12 =(

When I was in Form 3..sitting for my mock SRP (now is known as PMR)....I oni got 42....42 nia for my BM.  Can u imagine??? 42  = D....at the verge of failing some more. 42 nia......HOW CAN?  HOW COME?  I never even get a B for my BM before - even when I got 80..I already feel quite bad as for me 80 is at the borderline..which mean very dangerous.  So I always aim for 85 and above.  So can u imagine how I feel when I saw my result?  And SRP system is different from PMR...

1) I cant really remember the way they counted it but there was a system known as pangkat.  Of cos, pangkat 1 is the best, then folo by pangkat 2, pangkat 3 and next is SAP.  SAP are for those that failed all the important subjects and only deserve to get something like a cert - just to certify that they did sit for it.  Something like "participation's cert" nia lah...

2)  And If I am not mistaken, if u get C and below for compulsory subjects - BM, English and Maths..... then u immediately drop to Pangkat 2 or Pangkat 3...despite no matter how good and how many 1 or how many A u get for other subjects.

3) If u dont get 2 good grades from the "Grouping subjects" - Geo, Sej, KH (one group) - then u are oso in the Pangkat 2 or Pangkat 3

4) And the most scary is...if u dont pass or just get SAP or don't do well in any of those compulsory subject.......u have to repeat ur Form 3 and re-sit for ur SRP...eeeeeee!!!  scary leh????

So, can u imagine how frustrated I was when I got 42  - D for my BM whereby the rest of the other subjects I got A and yet I am still in the lower pangkat?  Wa khee siao ah!!! The whole school was talking about it.  Even the Principal can't believe it and called me in.  And that time, actually my paper was marked by a new teacher.  She was a replacement teacher as my actual BM teacher was having her 3 months maternity leaves.  So, can u imagine how upset and frustrated I was??? When I appeal to her - she can't come out with any solid reason or explanation but just said that her decision is final.  She said that she can actually failed me but since its mock - she kasihan me and let me passed instead!!  Aiyah!!!  Ai say man!!!  Wa very very the kek sim, very very the angry...loh.  If I am not mistaken - I locked myself in my room for few days..crying over it.  Huhuhu....

But by the end of the day...thank God.....the actual SRP result - is as what I hope..hehehe.. =)).  So, when I think back...well..some time..there is always a moment of ups and downs in our lives.  Hey, don't think that children at the age of 15 don't feel anything oh...they do...they certainly do.  Even a 2 years kid now do understand the meaning of shame, humiliate and angry what more to say a 15 years old oh.  Everyone has a target and wish in life lah..in the process of achieving it - one may be has to go thru a lot of bumps.....but I remember someone told me or izit thru a movie.....a person said - sometime the sweetness is not becos of the victory....is actually from the bitter path that u had to go thru...the more bitter the path..the sweeter...it will be.  So, when u are at the top..and look down..u will say - actually all those journeys are the one that is meaningful for u....

So, to my children - I felt what u feel....and I certainly feel it these few days too.  Don't kek sim.........hey..I, myself got 42 in my mock lah ok.  It's not the time to be sad..its the time, u should put more effort, accelerate more..and be more determine.  Like I said, the more when people said u cannot, u must hold ur head up high and prove that u can...at least try u tried ur best.  Aim for the ultimate one!!

So, don't give up!!!  We will walk on this path together......... =)

I Not Stupid (Two/Too??)...27/8/12 

Have u watch this movie - I Not Stupid Too?  It's a 2006 movie from Singapore but till to this year, I still love this movie.  It really portray the reality of life in our presence society.  This movie give us the view from a parents' perspective, children, teachers as well as the rest of the society's perspective towards each other and in certain issue.  It is always easier for people to comment, condemn and criticize when they are not in that particular position - but for those who are in..can u imagine how they feel??Initially, I wrote quite a long comment and opinion about each and everyone's perspective - but then alas - I decided erase it off lah.  Like I said, everyone has their own reason in everything.  And everyone certainly think of the best in everything.

The second movie that I like - more about family movie is.........I Am Sam by Dakota Fanning, Sean Penn and Michelle Pfeiffer.  Dakota Fanning was still quite young when she was in it.  Now, she is a beautiful young teenager liao.  Normally I don't like Sean Penn movie...but this one...aiyoyo.  I cried like what ah when I watched it.  

In this movie Sean Penn is man with a developmental disability and single father to Dakota Fanning.  The parts which will make the audience cries the most is when the social worker take his daughter away due to his "problem" and how Michelle (a lawyer) tried to help him (due to a certain reason actually) and the parts where he was in and out of court trying to justify his words and actions in front of everyone.  Certainly kao si ah...

The next one is The Pursuit of Happyness by Will Smith.  I normally quite like Will Smith movie.  I have watched this guy's comedy series (The Prince of Bel-Air) before he make it big to Hollywood.  This movie will certainly make u need boxes of tissue too.  This is a true story and I normally like movies base on true story.  Ai say man..this one..memang ko lien...kao cham...really make u kao si too.  Really really salute the man that he portray - Chris Gardner.  U can really see that how such a poor poor poor man work his butts off for his family and expecially for his son!! Really salute ah!!!

So, try to watch these 3 movies and tell me...so...life is beautiful ya?  And there is a hope in everything...there is a blessing in disguise.  God bless ya =) 

Thanks BS =)...23/8/12 

A bit mood swing today...don't know y.  There is no particular reason actually..PMS?? noleh..I never have such prob or issue before.  Hungry?? Noleh..eat 2 packs of rice + black bean soup and ate 4 steam bun with egg yolk + 3 siao lung pao.  Cannot be hungry lah.  Boring?  Not really leh..so many things to do and to rush for..aiii..don't know what's reason.  I guess sometime in life..there is just one day we bound to feel like that.

Was telling Mr.  Abang wanna go to Johor in September due to the launching and opening of this Legoland Theme Park.  It is a theme park consisted of 72 acres (way bigger than Sunway Lagoon and our Summer Lagoon!!!).  It is the 1st in Asia and the 6th in the world!  So, it's consider as a very very international theme park lah.  Even if not playing, at least wan to see.  But sure very crowded one lah.  And as far as I know, the ticket super expensive ah.  Now promo ok lah..but after this year, I think its gonna be around RM 240++ for adult and RM 140++ (???) for children.  Aiyo....more expensive than Sunway too!!  But..aiii...day dream nia lah....as both superbz now...tight down with own schedule...so cannot.  Aiii.....

Anyway....read two interesting articles :

1)http://shine.yahoo.com/team-mom/10-things-never-kid-39-teacher-163700676.html 

(no offense lah ya..but at least it shed a light on how those in this profession feel lah ya..)

And the 2nd article...sorry..can't give u the link as got names mention..and my name was in it too...hehehe...so just copy and paste with some part edited lah ya.  

[(The Honorable School Name) BS to receive Cambridge Learner Award

KUCHING: (The Honorable School Name) year 11 (equivalent to Form Five) student BSMG, 17, will receive her Top World Qualification for Foreign Language Malay syllabus from Cambridge Learner Award on 24 November in Armada Hotel, Petaling Jaya, Kuala Lumpur.

This makes her the first person from Kuching, Sarawak to receive such award for the syllabus mentioned.

BS told reporters yesterday that she was shocked when she received the letter from University of Cambridge International Examinations for scoring 100 per cent for the exam paper while the rest of the subjects namely Mathematics, English, Biology, Chemistry, Geography and Economics were still under waiting list, to be announced later.

She never thought that she could be awarded by Cambridge due to her Malay language subject was always at the bottom among the excellent grades of her exam as compared to other subjects.

However, she get motivated by the her subject teacher in (The Honorable School Name), namely  (MY NAME - ME!!!) to help her to cope with weak subject.

Nevertheless, she never gave up on the subject studies by taking extra tuition classes outside the school to help improve her weaknesses despite her long school hours (the time mentioned) daily from Monday to Friday.

She added that (The Honorable School Name) was like a second home to her, due to her time that is mostly spent there.

In  (The Honorable School Name) , there were 11 levels from level two after kindergarten to level 12 (equivalent to Form 6).

She disclosed that she would like to pursue her level 12 studies in the Unites Stated, but due to her family inclination, she would be bound to Calning College, Perth, Australia where her second elder brother, (the brother's name) is in his final year studies.She respects the decision made by her parents as she thinks her parents know better for her future.

After, level 12 or also known as Advanced studies, then she will decide again to go further in her academic studies which would mean she might not be in Australia but instead enroll at one of United State universities.

(The Mum) was proud of her achievement which she expressed yesterday during the press conference session with media.

According to (her), her mother always encouraged her not to give up in academy and her achievement was also motivated by her mother as well who was busy with managing coffee shop with his elder son, (the brother's name) while her father is working overseas.

During the end of press conference, she advised the students and juniors in the school to think positive every time they face difficulties and do not give up their goals because there were achievable.

“The most important aspect to start in all effort is to have interest in what you are doing as a person normally works harder in order to achieve his or her set goal,” she reiterated.]

Ai say man..I was soooooooooooo proud ah when I read this article.  Partially for her..and partially for myself too!!! I never thot BS mentioned that.  Although it has been like 4 years ago....but still - she still remembers me and whenever she came back, she never failed to msg me!!  I guess she was in town about 2 months ago for holiday - as she msg me saying that she just came back and we exchange a few msges at that moment.  I remembered the time when she was around - she was with this gang - MS, SA and MK.  And these group like to sing, MS like to play guitar and the rest will sing.  She was the only girl then.  Wow..how time flies.  I just realised about this article as I was searching thru some infor.  As I don't read this newspaper...and now barulah I know she mentioned this somewhere in November last year.  Thanks BS!! It is an honor for me!!

More of the 90's & Early 2000 =)...22/8/12 

Backstreet Boys (BSB) are more of the late 90's.  Introduce to u some of those around that era.  N' Sync... U know Justin Timberlake rite?  Justin is from this group..known as N' Sync.  They are quite popular back then but I only like one of their song nia - This I Promise You (English & Spanish version) 

Next...Boyzone..the lead singer is Ronan Keating (popular for his single - When You Said Nothing At All ; sound track for the romantic movie Notting Hill by Julia Robert and Hugh Grant -if I am not mistaken).  Popular in the early 2000 (How do u call this ah..early 20's or early Y2K?) They are oso the sifu for the group Westlife.  Out of so many songs they have - only like two of their songs.  Remind me so much of my uni time

The 80's and 90's =)...19/8/12

Miss those times..really, eventhough during those times life was indeed very hard for me and my family...but I miss my school times.  The time when life is not so stressful, no commitment..and the only thing is to worry about study nia (well eventhough I do have much more things to think and to be tension off - in considering my family situation compare to others then...) but still I would said positively - life is good (LG)..hahaha.  In fact, without those situations - me and my other siblings won't be "tough" and independent as what we are now.  Still, there is a blessing lah ya =)

Well back to the topic...miss those times...as its the time whereby as a students or teenagers - we must take part in anything @ school.  Do well in our study and take part in any school's activities we can.  Like I said, either number 1 or not..it's not the world about it.  It's all about having that experience and being able to share it with someone our knowledge, idea and experience when we are older.

80's and 90's...my favourite era as its my zaman kegemilangan lah..ehem..hehehe. And those were the times..in my opinion..the music industry produce the best musics.  Not like now...even the song such as from Will. I . Am...with the lyric - "where do u get your body from?...I get it from my mama"...the lyric really really suku ah.  Quite a number of songs now..the lyrics are just meaningless.

Show u some music video from the 90's.  Before there are such groups like The Wanted and One Direction (the boys band) or any of the K-pops group that consist of members range from 6 - 11 people (siao ah like that...who sings..who leads and who to see..so many people here and there...) back then in the early 90's the first boys group I would say is a group name New Kids on The Block (NKOTB).  It's the first boys group that consisted of many people - 5 at that time is consider quite a lot liao..and the first group to sing and dance at the same time.  I don't like NKOTB but then I was staying next to a neighbour that like this group so much.  She knows who I like..and so back then - we always give poster/paper clips or anything to each other regarding our idols (show to u my idol (s) next time..hehehe)  I won't put up NKOTB video as frankly really dislike them leh...from beginning till the group disband - never found any of their songs interesting.

That's NKOTB.  Don't know much about them just know that got Jordan, Jonathan (they are cousins I think)..then Joey, Danny and the next one..don't know.  Don't even know who is who =p

Next.....Backstreet Boys (BSB).  Initially, I don't like this group and neither is any of their songs.  But after listening to the song As Long As You Love Me...then I was like ...emmmm..not bad, not bad =) 

*And if I am not mistaken, Justin Bieber take some of their songs and cover it in his album....uuuuuhhhhh =(

1) As Long As You Love Me

2) Everybody

3) Larger Than Life

4) I Want It That Way

5) Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely

6) The Call

Hahahah..now wan to show u a super super funny video. I watched it few years back..and now if I watch it..still laughed like siao.  I know lah my English and pronunciation not so good too but watch this one.  Before this...u read this lyric - its Mariah Carey' song...Touch My Body 

(* show u more of the 80's and 90's video next round...)

[I know that you've been waiting for it

Now watch and listen to this......

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HAHAHAHAHA............= )))))

Ridiculous...18/8/12 

Few years back as I was reading thru a Women's Magazine, I came upon a few story about men cheating on their wives.  And one story really caught my attention.  

This couple is from Singapore.  Memang both are from a well off family..and now husband is a well known engineer in Singapore whereby the wife is a full time house wife.  According to the description given - it seems that both are just like pinang dibelah dua lah (very match for each other - either in term of background..appearance..blah..blah - just like banana split lah..hahaha ). The husband is handsome and well built and the wife is super pretty (it says that the wife won modelling awards few times - local or international level).  Ok, to cut the story short..the husband has affair wor.  Aik..if so rich, so successful and wife pretty like siao..y lah?  Not enuf......................wat leh??? No wor............

In this story, the husband said that eventhough he admit that in term of appearance the wife is memang No.1 and super good..but unfortunately - she is just like a vase.  For display purpose only.  No further than that.  Only for display and not much of function. Aiyoyo........

And then he admit his affair - is just a plain Jane...and in term of appearance, is nothing compare to his wife.  Aiyoyo (Don't misunderstand me ah..what I am trying to say here is that..normally and generally - most people will go for looks first then baru the rest of things follow suit..and this man has everything liao boh...but y?)

Then he comments that:

Wife - is only for display purpose.  The mistress - some one that he can rely on.  Some one that he can talk to, share opinions with...someone he can laugh with and someone that listen to him.  Someone that cook for him..and take care of all his needs - either emotionally or wat so ever lah.  

So in other word he is saying that the wife may have the looks but not the brain???  Not someone that can go thru ups and downs with him??? Then in the first place, married for what leh?? Just to "show off" that he has a super pretty wife nia ah?? Aiyoyo..like that so cham loh........

Obviously...man human are hard to please.....they may know what they want..but maybe they miss out the part that..needs and want is different.  A person can live without the "wants' thingy but cant survive without the needs being fulfilled.  Well when a person "want" is fulfilled then the other "wants" will come in.  That's the reason y we have the Maslow Hierarchy Theory.  The needs and wants will be climbing up higher and higher each day once the person standard of living improving.  That's the reason y, human become more demanding...working harder and more fatigue coming in..and more dying at younger age too.  Aiii...

Now, related to that cheating issue - oso read an article about Why People Married Someone Who is Not So Good Look Compare to Them? - it was actually a research done in USA.  And my God..u will be shock with the result/answers:

1) If u married someone who is not as good looking as u - it boost up ur own confident!!!! 

2) If u married  someone who is not as good looking as u - u don't have  to worry much as u know that - that person will never go and have affair due to he/she is not good looking AND he/she already has u!!!  So he/she must be grateful!!!!

3) If u married someone who is not as good looking as u - save up a lot of ur money.  "Low maintenance".  U can use the money for urself instead!!!

Two words:  SUKU GONG ..................research

What kind of idiotic research is that??? And if I am not mistaken - there are 120 peoples took part in that research.  And that is the outcome!! U don't sense any love or any morale in that research at all.  It sounds more like a group of stupid scientist that have nothing to do in life and then try to mess up with people's lives instead.  And this 120 subjects pula...pun super SUKU GONG...this kind of research oso want to take part.  If I am not mistaken, the questions was wrote out in a good way, whereby when that person answer..u hardly can figure out what is the hidden meaning behind it.  So, there it goes....the 3 answers/outcome from the research. 

I don't understand loh.  The term of good looking and the not so good looking are actually man self created term.  God has never said that this is good looking, that is handsome or that is pretty.  If I am not mistaken even if the bible did mention the word "good" or "good looking" it will be talking about the person behaviour and not about the appearance.  These terms are created by our society to label people with their own idea of good looking and the not so good looking type.  And due to that mentality - people tend to label, upgrade themselves or downgrade themselves in life  Beauty is in the eyes of its beholder - but how many people can really upholding that truth?  Realistically, I don't think many can.  Simple example - even if we go out to buy stuff (assuming everything is the same - price..size and so on) we will still aim and grab the one that is cutest or prettiest.  Y? As worth or value for money ..not so much on worth in term of its durability, function and its necessity for us (example hand phone - initially the purpose is just for us to call and people to look for us even when we are on the move..but now..ai say..this tablets lah..thats smart phone lah..thats tab lah...aiyoyo).  That's the reason y..the big big tauke and businessman can be successful in biz due to this simple theory of life.  Taking advantage of human nature - its an opportunity.  Human like pretty and macam-macam stuff - so get pretty actress and handsome actors for our movie...then BOOM...the movie become BOX OFFICE!!!  Whereby..the story maybe like sai ah!!!  Aiii..

Few years back, I met this couple twice.  At McDonald 3rd Mile and Full House.  At McD - the wife ordered her big breakfast.  3 sets of big breakfast and she needs to occupy 2 tables due to her amount of food and errrr...her size...Memang JUMBO size lah.  And the husband.......tall, muscular, well built..ooooh.  While the wife is bz eating, the husband was busily entertaining and feeding their 2 boys.  From the way they talked and the children size, I guess the eldest is about 5 and the second one is around 2 plus.  The husband hardly eat as too bz with the children.  The wife ah...memang superb lah...3 big breakfast not enuf..went up to order another burger!!!  Then at Full House, more or less the same scenario - the husband bz with the kids...and the wife bz with the food!!!  

When I shared this with my friends and children, they all come out with one conclusion - the woman must be rich, and the man kahwin her for $$$$.  Aiyah..y so pessimistic..So everyone is saying that the fat cannot kahwin the thin one..the not so nice looking (base on human's opinion) cannot kahwin the nice looking one lah?  If that happened - it must be ada ulterior motive.  That's too negative liao lah...

Well, people tends to perceive things base on "outwardly" stuff.  And the worst situation can be is..when people started to comment or even judge u base on that.  For me, that's unfair and not a smart thing to do.  Before comment or judge someone, let it be from our own experience with that person and not base on what we hear only.  Then...only then we have the rite to comment.

*SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS YA!! =))

Well..One Step at a Time...16/8/12 

Heard something which is not so pleasant yesterday but well..it's hard to please everyone and we can't please everyone too.  So, have to learn to close my eyes..close my ears...close my mouth...and just carry on with my normal daily routine....aiiii

Yesterday nite...aiyah..starts coughing again.  I know y..the moment I recovered from my previous cough...I immediately walloped:

1) 4 fried durian + 2 fried cempedak (its niceeeee oh..u can get it from the 101 Fried Durian stall)

2) Honey BBQ chicken - 5 pieces

3) McD morning breakfast - sausage McMuffin with egg + hash brown

4) Starbuck's BBQ Meat Sandwich (a bit spicy some more)

5) KFC morning breakfast + KFC spicy fried chicken 

6) Pizza....

Aduh...if eat like that...beh c si kei ...cham liao this time.  Last nite - kuai-kuai taking in my Chinese med (from the physician that I normally c...every effective lah) 3 mark = about 15 ml of the cough syrup (black-black...chao chao and bitter ) + 4 brown pills (oso chao chao...aiii).  This time..the cough not as bad as like time one lah (choi choi..) and today kuai-kuai take med and eat porridge again.

Then dinner at Howdy Grill Restaurant soon....aduh...memang c liao lah... =( 

The Three Kingdom RPG...14/8/12 

I am not talking about the Chinese PC game ya..although very much interested in it but since I am the "banana" type - so just like the characters in it.  Well, actually I am talking about the HK Cantonese drama - The Three Kingdom RPG.  The main characters are Raymond Lam, Kenneth Ma and Tavia Yeung =)

I like this actress - Tavia Yeung.  She acted as Song Yau the maid in the Liu Bei's mansion.  Fall for Szema Shun but unfortunately he thinks she is of "no class" and not pretty (aiyo...blind ah?????  So lenglui, so sui ah)  In most of the drama - she will be the kuai-kuai and soft spoken type except for Beyond the Realm of Conscience.  Emm...look carefully, I always think that she looks like my "chi mui" - FS.  Don't u think so? =) 

Kenneth Ma acted as Szema Shun- the guy that travel back in time from 2012 to (1804?).  Never really watch any of his drama except The Four (he acted as one of the cold and cool guy warrior in it).  In The Three Kingdom RPG..he is acting as one of those very immature and gila-gila type...

Raymond Lam acted as the great strategist of those time - Zhu Ge Liang. I always admire this chinese historian.  During those era - Zhu Ge Liang is the well known strategist and the one that everyone always fight for and wish to have him as adviser.  Well, I love history especially the history of China, Japan and India.  The great Zhu Ge Liang, Zhou Yu, Liu Bei in China.  The great Akhbar Khan. Aurangzeb and Shah Jahan (SJ built Taj Mahal as in memory of his beloved wife).  I know that many people dislike history but as for me, history is just like a story book.  So, its fun.  U get to know what happened in other place and not just confine to your own area nia.

Oh back to Zhu Ge Liang. I like this states man, ideologist and strategist becos he is smart.  And in this drama, not only they portray him (thru Raymond Lam) as smart, cool, patient and a very loving husband towards his wife as well.  Aisay man - so cool,  so bergaya and soooo "chok" ah!! (that's what Szema Shun always said about him in this drama)

Hehehe..."kao chok" leh?  Cukup bergaya kah?? Well, I prefer ancient drama than modern drama.  I think it is "cuter"..hahaha.  And oh, I read somewhere..but I don't think it is true lah.  The article stated that man who prefer to keep or have long hair..r normally wiser/smarter than those who prefer to have a short and clean hair cut...hahaha wonder whether it is true or not.  But if u read the history, Zhu Ge Liang almost manage to unify the whole China..his last campaign is to conquer the Northern side but unfortunately die due to fatigue.  If I am not mistaken..well u can consider either he is too detail..too persistent or to careful..or maybe too ngiau chee and too suku (if u view it from the other perspective) as he always wanted to jaga everything and oversee everything himself..from planning, strategy even till to the meals of his army.  Well, eat little, rest little...no wonder die lah.  So sayang.  (Research proven that if a person don't rest or sleep for 5 days..confirm die one..each day..don't sleep 20 percent of ur brain's cell mati.  So after 5 days..memang sayonara liao lah)

(*aiyah..yesterday just put up the video nia..if I know like this might as well I download it and save in my PC...now no "kao chok" to show u liao) - UPDATE:  The video is up in Youtube again...hehehe - 29/8/12 - ANOTHER UPDATE - check this video on the 1 Dec 2012 and realize that the user has removed the video from Youtube.  So have to upload another one

I include the sale presentation clip for this drama.  In this promo/sale clip - the actors are totally different from the actual drama one.  Don't know y.  The one that plays the character of Szema Shun should be Ron Ng.  I think he will portray this character better 

Super Tired...11/8/12 

Memang super tired today..as didn't sleep the whole nite (last nite) - was preparing stuff for my anak-anak to get them ready for their pre-battle next week.  Aiii..so stress..very very "de" stress ah.  They go for battle, I pula yang feel sooo tension.  Every year at these moments...aiyoh..memang feel like orang gila.  But as when its over - feel so empty pula...aiii.  Keep my fingers cross for everything....

Super blur now...wanna zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........................

Give Way...7/8/12

Remember what I told u about my fren yesterday?  Well...she told me this:

When one give in..when one step backward..when one don't push on and when one don't close up all the ways for others...u are actually saving and helping urself in ur future way or destination.  Don''t ever feel that when u forgive someone, when you help someone..when u opens up a path for someone...it means that u are kind or generous.  It is better to view it in a way..whereby- u may never know what may happen to ourselves in future.  So by not shutting down everything from anyone...u are actually helping urself out.  As who knows..maybe one day - u are the one that need others to open the door and lead the way for u.  So if u push all ur way in..all ur means in...what if one day...urs is totally shut down too?

When she explained to me in Hokkien..I was like...yalah hor...when we did something good..we tend to think that becos we are good..we are forgiving...we are kind and blah blah blah..cheh...as IFFFFFF lah we are really that good.  For her...she told me...doing all those are actually "trying to redeem ourselves a merit coupon".  As who knows one day, u may really need "that coupon" to save urself.....

Another philosophy of life from another Wise Person....thanks ya... =)

Next another - random post..want to share some songs with u guys...very very inspiring video/song from a group call The Remnant - this group performed in Spring before......Listen to the lyric.....

The original singer for this song My Pride is actually Joey Yung (Hong Kong singer) - but I think her version is not as good as this one.  This group of 4 guys - Metrovocal Group.  Sing acapella - meaning without any musical instrument.  They are just using their "mouth" to make up all the "sound @ music".  Another one is Mike Tompkins.  He has a few songs on the Youtube..have a look.  Eh..dont think this is tipu one..he is real ah.  He even performed live on stage and sing live during this Ellen Degeneres Show. 

Next - Payphone by Maroon 5 @ Adam Levine.  Has this song official music video actually but well..u knowlah some part of the lyric..eventhough it is just a teeny weeny part..so I put up this video instead loh.  As at least the lyric....for those who heard the Radio Edit version and the "not Radio Edit version" u know what I meant lah... =p

But I oso include another Payphone cover by this twin sisters that stay in Australia...presenting to u Sonia and Janice.  They are Australian born Korean..pretty pretty girls and very very nice voice.  So compare...whose version is better??? =) 

Bzzzzzzzzzzz...6/8/12 =)

Bz...well, either it is ups or downs side of it...but still bz lah.  Have many things to share here..but wait lah ya.  Just some slight updates ya..today - went out with a fren..a fren that has stood by me all these times and today she told me something which is indeed very very true lah.  Never thot that one should see it in that way.  Someone who has "eat more salt" than me...for so long liao...and today listening to her..I was like..wah...so true oh.  Share with u guys next time.

Well, for the mean time - my cough is 100 percent ok liao. Hahahaha..feasting time..then later on get sick again....choi, choi......aduh.  So, now wanna get some of my "beauty" sleep and then maybe tonite..update a bit again....cya =)

Try Your Best...31/7/12 

Today - my eldest angel took part in a competition - well from the way she performed, I can anticipate that she won't be in the top 3 already.  Well, don't get me wrong..doesnt mean that I am saying my own angel is not good, but it's just that, as this was her first time, kinda lack of practice and can oso see that her talent was not really in this field..so its kinda obvious that she won't make it.  My guess was rite, she really don't make it into the top 3.  My 2nd guess oso correct ..that she got 4th place.  Not bad liao for a first timer....

Well, don't misunderstand me, I am not pouring out my frustration or grumbles here.  What I am trying to say is that, besides being daring to face the truth and the reality..one must know his/her own ability as well.

No doubt, everyone want to win..everyone wan to be the champion..everyone wan to emerge as Number 1..but well, unfortunately in this realistic world..that's is impossible.  Like the Chinese proverb said - Ik san pi ik san kao (There is always another mountain which is higher than the other one)..which means..when one think that she/he is the best...out there...somewhere in this world...even if that person may not defeat us or outwit us...that person may still be our strongest competitors in our field.  So actually this proverb is kinda teaching us to be humble and at the same time - look at things positively...as long as we had done our best, we should be happy and proud of ourselves.

That's what I always told my angels and my children.  Yalah, who don't wan to win rite?  Everyone oso wan..I oso wan.  But the fact of life is not like that..that's y....y not view at it positively and look at it as a way to learn from our weakness, mistakes and at the same time observe the winning party..what is their strength..what is their winning point and then...do our best the next time? =)  As for me, I always view thing as God knows best. And God has a bigger planning for me in life.  And its true..whenever things happened in this way or that way...after few months..gradually I can see God's unfolded His plan for me...=)

And in life, I guess - things such as losing....winning or failing tends to happened now and then..as part of parcel of life too. Or else, I think, one will not understand the realistic of life and one will not learn to be humble and learn to be grateful.

Doing ur best, try ur best and if still lost..then..nevermind..at least u can tell urself u had done whatever u can.  My angel asked me - [if u had tried ur best and still lose..wont it be even more upsetting?  Might as well don't do anything at all......]

But if u don't do anything at all..then u ended up losing..wont' u feel like blaming and felt sorry for urself more?  And I hate those people don't do anything....and by the end when things dont go according to what they wan, they started to sulk up..angry, finding any means and excuses and blame the whole world for it!! Those..barulah realy loser!!  One have to accept the fact that in life..there is a moment..whereby things may not go according to what we want..but how can we just surrender to the situation like that?  That's y eventho now, when she just got 4th..I know that she is upset and she was worry that I might be upset - but I told her..I am happy..very happy.  Take it as a learning process and learn from it.  That's y the last time, when she and the friends..joined in the dancing competition and the whole group ended in the last position..I was upset.  Not becos they lost..becos I believe that..that's not the best yet.  They may have the steps..but unfortunately..for me, I felt that the steps was taught in a way..just to make life easy.  The costumes..the hair do...all can be done earlier, be prepared earlier....and I am 100 percent sure that all the Mummies and Daddies are very supportive in it.  If only it can be informed earlier..if only it can be prepared earlier, not just in the steps but in overall....but well..no used crying over the spilt milk liao lah..so next time...must prepare early hor... =)

I remembered the first time, when I took part in a story telling competition...was either in Pri 5 or 6 then...hahaha so embarrassing ah.  I went home crying..aiyoyo.  Not only get last..but I felt down from stair ..TWICE ah!!!! On my way up to the stage, and then on my way down again!! Aiyo....how can be so GONG!!! =(  And the worst was..hehehe..the Head boy was there...I admire him mah..(hahah kecik-kecil sudah admire guy liao..hahahaah - but I always prioritize my study..no worry =) aiyoyo...double the embarrassment.  After the incident, avoided him for 2 days.....we were quite close then.  So he asked his friend to asked me I felt malu after I felt down and that's y don want to talk to him ah?  Hahaha..so direct...and so malu lah.........Well, think about it...funny oh.  We were close - as friends...till he transfer to the other school in F2.  Lost contact then..as during those time, where got such thing as Internet, email...and etc.  Now think about it..I don't meant him..I meant the incident...hahahah..funny.  Some thing to smile at..to giggle and to laugh at.

That's y I always shared with my children - its better to take part in something (legal and right of cos...)..may be it may look stupid.. it may be weird...or may be it is embarrassing..but at least..it is better to have something to talk about and laugh at...instead of having nothing to reminisce, nothing to share, nothing to laugh at.

I don't wan when my grandchild asks me (hope that I am still around until then):

"Ah ma, Ah ma..in school fun boh?"

"Fun..I get number 1 and hundred in everything.."

"Then?"

"Errr..I always get number 1 and hundred in everything....."

"Then?????"

"Errmmm........" - dumbfounded........fullstop...blank.

I wan it to be:

"Ah ma, Ah ma..in school fun boh?"

"Ah ma..felt down from stage...rite in front of the whole school....in front of...blah..blah"

"Then? Ah ma how leh? Ah ma siao li boh?"

"Oh, then...Ah ma......................................"

"Hahahahahah" - both laugh....

That's baru life ya..................... =)

*Oh ya..CONGRATS TO MY ANAK.......EH (Champion), Fifi (1st runnber up) and J (2nd runner up) during the last few days competition.  WELL DONE! Very proud of u guys.  Keep it up ya! =)

*Food...most important thing..hahaah - well still down with slight cough + flu so still kuai kuai.  But still went to Riverside Majestic with family for the Ramadan Buffet (Buka Puasa).  Eventho I don't really eat (kuai kuai liao mah) but seeing the food, not bad wor....should try.  But I think the menu for Monday and Friday is better (u should check the list of menu before u go - they change their main course everyday..) Got a lot of varieties.  If to compare to 4Points...I think, this time..Riverside beats them...oophs..heheeh...trylah =)

Mix Feeling...27/7/12 =) =(

Y mix feeling leh? Well....

1st - happy..very happy as see almost half of my children from  the Bubble and Brilliant group today =)) sooo many things to chat with them.  Really really happy to see them lah.  Can't believe that this TC can really really eat for the whole nite!!!  JS pula bz cooking for others...NN...long hair liao...wah the shoes she wear..can make a person taller at least for another 3 cm...(i oso wan to get one for myself....hahahh).  MT - wear super smart....BO told me that he might not be in town next year....(aiiii....)...promise J (J what liao ah?? soli ah..hahah..old liao) in her competition on Mon - must do and try your best.  Same goes to PYX =).  Talk to AS and AC for a while.  Miss these too...AS "anything will do face" and this AC - "I cant sit underneath air cond - stomachache"...hahahaha cute one.  Remember the last things we did?  Who sit on u liao ah??? Sorry lah ya...no hard feeling hor? =))  A (what's the surname liao..ai cham) - hugged few times...hahah cute....PJ - a bit kurus...diet ah?  NK - so quiet, thru sms can text so much pula...hehehe.  JT, WC, IN, KT, RC, AD - he asked me how do I pull thru now since I am.............? hahah cute one...so I explained a bit lah.....LQT - getting cuter..now I baru realize that she looks more like AC...should kacau her last time...anyone else that I missed out? Of cos KY was there too - the organizer that forgot to confirm with me...aiii..as usual...sorry ya if I forgot to mention anyone...really really hope to be able to sit and chat with each and everyone malangnya tidak dapat.  KY - next time if organize one...tell me early ah...- maybe after the exam??? heeheh...that will be good...its on me liao ya...but tell me early ah...hahaha.  Oh..OL was not there..but she called me tho...thanx so much ya OL...it's very thotful of u.... =)

Thanks to everyone..really.  It is an honor, pleasure and blessing to be able to c u guys again. Make my life more colorful........=))  Thanx ya.....

2nd feeling - cham liao lah....normally when I get sick..it is always...cough + fever..then the last one is flu.  When flu comes...for me, its an indicator that means well "ur fever and cough is ok..but give way to flu"...ok ok fine...but now...aiyo!!!

Cough baru better (but not hundred percent ok yet) flu pula datang...and macam mau fever too!!!!!!! Aiyah!!!! Angry...kek sim.....angry!!!!  After went home...aduh duh...the flu - flow like river ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  cough datang now and then....lepas tu...shiver a bit...(sign of fever..)  Angry ah...................

Aiyo...y like that? I jaga my makan minum so much liao ..still like this..aduh!! As I type this - don't know how many pieces of toilet paper I had used...aduh.........

I think I know - I am very sensitive to dust.  I can sense a dusty place easily.  The moment there is something dusty, less than 2 minutes, my nose started to get very itchy, then my cheeks then ..........its flu liao.

I know y -

1st - was at a new building, as it was very new, so the place havent clean up yet and it was dusty + there is no fan or anything set up yet, so standing inside for 2 hours plus..aiyo yo  = suffocating + itchiness......die liao.

2nd - went to a neighbour's house, which is in the midst of renovation..as want to see the workmanship. Aiya..y so keh poh leh.  With all the cement...tiles..dust...aduh..duh...now see what happened?????

Sarang tebuan jangan dijolok (don't look for trouble....)..cham loh....can foresee that after 2moro..sure sick one liao..choi choi.....pray that I don't ya. Or else ..cham.  As got many things to rush and do next week.....pray lah ya =(

Still Coughing...23/7/12 

The cough slightly better....well compared to the last time when I said it's getting better..now it is slightly better compared to the last time when I said so.  But it just stay there.  Fullstop.  Aii...really kek sim as this and next month suppose to be the feasting months!  Now with all the Bazaar Ramadan, Kuching Fest, Ramadan Buffet here and there...huhuhu....cham loh...how to survive like that.  Cant eat anything.  Really kek sim =(.  For the past few days, just mostly ate chicken rice with soy sauce, plain rice with plain soup or plain porridge.  Aduh.....aiii 

My "chi mui" told me got sell chao tau hu at Kuching Fest.  Gee...must try as never eat that before.  Heard of it for so long, seen it thru tv and so on, people comment it memang stink like siao but its tasty.  So....wan to try lah.  But it's fry...so....still have to wait...kuai kuai wait...aduh.  

Change from Western med to Eastern med (chinese) after finishing the chinese med....still no different, change back to Western med again.  Itu pun almost finishing the antibiotic and already 2 bottles of cough syrup (the one that once u take it in...surely sleep like a log for 24 hours.........) baru slightly better.  Aiyo.... =(

Unbelievable!!...19/7/12 

One of my favorite movie star is none other than Keanu Reeves.  I know that most children this generation don't know who is he.  Allow me to introduce him to u.  Keanu Reeves is popular for his movie Speed (this is the one that make me likes him actually and oso the one that boost him to popularity), then follow by The Matrix and its sequel (I hate this movies tho...) then follow by Constantine (horror movie - but for me..not horror at all) then The Lake House (love story).  Ah...this is one of those love story that when u watch it..u feel like........ahhhhhhhhh.........so lomentik ah..... =))

The Lake House is a very amazing love story.  Eventhough it is well beyond reality but then you should see how and what Keanu Reeves did for Sandra Bullock.  So far, I think they are the best on screen couple =).  They are oso pair up in Speed, then after that if I am not mistaken Keanu Reeves has another love story with Charlize Theron - Sweet November.  But I don't think it is that sweet - especially after you watch The Lake House..u compare lah.

Now show u one of the most popular part in Matrix.  The part where he dodged the bullets.  And as far as I know, no one can do this except thru alteration in computer or any other CGI or computer effect........

Now watch this..... =))

Hak c rite??  Unbelievable but this man really did it in front of live audience oh...my goodness..I wonder how he did that?? The slow motion part.....aiyoyo...I salute him lah.  He was in the final but unfortunately..he doesn't win it.  If I am not mistaken, he was either the 2nd or the 1st runner up.  But indeed...it is an AMAZING TALENT!! =) 

Forgive and Forget...18/7/12 

I always think that it is kinda hypocrite for people to say - I can forgive that person but I can't forget what he/she/they had done to me.  For me, it is like, how can u forgive and yet u are not willing to forget?  It is just like the chicken and the egg situation.  How do u determine which one comes first?  It is in a very irony situation...to forgive and to forget.  But alas, after sooo many years on hearing this phrase I finally understand what does it mean.

Forgive and forget...it actually means.............

To forgive..well it definitely need a lot of love and courage to do so...and plus to forget some more....that was like it will take ur whole life time to do so.  But now, I finally get it.  To forgive a person - meaning to say, u are willing to bury the hatchet, you will no more keep on digging out the old issue, you will not hold any grudges or have any hatred in heart, you will not avoid that person, you will not plan on any ulterior or any scheme to get back and yet you will try any mean and anyway possible to patch up with that person, to reconcile with that person, to help that person, to hold that person close to u.  In other words..total abandon of all the negative thots and actions and try to replace it with all the positive things in mind and in heart.  Not easy hor?  I guess, that's y  God says it is easier for the camel to go thru the eye of the needle than for a rich man to go thru the kingdom of God....aiii...

To forget - no one in this world can forget 99 percent of the things that had happened in their lives (unless u have amnesia or become senile liao lah).  That's why we are gifted with memory and it is the most powerful storage in the world compare to any type of software or hardware that we had  (can u imagine that even the smartest person may only used up to 3 - 4 percent of its brain power?) .  So the issue now is - if you can't forget...isnt it hard to forgive?  Actually it is not, when God said forgives ur enemy..... - forgive and forget....actually God never mentioned the part of forget (but God did mentioned about pray, help and love them).  We all know that we tend to remember every bits of our lives especially the down parts of it.  This is the one that haunted us the most.  The one that pulled us down actually.  Refer back to the part of forgive - to forgive the person means that to do all those that had been mentioned above.  Maybe we can't forget - but we don't bury ourselves in it.  We may still remember it till the day we dropped our last tooth, or till the day when we finally return home to the Lord - but I believe what God wants in us is that...although we may still remember it - let it be a lesson in our lives.  A lesson that can remind us in our future path on what is rite and what is wrong.  Let it be an incident that taught us to be wiser in our words and actions.

I guess that's the part that most people failed to see including myself.  Not easy hor?  But hey, I guess as I wrote this post, indeed I do become a bit wiser ya...as I finally can comprehend the actual meaning of Forgive and Forget......=))

*but psst..in certain case, of cos got people that is hypocrite lah...as for this kind of people...well......I guess we can just pray that God bless us with His wisdom lah ya =)

Update...17/7/12

Well, recovered from fever but still down with cough lah.  Hopefully it will be ok soon.  Drink plenty of herbal drink loh...=(  Oh ya, had kill the Prime Evil @ Diablo in Diablo 3 quite some time ago liao (don't know whether did I mentioned it before or not..) anyway, managed to whack off that Prime Evil after few hours of patient and few hours of geram and few hours sticking in front of my PC.  Done it with the Sorcerer..really took a few hours ah..actually its few hours in a few weeks time.  Keep on kaput so have to start from beginning =(.  Now is trying out the Monk...well..see how.  Not so eager about it anymore as the story line more or less the same every now and then and the interface - don't like it. 

Oh ya, for SOMEONE WHO TOLD ME YOU PLAYED DIABLO 1 AND 2 BEFORE....try this lah..not bad.  Everyone must have some time for themselves and do something that they like (unless this is not your interest anymore lah...)  Even I am a lao ah mah already, still play gamesl..hehehe..actually quite interesting oso lah..not only it can release tension but sometime it can be a good topic to share and discuss with our angel...our children..our nieces..our nephews...etc...at least got something in common to talk with them..hehehe =)  A children of mine always asked on how to use special items and socketed items (for those who play Diablo games..u will know what is this)..hehehe..not bad..not bad...quite cool. =)

Well, of cos, as we grow up, we don't have much time for that anymorelah.  I remember that my Diablo 1 was when I was in university.  But Mr Abang told me he played those when he was still in secondary school...oooh I am so outdated  (I only have my own PC when I was in my second year uni oohhh).  Then Diablo 2 was when...can't remember liao...so now this year...since alang-alang sudah play 1 and 2, try 3 pula =)

Updated myself with songs is also a must..as I found out that - if we try to update ourselves with those stuff - it is one of the way...at least..to ease the communication with the younger generation.  Like the peribahasa said "masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang lembu menguak" (in between the sheep we mek...and in between the cow we moooo....hahaha direct translation...hahah)

But at this moment, let me show u few videos from one of the popular group back in the 90s.  Michael Learns To Rock (MLTR)

Sorry, couldn't get the official music video as most of the quality is not good - such an old song liao loh.  If I am not mistaken, this is the song that makes them popular.  The music video is about a man rushing into a church and sees his beloved married another man....that's y its 25 minutes too late....duh...  The next song below - Take Me to Your Heart is actually a Chinese song - sings by a popular Hong Kong singer...Jacky Cheung (The 4 Heavenly Kings - Jacky Cheung, Andy Lau, Leon Lai and Aaron Kwok)  For those in that era..u sure know who lah.

Now, some chinese songs that are popular in the 2000s.  I think its around those time lah as not really follow up on chinese songs as I am a "banana man".  Listen memang listen lah, but most of the time, not sure who is the singers and what is the song's title.  The song below is from a Taiwan group - SHE (Selina, Hebe Tien and Ella).  Among them I guess the most popular is Selina (due to her duet with Wang Lee Hom) plus her recent accident (got burnt badly...ko lien..just few months before her wedding) which caused her not being able to involve in many things and also down with scars.  Yam kung loh...sui sui punya char bor..aiii  

This last video (below) is interesting, made by the fan of Wang Lee Hom (I think).....its some of the SHE music video combine with Wang Lee Hom's music video.  Look kinda real to me and got story line in it.  Make sense...If I am not mistaken this music video was created after their duet song...thus it looks like "they break off" lah...and patch up again - that's the story line I guess =p  Cool....

A close friend of mine (tall friend ah) ever saw Wang Lee Hom when he came here (I think it was during some Digi Road show or watever).  Being such a sensible person, was shock when she told me she also shouted like crazy when she saw him.  Y leh as eventho she is not his fan and just accompanied a person some more.  She told me, at that time the situation is uncontrollable.  Everyone just pushing each other, screaming and shouting for him.  So, in the middle of them - she just did the same for fun loh.  Hahaha =)) She told me, if we think Wang Lee Hom is very handsome in picture or in his videos..then if see his real person....wah lao eh..even more handsome, and he is tall!!  Wang Lee Hom is actually an ABC (American born Chinese).  If I am not mistaken he can speaks 5 languages - French, Spanish, Japanese...then....don't know liao - as I am not his ardent fan lah.  Oh, this friend of mine oso ever met Shah Rukh Khan in KL.  And the comment: In real person - SRK is actually very tall (he looks shorter compares to other actors in the screen...so meaning to say....wow..others are much much taller loh), fair and handsome.  Emm..never met any of the artist tho..except for The Reminant (Chinese group) and well...my favourite singer (s)..eventho not all of them lah...hehehe..tell u who next time =)

Sick liao...15/7/12 

After yesterday loooong day - really really sick liao.  Shivering + fever + sorethroat (can really feel the swollen inside the throat....).  Take in med and slept from 4.30 pm till 1 am, woke up, eat a bit..take med and then sleep till the next day (today) 11 am.  After the med, really hin and blur.  Today was supposed to have 2 appointments with my 2 different group of children.  One is a informal appointment and the other one is the formal type.  Have to cancel both as worry that if prolong for hours, I might be in line for coffin liao..phew!  

To the first group, sorrylah ya.  I know that u guys had put in much effort for it and I will surely make it up for u guys.  Very sorry lah ya.

To the second group pula - sorrylah ya, cant have it on today as can feel like razor cutting thru my throat whenever I talk..so what more to say shout or talk loudly.  Aii..see u guys again next time ya....

Some children that saw me today - asked y I still look quite ok leh?  Aii...control hensem mah...tahan loh....but head a bit hin hin, nose a bit block but throat is the worse lah.  Very dry and "sharp" feeling in the throat..... =(

After tham chiak for the last few days, need to kuai kuai eat porridge and chicken rice + soy sauce nia...=( drink plenty of green tea and herbal drinks...aiii boh pien.  Have to suffer the consequence after eating so many heaty stuff =( 

I Don't Know...14/7/12 =) 

Actually there is one post that I wrote on the 11 July but I just saved it and put it on hold - thinking whether I should publish it or not.  Anyway, after much deliberation, well u can definitely see from here...what is my decision then.  It was suppose to be a long post explaining one issue/speculation that flaring around the last week or days..but then I don't wan any prolong misunderstanding, just in case if I post it here.  Actually the speculation was pointing at just one issue nia lah.  But either it is one issue or many issues, big issue or small issue - if want to have a clearly picture, do ask me lah ya.

Well...ok...just to clear up the speculation - my answer is simple..and that is I DON"T KNOW.  As I don't know what will happen in future, I can't even predict what will happen on the next minute ya, what more to say for the next few days, months or years. So, again...tian tian you ming @ let's God decides lah ya =).  God knows best.  I always believe that either it is good or bad, God always has HIS purpose and reason behind everything.  So, always live positively =).  So to anyone that heard anything or seems to hear anything - please don't  speculate or make any assumption ya as what you heard is not directly from my mouth or from here.  But of cos' I sincerely appreciate your thots and concerns for me.  It is an honor indeed.  Thanks so much ya but ...God has a bigger and better planning for everyone.  So....I don't know lah hor =)

Oh...Anak Emas really back liao.  So happyyyyy to see my Anak Emas.  Thanx for dropping by.  It really makes my day...=))

But I wonder where is my other Anak Emas and his "13th Aunty"? (Can guess who? =) ).  Hey, if you are somewhere in town, hopefully can hear from u soon ya =) My best prayers with you =)

Today, I guess must be eating too much of heaty food...walloping burger and sausages from The Sausage Gourmet (hey..their sausages and the JUMBO FLOAT....interesting oh....u guys should give it a try!!! yum..yum...), ate the "oink oink" ribs there...then heading to JJ Cafe for Nasi Goreng Kampung and roti canai again (taste nice too!!). Ai cham just eat and eat nia with my family...and all the fried food..ended up now can feel a bit of sore throat..oophs =(.  

Not only sore throat...nowadays always get comment that I put on weight.  Comment that I look vibrant and happy is ok...but put on weight?  Ah?? Really ah???? Cham liao lah, being a short person and u said that I put on weight - then I m gonna be a huge pumpkin walking around in town liao lah.  Ai c loh................But I remembered a fren told me this - "I rather die becos of too full than die becos of hunger"...emmm...good philosophy.  So...happy eating lah.  Chiak first then baru see how!! hahaha =))

Anak Emas...9/7/12 

Malay Songs...5/7/12 

Datin Seri Tiara Jaquelina is still pretty till now.  And I likes her alot in this movie and I think it is interesting. It was the first ever Malaysian film with the budget of USD 4 million and it was the biggest budget ever in Malaysia's film industry (dont know whether any movie ever break this record or not lah)  This one not bad lah, consider the technology at those time....not much CGI tho... Later it was make into a musical theatre drama and the response were super good.  Maybe we can consider doing it too ya?  It is interesting...for a change. =)

Ah..this girl...Amy Mastura..gain popularity somewhere in the year 1983 or 1993 (??)..thru a program name Asia Bagus.  It was just like the reality show now...something like our American Idol stuff lah.  But it was only open for those from the Asia countries.  If I am not mistaken, she scored one of the highest score back then among all the weekly winner...93 points I think.  Well, back in those time, she was just like the Taylor Swift of the 80s..lah =)) 

Introduce u to the boy groups pula....  

Ah..this is the timelah when the masalah sosial...gejala sosial isu menjadi polemik di mana-mana sahaja.  Before this era..eventho got lah such thing happened here and there but it has never been so bad and never been made into a song and become such a big issue till everyone talked about it and the authority need to think of so many things trying to stop it.  This is the eralah..start with things like Rakan Muda...then tak jadi...do PLKN pula...and so on...then Pendidikan Moral not enuf..add in Pendidikan Sivik dan Kewarganegaraan (PSK)......aiii....

Ah...this boys group...were very popular back in the era of 90s.  Then they stopped singing and focus more on film and music production - as initially that is their ultimate objective.  Being a singers was just a stepping stone for them to be in the music industry and establish themselves and then focus more on the job behind the screen.  If I am not mistaken, they are the one behind some of the Malaysia's popular film such as Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa.  

They are siblings.  From the left to the right - Eddy, Norman and Yusry. 

Ah..this was the time when Malaysia baru popular with reality show and baru popular with stuff like audience send in text (SMS) to choose the singer that they like.  The time when hand phone started to become one of the most crucial things in life.  The technology era and the new entertainment era that changed everything.  I guess this song focus was about those issue.  And the guy in this video (besides KRU - pronounce it as K - R - U not "crew"....)..he is Adam from Akademi Fantasia 2 (AF2) if I am not mistaken.

Next, is a love song @ duet.  Sing by Ella and Korie.  But the funny thing was - this love song sing by this two siblings.  Korie is Ella's younger brother.  Yhew.....y lah.  The song is nice, but should had asked someone to sing with either one of them lah.... 

Ah..itu baru Malay songs nia..havent show u more of the Hindustan songs that I like..hehehe...Next time lah ya..update a bit here and there from time to time...=)

* Now no more channel B4U in Astro liao..change to some other American-Latin shows...aiyah....less Hindustan movie to watch..hish....=(

Amuse...1/7/12

Saw something that is kinda amusing to me =)....Aii, don't know how to describe it.  The situation is like - kalah jadi abu, menang jadi arang =)

Oophs... 26/7/12 

Oophs sorry, wrote a wrong date for my previous post as I follow my PC date...and it was like far far way ahead of time.  Sorry ya...

Few things popped out - bz but interesting tho.  So need a lot of creativity and skills for that again.  Havent done it for so long - need to sharpen up my mind again and dig out all those previous files and pictures and try to brainstorm.  So - wish myself best of luck and update u guys from time to time ya.  C ya =) 

Issues...23/6/12 

Wow..very boh eng for the last few days..and oooh didnt realize that I havent update it for few days oh.  Let's see what's up for today?  Maybe we should talk about 2 issues:

1) Relationship + Friend

2) Motivation 

The first issue is - I am not talking about the friendship that by the end turns into a BGR (boys-girls relationship).  I am talking about whereby when some people have pasangan @ spouse @ partner...their pasangan started to control them by not allowing them to go out with their friends or in other words hinder their friendship with others.  Either by not allowing them to go out with their friend or...need to tag along with them in whatever they do or where ever they go.  Need to be like that one meh?  Well, I am not saying that everyone is like that - but I do see some couples who ended up being like that.  And sorry to say this - most of the one that I see - is the female that controlling the male and hinder his social life.  The questions that we need to ask ourselves are these:

1) Is there a need to do so?

2) What is the need of doing so?  Want to berkepit 24/7?

3) Scare that he/she might "runs" away?

4) Low self-esteem or no confident?

I think a healthy relationship is the one that whereby u give space to each other in term of growing in their own interest, their own group of friends..and etc etc.  By keeping them to ourselves - not only it will destroy their friendship with others but at the same time if its too much or overboard - I guess it will destroy your own relationship too.  Being in relationship doesn't mean that ur world is only about u and him/her.  There are a lot more than that especially when u are married.  Someone ever said that - once u are married to that person, u are practically marrying the whole family..the whole package comes in.  If you are hoping to bound that person only for yourself - now put urself in his/her shoes...are u happy if she/he does the same?  What kind of message are u trying to give to your young ones in future?  Some people told me that - when they are dating..their partners are not like this..but once they made the vow and they walked down the aisle..the true color show!!  Oooh...that's terrible!! Aren't u suppose to show ur true color before that big day?  And to the other party - don't tell me after making that vow baru now u wan to regret - as u baru see the true color too?  Isnt that in a relationship u are suppose to compromise and be committed to each other?

Talk about compromise - a person told me this before, if u loves someone, u will be more than willing to change for a person.  If it is a bad habit/bad stuff..eg: smoking, drugs..alcoholic....womanizer and so on and on..then of cos...to change is definitely a good thing.  Well done for it.  But then if u expect a person to change just to suit ur taste and habit...for eg: cant go for gathering with family and friends....cant even eat a char kuih teow with taugeh - just becos u hate looking at the taugeh...don't u find that is a bit too much...or actually it is memang toooo much?  What is the use of one side trying to compromise and change everything for u, whereby u just cant be reasonable enuf and look at what u are demanding????? I found it ridiculous.  For me, a relationship is in between compromise, change for a good (if it suits everyone and for good purpose) as well as learn to bear now and then.  Well, I myself is kinda a short temper person - I guess that's y I am blessed with a very patient Mr Abang and we learnt a lot from each other.  When he comment I am too impulsive in doing stuff, then I will comment he is too slow in doing things..hahaha..the story never ends lah..hahaha =))  Well, part and parcel of life huh?  That's just my 20 cent thotslah ya.  But like I mentioned before, I am just a happy lao ah ma with my lao ah kong and my little mischievious angels in my little hut =).  Oh ya, not to show off lah but just to share nia...to spark up our journey in our relationship..from the first day we walked down the aisle till now (10 years liao) - every nite we sleep by holding each other hand.  As far as I know, whenever we wake up, our hands are still holding each other.  Hehehe..I guess that's the little little thing that we do in our relationship that makes it more meaningful lah ya.  Ohh mai salah faham me oh...doesnt meant that if u dont hold hand u are not loving or romantic...but no one cant deny that in life, all those little little thing is the one that spark up our lives ya? =)

2) Motivation...aiii.  Talk about this issue..a bit kek sim loh.  Don't know y children or kids nowadays always take things for granted.  A bit of rotan and scolding - they started to sulk, cry, show tantrum and give up liao.  Y leh??  Shouldn't it be u take that as a motivational factor?  U should think in a positive way - that is - the more people look down at u or trying to downgrade u, the more u should prove to the whole world that u are not what they are saying.  U can be anything u wan as long u put in effort.  No one is born stupid and neither nor one is born smart.  It is just between whether u are hardworking or lazy nia.  Think about it - when u are able to prove that u are rite and u had done well, don't u feel a sense of achievement and.....ok ok think like this - happy rite to make the other party speechless?? Well, not teaching u to be hao lien @ arrogant lah, what I am trying to say here..the best achievement in life is to be able to achieve what other people always say u cant.  But of cos, it must be a realistic idealah.  U never know rite? So brace urself, take the first step today, one little step at a time...never mind...just try nia.  With that little step of urs, who ever see it, I am sure they will be very happy.  Be persistent.... =)

Not Badleh...Rugged Hor?...19/6/12

Told u that I listened to any kind of songs rite?  It's not about the singers but its about the music or the lyric.  Show you few more songs that I like - sure u terkejut one...this song is popular around 2000++

Hehehe..."noisy" type ya?  But all these songs were very popular back in the year 2006. If I am not mistaken it was during the time of Big Potato (SC) or LZB or maybe a year or two earlier.  (2002??)

Noisy abit lah..but oh well. =) Till now, havent show you who is my favourite singer (s) ya?  Wait lah ah.. =)

ALASKA...18/6/12 =)))) 

Wa chio peng..when I saw this...hahahaha.... 

But u have to salute them for their guts and free spirit lah.  Happy go lucky, very determine and very confident with what they did.  But still...... =))) This song is actually the sound track of the movie "Flashdance", a very popular movie in the 80s. UPDATE - the original video that I put up here is no more available in Youtube, so got this one for u..oso the same Alaska but just that maybe the quality not as good as the first one.  Anyway..have a good laugh ya!! =)

So, esok pagi, as u wake up, do watch this Alaska Dance...move move and shake, shake a bit..trust me..it will really makes ur day =))

Talk about singing and dancing, well upload some videos of the songs that I like. Its Nickelback - this is what I regards as nice voice lah.  Husky, husky abit - unique lah.  Don't like all their songs, only these few ones.  Enjoy ya =)

Nickelback - the lead singer is Chad Kroeger.  A popular group back in the mid 2000s.  Earlier than Maroon 5 @ Adam Levine - I think.  Not sure.  =) Shayne Ward oso sings this song Gotta Be Somebody but I think Nickelback's version is better.  And Shayne Ward (cover) - his voice has been auto tune liao.  Too computerized already.  

Voice...16/6/12 

After yesterday post, a few frens asked am I saying that their voice sound bad?  Aiyah, dont put words in my mouth lah.  What I am trying to say is..normally everyone's voice..either is a male or female, it is just normal.  Normal nia lah, but for some people there are gifted with memang very very nice voice lah.  For me, as long as the person voice @ man don't sound "softy-softy @ sissy" then, that's ok liao lah.  U see, even some singers that I like @ like their songs - Shayne Ward, Emil Chow (Taiwanese) or actors - Arjun Rampal, Shah Rukh Khan, Chris Hemsworth..blah, blah, blah..their voice are just normal.  Not the type that once they talk - u will feel like WOW!!! 

(As for myself - I think my voice sound kinda rough and "husky"..aiyoyo.  And yesterday one of my anak, MRC - told me that my voice seems to be a bit "out of tune" @ zhao sia.  Yalor, I realize that too...need to "re- tune" or "auto tune"..hahaha)

So, don't put words in my mouth ya.  And oh for your kind infor - what kind of singers pula that I think is unique @ the voice?  Show it to u tomoro..now extremely sleepy ah and tomoro is another looooong day for me.   

Psst..my Diablo 3 - I gave up liao lah.  Play till the Prime Evil @ Diablo - till now can't kill this bad guy off.  Kek sim ah..and kinda lost my patient + I don't like the story line + interface so much.  Should go and play Warcraft, Starcraft, Caesar 3 and The Sims again... =))

Euro 2012..Anyone?? 14/6/12 

Normally, I don't watch or follow up with any football news unless it is World Cup.  During the last World Cup, like Mr Abang, I was rooting for Germany (to the fans of Spain...sorry lah ya..pai seh..pai seh) but well....the Octopus Paul (hahahaah..he died liao loh..so ko lien) even before the match starts, had predicted that Spain will win.  Aiyah, spoil mood and give this kind of psychology effect nia.  So now with this Euro fever on, not so keen on it and wait for the World Cup 2014.  See who will win.  The group that I least prefer.........ENGLAND..heheeh sorry sorry ya.  Y?  Just becos of the former Captain - DB. Everyone said he is handsome...handsome meh?  I think he is kinda sissy. Have u ever heard the way he talks in one of the Coca-cola advertisement?  My goodness, after u watch and hear his voice..u will wonder is he a MAN? hahaha..sory sorry lah..it is just my own personal opinion nia lah.  Don't mean to offend anyone lah ya.  For me, either a man voice is nice or not is very important.  As it portray "masculinity" ( is there such word??) ...hahaha.  So far, I had only heard a few men with a very nice voice (can even be DJ or Emcee).  One is my close friend LCM, then our former BIG BOSS...Mr GL, and then follow by this former colleague of mine Mr. AW.  Wow..everyone that ever hear his voice will sure thumb up one lah.  He can really sings well and not only that, when he did emceeing...everyone memang quiet down just to listen to him.  Hebat one.  Great gift!! 

Oh talk about football again, I normally go for German or France.  But actually not so much on the country lah..is more to the player.  My favourite players during the last World Cup - Zinedine Zidane and Oliver Kahn.  Then got other players like Lionel Messi, Ronaldo..then during those time so many of those Ronaldo lah. Ronaldinho lah..aiyo so confusing.  But its fun lah watching it once a while.  I remembered during those times, there was this one nite, me and Mr Abang purposely went to an open air hawker stalls area just to watch the football match in public.  Fun oh - as everyone will cheers for their own group.  But normally, the fans that root for the same group will crowd certain area - cheers like crazy.  So, if u are not in that group, better dont kehpoh kehpoh sit down and cheers for the opponent pula..later tiok pak ah!! =))

The next sport that I like - badminton especially Thomas Cup.  The players that I like most are during the time of Rashid Sidek, Foo Kok Keong, Soo Beng Kiang and Cheah Soon Kit.  During the time when Malaysia won back the cup..ai seh...there was so crazy and so much fun then watching that event.  Remember the part when Foo Kok Keong have no choice but to do a split just to save the situation - to hit the shuttle cock back to his opponent?  Ai seh, can hear my neighbor screamed like siao ah!! =))

Anyway, who or which team u think will win this Euro Cup 2012?  Hopefully its Germany ya (is Germany in??? hahaha..dont even know actually).  May the best team win! =)

I Always Look Up...12/6/12 =)

These few days, whenever I passed by the building, I will make sure I looked up and stared at it for a while, hoping to catch a glimpse of my children.  I promised OL before that I will always park my car at the same place every morning as I send my angels to school, but well, very hard to keep that promise now.  As last time, normally I came quite early and can ensure I park at the same place.  But as for now, as I came much later, normally it is already very crowded..due to that, I park elsewhere now.  Sorry ya OL.

But for these 2 days, every time I passed by, I sure looked up.  Funny thing, never catch any of my children's sight or glimpse of them, but last time, so easy pula.  The moment I parked my car, can see the whole bunch of my children standing near the window.  

Oh ya, I think I need to clarify something thru here as well, as the news been flaring around and quite a number of people had been asking me about it.  For your kind information like I said before - I DIDN'T APPLY "OVER THERE".  I don't have any intention to go anywhere at this moment.  Like all those friends that asked me - what is my planning now.  Well, simple:

1) Spend more time with my angels + family

2) Do more stuff and better stuff for my children - mean more works for u guys too lah ya...hahahaah =))

3) And been 7 years here..so like the Hokkien said, u got "kam cheng" osolah....

But for everyone that asked and show concerns..thanks alot ya.  I really really appreciate it.  THANKS! 

Other than that, my mind - blank...empty.  Don't have anything...really =). But at this moment, kinda sleepy.....don't know y.  Every morning I still wake up very early as getting my angels ready for school then blah, blah, blah....house chores and then at nite...still sleep very early.....around 1 or 2 am. "Early" huh? =)  Well, want to get some of my beauty sleep now, will update more later...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Thor or Captain America...11/6/12 

Friends always asked me..between Thor (Chris Hemsworth) and Captain America (Chris Evan) which one do I prefer more?  Well, honestly speaking, I think Chris Hemsworth looks better =) I think he is more "man" and "tough".  But undeniable he is just "too buff" lah.  Due to the movie Thor, he was asked to put on weight and build his body so much + the attire + the rough looks + the beard = too "buffy".  

For Captain America (Chris Evan), well he is more to clean cut looks.  Neat and tidy..emm...prefect grooming ...but a bit "dull" look and no "challenge" lah hor?  Hehehe..just my opinion lah ya...don't get upset if you are rooting for Chris Evan.  I think people get to notice him more ever since the movie Captain America compare to when he was the Torch in the movie Fantastic Four 

Well, will still update u guys more on the 80's music and onwards.  So now and then, will put up the latest and the oldies lah ya.  Hey, I love music ok.  Maybe old liao but I like music.  I don't choose singers, its more to their voice + music + lyric.  So, for the mean time, enjoy these lah ya.  =) 

First Day...11/6/12 

Feel a bit odd and weird as this is the first time being a full time "si lai" =).  Normally, this position is either for those who are super duper rich or already turns to retired age liao..but whereby as for me...I am neither one of those.  So, a bit odd ohhhh =p

Yesterday, started to wonder - am I happy?  Will I be used to it?  Well, I guess..there is a mixture of every feelings in it.  The only thing that I can sensed first thing in the morning is that - no need to wake up so early liao but still has abundant things to do.  Now having more time, should concentrate more on cleaning and "managing" the house as well as preparing more stuff (ehem..ehemm....) for my children here =)  

Listen to one of favourite songs : Here Without You - 3 Doors Down (the lyric is meaningful, is a love song tho)..anyway, just enjoy it lah ya =)

I Am Back!!!...10/6/12  =)

Phew..last few days...been a long, fun and bz days =) Tired but happy.  That's y soli lah ya didn't update much =).  Anyway, I am back now, aiii...so tired.  Will update u guys more once I have enuf sleep........ zzzzzzzzzzzzz 

The Name?...6/6/12 

Some peoples asked me before, y chose this name to be the main title - Super Duper Evil Terminator?  Hehehe..it all came down to the year maybe around 2008 or 2009.  Whereby this name started with just Terminator - it was given by JY and AT batch.  They told me that the name "Terminator" suit me the most as kecil-kecil but suara lantang and oso "ganas".  Hahahaha...then don't know y the next following year it evolve to Super Terminator!! And out of the blue after a year or two another word was added in to it.  So, that's y it become like this now loh.....  But I always told them...this is baru Terminator nia, u havent see the "Megatron" yet..hehehe... =)).  So, JY and AT..true leh, hows the experience with "Megatron"? Hahahaha..but I am sure u learn alot from Megatron and you certainly enjoy the sessionslah ya =)

Oh ya, actually last nite - manage to search for a few 80's and 90's chinese songs that I want to upload here but don't y - server jammed and nothing show any response =(.  And want to search for it again...aii.  Next time lah ya =)

Email...3/6/12 

Very happy today as received an email from my anak emas LZB.  Really really glad to hear from him again =).  It really makes my day and encourage me a lot lah ya =).  Sure need to catch up and yam cha when u are back ok? =)

Oh, regarding the Arjun Rampal thingy..hahaha...frens said I perasan.  Yalah, yalah, it is just my opinion nia mah.  Luckily I didnt said he looks like Keanu Reeves.....hahaha =)) as I admire Keanu Reeves too!!!! Hahahah...chio see wa!!! =))

Now more about the 80's songs.  Do u realize that gradually this hairstyle is bouncing their way back to this generation?? Hehehe.. =)

The group Duran Duran (or we last time oso addressed it as Luilian Luilian) consists of 5 persons in the group.  As far as I can remember it's Simon, Nick and John...and the others...no idea liao.  The so called most handsome during those times are Nick and John lah.  Actually there was a change in the members from the early 80's to the early 90's.  But lead singer remain the same - Simon.  Out of all their songs, I only quite like this one nia.  During those time, this group Duran Duran is like our most crazy after boyz band now - One Direction lah....hehehehe

Hahaha..this one..Baltimora - Tarzan Boy.  One sings Wild Boyz..and this one pula Tarzan Boy. Cun oh? =)) And back in the early 80's, don't know y most of the male singers do put make up including Human League (except for Duran Duran).  Show u another group - Human League. 

Ah...u see?  But this one...still consider okloh.  U should see another one.  "Shim (She + Him).....Boy George @ Culture Club.  Have a look =) 

See that?  Well, at those time "he" is consider as "pretty" not "handsome".  Actually "he" doesn't look nice without the make up as everyone get use to see "him" like this from the moment the group rise to stardom till to the mid 90's.  Then I think the group disband and "he" came out solo and use his name Boy George =)  I remember when I was a teenager, me and my 4 friends ever used this song in one of our performance.  Ai sei...as we all had the boy hair cuts and nampak macam lelaki at that time..we sings and we dance.....ai sei - most of the girls in the hall, shouted and screamed like wat ah!! Aiiii.....dunia terbalik!!

The 80's Chinese Songs...1/6/12 

Selamat Hari Gawai!!! =) Well, nothing much today.  Just intend to go jalan-jalan, visiting some friends and visit some old friends too =).  Alot to catch up oh..=)

Well, last few days - many things happened, but anyway, let me relate something that is more interesting to u. After searching up and down of the 80's songs, mostly English of course, intend to introduce u to some awesome chinese songs. Hard to search for it as I am the "Banana Man" type...so really need to use "han yi pin yin" to look for it =)

The 2nd song..hehehe...the first time I heard it was when a guy of my age (when I was still young, pretty and slim lah...ehem..ehem....hahaha)..sung it for me during a karaoke session.  And wah lao eh, he looks so serious and after the song, he came down from the stage and look gloomy.  Ai c loh..everyone on the table quiet down...no one utter a word.  How to handle leh? I went to the stage and grab the mic and sing another song.  Either it is a Cindy Lauper's song or  someone else, cant remember liao.  As don't know how to react...phew....... then the story went on and on and of course.  We are in our own path and own destiny and live but certainly neither of us do have any regrets about it.  At that time, too young and tooooo egoistic...so after so many incidents and so many misunderstand...neither one of us do much to amend it - and after all those situations on and off.....we practically give up - but remains as close fren.  He has one super cute wife + 2 adorable angels whereas I am happily with Mr Abang (which I regard looks like Arjun Rampal) and have my own 2 adorable (mischevious??emm??) angels too.  When we looked back in our lives..well all those stuff teach us to be more mature in handling our lives ya.  From that first encounter...I realize something - which I believe and hold on to it till now:

1) This is a free world.  Everyone has the rite to do whatever they likes (but of cos...it's legal...rite and ...................etc..)

2) As it is a free world, everyone has the rite to accept or reject someone.  

3) If u got rejected - hey don't feel so bad lah..life goes on. It is not the end of the world yet. U oso ever rejected people mah.  Plus there are so many flowers in the garden (or park??) and so many fish in the sea.  Cry or sad memanglah, but for a while ok liao lah.....(I know, I know..it is easy said that done lah ya....sorry..sorry)

4) If u rejected someone - well, don't feel so bad or sorry too....the cycle go on and on one..but one thing which we must remember - never ever make fun of that issue or humiliate that person in public and sing out loudly to everyone lah.  It is already pai seh or embarassing enuf for that person lah ya.

For me, life is about learning.  Every steps is a learning process.  So if we view it in that way, I guess, we will be able to live more happy and view it more positive.  Trust me, in every problem, there is a solution.  Listen to this one - is a Christian's song.  The title is "God Will Make A Way" by Don Moen (he sounds like one of my worship leader) =)

The one on top feature 2 songs (I meant from this video).  The 1st song is All Things and the 2nd is God Will Make A Way.  Nice voice and songs huh? =)  Oh ya, u must be wondering who is Arjun Rampal ya?  Hehehe...

Hehehe..perasan or not? Hahaha, Arjun Rampal is one of the famous Bollywood @ India actor.  Told u liao mah that I like Bollywood actors and actress more than those from other countries.  Try to watch Humko Tumse Pyaar Hai.  It's Arjun Rampal and Amisha Patel.  It is a love story and most people know that I hate love stories actually but as for Bollywood's movies, I can stuck in front of the tv screen for at least 3 hours ah.  Then try to watch Vaada.  Ah, this one is a thriller movie.  Same actor and actress but different genre of story. Interesting.  

Oh ya, back to Mr Abang = Arjun Rampal..well...that's just my opinionlah ya.  =))  Anyway, enjoy the songs, enjoy the nice adorable pictures on top...hahaha =)) 

The Giving Heart...31/5/12

Well, the title above was quoted from an article that I read from a site - it was written by someone whom I think its very inspiring and oso motivate me in a certain way...NL.  Told u guys before that ya, I always like to follow up on his news and his written article or publication as I salute and admire his works.  Hey, this NL still very very young oh and in such a young age he has already has such a big mind, such a giving heart and such an inspiring attitude.  

Let me quote something more from NL - 

"Everyone in the world desires to be appreciated by people around them.  At a certain point in life, you will or perhaps already have felt that you have worked very hard or gave up a lot for another person or a group of people.  It can be from work, family or friends.  Most unfortunately, you soon realize that not everyone seems to reciprocate (I always see this word but don't even understand it not till I google for the meaning...hehehe, pai seh, pai seh) or at least show appreciation for the things you have done for them....."

Very ko lien hor?  I guess everyone must have gone thru that situation before.  But by the end of the day, well, if that's really happen and we had try and done our best...well boh pien lah - like I said before, at least we had tried our best. That's the most important thing.  And by the end of the day, we can oso said that I had done it out from my heart...eventho undeniable if no one seems to appreciate it at least....we  are sincere towards others and ourselves lah ya.  

In life, ones must always look at the bright side and think positive.  If every day kek sim...very susah ah.  I used to be like that when I was young.  I can linger over an issue for weeks and months.  Aiyoyo...so cham oh.  Then gradually I realize that, at the moment we are upset over an issue...hey...the world is still spinning...the clock is still turning..and everything still goes on as usual.  So by the end..siapa susah?  Only ourselves nia loh.  

Like I always told my children..true, true, of cos we may be upset..we may cried and we may hover it for sometime...but "some time" enuf liao...not days to days...and then weeks to weeks or months to months.  Aiyoyo....tell yourself...u had done what you could...you had tried your best....and that's it.  Do something sincerely, do it with all your HEART.... =)

The 80's - The Bee Gees...30/5/12 

Initially intend to walk thru the memory land by starting from the early 80's till now.  But as I go thru the 80's songs..wow I realize that there are a looooooooooottt of nice songs during those era.  Hehehe..trust me ah, if your Mummies and Daddies are around the age of 50 or more, I am sure they will oso know most of the songs I uploaded here and I am sure they will agree with me when I said that the 80's indeed do have a lot of good singers and songs.

U see ah, during those time, mana ada things like computerizing or auto-tuning?  It's benar-benar nyanyi base on kebolehan vocal one.  Even singing live in a concert oso tak ada beza with the recording one in the studio.  Good leh?  Well, the singers during those times are not just becos of a mere good looking face, nice hot body (oophs...) and know a few steps to shake-shake on stage and in front of music video..then done liao.  During those times, not so much "shaking" tho..u can see from the video..hahaha..it's just standing at one place..then shake the legs or hands a bit.  But oh well, zaman berubah, cita rasa berubah..orang berubah =)

Anyway, back to the 80's...well as some videos are quite hard to search (want u to have a look at the original music video if can - not the one in concert), so finally manage to search for a few regarding the group Bee Gees.  Well, I don't actually like their songs lah..only one or two.  The group consist of 3 members.  Don't know the names..dont' asked me.  Just know that got Robin Gibb and Andy Gibb.  Oh..they are sibling actually. One or two of them already went home to see the Lord.  But one thing unique about this group...only they can sing like that.  I mean well...it's kinda sound like a high pitch soprano..tapi tak juga...abit girlish...but not really oso...but then for their kind of songs, their voice memang sesuai lah.  Well, include some videos about them (mostly are sama..just to show to u how the 80's singer can sing live just as good as their recording in studio).  Oh, the song Boys Do Fall In Love - it's among my favourite song from the 80's.  Enjoy ya =)  (Psstt..notice the hair style..hehehehe..except for the botak one lah)

The 80's...28/5/12 

Show you more of the 80's top hits.  Most of the hair styles are alike...the hair style for those times mah...hahahah..even the music sound quite alike...=))  Do you realize that the songs from this group Joy and the Silent Circle sound quite alike? Then this Howard Jones and Thompson Twins oso the same? Hehehe..now look at those videos make me laughed my head off nia lah.  But still, but I (if think the songs are good lah ya =))

Oh one more thing... (if you considers this as a spoiler lah...).. Diablo 4 will be out in the year 2024!  Aiyoyo..by then, I think I will be a very very lao ah ma playing RPG games with my angels and their friends liao lah.  Bring it on!! =)) Now Diablo 3 (Act III or Act IV??? abit confuse..) Level 39 - trying to kill of Diablo......aiiii...tough job ah...=(

Music...27/5/12 

Ohhh...alot of my children tot that I grow up by listening to the Beatles songs or the Shanghai Tang (the long pang..long lau..song..) hahaha.  No lah... kinda abit too old lah for me.  Undeniable the Beatles group indeed is a legend...its something that even to this 2012 generation oso knows about them.  Well, during those time the tv only got 2 channels nia lah.  So watever we get, we get from that two channels nia lah.  Then back to the era whereby when video and video cassette is popular....ah..that is then. my 1st time watching a thing like music video known as Jade Solid Gold (USA).  It's just like our modern day now MTV Video or the Music Hit channel in Astro lah.  Let me bring u down the memory land....showed u the songs that I like...(actually still like it till now lah...sentimental value mah). You will certainly laughed at the video - due to the way they made the video, the hair style...the clothes..hehehe...

Funny leh?? Hahaha, but I like the beat of the musics lah.  This is the kind of music everyone go nuts...this is the kind of hair style everyone wants to have and this is the kind of pakaian and oso the style..and practically just everything lah..everyone go crazy!! Hahahaha..but then I was quite young then...but well just like everyone else when I was a teenager I do have my own idol @ favourite singer (s) and so on.  Emmmm..before telling you who are my penyanyi kesukaan..show u more videos from the late 70s, 80s, 90s and till now (the one that I like lah)  Show u this group first the name is JOY (I think its from the early 80s - cant really remember tho but anyway....enjoy the songs ya..heheheh =)

Not Yet...Today and Tomoro...and After That...26/5/12 

Wow..check my site traffic..hahaha...alot oh..well. Not yetlah..these 2 days are quite bz..still has many things to do oh.  Well, give me today and tomoro, maybe in 3 days time - u revisit this site and see how lah ya.  U will certainly enjoy it... =) 

I Know From the Beginning Liao...24/5/12 

Today, extremely sleepy as last nite slept around 2.30 am due to Diablo 3.  Din actually play but watching Mr Abang plays.  Now the Wizard looks prettier liao.  Level 26 oledi.

Oh today, a lot of things going on.   But actually, some of the thing..I memang agak dah that it will be like this.  Just wan to see how it goes and see whether my prediction or forecast is true or not.  Well, as the plot thicken up, more people started to show up for the drama and show their true colors which actually I oso oledi know from the beginninglah.  

Anyway, that's the posting for maybe next time? =)  Now, should and can proceed with my own planning but before that I just wan to say THANK YOU to everyone again especially to Mummies and Daddies and all the children.  Thank you to all the friends .......foes...hahahaha.  And must plan something for these holidays...its a looooooooooooong holiday for me =)

7 Hours...20/ 5/12

Almost 7 hours with the children..if beh hiao...wa pun beh hiao liao lah.  Just go thru with them all the concepts and words...and tried to make sure that they understand it.  Aii...hopefully they can do well...or at least improve abit lah ya.

Didnt eat or drink anything for that few hours....huhuhu...after it was over..immediately grab 3 cups of Green Tea and something to eat.  Eat the lasagna given by VL.  Wow...taste so nice...thanks so much ya.  Never eat such a lasagna before..honestly.  The one I ate before (Pizza Hut..and another place - forgot the name)...were not that addictive.  This one..after one spoon of it...cant stop eating.  Thanks ya =) Wan to grab some sandwich later...hungry oh!!!

Need to "recharge" myself....so children...PLEASE..PLEASE...TRY YOUR BEST...

Another Tiring Day...19/5/12 

Another long tiring day...but at least..accomplished something.  Another day which I stuffed myself with many food.  Kuih, fried rice, fried kuih tiaw, KFC, chocolates, Cheezels, grill pork ribs (Howdy Grill House again..at Jalan Song, behind Ipoh Town Kopitiam), fruit at 101, pandan cake and so on.  Alot huh?  Well, at this moment...I need food lah.  After a long tiring day..and after what had happened, I need food.  Food makes me happy.

Oh ya, yesterday (or the day before yesterday???), I received something that is really adorable.  It's a Red Color Bean Bag...with a red tail and horn. Hahaha..so cute.  Really suit me lah ya =).  To OL, thanks so much ya.  It's really cool and adorable.  Hey, u have one also rite?  =) Also got a few boxes of chocolates (Ferrero Rocher)..just finished one box...and another box already half..and another big box...wrap up nicely.  Soon, will attack that box too =))  And every year (2 years in a row)...received one gift that I really really feel soooo pai seh to receive it.  I know its sincere..I know its from ur heart...but I really feel that I don't deserve it and really feel soooo pai seh to accept it.  To GT..thanks so much ya.  I know that for u, it's just a small token of appreciation..but for me, I really really do appreciate it from the bottom of my heart, and I really feel very pai seh lah ya, to trouble u and your Mummy for this.  Thanks sooo much.  

And, not forgetting there are three big cards...all are hand made by the children.  Sooo cute and meaningful....so thotful of u guys.  Thanks alot ya.  It really made my day.  I really really lovessssss it alot.  And whenever I read it...I feel glad, honor...well at this moment still "rain" now and then...but ur cards comfort me.  Once again, thanks ya =)

And to the rest..whatever it is..and whatever it may be...once again a big THANK from me to you.

Oh ya...anak emas drop by with his gang of friends.  Feel bad that couldnt invite them in as the house is extremely messy.  Very sorry ya.  Will make it up to u guys next time. Really miss all the stories and the chit chat that we shared.  All the best to all of u! =)

I Thot...18/5/12 

Normally, when other people bid goodbye..I always thot...wah...they should be very happy oh.  And I also thot that if I ever have that chance, I should be very glad and happy too!!!

But alas....when I have that chance...that moment......my thot...all my thots are wrong.  I thot that I will be very happy..I thot that I will be "siao sa"..walk out gracefully and happily from this place...but then how wrong am I?  Actually, it inflict more pain than joy.  Actually, there is no joy at all..nothing...emptiness and sad.  As for these past two days...altho I still go thru my daily tasks as usual...but whenever the children asked and talked about it....then it memang "rain" liao.  

I have been here for around 6 or 7 years...u see the children grow up...u spend most of  ur time with them...u know the whole family....u know many things about them..and now...this is the ending.  That's all????

I was quiet for the whole nite..actually till now.  When Mr Abang asked me, I just don't want to comment or say anything as I know sure "rain" later.  So, just keep quiet and bought many stuff to eat.  Rice + Fish, Starbuck sandwich, KFC, Cheezel...chocolates...Can sense that he knows I am upset...but I don't want him to feel upset seeing me like this.  

It's really ain't easy...really ain't easy.............=(  

To All My Anak - Do Well Ya...17/5/12

Heard alot of things these few days..but well, not for me and not my right to comment.  The only thing I want to say here is that...I care and love all of you equivalently.  Never ever come across my mind to differentiate my children either according to gender, standard or wat so ever.  For me, everyone is the same.  Of cos, its undeniable that sometimes, we may be closer to either one or two of them...but it never affect my mood or judgement in doing anything or making any decision.  For me, what ever things that happened to u guys....I hold it dearly to my heart.  So, for the next week - the 5 days of battle...please do your best.  Even tho it may just be a slight improvement ...I will be very happy already.  I believe that...for those in my field...everyone will agree that - what we want ...our biggest and ultimate accomplishment is ...to see u guys - our children to do well.  Thanks ya =)

Today, shed some tears.....(oophs...) in front of the Senior Champion Group, as I am not sure whether I will be able to see them again.  Ya..ya..I am a very emotional and sensitive person.  That's y my HBDI test color is RED.  I care alot about my relationship with others.  But unfortunately, some people perceived it as antisosial type.  I am not antisosial or anti gathering lah..do u want to know y I react in such way?